Bipolar Disorder ask a question/discussion thread

Yellowflowers

hello:) .. i know im way off with timing in relation to getting in on this discussion but i could really do with some advice? im 18 and well, im not sure if im bipolar or not?? my dad is and has been all my life; and its caused alot of hurt in the family. None of it his fault at all, he's the loveliest person ever, but theres never been any communication in my house at all. Frankly us four kids didnt even know he was bipolar? All we heard was shouting over taking pills, a da who slept all day and seemed forever distant and irritable etc etc. Well anyhoo, ive come to think that maybe i might just suffer from the same condition? ive told my mam that i have all the symptoms but she does as usual, stares past to the television and ignores. I have been really depressed at times in my life, i used to get into trouble alot at school for constantly arguing with teachers, id loose my temper in a big way at home, i binge drank myslef into unconsciousness at various times and felt out of control with drinkn for a good two years, friends would often describe my giddy moods as highs, ive been told i can sometimes talk ahead of myself when i get excited.. saying that if its not an obvious problem to everyone around me maybe its just me, my personalityl?? id really appreciate advice or opinions? should i go to a doctor? is there really any point when i dont need medication? .................. Please help.

nesf

Yellowflowers wrote: »

hello:) .. i know im way off with timing in relation to getting in on this discussion but i could really do with some advice? im 18 and well, im not sure if im bipolar or not?? my dad is and has been all my life; and its caused alot of hurt in the family. None of it his fault at all, he's the loveliest person ever, but theres never been any communication in my house at all. Frankly us four kids didnt even know he was bipolar? All we heard was shouting over taking pills, a da who slept all day and seemed forever distant and irritable etc etc. Well anyhoo, ive come to think that maybe i might just suffer from the same condition? ive told my mam that i have all the symptoms but she does as usual, stares past to the television and ignores. I have been really depressed at times in my life, i used to get into trouble alot at school for constantly arguing with teachers, id loose my temper in a big way at home, i binge drank myslef into unconsciousness at various times and felt out of control with drinkn for a good two years, friends would often describe my giddy moods as highs, ive been told i can sometimes talk ahead of myself when i get excited.. saying that if its not an obvious problem to everyone around me maybe its just me, my personalityl?? id really appreciate advice or opinions? should i go to a doctor? is there really any point when i dont need medication? .................. Please help.

I was in a similar position to you many years ago. Go to your GP and talk to a professional about it since this is obviously bothering you. There's more to treatment than just medication, even getting some kind of diagnosis and knowing where to start educating yourself about the illness can do wonders for your mental health.

nesf

So diagnosis changing again. May be borderline personality disorder (with possible co-morbid depression) not schizoaffective. Hurrah! The outcomes and prognosis for BPD are much nicer than the prognosis for schizoaffective in many ways. It also fits in with my family history much better and explains the mood swings in my past quite well.

Nothing definite yet, probably won't get a proper diagnosis until I'm in a stable condition but hey progress is progress.

Yellowflowers

Yellowflowers wrote: »

hello:) .. i know im way off with timing in relation to getting in on this discussion but i could really do with some advice? im 18 and well, im not sure if im bipolar or not?? my dad is and has been all my life; and its caused alot of hurt in the family. None of it his fault at all, he's the loveliest person ever, but theres never been any communication in my house at all. Frankly us four kids didnt even know he was bipolar? All we heard was shouting over taking pills, a da who slept all day and seemed forever distant and irritable etc etc. Well anyhoo, ive come to think that maybe i might just suffer from the same condition? ive told my mam that i have all the symptoms but she does as usual, stares past to the television and ignores. I have been really depressed at times in my life, i used to get into trouble alot at school for constantly arguing with teachers, id loose my temper in a big way at home, i binge drank myslef into unconsciousness at various times and felt out of control with drinkn for a good two years, friends would often describe my giddy moods as highs, ive been told i can sometimes talk ahead of myself when i get excited.. saying that if its not an obvious problem to everyone around me maybe its just me, my personalityl?? id really appreciate advice or opinions? should i go to a doctor? is there really any point when i dont need medication? .................. Please help.

Have a look at http://www.mind.org.uk/ & http://www.shineonline.ie/ they have helped me a lot, seek professional help if only to confirm your ok:)

Yellowflowers

Thanks for your help

herosa

Does anyone with Bp have a very changeable relationship with alcohol?I had a great summer but stopped my meds due to a cut in working hours and struggling with money.Four weeks after stopping my Lamictal I had a horrific night on alcohol and have nearly ruined my life.For months beforehand I never had a problem. I think it was due to me stopping my meds and possibly the shift of season from summer to Autumn. Does anyone else veer between normal socialising with alcohol and near psychotic like behaviour? What do you think causes the diffference?Im back on meds now and Im not coming off them again.The fall out has been terrible though.Half the people in my life are not speaking to me. I was not very well behaved.I think it was dysphoric hypomania plus alcohol but Im not really sure. I could feel myself becoming agitated for a few days before it happened. I shouldnt have been anywhere near alcohol feeling like that but my judgement was screwed.I really wanted to drink to quieten my mind but boy Have I paid for it.

blue5000

herosa wrote: »

Does anyone with Bp have a very changeable relationship with alcohol?I had a great summer but stopped my meds due to a cut in working hours and struggling with money.Four weeks after stopping my Lamictal I had a horrific night on alcohol and have nearly ruined my life.For months beforehand I never had a problem. I think it was due to me stopping my meds and possibly the shift of season from summer to Autumn. Does anyone else veer between normal socialising with alcohol and near psychotic like behaviour? What do you think causes the diffference?Im back on meds now and Im not coming off them again.The fall out has been terrible though.Half the people in my life are not speaking to me. I was not very well behaved.I think it was dysphoric hypomania plus alcohol but Im not really sure. I could feel myself becoming agitated for a few days before it happened. I shouldnt have been anywhere near alcohol feeling like that but my judgement was screwed.I really wanted to drink to quieten my mind but boy Have I paid for it.

To be honest you're better off without the alcohol.
It is a depressant,
your liver is already flat out producing enough enzymes to process the meds (probably).
Depending on what meds you are on you will either have no resistance to alcohol or be able to drink everyone around you under the table.

sandra06

herosa wrote: »

Does anyone with Bp have a very changeable relationship with alcohol?I had a great summer but stopped my meds due to a cut in working hours and struggling with money.Four weeks after stopping my Lamictal I had a horrific night on alcohol and have nearly ruined my life.For months beforehand I never had a problem. I think it was due to me stopping my meds and possibly the shift of season from summer to Autumn. Does anyone else veer between normal socialising with alcohol and near psychotic like behaviour? What do you think causes the diffference?Im back on meds now and Im not coming off them again.The fall out has been terrible though.Half the people in my life are not speaking to me. I was not very well behaved.I think it was dysphoric hypomania plus alcohol but Im not really sure. I could feel myself becoming agitated for a few days before it happened. I shouldnt have been anywhere near alcohol feeling like that but my judgement was screwed.I really wanted to drink to quieten my mind but boy Have I paid for it.

hi first off if your under a doctor who gave you these tablets you are not meant to pay for then ,just stopping your meds is a really bad idea,you have to be brough down off them so your boby gets used to not having them,if your friends are true friends they should know that what you do and say when your off your meds is not the real you ,just say sorry and if thats not enough for them cut them lose ,we all allowed a few hiccups in life that was one of yours,good on you for going back on meds ,i not 100% sure but i believe if you have any type of mental disorder and you still work you are still entitled to a medical card to pay for visits and your tablets ,like if you get preg in ireland all your medical treatment is free here ,was for me .good luck

sam34

sandra06 wrote: »

hi first off if your under a doctor who gave you these tablets you are not meant to pay for then ,just stopping your meds is a really bad idea,you have to be brough down off them so your boby gets used to not having them,if your friends are true friends they should know that what you do and say when your off your meds is not the real you ,just say sorry and if thats not enough for them cut them lose ,we all allowed a few hiccups in life that was one of yours,good on you for going back on meds ,i not 100% sure but i believe if you have any type of mental disorder and you still work you are still entitled to a medical card to pay for visits and your tablets ,like if you get preg in ireland all your medical treatment is free here ,was for me .good luck

that information about paying for tablets is incorrect.

herosa

Yeah I got the impression you had to be under 16 to get free mental health tabs (otherwise you are means tested)http://www.hse.ie/eng/services/Find_a_Service/entitlements/Long_Term_Illness/...however Im no expert and if anyone knows differently Im interested.

Thanks for the medical advice too. Food for thought.

sandra06

sam34 wrote: »

that information about paying for tablets is incorrect.

hi sam you may be right some counties in ireland there free ,kildare is ,but i was talking to a friend earlier who lived in meath and had bi polar and he paid for his tablets fair comment

sam34

sandra06 wrote: »

hi sam you may be right some counties in ireland there free ,kildare is ,but i was talking to a friend earlier who lived in meath and had bi polar and he paid for his tablets fair comment

the free tablets only ever applied to some of the old eastern health board area, not the rest of the country. and afaik they are stopping that scheme soon.

plus it's not true that you are automatically entitled to a medical card if yyou have a mental disorder and are working, the standard criteria will still apply

herosa

I think this is a good(if short)little article explaining why some bps have such an on/off relationship with alcohol and dont meet the criteria for either alcoholic or normal social drinker.I always knew I was neither.(Actually the article isnt that great but its rare to find one like it and I have been searching for yonks.http://www.elementsbehavioralhealth.com/alcoholism/hypomania-and-alcohol-use/

whatthefcuk

hi, i know im kind of cutting in here but it seemed like a good place to ask my question.

im 19 and have been recently going to see a physchiatrist (i think thats the one theres so many variations of psych out there) after a fair few years of f*cked up stuff, looking back which i thought was normal.

transended into two suicide attempts last year. its a very long story, i dont want to bore you guys its just that well, flat out, i feel COMPLETELY on my own. all of my friends, who are lovely and supportive, are all so normal! i know i know nobodys normal but you know what i mean? ive had two appointments with psych ladies, the first asked me did i know what bipolar was i said yes of course and that i display a lot of those types of behaviours and then the seconde lady (read from same file, same place etc) said i seem to have "emotionally unstable personality disorder" which i got upset about, mostly about the title of the yoke, what an awful one then i got home a researched it id heard of it before "borderline personality disorder" read the credentials or whatever you call it and reminds me a lot of myself. im devastated of course but its not an actual diagnosis. i know there is something wrong with me, (she also said i probably have depression on top of that) but i just was wondering really is there anybody here like my age, going through the same thing, know anybody, etc etc.??

I just feel so alone, awful, distressed and to be honest my parents arent that much of a help, basically kind of think "ah jaysus here everybody has down days pull yoru socks up" and my stepmam is severely ill so it looks like you know, im coming in with a cut on my knee to someone with a disease you know?? im stressing them out i hate it and i cant be putting this on them. i love them and i know they love me unconditionally but the support i need is something im not sure they were brought up knowing how to do you know? it upsets me but i accept that even though it makes this much harder.

the worst part is, all this ****e....makes me somebody I JUST DONT WANT TO BE. and i dont have a choice, i lumped with all this, makes me so fuukin angry.

i really need another outlet to talk to someone about this, i know it would help a lot. im a girl btw! haha, and i live in dublin.

just, any help at all guys, im struggling here as much as i hate to admit it

thanks x

nesf

whatthe**** have a look at Grow, Aware and similar groups in this country for support. Call the Samaritans if you need to talk to someone about being emotionally wrecked and/or if you're feeling suicidal.

There are groups and helplines out there where you can talk about what's up. There's also a thread on Borderline in this forum that might be worth having a read of and joining.

herosa

I wont go into the medical side of your problems.You may have heard that when people are given bad news such as yours they can go through various stages in their minds ie shock-denial-bargaining-anger-depression-acceptance. Its something you might want to read more about.
Also there is a little shop on Lower Abbey St called Veritas. It looks like a religious shop from the outside but they have a few books/leaflets about dealing with the impact of an incurable longterm illness. As well as getting help for the condition itself you could consider getting therapy for the issues you mention eg feeling alone with it when your friends are well and dont understand,getting diagnosed with an illness so young,how to talk to family members,friends,college,employers etc. It is tempting to focus on your diagnosis but illness happens to people who dont live in a bubble. Depending on your illness you may have to modify or adjust some of your dreams(or maybe not-its highly variable) and you would have to mourn those.
Think of it like railway tracks.Track one is the illness itself which you have to deal with eg symptoms,meds etc. Track two running parallel to it is the emotional fallout that comes with having to live with the realisation that it isnt going to go away and is making you into someone you dont want to be. I think if you ignore track 2 or decide to handle it by yourself you could become seriously lost and depressed very quickly. The docs tend not to concentrate on this a lot so you may have to be proactive in getting help yourself which isnt the easiest thing to do when you are shocked and possibly depressed.
You could also google living with a long term ilness and see what you find or what books are out there. A lot of those books tend to give examples of physical illness but dont let that put you off. The process of acceptance and the principles are the same.

Ps I have just thought of something else. There is a psychology forum on the boards. Why dont you ask the people over there what type of counselling you should look for.Maybe if you are clear about what you want help with they might be able to tell you what type of therapy works best for it.

Rosiestar

Now things have really come to a head after months upon months of depression I have started to come alive again but not necessarily in a good way, when I do leave the house after a night of about 2 hours on average sleep, I'm up, in the car, on my way to the shop, credit card in hand and spending, spending, spending. Upon leaving the various shops laden down with bags, I will then go to an off-license (I never drink at home - until these episode) and buy either a couple of bottle of wine or a bottle of Southern Comfort and just dig into when I get home, I have no idea why only just to take that edge of the extreme energy for which I have no outlet, and the palpitations for which I have been prescribed Lyrica, so yes, I am now drinking on top of Lyrica and sometime Xanax, my partner knows some of this, some of the spending, not the extent, I have my own account and credit card, its nearly christmas and I'm running out of wardrobe space, no, scrap that, I've already run out, I have spent a few thousand in this last couple of months on credit card, and I'm on disabilty, I don't know whats going to happen...

nesf

Rosiestar wrote: »

Now things have really come to a head after months upon months of depression I have started to come alive again but not necessarily in a good way, when I do leave the house after a night of about 2 hours on average sleep, I'm up, in the car, on my way to the shop, credit card in hand and spending, spending, spending. Upon leaving the various shops laden down with bags, I will then go to an off-license (I never drink at home - until these episode) and buy either a couple of bottle of wine or a bottle of Southern Comfort and just dig into when I get home, I have no idea why only just to take that edge of the extreme energy for which I have no outlet, and the palpitations for which I have been prescribed Lyrica, so yes, I am now drinking on top of Lyrica and sometime Xanax, my partner knows some of this, some of the spending, not the extent, I have my own account and credit card, its nearly christmas and I'm running out of wardrobe space, no, scrap that, I've already run out, I have spent a few thousand in this last couple of months on credit card, and I'm on disabilty, I don't know whats going to happen...

Talk to your GP/Psychiatrist about it and your options. One is medication at home, another is going into hospital for a while to get some sleep and to get stabilised. There are options here, you are not in a hopeless position.

neelyohara

sam34 wrote: »

the free tablets only ever applied to some of the old eastern health board area, not the rest of the country. and afaik they are stopping that scheme soon.

plus it's not true that you are automatically entitled to a medical card if yyou have a mental disorder and are working, the standard criteria will still apply

Howdy - Just to say that until some months ago I received free psychiatric medication. I'm in Wicklow. No idea why it was free... but I never questioned it! Whatever scheme they were running has now ended

It is somewhat worrying.

When I went collect my meds (the first time I'd to pay) I didn't have the €120. I ended up having to borrow from my mother who is on the old age pension. I wasn't making ends meet before and suddenly finding that I need to make another €120 appear from an overstretched budget is a big problem.

My psychiatrist has discussed discharging (after 14 years) back to the care of my GP. I don't mind - I've an excellent GP who has taken care of me since I was a baby... the problem is that if I go back to the care of my GP I need to factor in the costs of the appointments.

I've always had an issue with it but now that I'm 100% stuck I really am furious that mental illness isn't covered by the long term illness scheme.

And it isn't even a case where I can stretch out a couple of days without taking meds to make it to the next pay day... if I don't take them I can't function. I can't get out of bed in the morning let alone do a days work and drive.

And yes, I'm having a little moan at my own predicament but there are many people a lot worse off than me who may not be able to pay OR have anyone that they can turn to and ask for a dig out.

Does anyone think we will ever see a day where mental illness (all or any) will be considered a long term illness and treated with the seriousness it deserves? Is there anything we can do?

(Oh and of course this months bill will be what? €135?)

nesf

neelyohara wrote: »

Howdy - Just to say that until some months ago I received free psychiatric medication. I'm in Wicklow. No idea why it was free... but I never questioned it! Whatever scheme they were running has now ended

It is somewhat worrying.

When I went collect my meds (the first time I'd to pay) I didn't have the €120. I ended up having to borrow from my mother who is on the old age pension. I wasn't making ends meet before and suddenly finding that I need to make another €120 appear from an overstretched budget is a big problem.

My psychiatrist has discussed discharging (after 14 years) back to the care of my GP. I don't mind - I've an excellent GP who has taken care of me since I was a baby... the problem is that if I go back to the care of my GP I need to factor in the costs of the appointments.

I've always had an issue with it but now that I'm 100% stuck I really am furious that mental illness isn't covered by the long term illness scheme.

And it isn't even a case where I can stretch out a couple of days without taking meds to make it to the next pay day... if I don't take them I can't function. I can't get out of bed in the morning let alone do a days work and drive.

And yes, I'm having a little moan at my own predicament but there are many people a lot worse off than me who may not be able to pay OR have anyone that they can turn to and ask for a dig out.

Does anyone think we will ever see a day where mental illness (all or any) will be considered a long term illness and treated with the seriousness it deserves? Is there anything we can do?

(Oh and of course this months bill will be what? €135?)

Apply for a medical card, if you don't meet the requirements there's a chance (not a big one) that you might get one on hardship grounds. No harm in applying anyway.

Rosiestar

nesf wrote: »

Talk to your GP/Psychiatrist about it and your options. One is medication at home, another is going into hospital for a while to get some sleep and to get stabilised. There are options here, you are not in a hopeless position.

thanks so much nesf and yes, nesf, hospital was a clear option for my psych, well after a whirlwind day, I've doubled my Geodon, had my credit card cut up and all alcohol taken out of the house (that part didn't really bother me 'til now!)! My Lyrica has been doubled which I'm sure will have an effect on calming me down but given that I'm writing this at ten to five in the morning I'm not so sure, I was in a shopping centre today before my psych appointment and spent money which I shouldn't have done, right before Christmas, it will never end I feel, maybe the medication will help, maybe not, who knows....at the end of the day, if this is the worst I can do, compared to what I have done in the past, well............

nesf

Rosiestar wrote: »

thanks so much nesf and yes, nesf, hospital was a clear option for my psych, well after a whirlwind day, I've doubled my Geodon, had my credit card cut up and all alcohol taken out of the house (that part didn't really bother me 'til now!)! My Lyrica has been doubled which I'm sure will have an effect on calming me down but given that I'm writing this at ten to five in the morning I'm not so sure, I was in a shopping centre today before my psych appointment and spent money which I shouldn't have done, right before Christmas, it will never end I feel, maybe the medication will help, maybe not, who knows....at the end of the day, if this is the worst I can do, compared to what I have done in the past, well............

I've seen people far, far more agitated than you (as in wouldn't be able to sit down long enough to type a reply) be brought down by meds, so don't lose hope.

nesf

Hmmm, since I'm so high again I might reawaken this thread.

I've been pacing continuously for 4 hours singing to myself, feeling happier than I've ever been, sedatives are having no effect on me, looks like no sleep for me. Had two depressed phases, an unpleasant high and a milder pleasant high already today so a real mixed bag at the moment.

The comedown is going to be *nasty*.

pejay

nesf wrote: »

Hmmm, since I'm so high again I might reawaken this thread.

I've been pacing continuously for 4 hours singing to myself, feeling happier than I've ever been, sedatives are having no effect on me, looks like no sleep for me. Had two depressed phases, an unpleasant high and a milder pleasant high already today so a real mixed bag at the moment.

The comedown is going to be *nasty*.

Hi nesf i find your postings really helpful both here and in the anxious depressed forum as you know from previous posts i have done that i too have been recently diagnosed bipolar and am still finding it hard to figure out
Just wanted to know if you get the anxiety with bipolar i know you get the highs and lows as do i but i just find my anxiety high all the time but if i am feeling low then it really manifests into full blown panick.

Dont know whats wrong with me the last couple of days last week i thought i had myself stable after phys introduced lycria along with the serequel and valium and i thought there was light at the end of the tunnel.
This week i am back to not talking much to anyone only if i really need to lying on the couch with duvet and dreading if i have to do something or someone calls to my house my anxiety is through the roof.

I still think my doc does not have me on enough valium i got down from using 6mg per day to 2mg p er day although when the anxietiety is high i find it takes 3mg to numb it a bit not looking for advice on the valium now by all means just tring to understand the bipolar a bit more and also what meds you may be taking to help you with the bipolar and anxiety thanks

nesf

pejay wrote: »

Hi nesf i find your postings really helpful both here and in the anxious depressed forum as you know from previous posts i have done that i too have been recently diagnosed bipolar and am still finding it hard to figure out
Just wanted to know if you get the anxiety with bipolar i know you get the highs and lows as do i but i just find my anxiety high all the time but if i am feeling low then it really manifests into full blown panick.

Dont know whats wrong with me the last couple of days last week i thought i had myself stable after phys introduced lycria along with the serequel and valium and i thought there was light at the end of the tunnel.
This week i am back to not talking much to anyone only if i really need to lying on the couch with duvet and dreading if i have to do something or someone calls to my house my anxiety is through the roof.

I still think my doc does not have me on enough valium i got down from using 6mg per day to 2mg p er day although when the anxietiety is high i find it takes 3mg to numb it a bit not looking for advice on the valium now by all means just tring to understand the bipolar a bit more and also what meds you may be taking to help you with the bipolar and anxiety thanks

Anxiety isn't a huge component to my bipolar. I get quite anxious a lot of the time but I haven't had a full blown panic attack since I went on mood stabilisers. Bipolar can unfortunately take a long time to figure out from a medication point of view (my drugs are still being adjusted 10 years on), so the only thing to do is to stick with the programme and work it out as best you can.

Now specifically for anxiety, drugs are not the only answer. Speaking solely from personal experience, seriously talk about CBT and similar therapies with your care team. You might be able to get something from them to take the edge off of it. Obviously discuss this with your psychiatrist but here are some self-help tools that you may or may not find useful:

Overcoming Anxiety (NHS recommended, my psychologist is sceptical about this book though, so take with a grain of salt)

MoodGym, free online CBT course (Australian based university programme)

Now neither of these are a substitute for a trained therapist doing CBT with you! But they might help a little bit while you're waiting to get a therapist.

pejay

nesf wrote: »

Anxiety isn't a huge component to my bipolar. I get quite anxious a lot of the time but I haven't had a full blown panic attack since I went on mood stabilisers. Bipolar can unfortunately take a long time to figure out from a medication point of view (my drugs are still being adjusted 10 years on), so the only thing to do is to stick with the programme and work it out as best you can.

Now specifically for anxiety, drugs are not the only answer. Speaking solely from personal experience, seriously talk about CBT and similar therapies with your care team. You might be able to get something from them to take the edge off of it. Obviously discuss this with your psychiatrist but here are some self-help tools that you may or may not find useful:

Overcoming Anxiety (NHS recommended, my psychologist is sceptical about this book though, so take with a grain of salt)

MoodGym, free online CBT course (Australian based university programme)

Now neither of these are a substitute for a trained therapist doing CBT with you! But they might help a little bit while you're waiting to get a therapist.

Yeah waiting on CBT at the moment waiting list is 8 months so i am hoping that helps although i would like to get a grip on the anxiety as i dont feel i would be able to sit doing the CBT while i am like this i dread everything just lately i have appointment on friday for something different and i am already worked up about it.

I am just wondering is it because i am low in mood this week thats why my anxiety is high thanks for you reply

nesf

pejay wrote: »

Yeah waiting on CBT at the moment waiting list is 8 months so i am hoping that helps although i would like to get a grip on the anxiety as i dont feel i would be able to sit doing the CBT while i am like this i dread everything just lately i have appointment on friday for something different and i am already worked up about it.

I am just wondering is it because i am low in mood this week thats why my anxiety is high thanks for you reply

My anxiety is always highest when I'm low in some form or another. Your mileage may vary of course.

Just found this thread! I was diagnosed bipolar in 2006 when i ended up spending several weeks in St. Pats in Dublin.
Meds are a massive challenge and I have been on just about everything in the last 15 years but luckily I have been stable for a couple of years now. Well at least I don't get extremes of depression and mania, more like occasional rapid cycling which never gets OTT.
A really useful online resource for tracking meds, mood swings and lots more is a website called patientslikeme. Excellent for looking up medication reviews by similar people.
I shouldn't say it but I really like the mania as long as it does not go on too long, then it can be exhausting and really hard to live and work with. With every bout of mania there comes the deep dark opposite unfortunately!
I could go on for ages but don't want to make this post too long. My biggest issue with all this is not having anyone to talk to that actually understands what i am feeling!

nesf

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My biggest issue with all this is not having anyone to talk to that actually understands what i am feeling!

Yup.

nesf

Have had 2 hours sleep in the last 48. No longer feel high but everyone around me tells me that I still am. Thursday can't come soon enough!