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nesf · 01-07-2012 9:19pm

Some mood music to go along with how I feel:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2KcsUAp8EDo

nesf · 02-07-2012 7:22am

Life is so boring when you are in a depressive phase and wake at 5am with nothing to do.

Gremlinertia · 02-07-2012 9:53am

@nesf, that's when i finally fell asleep, had left tv and internet alone hours previously, chillout music on, lights off, but the million hula hoops in my head would not stop spinning about.

Slightly OT but do you listen to any Elgar?

nesf · 02-07-2012 11:44am

Yeah, I enjoy Elgar.

Seren_ · 02-07-2012 8:55pm

nesf wrote: »

Life is so boring when you are in a depressive phase and wake at 5am with nothing to do.

When I was feeling really low I used to watch tv shows to have something to distract me. Maybe you could pick up a boxset of something and have it there to watch when you need something to do? Check out the recommendations sticky in the TV forum and see what looks interesting

nesf · 02-07-2012 9:26pm

Your Text Here wrote: »

When I was feeling really low I used to watch tv shows to have something to distract me. Maybe you could pick up a boxset of something and have it there to watch when you need something to do? Check out the recommendations sticky in the TV forum and see what looks interesting

Usually don't have the concentration/am too agitated to sit down that long.

In an unpleasant high now. It feels like there are things crawling under my skin with the amount of nervous energy.

Seren_ · 02-07-2012 11:07pm

Oh sorry, I should have thought that through before I posted

Hope things take a turn for the better soon nesf.

nesf · 03-07-2012 12:41am

Your Text Here wrote: »

Oh sorry, I should have thought that through before I posted Hope things take a turn for the better soon nesf.

No worries, everyone's experiences of highs and lows are different, what works for one of us is a no-goer for the next person.

nesf · 03-07-2012 7:36pm

I spent today in an awful funk. Sick, sleeping all the time, mood depressed. Now mood is picking up past "normal" and music is starting to sound wonderful again. Around and around we go on this merry-go-round...

flyswatter · 03-07-2012 7:57pm

What meds are you on nesf?

I know a bipolar woman. She doesn't suffer really from lows, just highs and she has to control them.

nesf · 03-07-2012 8:29pm

flyswatter wrote: »

What meds are you on nesf?

I know a bipolar woman. She doesn't suffer really from lows, just highs and she has to control them.

Trileptal, Abilify, Zopiclone, Rivatril.

Gremlinertia · 03-07-2012 10:05pm

Effin argh, after trying to keep calm all day now i'm very agitated and have to try sleep. I'm trying to do what i'm told but it just won't happen of course i have serious **** to do in the morning. (sorry for the rant)

Grem

irishbipolar · 03-07-2012 11:22pm

At the start of the year I was doing well - so well I thought I had cracked it! Stupid me. The last 2 months I have started to struggle again. Lots of ruminating.

Not suppose to see my doctor till August. Feeling so bad, I met him yesterday. Not looking too good. Pumped my seroquel back up to its highest level. Appointment to see him again in 3 weeks. If that doesn't work, on to another new med and another hospital stay. Great.

Its a tough business.

nesf · 03-07-2012 11:34pm

irishbipolar wrote: »

At the start of the year I was doing well - so well I thought I had cracked it! Stupid me. The last 2 months I have started to struggle again. Lots of ruminating.

Not suppose to see my doctor till August. Feeling so bad, I met him yesterday. Not looking too good. Pumped my seroquel back up to its highest level. Appointment to see him again in 3 weeks. If that doesn't work, on to another new med and another hospital stay. Great.

Its a tough business.

Yeah, I missed a call today, I've got to ring and make another appointment with my doctor very soon for review of me and my meds. Hoping to avoid hospital if at all possible at the moment. Not that hospital is bad, it's just that I'd like to beat this episode at home if possible, it'd be a great confidence boost.

03-07-2012 11:44pm

How long has this episode been going on and how long have your episodes normally lasted. Mine can be anything from a few weeks to a few months. Currently rapid cycling but not too extreme so trying to ride it out. Family don't know what's going on as I could spend half the day in bed or walking the dog like crazy in the park at 3am. Something as simple as a song i hear can cause me to jump from a high to suddenly crashing into feeling everything is a disaster and hopelessness.

nesf · 03-07-2012 11:54pm

Deleted User wrote: »

How long has this episode been going on and how long have your episodes normally lasted. Mine can be anything from a few weeks to a few months. Currently rapid cycling but not too extreme so trying to ride it out. Family don't know what's going on as I could spend half the day in bed or walking the dog like crazy in the park at 3am. Something as simple as a song i hear can cause me to jump from a high to suddenly crashing into feeling everything is a disaster and hopelessness.

The mixed state? About 3 weeks, maybe 4. Before that was a short depression, before that a month long hypomania, before that a month long depression, before that a hypomania before that a longer depression and so on.

My last episode like this was not medicated and lasted about 9 months. I've no idea what to expect this time around.

nesf · 04-07-2012 6:13am

15mg Zopiclone = 2 hours sleep.

pejay · 04-07-2012 6:14pm

hi all how is everyone have not been on in a while just out from the phys hospital after a week in there got my meds changed and feeling good at the moment hope everyone is doing ok

nesf · 04-07-2012 7:15pm

pejay wrote: »

hi all how is everyone have not been on in a while just out from the phys hospital after a week in there got my meds changed and feeling good at the moment hope everyone is doing ok

Sick physically. Running a fever of 39.4 at the moment.

I'm glad to hear your med change went smoothly.

nesf · 04-07-2012 9:41pm

This fever is pushing my mood ever higher. I'm starting to feel like I'm losing control.

nesf · 05-07-2012 1:33pm

The fever has passed, I'm wrecked after it but I'm feeling much better mood wise today. Hopefully the episode is ending.

Gremlinertia · 06-07-2012 11:33am

@Nesf Glad to hear the physical illness is mending, it's not easy to bear when one's head feels such a mess..

nesf · 06-07-2012 3:09pm

So low right now.

degausserxo · 06-07-2012 10:19pm

Feel a high coming on. Can't sit still, feel like I could run a marathon right now. Chatting the ears off my sister and her friends, feel like I have to use up all of my words. Mind won't stop. Don't feel right, just want this to end.

nesf · 06-07-2012 10:23pm

degausserxo wrote: »

Feel a high coming on. Can't sit still, feel like I could run a marathon right now. Chatting the ears off my sister and her friends, feel like I have to use up all of my words. Mind won't stop. Don't feel right, just want this to end.

I'm sorry to hear that.

Ring your doctor.

degausserxo · 06-07-2012 10:28pm

nesf wrote: »

degausserxo wrote: »

Feel a high coming on. Can't sit still, feel like I could run a marathon right now. Chatting the ears off my sister and her friends, feel like I have to use up all of my words. Mind won't stop. Don't feel right, just want this to end.

I'm sorry to hear that.

Ring your doctor.

Thanks nesf. I'm on zyprexa atm, but I gained a lot of weight. Was at the psych clinic two weeks ago and the doctor told me to stop taking it regularly (was on 10mg x 2 daily) and only use it as needed. Haven't taken it in over a week so I think it might be related to that. Seeing the psych nurse for a coffee on Saturday so I'll mention it then.

07-07-2012 12:18pm

Sudden cessation of any psychiatric drug is a really bad idea and can have very serious side effects. A gradual reduction and withdrawal is the only way to go.

nesf · 07-07-2012 6:32pm

I'm having a very unstable day. Thankfully the Rivotril is keeping me on a mostly even keel.

nesf · 08-07-2012 10:30pm

I've been pretty damn low the past three days.

09-07-2012 10:05am

Which do you find easier to deal with, lows or highs? I always find the highs are scary and never know what will happen so the lows tend to be more predictable and easier to deal with. Prefer not to have either though but that's not going to happen!

nesf · 09-07-2012 12:27pm

The lows are way easier to deal with. At least compared to mixed epsiodes anyway. With lows I can trudge miserably through life thinking I should die, with the mixed epsiodes plans to speed along that process keep popping into my head etc.

Totalelf · 20-08-2012 3:19am

Bit high today, talking at 90 mph, can't sleep now, listening to Mika, probably not the best to listen to, but at least it gives my restless legs something to tap about.

L.Jenkins · 21-08-2012 11:06am

Thought I'd post today. My mood hit an all time low last night. Couldn't stop crying for a solid hour. My girlfriend was home in Sligo, thank feck for Skype. I'm not on medication at the moment, but it's looking likely with a re diagnosis as I'm finding it tough right now.

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