Anxiety and depression thread (Please read OP)

Wanderer78

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/121632435#Comment_121632435

ive always been a bit wary of betterhelp, but its well advertised, and from good sources to, id have to try it to see for myself....

apache

Off drugs this time around for 21 days until tonight where I had a bad slip. Sometimes I think I can do this but I can't. I'm obviously not strong enough. Been up all night. My head does be in a bad place and I know I'm destroying everything. Psychiatrist explained to me that meds won't work if I keep on using. I know this but the compulsion is very strong.

I have a counseller and recovery day programme. They are not ideal but they are some bit of support. I just need extra support. I spend my time stressing about the past and worrying about the future and not experiencing the present. I am waiting on an assessment for a treatment centre. I'm worried about that too. Lots of worries.

It's a long night and it helps to write this down. I just wish I could relax. I'm uptight all the time.

Gremlinertia

Sorry to hear you are struggling, being "present" is a big issue for me too. Always ruminating and catastropising

SuperBowserWorld

Feeling really anxious. Have a health check on Friday that's worrying me and that's just on top of everything else.

Dazler97

I'm finally getting admitted into pats hospital in Dublin after they refused me first, took alot of fighting to get it, they tried to say that hospital is for dubliners only and I think that's so wrong, I hope I get the help i need, my gp was so helpful since I was under no mental health team she said to come up to her everyday evening to link in with her , hope everyone else on this is alright

Wanderer78

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/121671621#Comment_121671621

look after yourself and best of luck

Dazler97

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/121671711#Comment_121671711

Thank you 😊

SuperBowserWorld

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/121671621#Comment_121671621

Best of luck. Hope it helps you.

Robert Nairac

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/121610365#Comment_121610365

I have read it. I am desperate to try anything at this point after medication and therapy has not worked. I would be more than willing to take the risk of using ketamine.

I spoke to my doctor about it and they seemed to think it was a long shot that anyone would be recommended for ketamine treatment.

Can you ask your GP to refer you to a psychiatrist and to see if they think ketamine treatment would be appropriate? Would that be the logical next step? I contacted St Pats a month ago and got no response as per usual.

SuperBowserWorld

Feeling really bad. Have lots of problems, but there is one problem that is breaking my heart and making it very difficult to plan, make changes or see any kind of happy future ahead.

Dazler97

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/121690862#Comment_121690862

I hope you get to the bottom of it , I myself am in pats hospital trying to sort out my life and all so head up (I know it's easier said than done) your not alone though

SuperBowserWorld

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/121697833#Comment_121697833

Thank you.

SuperBowserWorld

Feeling awful today. Burned out, exhausted and anxious. Have a cold/flu on top of that. Too much.

Gremlinertia

Got a similar dose there just on the way into work.. Not shaking it very well..

RabbleRouser2k

There's a been a few nasty bugs going around. My mom and brother started the year off with that cold, or RSV thing that was going around. It can take weeks to clear up, and it's not helped by the weather. Someone else I know was bedridden with it for weeks, only now starting to slowly get back to normal.

Just be careful of your health folks, and don't feel bad letting folks know that you don't have your regular energy because of a virus.

Gremlinertia

Out of the blue absolute lightning strike of depression, existence questioning desperation. Did nothing different or out of my comfort zone recently, wtf brain?

Dazler97

Out of St pats for the weekend and I don't feel right I'll have to tell them when I go back in on Monday

Gremlinertia

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/121751746#Comment_121751746

Sorry to hear that and yes absolutely tell them and/or go back early if that's a better option..

SuperBowserWorld

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/121750832#Comment_121750832

Lots of things trigger anxiety and then depressing thoughts ... cold, hunger, tiredness, illness, loneliness, anger, bills, ...never mind all the other more complex stuff going on.

Dazler97

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/121752019#Comment_121752019

Yes I will do 😀 going back tomorrow

WhiteHonda

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/121751746#Comment_121751746

If you don’t mind my asking what's it like in st pats. Is it in bed or up. Is medication injection or pills. Is there occupational therapy. Asking for someone.. No need to answer if you don’t want to.

Thanks

SuperBowserWorld

Feeling incredibly sad and depressed. Still recovering from illness from last week and back in work this week. Just floored mentally and physically. Didn't even register with me that it was Valentine's Day.

SuperBowserWorld

Very very depressed and anxious. I wake up with a complete feeling of dread every morning. Have a psychologist appointment today, so can get a lot off my chest for a while. But really really struggling to engage with anything.

RabbleRouser2k

This time of the month is rough for me. I notice my sleep is messed up, and I find I sleep 16 or 18 hour days. It coincides with a death anniversary, so I give a warning that if I'm irritable, or irritating, it's not anyone's fault.

Just from reading the posts, it seems I'm not the only one. January kind of kicked us in the guts, and February isn't being much kinder.

Wanderer78

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/121800532#Comment_121800532

yea look after yourself, anniversary time here to, its rough, my own sleep isnt actually too bad at the moment. a bipolar chap i follow on youtube calls his depressive phases, 'deep rest', so be kind to yourself, if you need it, you need it....

RabbleRouser2k

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/121801553#Comment_121801553

Thanks Wanderer. That means a lot.

One More Toy

I feel absolutely worthless today, not sure what to do

Gremlinertia

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/121812231#Comment_121812231

It's fcuking horrible, similar today. Forced myself to socialise last night. It wasn't awful but I borrowed a lot of spoons from today.

RabbleRouser2k

It's been rough. February been kicking my butt. Seems I'm not alone in that.

SuperBowserWorld

Definitely good sleep helps if you can get it. Coffee is a curse for that for me. I've been cutting it out and it makes a huge difference. Just having the odd treat and not on a work night. I am hoping I don't have to do the same with tea. That would be the final straw.

Also, god rid of a load of stuff that was just taking up mental space and giving me no joy. The relief was unreal.

Now, these don't solve my underlying issues, but just give me more energy and space.