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Anxiety and/or depression discussion.

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    #9392
    greenfrogs
    Closed Accounts Posts: 1,115 ✭✭✭greenfrogs


    scrimshanker wrote: »
    Whole thing makes me wish I was already dead

    Hugs.

    Maybe watch some funny, silly videos on YouTube. Distraction can be good.


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    #9393
    fr336
    Registered Users Posts: 10,179 ✭✭✭✭fr336


    Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »
    What's on your mind, friend?

    Always freaking out about my eyes and dilated pupils due to the anxiety and letting too much sunlight in, especially when first waking up and it just flashes in through the sides of the curtains. Sounds silly but I feel every time I'm making my eyes so much worse and it feels more blurry and plain bad every time. But that could of course be the anxiety generally then the added anxiety from thinking that's what's happening. I mean a little bit of full on sun in the eyes, even with dilated pupils and when first waking up...well if it was going to do damage it wouldn't be apparently now or in the near future would it? It'd be cateracts or later on or something... Ah I dunno :(


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    #9394
    Hugo Stiglitz
    Closed Accounts Posts: 43,891 ✭✭✭✭Hugo Stiglitz


    fr336 wrote: »
    Always freaking out about my eyes and dilated pupils due to the anxiety and letting too much sunlight in, especially when first waking up and it just flashes in through the sides of the curtains. Sounds silly but I feel every time I'm making my eyes so much worse and it feels more blurry and plain bad every time. But that could of course be the anxiety generally then the added anxiety from thinking that's what's happening. I mean a little bit of full on sun in the eyes, even with dilated pupils and when first waking up...well if it was going to do damage it wouldn't be apparently now or in the near future would it? It'd be cateracts or later on or something... Ah I dunno :(

    That sounds rough, FR. :(


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    #9395
    fr336
    Registered Users Posts: 10,179 ✭✭✭✭fr336


    Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »
    That sounds rough, FR. :(

    Any thoughts? :P


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    #9396
    greenfrogs
    Closed Accounts Posts: 1,115 ✭✭✭greenfrogs


    fr336 wrote: »
    Any thoughts? :P

    Did you discuss this with your GP?


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    #9397
    fr336
    Registered Users Posts: 10,179 ✭✭✭✭fr336


    greenfrogs wrote: »
    Did you discuss this with your GP?

    No but had eye test during it and everything was fine. But that was early on, I'm always convinced something will happen eventually before I have the strength to turn the anxiety on its head by making fairly simple changes. Even if I've 'escaped' many other times, only one time requires damage :(


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    #9398
    greenfrogs
    Closed Accounts Posts: 1,115 ✭✭✭greenfrogs


    fr336 wrote: »
    No but had eye test during it and everything was fine. But that was early on, I'm always convinced something will happen eventually before I have the strength to turn the anxiety on its head by making fairly simple changes. Even if I've 'escaped' many other times, only one time requires damage :(

    I think you should chat with your doctor about it again. Or maybe even an eye doctor. Just to put your mind at ease a little bit.


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    #9399
    Hugo Stiglitz
    Closed Accounts Posts: 43,891 ✭✭✭✭Hugo Stiglitz


    fr336 wrote: »
    Any thoughts? :P

    Cheeky eh?! *pretends to punch*


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    #9400
    fr336
    Registered Users Posts: 10,179 ✭✭✭✭fr336


    Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »
    Cheeky eh?! *pretends to punch*

    You can take it Hugo, you have a castle remember


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    #9401
    veganrun
    Closed Accounts Posts: 1,137 ✭✭✭veganrun


    Head kind of all over the place again. The company I turned down last week got back in touch via the agency asking if I am 100% sure I want to turn down the role again.

    Its left me confused, and full of doubt. I made my decision and I was more or less happy about it but as always, wondering if I made the right decision. Now I'm unsure again and full of uncertainty. I hate being so unsure of myself.

    I kind of like where I am but I'm a bit worried still about the job being over my head as the tough stuff hasn't kicked off really yet. Plus the commute each day is tiring.

    If I could turn back the clock I wouldn't have contacted anyone unless I was sure I wanted to leave. Wish I hadn't panicked! :(


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    #9402
    mg1982
    Closed Accounts Posts: 1,772 ✭✭✭mg1982


    veganrun wrote: »
    Head kind of all over the place again. The company I turned down last week got back in touch via the agency asking if I am 100% sure I want to turn down the role again.

    Its left me confused, and full of doubt. I made my decision and I was more or less happy about it but as always, wondering if I made the right decision. Now I'm unsure again and full of uncertainty. I hate being so unsure of myself.

    I kind of like where I am but I'm a bit worried still about the job being over my head as the tough stuff hasn't kicked off really yet. Plus the commute each day is tiring.

    If I could turn back the clock I wouldn't have contacted anyone unless I was sure I wanted to leave. Wish I hadn't panicked! :(

    I know making desicions on these things is very hard when the mind is racked with self doubt and anxiety. Its something you will have to try and weigh up. The benifits of a shorter commute time but the negative of having to change job again. Or if the company closer to home is paying the same as you get in your current job. I know shorter commute time is a definite benefit like more free time in the evening but only you will know what seems right for you.


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    #9403
    Hugo Stiglitz
    Closed Accounts Posts: 43,891 ✭✭✭✭Hugo Stiglitz


    veganrun wrote: »
    Head kind of all over the place again. The company I turned down last week got back in touch via the agency asking if I am 100% sure I want to turn down the role again.

    Its left me confused, and full of doubt. I made my decision and I was more or less happy about it but as always, wondering if I made the right decision. Now I'm unsure again and full of uncertainty. I hate being so unsure of myself.

    I kind of like where I am but I'm a bit worried still about the job being over my head as the tough stuff hasn't kicked off really yet. Plus the commute each day is tiring.

    If I could turn back the clock I wouldn't have contacted anyone unless I was sure I wanted to leave. Wish I hadn't panicked! :(

    Sorry to hear that you've had all this doubt cast upon you, VR.

    Would the job with the lesser commute be just as tough?


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    #9404
    carzony
    Registered Users Posts: 2,780 ✭✭✭carzony


    Think I found my answer to dealing with my anxiety:) Talking to people seems to really eliminate my anxiety straight away.

    I have had 2 meeting this week and both times I have left the place feeling 'normal'. I noticed this with the councellor but I just figured it was because he was a professional.


    It seems actually talking to different people helps..


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    #9405
    Diamond Doll
    Closed Accounts Posts: 1,344 ✭✭✭Diamond Doll


    carzony wrote: »
    Think I found my answer to dealing with my anxiety:) Talking to people seems to really eliminate my anxiety straight away.

    I have had 2 meeting this week and both times I have left the place feeling 'normal'. I noticed this with the councellor but I just figured it was because he was a professional.


    It seems actually talking to different people helps..

    I feel the same, I'm having weekly visits to my GP and I always feel like I've really come on a lot afterwards. The thing is I nearly always get really anxious and upset in the appointments, but feel so much better afterwards.

    He's setting up counselling for me but warned it might take a while going publicly, any ideas of what the usual wait is?


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    #9406
    veganrun
    Closed Accounts Posts: 1,137 ✭✭✭veganrun


    The other job is more money than the one I'm in at the moment and it's 30 mins from where I live.

    The other job could end up tricky, it's hard to know. I was sort of happy with my decision but this has made me uncertain again. I could move closer to work but at the moment I'm unwilling to sign a 12 month lease anywhere as I don't know if I want to move and stay in this city for that long. But I will have to move or change jobs soon as I cant keep doing a 3 hour commute in the winter (90 mins each way)


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    #9407
    freudiangirl
    Closed Accounts Posts: 345 ✭✭freudiangirl


    This little piggy wrote: »
    Ah I'd love to have you but I'm not doing great myself, so much going on. I think we'd only end up dragging each other down!

    About moving away from your kids though ... I very nearly left the house I'm in to go into a city centre flatshare. A relative convinced me not to at the last minute. As he said, by doing so I'm basically admitting defeat and admitting that I'm not going to get well enough to get back full custody of my child. (It hasn't officially been taken from me, but at the moment he spends most of his time with my ex or my own family, as I'm still not quite 100% yet.) Whereas if I stay where I am, where my son has lived since birth and where he has a bedroom and familiar environment, I'm making it clear in my own head and to everyone else that I do expect to get better and to be the mother that I can be and that he deserves. It might be similar for yourself. I know you feel your kids are better without you around, but trust me they're not! You've been doing your best to get better, and still are, and there's no reason you won't get increased access to them as you get better. It'll be a lot harder to get that in place if you move to the other side of the country, though.


    I honestly am.givinh full custody to their dad.it will be ages before I am anyway fit to give care necessary.
    I am.better off away from people tbh.


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    #9408
    freudiangirl
    Closed Accounts Posts: 345 ✭✭freudiangirl


    This little piggy wrote: »
    I feel the same, I'm having weekly visits to my GP and I always feel like I've really come on a lot afterwards. The thing is I nearly always get really anxious and upset in the appointments, but feel so much better afterwards.

    He's setting up counselling for me but warned it might take a while going publicly, any ideas of what the usual wait is?

    How do you get to see gp every week? I got handed a months prescription yesterday and that was it.


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    #9409
    is mise spartacus
    Registered Users Posts: 1,027 ✭✭✭is mise spartacus


    Meds evaluation appt today before I start college... nervous


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    #9410
    Diamond Doll
    Closed Accounts Posts: 1,344 ✭✭✭Diamond Doll


    freudiangirl wrote: »
    How do you get to see gp every week? I got handed a months prescription yesterday and that was it.

    I need weekly sick certs for work. It's frickin expensive though. :(


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    #9411
    scrimshanker
    Closed Accounts Posts: 738 ✭✭✭scrimshanker


    Glad that's over. It was soooo gross I was like drenched in sweat by the time the appointment was over. I don't even know what to think.


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    #9412
    scrimshanker
    Closed Accounts Posts: 738 ✭✭✭scrimshanker


    I'm exhausted. Really have nothing left. Have GAD, it seems.


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    #9413
    Roquentin
    Banned (with Prison Access) Posts: 3,130 ✭✭✭Roquentin


    scrimshanker wrote: »
    I'm exhausted. Really have nothing left. Have GAD, it seems.

    did he put you on antidepressents


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    #9414
    scrimshanker
    Closed Accounts Posts: 738 ✭✭✭scrimshanker


    Already on the max dose of one.


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    #9415
    is mise spartacus
    Registered Users Posts: 1,027 ✭✭✭is mise spartacus


    Meds increased to 150mg
    :(


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    #9416
    veganrun
    Closed Accounts Posts: 1,137 ✭✭✭veganrun


    Anyone else get edgy/jumpy when you take caffeine? I've noticed if I take those Panadol with caffeine in them, if I'm on edge or something I get really fidgety. Don't know if I'm just imagining it or not.


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    #9417
    alaskayoung
    Registered Users Posts: 272 ✭✭alaskayoung


    is mise spartacus wrote: »
    Meds increased to 150mg
    :(

    What are you on? I'm so happy that you managed to get your course sorted out. Where are you gonna go to college if you don't mind me asking?


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    #9418
    mg1982
    Closed Accounts Posts: 1,772 ✭✭✭mg1982


    veganrun wrote: »
    Anyone else get edgy/jumpy when you take caffeine? I've noticed if I take those Panadol with caffeine in them, if I'm on edge or something I get really fidgety. Don't know if I'm just imagining it or not.

    I find that too with caffeine. Its a stimulant so its likely to increase anxiety levels for a while. Its why i only drink one cup of coffee a day and stay away from red bull and monster.


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    #9419
    greenfrogs
    Closed Accounts Posts: 1,115 ✭✭✭greenfrogs


    Does anyone else feel like burying their head under pillow rather than go out and socialise. I'm so anti social. It's not helping me find new friends funnily enough. I just don't know.


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    #9420
    freudiangirl
    Closed Accounts Posts: 345 ✭✭freudiangirl


    This little piggy wrote: »
    I need weekly sick certs for work. It's frickin expensive though. :(

    Ah k.


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    #9421
    freudiangirl
    Closed Accounts Posts: 345 ✭✭freudiangirl


    Got through today. Anxiety now through roof. Not coping at all. I feel that maybe I should tell gp about self medicating but if I stop I won't function. A bit worried as since I.took a full box of otc meds in 2 days last weekend whilst still in hospital (24 tabs in about 15 hours) , recommended dose was 4 per 24 hours, my body feels wrong I'm breathless and feeling off. I haven't told any of the professionals what I took and why I took them.

    I just hate where I am right now.
    Life is what it is but I am done with acceptance of it.
    Met someone today who said you look well.drives me mad.


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