aaaaaarrrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhh

YayForYuffie

So, last night, I had quite the fight with my father.
We were working on packing envelopes and whatnot for sending CV's to various people and whatnot. He tells me he has to go pick up my sister from work, and he shouts at me to make a few email him cover letters from people X, Y and Z for him to print off at work (our home printer has the oddest urge to print everything in hot eighties pink), and dashes out the door. I try to tell him that I didn't hear a word he said, buts he's already out at the car.

I continue to package away, and a few minutes later, he calls, asking why I haven't e-mailed them yet. I tell him why, and he proceeds to call me "f***ing incompetent". I am not a person who takes well to being sworn at. So in turn, I just head up to my room, intent on not doing a damn thing.

He arrives back, and storms up to my room, and we start arguing. I tell him that I'm not doing a damn thing until he apologises for both insulting me, and swearing at me. He refuses, and threatens me, before leaving. I resume doing nothing. He comes up again, and yells at me for leaving downstairs a mess. I point out that it's a single table that is rarely used, and that I still haven't received my apology.

Eventually, I do decide to go downstairs, and set them out. On my way down, I receive yet another threat. My response is to organise as slowly as I could, because antagonising my father was clearly the most rational thing to do. He yels at me again, and I respond by crying out "But it's all so horrid, and messy", because I enjoy being dramatic. My father proceeds to call me a "pussy", and tells me "to stop being such a f***ing woman." The fight continues, and I do my level best to infuriate him while keeping up a façade of being calm.

Over 24 hours later, and I'm still frustrated over it, and how we both acted. I can understand my fathers frustration, as I was quite obviously being uncooperative and antagonising. However, I cannot justify the things he said. I abhor swearing when it is used in a non-jesting fashion. I do not appreciate being called a "pussy" or a "****ing woman". I'm fully aware that I'm a rather effeminate person. I'm fully aware that we were both acting disrespectfully. We were both out of line. I deliberately annoyed him.

And we cannot talk about it, as he in in Cork for a family meeting about my grandmother, and I'm 90% certain that it would dissolve into an uncivilised brawl if we talked about it again. Ugh, the frustration.

JamJamJamJam

I'm beginning to think I've been scammed! I bought something online from a website that looks okay, but the email address they use is a yahoo address, rather than the website's own, the tracking number doesn't work, and the confirmation email for the payment was from 'sales@example.com'... 10 days later I still haven't received anything! I knew the bargain was too good to be true

Corvo Attano

YayForYuffie wrote: »

he in in Cork for a family meeting about my grandmother

Stab in the dark but could this be the source of his frustration?

YayForYuffie

Corvo Attano wrote: »

Stab in the dark but could this be the source of his frustration?

I hadn't thought of that actually. That might be it. Thank you, that actually explains a fair bit.

Geekness1234

YayForYuffie wrote: »

I hadn't thought of that actually. That might be it. Thank you, that actually explains a fair bit.

Maybe if you talk to him about it?

Corvo Attano

Any time.

PseudoFamous

Corvo Attano wrote: »

Any time.

Good old Corvo. First he saves the empire from the Tyrant Lord Regent, putting Emily Kaldwin back on the throne and then he helps boardsies with their family problems. Nice guy.

LoonyLovegood

I'm aware that this is a complete first world problem...but the new season of SPN doesn't premier till October 15th...I NEED MY FIX.

iamanengine

Well that depends on whether or not he opted for stealth or all out mayhem!

Corvo Attano

Putting Kaldwin back on the throne didn't work so well when I done it. Not many guards were left to enforce her rule.

Jhcx

Don't feel myself. Physically, mentally or emotionally.

Not even hungry and my body is grumbling

Corvo Attano

Jhcx wrote: »

Not even hungry and my body is grumbling

Thats happened to me since the LC. My stomach just makes noise.

suitcasepink

This probably sounds really **** but I just want to be left alone.
Like I swear just because my friends have nothing to do with their lives bar go for walks or just "bantz" with the buds doesnt mean thats my life too. Like urghh I get it for the rest of the day theyre sitting at home bored but like, Im not.
They dont have to get up before 9am to go for a long walk each morning, they dont have to constantly occupy the dogs in the house(Atm Ill admit its 100 times worse then usual but omg Im so worn out having a puppy) and then more walks, and horse riding and having to help work around the yard theres just a lot of goings on
I swear to god in the Summer I have even less time to just relax around the house and I get even less sleep than usual.
Urghh life just please feck off for a while and let me sleep and watch dvds

EDIT: And its not like theyre even asking me to do much, its often just chilling but I just wanna be alone at home chillin'.. Socialising and movement are so overrated

Corvo Attano

deise_girl wrote: »

This probably sounds really **** but I just want to be left alone.
Like I swear just because my friends have nothing to do with their lives bar go for walks or just "bantz" with the buds doesnt mean thats my life too. Like urghh I get it for the rest of the day theyre sitting at home bored but like, Im not.
They dont have to get up before 9am to go for a long walk each morning, they dont have to constantly occupy the dogs in the house(Atm Ill admit its 100 times worse then usual but omg Im so worn out having a puppy) and then more walks, and horse riding and having to help work around the yard theres just a lot of goings on
I swear to god in the Summer I have even less time to just relax around the house and I get even less sleep than usual.
Urghh life just please feck off for a while and let me sleep and watch dvds

EDIT: And its not like theyre even asking me to do much, its often just chilling but I just wanna be alone at home chillin'.. Socialising and movement are so overrated

Then you say " Not this time, maybe again".

suitcasepink

Corvo Attano wrote: »

Then you say " Not this time, maybe again".

Then they say "Why not this time, what are you doing that could be any better?" Like I basically got that for leaving now and saying Im not going back later..
Urghh I hate how social rules insist youre meant to be with your friends as much as possible and enjoy it.

LoonyLovegood

Feck social rules.

I've completely wasted today. Woke up at half two, and I've been on the sims since then. I actually need to get back working long hours again. At least I did something then.

Corvo Attano

Just tell them youre not up for it. They'll get it eventually.

Jhcx

Found this on facebook. thought of argh



Agree? Agreed!

Ricky91t

I hate my sleeping pattern at the moment. I don't want to be awake now...

Lawliet

What is it with people who whine about how awful their life is but refuse to do anything about it? I get it, depression sucks, but there's a big difference between fighting depression and just giving up. You can't just take your pills then sit back and expect everything to get better. You complain about your weight all the time, but you wont exercise or make any changes to your diet. You complain about how you never do any work, then you complain about how shit you feel when you get your results but when the next set of exams come up you do the same thing again. You complain about drinking too much yet every weekend you out intending to get wasted. You complain about having no money but you wont even look for a job. You complain that no one likes you, when you are pushing everyone away with how negative and self centered you are.
Its like you want everything to be shit so you can play the victim.

Corvo Attano

People like to act the victim. Gets lots of pity and attention. Delicious delicious attention.

Aoifey!

Annnd now my laptop's broken. Damn drunken people spilling drinks! I'm having withdrawal symptoms from the internet here, it's only been a week and I'm going mad already :P

Jhcx

Just been starring at this computer all day.

"People dont understand the powerful effect suicide has on people! Just because someone can put on a smile and it may seem like the best day of their lives and they admit it truthfully. It's not to say that its tearing them apart inside. So look out for your friend or someone you know because they could be hiding behind a wall that you cant see"

Sometimes i feel like i come to a cul de sac in thinking and i cant go back because im being chased. There is an escape but its off road and narrow, there's no guarantee that there will be an opening at the other end. I've been to the people i chose to speak to but im just tired of going down the same path to get my problems solved. I'm a happy person always have been always will be but there is something mentally that is not allowing me to reach 100% and its constantly eating away at me. And im wondering how long i have got, that i can keep letting this eat away at me. I do so much thinking on various topics and things that i lose track of what i was even thinking about or what im trying to solve and it sucks. And not having the same sort of personality around me to discuss the issue makes it 10 times harder to understand where im going wrong and whats the strategic plan to take.

Corvo Attano

Jhcx wrote: »

Sometimes i feel like i come to a cul de sac in thinking and i cant go back because im being chased. There is an escape but its off road and narrow, there's no guarantee that there will be an opening at the other end. I've been to the people i chose to speak to but im just tired of going down the same path to get my problems solved. I'm a happy person always have been always will be but there is something mentally that is not allowing me to reach 100% and its constantly eating away at me. And im wondering how long i have got, that i can keep letting this eat away at me. I do so much thinking on various topics and things that i lose track of what i was even thinking about or what im trying to solve and it sucks. And not having the same sort of personality around me to discuss the issue makes it 10 times harder to understand where im going wrong and whats the strategic plan to take.

While the internet let alone an internet forum like boards is no place to look for professional mental health help, which I urge you get before you feel this is serious and before has gone too far and is seriously damaging it is good to try tackle and get this out.

In other words search yourself for a more specific root to this problem and talk to someone about it. Thats what helped me.

Jhcx

Corvo Attano wrote: »

While the internet let alone an internet forum like boards is no place to look for professional mental health help, which I urge you get before you feel this is serious and before has gone too far and is seriously damaging it is good to try tackle and get this out.

In other words search yourself for a more specific root to this problem and talk to someone about it. Thats what helped me.

I wouldnt be coming here for mental health help. Thanks though. i just feel trapped thats all.

Corvo Attano

Jhcx wrote: »

I wouldnt be coming here for mental health help. Thanks though. i just feel trapped thats all.

The idea of entrapment is that you cant get out so you must analyse and get your problems out. No matter how menial they seem. No matter how foolish or irrational. Get them out.

And its just a habit I picked up from another forum to tell people to seek professional help if necessary.

suitcasepink

My head is really really sore but Im defo not drunk but this makes it super annoyingggg
Also lol at minor hurlers being out tonight, elle oh elle

bluejay14

Woken up at 4 last night by two cats directly outside my window wailing and shrieking away for half an hour until my brother opened the window and absolutely roared at them.

LoonyLovegood

If I don't support Dublin my family will disown me, if I don't support Galway my housemates will kill me. This is awkward.

iamanengine

CTYIgirl wrote: »

If I don't support Dublin my family will disown me, if I don't support Galway my housemates will kill me. This is awkward.

You have no place in NUIG if you dont support Galway :P