Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

girlonfire

Eek! Finally addressed a horrendous situation that has been going on for what feels like forever. Why is it so terrifying to call aggressive bullies out on their behaviour when they are so clearly in the wrong?:o

How so Joe

girlonfire wrote: »

Eek! Finally addressed a horrendous situation that has been going on for what feels like forever. Why is it so terrifying to call aggressive bullies out on their behaviour when they are so clearly in the wrong?:o

Same reason it's impossible to admit something is wrong. Denial.
Congratulations on addressing it, though, I bet you feel a million times better!

jammstarr

girlonfire wrote: »

Eek! Finally addressed a horrendous situation that has been going on for what feels like forever. Why is it so terrifying to call aggressive bullies out on their behaviour when they are so clearly in the wrong?:o

You did the best thing though. I'd never have the balls to call up someone on their behaviour

Feeling very down here presently. Had a nice social situation tonight which is very rare for me however since getting home my mood just crashed.

girlonfire

True. I've been ignoring this issue for the past two years and it has cast such a shadow over my college experience. I really want to enjoy my final year as much as I possibly can. You're right though. I feel so much better knowing I don't have to deal with it on my own any longer. Cue huge sigh of relief. Thanks guys

Sorry to hear you're feeling down jammstarr. It's good that you got out and about though. Sometimes, I find when I'm not in the best space, socialising (while I think it's a really positive thing) can drain me of energy. It might be that you need to take some time to recharge? I do hope your mood lifts soon.

nesf

Mood still somewhat high. Not sleeping that much. Better than the alternative though.

RubyXI

cloud493 wrote: »

My life. I remember thinking, when I was 14, after everything that happened, happened, in 5 years time I bet I'l have a better life and I'l be really happy. But you can't forget these things. You can't even stop thinking about them. And all people tell me is it won't get better, and you won't forget, but it'll get easier to comprehend. Well, its 5 years later, and its ****ing not, its worse to think about. So ****.

Same. All my life I convinced myself it was just a phase I was going through, once school is over I'll be fine, once college is over I'll be fine. Once I get a job I'll be fine. Once I get a place on my own I'll be fine. Running out of excuses now.

nesf

cloud493 wrote: »

My life. I remember thinking, when I was 14, after everything that happened, happened, in 5 years time I bet I'l have a better life and I'l be really happy. But you can't forget these things. You can't even stop thinking about them. And all people tell me is it won't get better, and you won't forget, but it'll get easier to comprehend. Well, its 5 years later, and its ****ing not, its worse to think about. So ****.

You're still really young. Remember that wisdom does often come with age. It was hardest for me in my teens and early 20s as well.

neemish

having a "blah" day if that makes sense

Seren_

cloud493 wrote: »

My life. I remember thinking, when I was 14, after everything that happened, happened, in 5 years time I bet I'l have a better life and I'l be really happy. But you can't forget these things. You can't even stop thinking about them. And all people tell me is it won't get better, and you won't forget, but it'll get easier to comprehend. Well, its 5 years later, and its ****ing not, its worse to think about. So ****.

Aw Cloud I'm sorry you're not feeling good. The fact you're still here fighting after all that happened is amazing, never forget that. Don't try to put a time limit on your feelings or when you think you should feel better. These things take time. Someday your head won't be full of all of this x

flyswatter

phi3 wrote: »

Same. All my life I convinced myself it was just a phase I was going through, once school is over I'll be fine, once college is over I'll be fine. Once I get a job I'll be fine. Once I get a place on my own I'll be fine. Running out of excuses now.

On the other hand you could definitely say these things are all positive life achievements and things you can certainly be proud of.

jammstarr

Mood has lifted a little bit thankfully

cloud493

Your Text Here wrote: »

Aw Cloud I'm sorry you're not feeling good. The fact you're still here fighting after all that happened is amazing, never forget that. Don't try to put a time limit on your feelings or when you think you should feel better. These things take time. Someday your head won't be full of all of this x

Thanks YTH I just don't know sometimes.

thrilledskinny

cloud493 wrote: »

Well, I'm really ****ing ill. And I fell off the top of a climbing frame they have in a children's park last night after I climbed to the top, cos being in a playground at 3am climbing a dark frame by yourself is a ****ing stupid idea. And I just feel ****.

That sounds like fun ? What brought you to go to a childrens park at 3 in the morning on your own ? What even got you out of the house at 3 in the morning on your own ? I'd be planking it ??
Slightly mad idea to be going out on your own late a night, be careful !!
Granted I have a play ground near me and now I will be tempted to go to it next time i wake in the middle of the night !!

I hope your feeling less like **** by now :-)

pejay

any one on here taking serequel how do you find it thanks

cloud493

thrilledskinny wrote: »

That sounds like fun ? What brought you to go to a childrens park at 3 in the morning on your own ? What even got you out of the house at 3 in the morning on your own ? I'd be planking it ??
Slightly mad idea to be going out on your own late a night, be careful !!
Granted I have a play ground near me and now I will be tempted to go to it next time i wake in the middle of the night !!

I hope your feeling less like **** by now :-)

I dunno. I was just sitting up, and I decided I'd go. Don't know why.

jammstarr

Hope yer a bit better by now Cloud

cloud493

I'l be fine everyone else ok?

nesf

cloud493 wrote: »

I'l be fine everyone else ok?

Had a bad comedown after my mini high over the weekend yesterday. Doing ok today so far I think.

jammstarr

nesf wrote: »

Had a bad comedown after my mini high over the weekend yesterday. Doing ok today so far I think.

Shit the comedowns can be really rough. Hope it passes for you soon Nesf

flyswatter

nesf wrote: »

Had a bad comedown after my mini high over the weekend yesterday. Doing ok today so far I think.

Is that a high as in the elated, happy sense?

nesf

flyswatter wrote: »

Is that a high as in the elated, happy sense?

Yes. But nothing severe.

Wile E. Coyote

Just wondering does anyone here suffer from adult separation anxiety disorder? I didn't even know such a thing existed until I came across the below extract from the linked page. It describes me to a tee. I know I'm being irrational or stupid. I know my wife is safe, she's away for the night with work and text me to let me know she was in, yet here I am at 7 in the morning wide awake after zero hours sleep with my heart still pounding. I've searched the Internet but most sites only deal with the disorder in children and I couldnt find an Irish site with anything on it.

http://elliemsjourney.blogspot.ie/2011/05/adult-separation-anxiety-disorder.html?m=1

It's strange how much I identify with this disorder.  Every symptom could have been written specifically about me.  I'm going to outline a little about how this disorder impacts my life. 

I suffer from a fairly frequent fear of being kidnapped and forced to be isolated from my significant other.  I also fear that he will be killed or will be taken away from me through a variety of scenarios (some more peculiar than others).  I'm afraid he will meet someone else and leave me because he will like them more than me or find them more interesting. 

When he has to go anywhere for any reason for any length of time my immediate response is to panic.  A million scenarios run through my head.  He has to go visit his grandma in the nursing home and my brain goes on panic overdrive: he likes his grandma more than me, he'd rather see her than see me, he just wants to get out of the house and be away from me, there might be a cute nurse there and she could be better than me and they could have an affair and maybe he'll never come home at all or maybe his car will wreck and he'll get amnesia, what if I am kidnapped while he's gone and he can't find me?  It's silly and outside of the moment I can identify it as silly, but in the moment the fears feels very real and very valid.  

My separation anxiety also causes me to miss out on doing things I would otherwise enjoy.  I will avoid scheduling things for times when my significant other is at home, even if the overlap is less than an hour.  I can't stand reducing the amount of time we have to spend together by even a few minutes.  If there is a scheduling change for either of us, I panic.  If I feel that he had control over the change and scheduled something during a time when we could have been together I get frustrated and accusatory.  I panic and I behave irrationally.  

Over the last three years, I have spent a total of maybe 15 nights away from my significant other.  Those nights I couldn't sleep.  I laid in bed and cried.  I felt like he had abandoned me.  I felt like he didn't love me anymore and didn't care that we were apart. 

And that brings me to one of the major issues I struggle with.  Because I place such importance on being together, when he does not show signs of separation anxiety when I'm not around I feel betrayed, unloved, undervalued.  By my (flawed) logic: I love him and want to be with him, so I'm devastated when he's not around.  He's not devastated when I'm not around (he's not even bothered!), so how can he love me?  Does he even like me?  Maybe he never wanted to be with me at all!

And this is the trap of Separation Anxiety Disorder.  The more you try to make the person like/love you, the more you push them away and the reason for this is simple: to this other person, there is no issue.  You are fighting a war in your head that doesn't really exist.  It's as simple as that, but it's a damn hard lesson to learn.  The reason he doesn't care when I'm not around is because it doesn't matter to him, not because he doesn't like me or love me or want to spend time with me, but because he does not share my fear that significant people might not return once they leave.  From his perspective, since he knows I will always come back he is fine.  Why shouldn't he be fine?  He is secure in our love and attachment, he has no reason to believe my departure would or could mean anything other than that I have something in my schedule, so he finds something to do on his own and is just as happy as a clam.  When I return home it's as if nothing has even happened, because nothing has happened, separations and reunions are a natural, normal part of life.

girlonfire

Can't sleep. I've been awake all night. I'm not in bad from so I don't know why I'm not sleeping. Hopefully it'll be better tomorrow night.

Hope everyone is keeping as well as can be and looking after yourselves,x

thrilledskinny

Hate that when I cant sleep, my sleep has been ok this wk, but OMG last I couldnt get to sleep, then i'd wake up in the middle of the night as usual and not get back to sleep.

Really tired all day today though even though i've been sleeping...must be the weather ??

Snoopy1

I've been feeling so good thus last week, now im on a real down. Doesn't help that I hurt my shoulder again after I thought the injections had fixed me.
now I can't sleep again and um starting yo feel lonely and worthless

ashblag

I seem to be swinging through mood swings. I'm elated then frustrated/angry. keep making mistakes aswell and a lot of difficutly consentrating on anything. But at the moment i'm on the elated side albeit I cant sleep!

jammstarr

ashblag wrote: »

I seem to be swinging through mood swings. I'm elated then frustrated/angry. keep making mistakes aswell and a lot of difficutly consentrating on anything. But at the moment i'm on the elated side albeit I cant sleep!

Heya, how long have you been feeling like this Ashblag?

Princess Peach

ashblag wrote: »

I seem to be swinging through mood swings. I'm elated then frustrated/angry. keep making mistakes aswell and a lot of difficutly consentrating on anything. But at the moment i'm on the elated side albeit I cant sleep!

You just described my life!

girlonfire

thrilledskinny wrote: »

Hate that when I cant sleep, my sleep has been ok this wk, but OMG last I couldnt get to sleep, then i'd wake up in the middle of the night as usual and not get back to sleep.

Really tired all day today though even though i've been sleeping...must be the weather ??

It's a pain, isn't it? Third night running and I still can't sleep

nesf

Been low yesterday and today so far. Ah well. One gets the good with the bad.