Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

want to disappear

Feeling a bit low this evening. I don;t know much more of this I can take.

delthedriver

cloud493 wrote: »

The thought of college and these college applications is making me feel even worse than normal

Chill..................

Hope you had a good day and rewarded yourself with a Sprite or two!:)

Tomorrow is a new day

delthedriver

want to disappear wrote: »

Feeling a bit low this evening. I don;t know much more of this I can take.

Hi there,

Well done on posting here

I guess most of the posters on this thread can understand how you feel as we have experienced similar feelings.

Obviously I don't know how long you have been feeling this way, days, weeks, perhaps months?

Be kind to yourself!
My best advice simply as a fellow Boardsie would be for you to arrange an appointment with your GP and have a good heart to heart.

May I suggest in advance of your meeting jotting down a few details, like sleep patterns, eating habits, exercise routines,energy levels any issues upsetting you, work, home, college etc.

One in four people suffer from depression in some shape or form. If you are depressed, it is absolutely nothing to feel ashamed of, I think of it as a broken head in the same way as someone with a broken arm needs medical assistance for their arm to heal.

Yes I have received medical assistance to help my broken head, and now I am doing quite well .

Please, promise you will make a call and arrange an appointment with your GP and get the ball rolling to ensure you return to full health as soon as possible.

Do it for yourself, because you are worth it!

Kindest Wishes

Del

PS . Looking forward to hearing of your progress here on this thread.:)

Lightbulb Sun

Funny how seeing something on your social networking feed can just ruin your night and set off a load of questions in your head.

delthedriver

Lightbulb Sun wrote: »

Funny how seeing something on your social networking feed can just ruin your night and set off a load of questions in your head.

Don't let any nonesense on a social networjing feed ruin your day.

IMHO a lot of feeds tend to be nothing more than garbage.

Chill, don't give it a second thought.

Hersheys

Trying to figure out why I have such a mental block about talking to my GP at the moment. The deal was, if between this weeks therapy session and next weeks therapy session, that I felt in any way like doing myself a harm, I was to ring my GP and ask to see her.

My GP is great. I get along very well with her, and I don't dislike talking to her. However when it comes to my mental health she would prefer me to see the psychiatrist, which is fair enough as she is out of her comfort zone. Only problem is, the psych discharged me.

I know deep, deep down that I'm not going to do anything. I know this and I trust myself. But I am having a very hard time dealing with the thoughts.

Tried all the usual mindfulness / breathing / sitting with the thoughts / self soothing / distraction / bargaining. Nothing is working to take away the urge to do some damage.

Anyone any tips?

delthedriver

Hersheys wrote: »

Trying to figure out why I have such a mental block about talking to my GP at the moment. The deal was, if between this weeks therapy session and next weeks therapy session, that I felt in any way like doing myself a harm, I was to ring my GP and ask to see her.

My GP is great. I get along very well with her, and I don't dislike talking to her. However when it comes to my mental health she would prefer me to see the psychiatrist, which is fair enough as she is out of her comfort zone. Only problem is, the psych discharged me.

I know deep, deep down that I'm not going to do anything. I know this and I trust myself. But I am having a very hard time dealing with the thoughts.

Tried all the usual mindfulness / breathing / sitting with the thoughts / self soothing / distraction / bargaining. Nothing is working to take away the urge to do some damage.

Anyone any tips?

Please contact your GP if you are having thoughts of self harm.

Gremlinertia

Hersheys, gimme a shout later on..

In a lot of pain this week, fun times, it's aggravating my insomnia/messy sleep patterns.. Avoiding answering phone from counsellor because i can't stand unscheduled phone calls. Increased anxiety due to paranois, go me!. Gotta get up soon for work.. Hopefully that keep my mind occupied for a good part of the day.

eh i dunno

My anxiety is back after a good 8 months anxiety free. Maybe after 10 months on Lexapro they are starting to wear off

delthedriver

eh i dunno wrote: »

My anxiety is back after a good 8 months anxiety free. Maybe after 10 months on Lexapro they are starting to wear off

Worth having a chat with your GP, perhaps it is time to review drugs and dosages. Is there anything causing you increased anxiety at present?:)

eh i dunno

delthedriver wrote: »

Worth having a chat with your GP, perhaps it is time to review drugs and dosages. Is there anything causing you increased anxiety at present?:)

was only with my gp 2 weeks ago when everything was fine. Has just come back in the last week. Going to start meditating again and doing my deep breathing exercises.

Just bought When Panic Attacks so hoping that might help. Anyone read it

Anahita

I'm inside. Song 'Forgetting' by David Gray on loop. It's not what i thought it'd be. Very tough.
Hope you are all well. x

murria

Anahita wrote: »

I'm inside. Song 'Forgetting' by David Gray on loop. It's not what i thought it'd be. Very tough.
Hope you are all well. x

Sending you healing thoughts, hang in there.

Gremlinertia

Anahita wrote: »

I'm inside. Song 'Forgetting' by David Gray on loop. It's not what i thought it'd be. Very tough.
Hope you are all well. x

Well done, think you've managed the toughest hurdle..

tosspot15

The past year I've taken a massive dive in terms of my general mood. My social anxiety seems to have doubled.

I really want to go on some medication, as I think anti-anxiety meds will help me greatly. But I really dont want to visit my doctor, as I have visited him at least 10 times in the past 15 months or so for so many stupid unrelated things, and I think he doesnt want to see me anymore, or that im just wasting time.

Sorta feel like I'm clogging the health services too with my medical card. I actually got a bit paranoid recently that I was diabetic (have many symptoms) so I went for a test and they asked me if I was researching it online.

I said yes, and they including that on my notes. Almost as if to say that I'm just being silly/over worried. I feel like they think I'm a hypochondriac or something.

I know all the ways to overcome depression. Good diet, exercise, socialising, working, getting out of the house, but it doesnt seem to be working any more. I also feel really abandoned and hard done by in life with many things, I feel like I deserve a lot better but every corner I turn seems to knock me down, even though I've done my absolute best.

And then I see people go off and get everything they want, when they dont deserve it what so ever. Makes me bitter and angry. Also some people I've been venting to not taking me serious, and just acting sick of me, saying that I only attention seeking (or implying it).

I'm really up and down too. Seems like for 2 weeks straight I feel so miserable and raging with anger/frustration, then I'm fine for a week and happy, rinse and repeat. I feel so trapped where I live, and I cant move out at all, I hate it so much here, isolated in the countryside. Sometimes I get massive urges to go outside and run aimlessly as fast as I can to wear myself out, but theres only 1 road here, and everybody knows everyone else in this crappy place. So its not an option.

delthedriver

tosspot15 wrote: »

The past year I've taken a massive dive in terms of my general mood. My social anxiety seems to have doubled.

I really want to go on some medication, as I think anti-anxiety meds will help me greatly. But I really dont want to visit my doctor, as I have visited him at least 10 times in the past 15 months or so for so many stupid unrelated things, and I think he doesnt want to see me anymore, or that im just wasting time.

Sorta feel like I'm clogging the health services too with my medical card. I actually got a bit paranoid recently that I was diabetic (have many symptoms) so I went for a test and they asked me if I was researching it online.

I said yes, and they including that on my notes. Almost as if to say that I'm just being silly/over worried. I feel like they think I'm a hypochondriac or something.

I know all the ways to overcome depression. Good diet, exercise, socialising, working, getting out of the house, but it doesnt seem to be working any more. I also feel really abandoned and hard done by in life with many things, I feel like I deserve a lot better but every corner I turn seems to knock me down, even though I've done my absolute best.

And then I see people go off and get everything they want, when they dont deserve it what so ever. Makes me bitter and angry. Also some people I've been venting to not taking me serious, and just acting sick of me, saying that I only attention seeking (or implying it).

I'm really up and down too. Seems like for 2 weeks straight I feel so miserable and raging with anger/frustration, then I'm fine for a week and happy, rinse and repeat. I feel so trapped where I live, and I cant move out at all, I hate it so much here, isolated in the countryside. Sometimes I get massive urges to go outside and run aimlessly as fast as I can to wear myself out, but theres only 1 road here, and everybody knows everyone else in this crappy place. So its not an option.

Well done for posting and getting so many issues off your chest.

Depression is a very tough illness, if you think you are suffering from Depression you absolutely must consult with your GP.

Your GP is not going to turn you away, on the contrary, He or she has your health and welfare as their primary concern.

Self diagnosis is not the answer, so please make a call to your GP and have a good chat about how you feel. Yes GP's are very busy so to assist in the meeting, please bring along notes on eating habits, sleeping habits, exercise and diet routines, general mood etc.

Please promise that you will make an appointment to see your GP and keep us advised here please on your progress.

Take very good care of yourself.

Best Wishes,

Del

banquo

You can also has them to refer you to a psychiatrist.

tosspot15

delthedriver wrote: »

Well done for posting and getting so many issues off your chest.

Depression is a very tough illness, if you think you are suffering from Depression you absolutely must consult with your GP.

Your GP is not going to turn you away, on the contrary, He or she has your health and welfare as their primary concern.

Self diagnosis is not the answer, so please make a call to your GP and have a good chat about how you feel. Yes GP's are very busy so to assist in the meeting, please bring along notes on eating habits, sleeping habits, exercise and diet routines, general mood etc.

Please promise that you will make an appointment to see your GP and keep us advised here please on your progress.

Take very good care of yourself.

Best Wishes,

Del

I was diagnosed with "depressive disorder" in 2010, after my educational psychologist referred me to a psychiatrist. But that was kind of the end of the line, they didnt put me on meds for depression/anxiety, instead meds to help my concentration. But those still helped a great deal.

I've never had any follow up visits or calls back to them. My GP has never been involved with it, alls I know is that its on my medical notes in their office.

I just needed a little rant is all. Felt like blurting out a whole bunch of stuff without knowing how exactly.

Im planning to visit him sometime, just not sure when.

delthedriver

tosspot15 wrote: »

I was diagnosed with "depressive disorder" in 2010, after my educational psychologist referred me to a psychiatrist. But that was kind of the end of the line, they didnt put me on meds for depression/anxiety, instead meds to help my concentration. But those still helped a great deal.

I've never had any follow up visits or calls back to them. My GP has never been involved with it, alls I know is that its on my medical notes in their office.

I just needed a little rant is all. Felt like blurting out a whole bunch of stuff without knowing how exactly.

Im planning to visit him sometime, just not sure when.

Tomorrow is a new day and the beginning of a new week. So make the call tomorrow.
Don't guess that your GP is aufait with medical notes from 2010. Perhaps now is the time to raise the issue with your GP.
Your health, both mental and physical ,is your wealth!:)

murria

tosspot15 wrote: »

I was diagnosed with "depressive disorder" in 2010, after my educational psychologist referred me to a psychiatrist. But that was kind of the end of the line, they didnt put me on meds for depression/anxiety, instead meds to help my concentration. But those still helped a great deal.

I've never had any follow up visits or calls back to them. My GP has never been involved with it, alls I know is that its on my medical notes in their office.

I just needed a little rant is all. Felt like blurting out a whole bunch of stuff without knowing how exactly.

Im planning to visit him sometime, just not sure when.

Well we all often feel better after a rant. Don't leave it too long to visit your GP though. As you may now realise its easy to slip between the cracks between being a minor and becoming an adult. While you are still in school parents, teachers and health-care professionals may push for assessments and diagnoses to get you every available support, but after you hit 18 things change.

Hersheys

I can't verbalise what I am thinking or feeling right now, meaning therapy will be a waste and no chance of telling doc what's in my head.

tosspot15

Hersheys wrote: »

I can't verbalise what I am thinking or feeling right now, meaning therapy will be a waste and no chance of telling doc what's in my head.

I think if you tell him exactly this, he might try help you to express what you are feeling.

murria

tosspot15 wrote: »

Just for the record, I'm 21.

I realise that. Certainly didnt mean to offend you. But Im sure you were assessed by an Ed. Psychologist when you were still in school. I was just pointing out how its easy to get neglected by medical world when you are out of the system and its only you up against things.

Esel

tosspot15 wrote: »

I'm really up and down too. Seems like for 2 weeks straight I feel so miserable and raging with anger/frustration, then I'm fine for a week and happy, rinse and repeat.

Tell your GP about this.

tosspot15 wrote: »

I was diagnosed with "depressive disorder" in 2010, after my educational psychologist referred me to a psychiatrist. But that was kind of the end of the line, they didnt put me on meds for depression/anxiety, instead meds to help my concentration. But those still helped a great deal.

I've never had any follow up visits or calls back to them. My GP has never been involved with it, alls I know is that its on my medical notes in their office.

Tell the GP all this too.

Anahita

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Well done, think you've managed the toughest hurdle..

It's tough. Painful. Sucks but there are very good strong men and women here supporting me, and to them, I have to say, thanks for saving my life.

On a loop of David Gray Forgetting still.

Crawling then walking
Then running and sweating
Forgetting

Lying and cheating
Aiding and abetting
Forgetting

Itching and scratching
And punching and hitting
Forgetting, forgetting
Forgetting, forgetting

Reminding, rewinding
Removing, regretting
Forgetting

Your smiles at the wake
And your tears at the wedding

Forgetting, forgetting
Forgetting, forgetting
Forgetting, forgetting
Forgetting

Spellbound and hell-bound
And caught in the netting
Forgetting

A wiping it clean
A minute Armageddon
Forgetting, forgetting
Forgetting, forgetting

Forgetting, forgetting
Forgetting
Forgetting, forgetting
Forgetting



Read more: David Gray - Forgetting Lyrics | MetroLyrics

Hersheys

tosspot15 wrote: »

I think if you tell him exactly this, he might try help you to express what you are feeling.

Ok so spoke with therapist to try verbalise and make sense of my head. And bizarrely it worked. So gonna talk to the doc and take it from there.

delthedriver

Hersheys wrote: »

Ok so spoke with therapist to try verbalise and make sense of my head. And bizarrely it worked. So gonna talk to the doc and take it from there.

Well done!:)

Gremlinertia

Nothing like physical pain to put you back down in the pits..

Hersheys

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Nothing like physical pain to put you back down in the pits..

Sending you virtual pain meds

Gremlinertia

Dosed to the gills - thank feck not working. Telly and self pity day.