Anxiety and depression thread (Please read OP)

Euphoria Intensifies · 07-03-2016 11:38pm

Thanks Hugo

I hope things start to improve soon for you too.

Hugo Stiglitz · 07-03-2016 11:45pm

Euphoria Intensifies wrote: »

Thanks Hugo I hope things start to improve soon for you too.

Thanks, S.

Those scientists need to hurry up and invent a miracle cure for all things mental health. I'd gladly sacrifice a baldness cure for it!

mickstupp · 08-03-2016 9:16am

Was asked to figure out precisely what I meant when I say "I feel bad", i.e. What does 'bad' mean for me.

Turning into a long list...

Hugo Stiglitz · 08-03-2016 9:41am

mickstupp wrote: »

Was asked to figure out precisely what I meant when I say "I feel bad", i.e. What does 'bad' mean for me.

Turning into a long list...

Who asked you that?

It can be very hard to pinpoint exact causes, especially if there are a lot of things at play.

Keane2baMused · 08-03-2016 9:56am

Thanks Hugo..much appreciated.

Euphoria that's exactly what I want to do but I have a tiny person who doesn't feel like doing the same so up I must be

Mickstupp I know the feeling. Why do you feel bad? Evidently 'I just do' doesn't suffice as a response!.

I think I got about 3 hours sleep last night. Its interesting how some sleep and sleep when they're low, im the opposite. My brain just doesn't switch off.

Gremlinertia · 08-03-2016 10:31am

I'm a little hyper, trying to hold it down as i know i can go a bit off the rails. Discharge from day hospital tomorrow is really hitting home..

Mickstup, it's awfully hard to write that stuff down but i found anyway that it makes it a bit easier as it's like it's broken down to bite size chunks.. One point at a time..

Be nice to yourselves one and all, stay the course x

Hugo Stiglitz · 08-03-2016 1:17pm

I got in touch with a counselling service yesterday. I think I've put it off for far too long now, and have caused myself a LOT of damage in many ways. I can't keep up like this, otherwise all will be lost.

Gremlinertia · 08-03-2016 2:34pm

Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »

I got in touch with a counselling service yesterday. I think I've put it off for far too long now, and have caused myself a LOT of damage in many ways. I can't keep up like this, otherwise all will be lost.

Well done man, take your time..

carzony · 08-03-2016 2:46pm

Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »

I got in touch with a counselling service yesterday.

Very similar to myself mate, I've gone so far now it's gonna be very hard to get back into any kind of normality. I decided this morning to take no **** from anyone because I've been walked over again and again. I called the Doctors office only to get the ignorant receptionist telling me the doctor was busy all day and won't be able to get back to me, so, I told her I was making a complaint about the doctor and the way patients were being treated. He called me back in 5 minutes with an apology and appointment for his afternoon.

Only thing that seems to work with these people is threatening with complaints and legal action...

bridgettedon · 08-03-2016 2:49pm

carzony wrote: »

Very similar to myself mate, I've gone so far now it's gonna be very hard to get back into any kind of normality. I decided this morning to take no **** from anyone because I've been walked over again and again. I called the Doctors office only to get the ignorant receptionist telling me the doctor was busy all day and won't be able to get back to me, so, I told her I was making a complaint about the doctor and the way patients were being treated. He called me back in 5 minutes with an apology and appointment for his afternoon.

Only thing that seems to work with these people is threatening with complaints and legal action...

Well done Carzony. You have every right to get first class care. I hope the apt goes well.

mickstupp · 08-03-2016 3:43pm

Oh I know precisely why I feel bad. That's not a problem. The problem is describing what 'bad' feels like. There are a lot of types of bad. The why is a doddle. Must think...

I mean depending on the day/hour/minute, there are physical, mental, emotional symptoms. Then other symptoms that I can't quite put in a particular box...

Scratching chin in thought.

Hugo Stiglitz · 08-03-2016 4:46pm

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Well done man, take your time..

Thanks, Grem. x

carzony wrote: »

Very similar to myself mate, I've gone so far now it's gonna be very hard to get back into any kind of normality. I decided this morning to take no **** from anyone because I've been walked over again and again. I called the Doctors office only to get the ignorant receptionist telling me the doctor was busy all day and won't be able to get back to me, so, I told her I was making a complaint about the doctor and the way patients were being treated. He called me back in 5 minutes with an apology and appointment for his afternoon.

Only thing that seems to work with these people is threatening with complaints and legal action...

Nicely done, Carzony! Sometimes you have to get a bit angry like that. I hope the appointment goes well for you, my friend.

mickstupp wrote: »

Oh I know precisely why I feel bad. That's not a problem. The problem is describing what 'bad' feels like. There are a lot of types of bad. The why is a doddle. Must think...

I mean depending on the day/hour/minute, there are physical, mental, emotional symptoms. Then other symptoms that I can't quite put in a particular box...

Scratching chin in thought.

It's the other symptoms can the the worst ones to put the finger on. Feel free to flesh them out here with us if you want.

carzony · 08-03-2016 5:12pm

He has given me Beta Blockers for now until a further assessment with the psychiatrist.

They are 'Half beta-prograne 80mg' anyone ever take them?

playedalive · 08-03-2016 6:11pm

I am so sick of anxiety and how it can just ruin my day. Slept in late as I struggled to get out of bed. Tried to keep myself occupied with making lunch and watching funny vids on youtube my friend sent me. Was in a calm mind after doing some mindfulness my counsellor prescribed. Was hoping to get out and practice driving (I'm a learner and just got insurance and lessons and all) when my Mum got home from work. Out of nowhere, I get terribly anxious in the car and I struggle to control the clutch, conk out and was overthinking it too much which meant driving around a quiet estate was a shambles. Just don't get why I make life so hard for myself.

:(

Hugo Stiglitz · 08-03-2016 6:15pm

playedalive wrote: »

I am so sick of anxiety and how it can just ruin my day. Slept in late as I struggled to get out of bed. Tried to keep myself occupied with making lunch and watching funny vids on youtube my friend sent me. Was in a calm mind after doing some mindfulness my counsellor prescribed. Was hoping to get out and practice driving (I'm a learner and just got insurance and lessons and all) when my Mum got home from work. Out of nowhere, I get terribly anxious in the car and I struggle to control the clutch, conk out and was overthinking it too much which meant driving around a quiet estate was a shambles. Just don't get why I make life so hard for myself. :(

So sorry to hear that you're going through that there.

You know, a lot of people, myself included, have the very same fear when it comes to driving. You will get better at controlling the clutch. In time, it'll become so natural for you.

I'm glad to hear that you were able to get yourself into a nice place with the mindfulness. I really need to get myself into that actually.

whatismyname · 08-03-2016 9:38pm

Hi everyone. Triggers galore tonight... Isn't the world great?

(Not)

Tucked up in bed with hot water bottle, and time to escape soon hopefully to sleepy land, yay.

Hope all as ok as possible.

Hugo Stiglitz · 08-03-2016 9:42pm

whatismyname wrote: »

Hi everyone. Triggers galore tonight... Isn't the world great? (Not)

Tucked up in bed with hot water bottle, and time to escape soon hopefully to sleepy land, yay.

Hope all as ok as possible.

Hopefully a good snooze will do the trick there.

whatismyname · 08-03-2016 9:44pm

Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »

Hopefully a good snooze will do the trick there.

Sleep really can be a great help. Gonna stick on some tv first though as it's a bit early yet. How are you doing?

Hugo Stiglitz · 08-03-2016 9:47pm

whatismyname wrote: »

Sleep really can be a great help. Gonna stick on some tv first though as it's a bit early yet. How are you doing?

A bit poopy recently but not too bad tonight though. Thanks for asking.

How's the week treating you so far otherwise?

whatismyname · 08-03-2016 9:50pm

Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »

A bit poopy recently but not too bad tonight though. Thanks for asking.

How's the week treating you so far otherwise?

Saw you were struggling a bit, so glad you're a bit better tonight.

Em, head's not great tonight ,but probably not been too bad overall. I shouldn't complain really.

Hugo Stiglitz · 08-03-2016 9:54pm

whatismyname wrote: »

Saw you were struggling a bit, so glad you're a bit better tonight.

Em, head's not great tonight ,but probably not been too bad overall. I shouldn't complain really.

Thanks.

Complain all you want. Sometimes that works wonders!

whatismyname · 08-03-2016 9:58pm

Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »

Thanks.

Complain all you want. Sometimes that works wonders!

Aye, I promise I do complain a lot, lol

But just meaning, I do have a lot of positives, so really trying to focus on those at the moment, rather than getting caught up in the bad stuff.

Hugo Stiglitz · 08-03-2016 9:59pm

whatismyname wrote: »

Aye, I promise I do complain a lot, lol

But just meaning, I do have a lot of positives, so really trying to focus on those at the moment, rather than getting caught up in the bad stuff.

Good way of looking at it!

whatismyname · 08-03-2016 10:03pm

Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »

Good way of looking at it!

Much easier said than done though of course, but there's just reasons why for me right now it's something I need to try hard to focus on.

Hugo Stiglitz · 08-03-2016 10:05pm

whatismyname wrote: »

Much easier said than done though of course, but there's just reasons why for me right now it's something I need to try hard to focus on.

Something to keep you motivated.

playedalive · 08-03-2016 10:12pm

Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »

So sorry to hear that you're going through that there.

You know, a lot of people, myself included, have the very same fear when it comes to driving. You will get better at controlling the clutch. In time, it'll become so natural for you.

I'm glad to hear that you were able to get yourself into a nice place with the mindfulness. I really need to get myself into that actually.

Thanks Hugo. It's just frustrating learning to drive and how anxiety can be triggered just like that. It makes concentrating difficult but I'm determined to work on it despite being frustrated by my nerves.

mickstupp · 08-03-2016 11:24pm

whatismyname wrote: »

Hi everyone. Triggers galore tonight... Isn't the world great? (Not)

Tucked up in bed with hot water bottle, and time to escape soon hopefully to sleepy land, yay.

Hope all as ok as possible.

Yes, me too. Hope you're alright.

Hugo Stiglitz · 09-03-2016 12:11am

Fingers crossed tomorrow will be a better day for us all.

get a room · 09-03-2016 12:30am

im like a temperature guage dropping by 5 degrees every day, heading for zero. i can see the minus numbers approaching fast,
very tired.

StripedBoxers · 09-03-2016 2:46am

Lady is a tramp wrote: »

What kind of work are you doing with your OT, if you don't mind me asking? Had my first appointment with mine today ... hard to know where to start!

StripedBoxers wrote: »

Yeah sure no bother. I'm eating right now but I'll do up a post and come back with it in a bit

If you've any other questions etc feel free to ask

Quick update: I am still working on this post, its quite detailed and lengthy as I am trying to include everything so far and explain in detail for those who may be interested.

If anyone has any questions feel free to ask and I'll try to answer them as best I can

StripedBoxers · 09-03-2016 2:47am

I hope you guys are doing okay, I hope you all get some rest tonight and hopefully tomorrow is a better, happier day for you all, even if its in a small way, its still something positive

Gremlinertia · 09-03-2016 10:21am

Name a stress related thing and i have it this morning. Muscular pain, intrusive thoughts, sick stomach, trembling etc etc. It's a lovely day outside and i can't pull it together at all. Last dbt group today has me in a panic.

get a room · 09-03-2016 10:40am

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Name a stress related thing and i have it this morning. Muscular pain, intrusive thoughts, sick stomach, trembling etc etc. It's a lovely day outside .

same here.
sick of people wanting me to sort their problems.

have to ask - whats the point?

09-03-2016 8:04pm

Hi folks, I'm new to this thread. Never had issues with anxiety or depression until recently, but I've had a very tough 18 months involving a very sudden long term relationship break-up, two very sick parents (one of whom is mentally unstable and is preventing the other to be cared for properly), and various work problems. I kept on ploughing through as best I could but last week something just snapped and I felt like I was going to crack.

I went to the doctor and got signed off for this week and got prescribed anxiety medication which I'm trying to only take when absolutely necessary. Got invited for a job interview today and I made an excuse not to go even though it's the perfect job for me. I've berated myself all day even though I know I'm just not up to it right now. Just feeling very low at the moment. Thanks for letting me vent, most 'normal' people just don't get it and think you can just snap out of it, but the fact that I can't snap out of it makes me feel even worse.

Hugo Stiglitz · 09-03-2016 8:15pm

Flying Fox wrote: »

Hi folks, I'm new to this thread. Never had issues with anxiety or depression until recently, but I've had a very tough 18 months involving a very sudden long term relationship break-up, two very sick parents (one of whom is mentally unstable and is preventing the other to be cared for properly), and various work problems. I kept on ploughing through as best I could but last week something just snapped and I felt like I was going to crack.

I went to the doctor and got signed off for this week and got prescribed anxiety medication which I'm trying to only take when absolutely necessary. Got invited for a job interview today and I made an excuse not to go even though it's the perfect job for me. I've berated myself all day even though I know I'm just not up to it right now. Just feeling very low at the moment. Thanks for letting me vent, most 'normal' people just don't get it and think you can just snap out of it, but the fact that I can't snap out of it makes me feel even worse.

Welcome to the thread.

It sounds like you've been through the mill there.

Vent all you want here, friend. Perfect place for it. Also good for advice, support and some comradeship too.

09-03-2016 10:22pm

Thanks Hugo, appreciate it. Hope you're well today.

Euphoria Intensifies · 09-03-2016 10:39pm

Welcome aboard Flying Fox!

Lads I am as high as a kite tonight

(as in hyper/manic, not drugs related). Intense mood swings are some craic. I think it's because my sleep has been so **** recently.

Love to all of yous <3333

ongarboy · 10-03-2016 12:39am

I thought this video was excellent and inspirational. The future is bright if we have fine young lads like this being so honest and open and breaking down the taboos for everyone who suffers.

http://www.independent.ie/life/health-wellbeing/mental-health/students-in-limerick-post-inspirational-video-on-how-they-overcame-depression-and-anxiety-34524669.html

Turtle_ · 10-03-2016 1:38pm

Climbing the dosage ladder. Fml.

StripedBoxers · 10-03-2016 4:36pm

An absolutely horrid day today for my depression and anxiety.

I am jumpy, edgy, in horrid bad form.

Overheard someone calling me a "useless lump" and since then I've been fighting back the tears.

I feel useless enough as it is, without hearing someone say it about it.

Gael23 · 10-03-2016 8:19pm

Two years ago today I woke up at 6:00 in the morning with the most excruciating stomach pain I have ever had in my life. The following 18 months were a rollercoaster with a few ups and downs along the way. At that point I was just about to finish my degree, which I did with a result that in no way reflected my ability.
Now I'm well on track with getting my health back, and I got accepted onto a masters degree which will hopefully under shadow my poor results from before.

My message is whatever situation you come up against, there is ALWAYS light at the end of it. It's not always easy to see, I know that morning when I was in n agony with blood coming from places it shouldn't, I certainly didn't see the other side. Now I've gone back to college, hopefully gotten control of my health in ways I never did before and most importantly f all been spurred on to challenge my body to do things I wouldn't have done before that day,

bridgettedon · 10-03-2016 8:28pm

StripedBoxers wrote: »

An absolutely horrid day today for my depression and anxiety.

I am jumpy, edgy, in horrid bad form.

Overheard someone calling me a "useless lump" and since then I've been fighting back the tears.

I feel useless enough as it is, without hearing someone say it about it.

Who said that about you? I'm annoyed on your behalf. Some people are so ignorant.

bridgettedon · 10-03-2016 8:34pm

Turtle_ wrote: »

Climbing the dosage ladder. Fml.

Honestly it's only a number. The way I look at it is that my body isn't producing enough of these chemicals therefore I need medication. It's a biological reason. Side effects can be sh@te though.

Had a bad enough day at work. Some people are so arrogant and rude. I wanted to punch someone in the face. Was so angry earlier. Have calmed down a bit now. I've put in an informal complaint of this person but if the situation happens again I will make a formal complaint. It makes me feel bad but this person has a terrible attitude.

Hugo Stiglitz · 10-03-2016 8:43pm

Sorry to hear that many of ye had a rough day there.

10-03-2016 9:14pm

I know the feeling with work, my boss is an absolute nightmare and has definitely contributed to my anxiety.

StripedBoxers, it's horrible when you hear someone criticise you, but a comment like that says more about the person making it than it does about you. I know it's upsetting though. I try to remind myself that everyone in life will have people they clash with, there's no getting away from it, and all you can do is be the best person you can be. If someone can be so nasty then you shouldn't care what they think (easier said than done I know).

StripedBoxers · 10-03-2016 9:33pm

bridgettedon wrote: »

Who said that about you? I'm annoyed on your behalf. Some people are so ignorant.

A very close relative said it. Its why it hurts so much.

They've seen me at my lowest points so I would have thought they'd have some understanding but nope. They themselves have depression so you'd imagine they would know better than to say things like that, but nope.

Flying Fox wrote: »

I know the feeling with work, my boss is an absolute nightmare and has definitely contributed to my anxiety.

StripedBoxers, it's horrible when you hear someone criticise you, but a comment like that says more about the person making it than it does about you. I know it's upsetting though. I try to remind myself that everyone in life will have people they clash with, there's no getting away from it, and all you can do is be the best person you can be. If someone can be so nasty then you shouldn't care what they think (easier said than done I know).

I wish I would, its a continuous thing with putting me down, insulting me etc.

A guy showed interest in me not long ago and the first thing my relative said was "what does he see in you?" and pointed out all my flaws. Not one positive thing about was pointed out. Not one.

Thanks for the kind words you guys, really appreciate them.

Hugo Stiglitz · 10-03-2016 9:40pm

That sounds horrible, Boxers.

10-03-2016 9:47pm

Is there any way you could take a bit of a break from this person for a little while? If he/she asks why, say it's because you're not prepared to accept being constantly insulted, and you need to look after yourself.

Unfortunately, sometimes the people who damage us are our own family. What your relative said is emotional abuse.

bridgettedon · 10-03-2016 10:09pm

StripedBoxers wrote: »

A very close relative said it. Its why it hurts so much.

They've seen me at my lowest points so I would have thought they'd have some understanding but nope. They themselves have depression so you'd imagine they would know better than to say things like that, but nope.

I wish I would, its a continuous thing with putting me down, insulting me etc.

A guy showed interest in me not long ago and the first thing my relative said was "what does he see in you?" and pointed out all my flaws. Not one positive thing about was pointed out. Not one.

Thanks for the kind words you guys, really appreciate them.

Have you tried speaking to them about this. My mom can be very straight forward in what she says sometimes. I feel she was constantly forcing me to do things so I told her that her behaviour was very upsetting to me. She has backed off a bit.

What your relative is saying is not nice at all. You could do the same back to them if you think that would work.

StripedBoxers · 10-03-2016 11:33pm

Flying Fox wrote: »

Is there any way you could take a bit of a break from this person for a little while? If he/she asks why, say it's because you're not prepared to accept being constantly insulted, and you need to look after yourself.

Unfortunately, sometimes the people who damage us are our own family. What your relative said is emotional abuse.

Unfortunately not, I wish I could. Have told them several times about their behaviour, it makes no difference. None at all. I've even pointed out some of the positive things about and got a grunt in response as if to say I think I'm great or something.

bridgettedon wrote: »

Have you tried speaking to them about this. My mom can be very straight forward in what she says sometimes. I feel she was constantly forcing me to do things so I told her that her behaviour was very upsetting to me. She has backed off a bit.

What your relative is saying is not nice at all. You could do the same back to them if you think that would work.

I have indeed spoken, several times, no notice is taken the insults, behaviour continue.

No point doing the same back as much as I'd love to at times, it'd make things worse and I'd rather not lower myself to their level and resort to insulting them to get my point across.

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