Anxiety and/or depression discussion.

Roquentin · 21-07-2014 12:05pm

GeneralC wrote: »

I don't think you need "chemicals" to treat severe anxiety. However, some people may need them.

a psychologist may work. medication will definitely work. The only problem is you build up tolerance pretty quickly

GeneralC · 21-07-2014 1:16pm

Roquentin wrote: »

a psychologist may work. medication will definitely work. The only problem is you build up tolerance pretty quickly

I disagree with medication definitely working. A lot of people I have spoke to in various support groups have tried many different medications, and either they have not worked for them, or they have found their anxiety to be actually worse.

Now, I' am sure medication does work for a lot of people, and that's fair enough, but I don't think they will "definitely" work

Roquentin · 21-07-2014 2:50pm

GeneralC wrote: »

I disagree with medication definitely working. A lot of people I have spoke to in various support groups have tried many different medications, and either they have not worked for them, or they have found their anxiety to be actually worse.

Now, I' am sure medication does work for a lot of people, and that's fair enough, but I don't think they will "definitely" work

well you build up tolerance and need new ones. Thats for the one that act fast.

The anti depressents take a while to work and can actually make you more anxious initially.

If the meds dont work, your in trouble because meds are far more powerful than words.

handbagmad · 21-07-2014 3:59pm

I think medication certainly does work. Im still here to tell the tale thanks to meds. There are literally 100's of ones on the market so trial and error for most people.

Now I was never a fan of talking therapy all my life till I clicked with my now therapist.
Combination of both is ideal

GeneralC · 21-07-2014 4:37pm

without giving medical advice, I'm just looking for personal opinions/feedback, can you guys, who were or are on medication tell me how it has improved your life? What can you do now, that you couldn't do before?

Roquentin · 21-07-2014 6:29pm

GeneralC wrote: »

without giving medical advice, I'm just looking for personal opinions/feedback, can you guys, who were or are on medication tell me how it has improved your life? What can you do now, that you couldn't do before?

sleep for one.

There is no golden bullet that is suddenly going to change your life into the one you dream. But the medication does help keep the demons at bay. That said you still have to go out and achieve. Medication wont do that, it just provides a platform to build on.

Gremlinertia · 21-07-2014 7:12pm

GeneralC wrote: »

without giving medical advice, I'm just looking for personal opinions/feedback, can you guys, who were or are on medication tell me how it has improved your life? What can you do now, that you couldn't do before?

Live.. That's all. As roq said it can provide a platform, I tend to see medication, if it works for you, as a crutch or sling that enables you operate despite an issue or limitation..

In my particular case medication has definitely allowed me continue in the outside world. And it has also prevented me succumbing to the voices and demons that would drive me to suicide.

Don't get me wrong though, as I said this is what it has done for me personally, the same cannot be said for anyone else since this is something that lives in your brain and each one of us has a unique brain that can and will respond differently to the same stimuli

handbagmad · 21-07-2014 10:31pm

Meaningful and deep are her heart and mind,
And yet she weeps.
A rugged path to her destination, filled with despair and hope.
A journey that is hers and hers alone,
Her spirit strong to guide the way.
With life and breath for another day.

.......

Hugo Stiglitz · 21-07-2014 10:34pm

I agree with G above.

For myself medication has had a huge affect on me however it is unfortunately far from a cure: it allows me to operate my life mostly (leave the house, go to work etc) but I still get low moods and anxiety still (but not as bad as when I was unmedicated). For this I am grateful however at times I really resent it as it's like it allows me to keep on being miserable at times, albeit to a lesser degree than before.

dobz95 · 21-07-2014 10:46pm

Anxiety/Depression. When I was first told I had a generalised anxiety disorder I was not surprised as I also have a tic disorder. I'm 19 years old now and Depression is something I have as well but I have been told a few months ago its only 'moderate depression' so I like to think I have improved in that sense. The medication that worked best for me I felt was actually Lexapro! even though I was taken off that recently because I was on it for 13 months and my doc said "its not doing much good is it?" but I guess he is right and because I can't be mixing medication as I have new medication for a different matter and my psychiatrist is going to probably give me new medication my gp with in the next month or two. I am clean from Self-H for over 80 days now so thats something I have to admit I actually for once can say I am proud!
I feel as I get older words like anxiety and depression are just words on a list of problems I have now. It sucks. Counselling has been good to me my psychiatrist showed me reports from my counsellor and my counsellor says I have improved since I first walked through her doors in 2012!

Hugo Stiglitz · 21-07-2014 11:02pm

Well done for not self harming Dobz

Gremlinertia · 21-07-2014 11:07pm

I'm with Hugo there - well done on the self harm front. It's hard to stop.. Anyway welcome to thread, least I don't think I've seen you here before.. :-)

dobz95 · 21-07-2014 11:13pm

Thanks folks! I agree its hard to stop, I don't even have pencil-sharpeners knocking about my room anymore stopped it all! Feels good to be able to wear short sleeves top again too!

worded · 21-07-2014 11:16pm

This fellow is very interesting / imaginative - hope you enjoy it

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=rj34nSnxg6c

Gremlinertia · 21-07-2014 11:18pm

It's exactly the "little" things like that that make things a small bit easier.. Wearing long sleeves in this heat is a reminder, and in my case anyway, I tend to feel guilty or ashamed. So well done Dobz, here's to another eighty!.

blackkeyes · 21-07-2014 11:34pm

Hello everybody.
I'm going to keep this short. I just need some advice.
My friend admitted to me and another person that she cuts her leg and showed them to us and broke down in front of us. It was the first time she had ever let anyone know how she feels and we're the only ones that know. The other guy gets therapy for his own problems. I haven't done anything about this since I found out and we haven't even talked about it.
What should I do?
She's 18.. I am starting to realise this is now my responsibility to help her.
But how?

Gremlinertia · 21-07-2014 11:44pm

blackkeyes wrote: »

Hello everybody.
I'm going to keep this short. I just need some advice.
My friend admitted to me and another person that she cuts her leg and showed them to us and broke down in front of us. It was the first time she had ever let anyone know how she feels and we're the only ones that know. The other guy gets therapy for his own problems. I haven't done anything about this since I found out and we haven't even talked about it.
What should I do?
She's 18.. I am starting to realise this is now my responsibility to help her.
But how?

Hi, well done for asking advice - there's a sticky at the top of the page with many numbers and addresses for various bodies that can help in this situation. Your friend has made a huge first step in admitting this to you, hopefully she will be able to avail of something that pieta house in particular can help with, as she is exactly the person they want to help.. If you need further advice or help don't hesitate to post, or if you prefer you can pm.. Something to bear in mind also - this is a stressful situation for you too, make sure you stay well..

dobz95 · 21-07-2014 11:45pm

Gremlinertia wrote: »

It's exactly the "little" things like that that make things a small bit easier.. Wearing long sleeves in this heat is a reminder, and in my case anyway, I tend to feel guilty or ashamed. So well done Dobz, here's to another eighty!.

cheers Gremlinertia to another 80 is right! sorry to hear that the wearing of long sleeves and how its guilty or ashamed, I know exactly that feeling as you can imagine! I've realised its a feel but you have nothing to be guilty or ashamed about! You and I and all others must remember we are all worth more then any piece of metal we put against or skin!

dobz95 · 21-07-2014 11:58pm

blackkeyes wrote: »

Hello everybody.
I'm going to keep this short. I just need some advice.
My friend admitted to me and another person that she cuts her leg and showed them to us and broke down in front of us. It was the first time she had ever let anyone know how she feels and we're the only ones that know. The other guy gets therapy for his own problems. I haven't done anything about this since I found out and we haven't even talked about it.
What should I do?
She's 18.. I am starting to realise this is now my responsibility to help her.
But how?

I also have been in a position similar in which somebody has SH and only told me about it. It stressful for you and even more so for the person! there are many many reputable websites that can give you great help in helping your friend. Tell her there are sites soo, places on line to anonymously talk to people about it and get feedback. Afew, I suppose helping points you could look at are:
- Ask how they are feeling
- Do not be judgemental
- Do not make them feel guilty about the effect it is having on others
- Let the person who self-harms know that you want to listen to them and hear how they are feeling when they feel ready and able to talk.
- When they do discuss it with you be compassionate and respect what the person is telling you, even though you may not understand or find it difficult to accept what they are doing.
- Do not give ultimatums such as 'If you don't stop self-harming you have to move out'. This is not helpful and it won't work.
- Understand that it is a long and hard journey to stop self-harming. Be aware that someone will only stop self-harming when they feel ready and able to do so.

and remember, "Look at the individual, not the harm. Look at the person beyond the scars. Scars are not important. The person that did them is important."

blackkeyes · 22-07-2014 12:12am

I am pretty understanding and I think she knows that. I'm aware of how common mental health issues are and I've other friends with depression and anxiety. Even though I'm a pretty content person, I do worry sometimes because these are people I care about. Thank you for your replies!
I feel the need to do something to help this particular friend though because I'm the only person who can right now.

Gremlinertia · 22-07-2014 12:49am

Try not to get too bogged down, ok?. Also aware are a good group for people like you that want to support a friend.. if you are based roughly near a city you'll have one group or another within close range. Fair play to you, mind yourself..

stinkle · 22-07-2014 4:05pm

Jeeeeeeez. Anxiety has hit me like a ton of bricks today. I've had a good few weeks, had some nice things going on and despite stress was doing ok. I was away and felt meh going back to work. I've made the decision to finish up work at the end of this month - I'm hopefully emigrating in Sept/Oct, which is a whole other post.

I've spent a lot of time stressing over my current job and while I had a chance to stay on for a bit and keep earning, I feel I owe it to myself to take some time out. Anyone close to me who knows my situation agrees that I need some space from this toxic place. However, I am now feeling pressured to get lots done (there;s stuff I can trust other people to take over after I'm gone), and I think my current boss may be annoyed I'm not staying. I know I'm probably being my usual hard on myself and I really dont care what anyone thinks of me - I know my mind well enough to realise that I need to look after my physical and mental health, and another few weeks in that place will burn me out.

Kinda needed to vent there. I went for a walk earlier but felt just as bad when I got back to my desk. Im working late and was in early and really just want to cry/sleep. Ive found some Xanax in my bag that I didnt know I packed and am tempted to take one but am afraid I'll fall asleep here! Breathing is only helping so much too. Hate feeling like this

Roquentin · 22-07-2014 4:45pm

stinkle wrote: »

Jeeeeeeez. Anxiety has hit me like a ton of bricks today. I've had a good few weeks, had some nice things going on and despite stress was doing ok. I was away and felt meh going back to work. I've made the decision to finish up work at the end of this month - I'm hopefully emigrating in Sept/Oct, which is a whole other post.

I've spent a lot of time stressing over my current job and while I had a chance to stay on for a bit and keep earning, I feel I owe it to myself to take some time out. Anyone close to me who knows my situation agrees that I need some space from this toxic place. However, I am now feeling pressured to get lots done (there;s stuff I can trust other people to take over after I'm gone), and I think my current boss may be annoyed I'm not staying. I know I'm probably being my usual hard on myself and I really dont care what anyone thinks of me - I know my mind well enough to realise that I need to look after my physical and mental health, and another few weeks in that place will burn me out.

Kinda needed to vent there. I went for a walk earlier but felt just as bad when I got back to my desk. Im working late and was in early and really just want to cry/sleep. Ive found some Xanax in my bag that I didnt know I packed and am tempted to take one but am afraid I'll fall asleep here! Breathing is only helping so much too. Hate feeling like this

i just keep picturing the horizon (emigration). Maybe that might help you feel better.

Anxiety is a strange thing. Despite what people think there is no flick on/off switch. If there was sports athletes would not feel pressure or that moment before exams would be much nicer.

stinkle · 22-07-2014 5:03pm

Very true! Oddly you should mention exams, I've even been having anxious dreams lately, some involving exams! Am a little bit better cos I distracted myself. Maybe going for a walk in that heat wasnt that helpful really. I did some "emigration planning" there and it helped too, as opposed to making me even more overwhelmed! I was a little sad walking around too, knowing Ill be leaving my home at some stage. The sad/happy is ebbing and flowing.

I've gone from definitely taking anxiety meds later to probably not. I'm defo gonna shower and read a book - no tv, no internet, no work thoughts.

I found out earlier that I've to speak at a meeting this week and I'm v underprepared for it - I said in my last post I'm always v hard on myself so its prob not that bad. It was kinda sprung on me which is why I think my boss isnt best pleased with me. I guess I dont want my last few days here to be even more negative than they already are. I've been away a lot and had a lot on, so I doubt much is even expected of me at this meeting, but as usual I feel pressured (by myself) to do well. I'm only human *breathe*

Roquentin · 22-07-2014 5:28pm

stinkle wrote: »

Very true! Oddly you should mention exams, I've even been having anxious dreams lately, some involving exams! Am a little bit better cos I distracted myself. Maybe going for a walk in that heat wasnt that helpful really. I did some "emigration planning" there and it helped too, as opposed to making me even more overwhelmed! I was a little sad walking around too, knowing Ill be leaving my home at some stage. The sad/happy is ebbing and flowing.

I've gone from definitely taking anxiety meds later to probably not. I'm defo gonna shower and read a book - no tv, no internet, no work thoughts.

I found out earlier that I've to speak at a meeting this week and I'm v underprepared for it - I said in my last post I'm always v hard on myself so its prob not that bad. It was kinda sprung on me which is why I think my boss isnt best pleased with me. I guess I dont want my last few days here to be even more negative than they already are. I've been away a lot and had a lot on, so I doubt much is even expected of me at this meeting, but as usual I feel pressured (by myself) to do well. I'm only human *breathe*

Those meetings alright drove me insane when i was on placement in college. I quickly realized the professional life wasnt for me given the anxiety i felt. Wouldnt be able to sleep and was drinking and smoking like a tank.

I remember speaking to man who was retired and we were discussing some suicide of recent and he was saying we all take to stress differently. some people can handle mortgages, family, work and the whole lot, while others cant.

I consider myself fortunate that i found out my limitations pretty early on. I have a poor tolerance of stress, very poor. If i had to pay a mortgage and work in a professional job, id lose it. I just cant take that level of stress.

Looking for minimum wage jobs now. I probably wont have as much money, but i will be happy and thats what matters.

All i can say is dont worry, you wont be seeing these people for a long time or perhaps ever again.

stinkle · 22-07-2014 5:38pm

True, its a silly thing to worry about. I got a hard time the last time I spoke and havent much else to talk about since - the more up-to-date information will be like a red rag to a bull in terms of certain people giving me grief so I guess that's why I'm antsy.

I genuinely thought about opting out of this career today alright, I know exactly where youre coming from re: being on less money but happy. I dont even know if I'll get social welfare once I finish, but I dont care at this stage. I may go see a doc soon but I also know this job is a huge trigger for my anxiety and hopefully once I'm free it'll help.

Thanks for the support, it means a lot when someone can relate to a post! Are you emigrating too?

Roquentin · 22-07-2014 5:53pm

stinkle wrote: »

True, its a silly thing to worry about. I got a hard time the last time I spoke and havent much else to talk about since - the more up-to-date information will be like a red rag to a bull in terms of certain people giving me grief so I guess that's why I'm antsy.

I genuinely thought about opting out of this career today alright, I know exactly where youre coming from re: being on less money but happy. I dont even know if I'll get social welfare once I finish, but I dont care at this stage. I may go see a doc soon but I also know this job is a huge trigger for my anxiety and hopefully once I'm free it'll help.

Thanks for the support, it means a lot when someone can relate to a post! Are you emigrating too?

Looking at the cork or dublin next although the rents are so high in dublin its not economical. I have been eyeing up the uk for a while alright.

Dont think il go as far as canada or austrailia given my mentality.

Really dying to get doing labour work like on the buildings or something. That would suit me down to the ground. Feel guilty being paid for doing nothing.

Actually to cheer you up there is a film called Office Space. Really funny about a guy whose working in a job he hates. its on netflix. worth checking out.

stinkle · 22-07-2014 5:59pm

Ooh I miht watch it later alright, love chilling with a movie rather than faffing on internet or channel surfing. Less than an hour to go in work, yippee!!!

handbagmad · 22-07-2014 11:25pm

This motherfukin heat is insane or driving me insane.
Come back winter,all is forgiven

Hugo Stiglitz · 22-07-2014 11:29pm

handbagmad wrote: »

This motherfukin heat is insane or driving me insane.
Come back winter,all is forgiven

Yeah I don't function good in this weather lol

handbagmad · 22-07-2014 11:32pm

Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »

Yeah I don't function good in this weather lol

I don't know what to do with myself.
The dog has the right idea, sleeping on the tiles in the bathroom, may just join him

NegativeCreep · 22-07-2014 11:32pm

Was just about to post about the heat. Makes me feel like I can't breath and anxiety gets a million times worse. Had friends over and had to rush them out the door because it was so bad

sick of this. Trip to the doctor tomorrow maybe

Hugo Stiglitz · 22-07-2014 11:33pm

handbagmad wrote: »

I don't know what to do with myself.
The dog has the right idea, sleeping on the tiles in the bathroom, may just join him

Sounds like a plan to me

Esel · 22-07-2014 11:58pm

Not often I would recommend a night on the tiles, but in the current climate...

Sleeping with just a sheet for cover might work too.

Hugo Stiglitz · 23-07-2014 12:20am

Esel wrote: »

Not often I would recommend a night on the tiles, but in the current climate...

Sleeping with just a sheet for cover might work too.

I might sleep without the covers altogether

NightOwl88 · 23-07-2014 4:31am

Arli folks,been spooking this forum for a while,it never ceases to amaze me how everybody understands what everyone else... I been going thru very bad six months,nearly killed my self in January,broke up with my Oh,moved out... Got put on suspension in work for wild and completely untrue allegation one of my x's friends made,and the process to clear my name has been so long and drawn out buy senior management.. We all know what big companies are like so won't bore ye any more with details..;-)
Anyway,I'm on here first to thank u all,reading how u guys open up and talked and help each other.. makes me realise that it's somethin I gotta do first and hopefully be able help some u folk out too,I definitely owe a debt!? Thanks folks

cloud493 · 23-07-2014 7:51am

I'm also sleeping on the floor in this weather. Wooden floor is much cooler than my bed.

Roquentin · 23-07-2014 11:25am

cloud493 wrote: »

I'm also sleeping on the floor in this weather. Wooden floor is much cooler than my bed.

i have a fan and leave the windows open. Stuffy as hell though i must admit

stinkle · 24-07-2014 8:09am

Feeling crap in anticipation of this stupid meeting. I never used to get like that, which annoys me all the more. Am telling myself that I can't control what other people will do or say and to just be strong in myself. I'm leaving soon and shoudlnt even care, but maybe I'd like to not finish up with a bad memory of the place.

Went to bed late cos I was working on this, but slept ok actually. Woke early feeling refreshed and it took a while for me to remember I had a rough day looming. Then the utter dread just kicked in, though as usual once I got up and kept busy it quashed it a little. Im considering taking an anti-anxiety med, but also want to see how I get on without, and I dont really want to be sleepy later on today.

Just want this hell to be over and make a fresh start. Maybe it's all for the best, I'll be happier about making the fresh start.

Roquentin · 24-07-2014 11:21am

stinkle wrote: »

Feeling crap in anticipation of this stupid meeting. I never used to get like that, which annoys me all the more. Am telling myself that I can't control what other people will do or say and to just be strong in myself. I'm leaving soon and shoudlnt even care, but maybe I'd like to not finish up with a bad memory of the place.

Went to bed late cos I was working on this, but slept ok actually. Woke early feeling refreshed and it took a while for me to remember I had a rough day looming. Then the utter dread just kicked in, though as usual once I got up and kept busy it quashed it a little. Im considering taking an anti-anxiety med, but also want to see how I get on without, and I dont really want to be sleepy later on today.

Just want this hell to be over and make a fresh start. Maybe it's all for the best, I'll be happier about making the fresh start.

i know the feeling. Thats why i jumped ship. Youd be anxious and then when you complete the meeting or project you feel better, but then the next project or meeting brings about the same anxiety.

I couldnt live like that. Other than meds its hard to treat. Maybe the new job will be less stressful.

What area of work are you employed in?

Gremlinertia · 24-07-2014 1:09pm

The fall out from my ex-friend's treachery is still coming, it's a continual kick in the teeth.

Roquentin · 24-07-2014 1:16pm

Gremlinertia wrote: »

The fall out from my ex-friend's treachery is still coming, it's a continual kick in the teeth.

sounds like youve got to go thermonuclear on their asses:pac:

Gremlinertia · 24-07-2014 1:23pm

Not worth it.. She's in so much denial that it'll be a waste of time.. However those around her have been informed..

Joya · 24-07-2014 2:07pm

well hi all, I'm quite new here so please pardon me if i do not manage to "fit in" properly : )
anyway i do fight with depression (and anxiety) for the last year and i can only say it is tough..
i started therapy in June last, on college with student counselor and it helped me lots but it was 8 sessions only and then you are on your own again.. she helped me all right, for when i met her first time i cried my eyes out to be honest..
i got divorced few years ago then i met this Irish boy and we were together for almost 5 years but boy how something so beautiful in the beginning turned into hell, i should not even start to describe what i went through.. anyway last March i finally managed to brake up and kick him out (he originally moved into my place).. not nice thing to say but that is the truth..
i also am an architect so lost my job due to recession and then started to study in IT sector so got an internship and i worked really hard for 8 months! they were promising me a job after 8 month expires even were telling me they are very happy with me and my work etc, just so that when i went home for a week holiday they sent me AN EMAIL saying they will have to let me go when the contract is over..
before that my mom died, and i somehow crashed.. i was just totally down.. totally no will to live at all..
anyway (sorry for this long post), i started therapy and she was suggesting meds but i was reluctant to that didn't want to start, but started to exercise, go for long walks etc, postponed some exams - had to - just to lower the stress levels, but in December i said okay i will try that, i had nothing else to try i guess
so i started meds (one of those serotonin inhibitors whatever they call it) and in first few weeks it was grand.
i managed to sleep and relax, as i really needed that. but afterwards symptoms started to come back and she increased my dose like from 10 to 20 to 30 to 40 what is max, but it didn't help honestly, i just became so sleepy i could not function at all. there were also some guys who wanted to date me but i was such a wreck i just couldn't do it..
so now i am getting myself off of that on my own. i already had few days totally clean from it, and it is not easy but i have to .. go back to life and do things like for example now study for these September's exams etc.
i also met a guy i started to like but since he's going to USA in December i decided not to do anything about it just to enjoy the higher energy i feel cause f him : ).. i don't think i was this good (meaning having good positive periods throughout the day) for a while now lol..
yes, low's are hunting me still and sometimes i just have to stoop and look at them and acknowledge them but i will continue.. as do not what else to do..
i said to myself not to entertain the suicide thoughts because i have a family that i love very very much and i just could not do that to them. never, ever.
huh, long post, i better stop here, even id like to type more

))), perhaps some other time.
anyway, just thought to say hi....

Roquentin · 24-07-2014 2:11pm

Joya wrote: »

well hi all, I'm quite new here so please pardon me if i do not manage to "fit in" properly : )
anyway i do fight with depression (and anxiety) for the last year and i can only say it is tough..
i started therapy in June last, on college with student counselor and it helped me lots but it was 8 sessions only and then you are on your own again.. she helped me all right, for when i met her first time i cried my eyes out to be honest..
i got divorced few years ago then i met this Irish boy and we were together for almost 5 years but boy how something so beautiful in the beginning turned into hell, i should not even start to describe what i went through.. anyway last March i finally managed to brake up and kick him out (he originally moved into my place).. not nice thing to say but that is the truth..
i also am an architect so lost my job due to recession and then started to study in IT sector so got an internship and i worked really hard for 8 months! they were promising me a job after 8 month expires even were telling me they are very happy with me and my work etc, just so that when i went home for a week holiday they sent me AN EMAIL saying they will have to let me go when the contract is over..
before that my mom died, and i somehow crashed.. i was just totally down.. totally no will to live at all..
anyway (sorry for this long post), i started therapy and she was suggesting meds but i was reluctant to that didn't want to start, but started to exercise, go for long walks etc, postponed some exams - had to - just to lower the stress levels, but in December i said okay i will try that, i had nothing else to try i guess
so i started meds (one of those serotonin inhibitors whatever they call it) and in first few weeks it was grand.
i managed to sleep and relax, as i really needed that. but afterwards symptoms started to come back and she increased my dose like from 10 to 20 to 30 to 40 what is max, but it didn't help honestly, i just became so sleepy i could not function at all. there were also some guys who wanted to date me but i was such a wreck i just couldn't do it..
so now i am getting myself off of that on my own. i already had few days totally clean from it, and it is not easy but i have to .. go back to life and do things like for example now study for these September's exams etc.
i also met a guy i started to like but since he's going to USA in December i decided not to do anything about it just to enjoy the higher energy i feel cause f him : ).. i don't think i was this good (meaning having good positive periods throughout the day) for a while now lol..
yes, low's are hunting me still and sometimes i just have to stoop and look at them and acknowledge them but i will continue.. as do not what else to do..
i said to myself not to entertain the suicide thoughts because i have a family that i love very very much and i just could not do that to them. never, ever.
huh, long post, i better stop here, even id like to type more ))), perhaps some other time.
anyway, just thought to say hi....

you should maybe take up cycling as well. really helps getting out in the country roads

Gremlinertia · 24-07-2014 2:11pm

Welcome to the thread Joya, you have really been through quite a bit there. You'll find plenty of stuff in common with a few of us here, post away..

Joya · 24-07-2014 2:16pm

Roquentin wrote: »

you should maybe take up cycling as well. really helps getting out in the country roads

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Welcome to the thread Joya, you have really been through quite a bit there. You'll find plenty of stuff in common with a few of us here, post away..

thanks guys, Roquentin id love to but i sold my bike last year cause i needed money lol and now well, my flatmate has a bike but its allways at his wrk : ) but if he brings it (he say hes just lazy and bus is easy) id ask hime for a ride or something, its a good feeling yes : )

Gremlinertia, yes i know, if you believe me that is not even all lol..

but really thanks for the welcome id be looking forward to talk with you here : )...

Hugo Stiglitz · 24-07-2014 2:31pm

Welcome to the thread here Joya. It sounds like you've had a rough few years there.

Suicide ideation is hard. I get it myself but the same reason as yourself stops me from continuing down that path.

Feel free to post here and join in the chats

Joya · 24-07-2014 2:39pm

Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »

Welcome to the thread here Joya. It sounds like you've had a rough few years there.

Suicide ideation is hard. I get it myself but the same reason as yourself stops me from continuing down that path.

Feel free to post here and join in the chats

thank you Hugo, rough few that's so very true, never saw that recession coming to be honest and yes it hit my industry the worst.. company i was working for was small but we tried to hang out as long as we could so my boss he was letting one after another go in the end he had to make me redundant as well..
anyway so i survived lol and am really hoping that some better years are coming ahead with the new job / industry etc. i started looking for a job too and it is stressful as well, you know they have like first round interview over the phone then you have to wait if they will call you for a face to face interview, then more wait if they will call you for a skills test etc.. i just hope to manage to go through all of that and find a good positive place to work at it would mean so much..
and to pass these 4 exams in sept.. then i'll go for some next step, like to finish professional exam at ucd for architecture that i started as well but kind of left when it all crushed...

ps. this is pulling i again wrote lots but didn't think to lol ill take better care next time i promise : )))

Hugo Stiglitz · 24-07-2014 2:46pm

Joya wrote: »

thank you Hugo, rough few that's so very true, never saw that recession coming to be honest and yes it hit my industry the worst.. company i was working for was small but we tried to hang out as long as we could so my boss he was letting one after another go in the end he had to make me redundant as well..
anyway so i survived lol and am really hoping that some better years are coming ahead with the new job / industry etc. i started looking for a job too and it is stressful as well, you know they have like first round interview over the phone then you have to wait if they will call you for a face to face interview, then more wait if they will call you for a skills test etc.. i just hope to manage to go through all of that and find a good positive place to work at it would mean so much..
and to pass these 4 exams in sept.. then i'll go for some next step, like to finish professional exam at ucd for architecture that i started as well but kind of left when it all crushed...

ps. this is pulling i again wrote lots but didn't think to lol ill take better care next time i promise : )))

No need to apologise, there's no grammar nazis in here!

I only got a job myself a few months back. The interviews etc can wreak havoc on the mind.

Best of luck with the exams. I'm sure you'll ace them!

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