Have you ever had depression?

hitlersson666 · 16-01-2010 8:28pm #1

well seeing as this is c&h and theres lots of teenagers like me on it i wondering if any of ye had/have depression... i had but it kinda went away after a lovely* vist to warrenstown :P also do you think the treatment of it is right???

*sarcasam

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Michellenman · 16-01-2010 9:11pm

Personally I haven't but I've had a good few friends my ages who have had.

Piste · 16-01-2010 9:18pm

A lot of people think they have depression, but aren't clinically diagnosed so can't really know. On the flip side there are also people who think they're just a bit down when in reality they're depressed and help is available for them.

Luno · 16-01-2010 10:08pm

Tbh, I would think I'm a fairly depressed person but I'm open about it. I've a negative approach to things in life and ask myself why bother. I feel I'm a complex person and I have my ups and downs. Never in between though
I've been recommended to go to a councilor but I didn't quite feel the need for it so just forgot about it.
In general I would think most people have times when they are depressed but it passes.

hitlersson666 · 16-01-2010 10:21pm

i had a counsiler but it was crap tbh lately i have been down a bit over a personal situtation

KnifeWRENCH · 16-01-2010 10:36pm

Yes, I have. It's not fun.
In my case it was only "mild" depression, so I can't even begin to imagine what serious depression is like. Have been prescribed Lexapro since November; it's only in the last few weeks that I've felt any noticeable improvement though.

It's a good topic to discuss; depression is one of things that has an unnecessary stigma attached to it. I understand people who have or who have had it may be reluctant to admit to it to people but personally I've no problem being honest and open about it. It's absolutely nothing to be ashamed of.

hitlersson666 · 16-01-2010 10:44pm

KnifeWRENCH wrote: »

Yes, I have. It's not fun.
In my case it was only "mild" depression, so I can't even begin to imagine what serious depression is like. Have been prescribed Lexapro since November; it's only in the last few weeks that I've felt any noticeable improvement though.

It's a good topic to discuss; depression is one of things that has an unnecessary stigma attached to it. I understand people who have or who have had it may be reluctant to admit to it to people but personally I've no problem being honest and open about it. It's absolutely nothing to be ashamed of.

i would love help but them my foster home would tell my parents

i cant wait for the law reform comission report to hopefully be implemented so i can go to a docter or just wait 6 monts........

jumpguy · 16-01-2010 10:47pm

I've always been up and down, mostly I find when I'm bored and idle for a long period of time I get down. Then there's some things in life which would bring me down unexpectedly. But tbh, one thing I've learned is that these things pass over and you get on good again.

One thing I found was when I started playing more sports and began regular jogging etc, I felt alot better. It makes me wonder just how much of it depends on lifestyle (for me personally).

On the flip-side, when I'm in good form I'm quite happy, between school, sports, and social life things I've a good bit to do, I've good friends, I'm not afraid to talk to good friends really.

So it really depends on how you define depression. Is it feeling down now and then for a period of time or is it down 24/7? Life is highs and lows, and the teens are difficult times anyway.

Ginja Ninja · 16-01-2010 10:50pm

I've been meaning to bring this up for a while,always thought it'd be a bit too sore for some people.

I've a strong history of suicide in my family, so yes,I get depressed a bit every now and then, I've only been seriously depressed about 3 times in my life.I'm talking suicide country,however thanks to some stuff that happened in my family a few years back that will never be a justifiable thought in my mind after seeing it's effects first hand.
Oddly,the event probably bring on a downer for me and I've too much pride to see a doctor,It sucks when you're in it.But I know I'll never do any damage from it so I don't bother looking about it[it'd ruin my parents too]

also,"Have you ever have depression" isn't a valid title

*

*yeah,I'm a pain.I know

EDIT: How Ironic is this for post 666?

hitlersson666 · 16-01-2010 11:01pm

Ginja Ninja wrote: »

I've been meaning to bring this up for a while,always thought it'd be a bit too sore for some people.

I've a strong history of suicide in my family, so yes,I get depressed a bit every now and then, I've only been seriously depressed about 3 times in my life.I'm talking suicide country,however thanks to some stuff that happened in my family a few years back that will never be a justifiable thought in my mind after seeing it's effects first hand.
Oddly,the event probably bring on a downer for me and I've too much pride to see a doctor,It sucks when you're in it.But I know I'll never do any damage from it so I don't bother looking about it[it'd ruin my parents too]

also,"Have you ever have depression" isn't a valid title *

*yeah,I'm a pain.I know

opps sorry could u edit it for me lol also i have a history of sucide in my family but sometimes i do get '' them thoughts'' but i try to ignore them so far oh also ur on post 666 lol

Edit: very ironic lol also concidering it was aimed at me as well (hitlersson666) haha

Ginja Ninja · 16-01-2010 11:06pm

hitlersson666 wrote: »

opps sorry could u edit it for me lol also i have a history of sucide in my family but sometimes i do get '' them thoughts'' but i try to ignore them so far oh also ur on post 666 lol

Edit: very ironic lol also concidering it was aimed at me as well (hitlersson666) haha

try watching south park,always helps me.

Also,I'm not a mod YET!! so no editing for me

hitlersson666 · 16-01-2010 11:09pm

haha i would love to mod this fourm (im num 33 for in the play pen so then is my time to shine :P) yep i love south park makes me forget about the world hating me.... until 22 mins later

hitlersson666 · 17-01-2010 11:33am

just checked results now.... it looks good but not what i expected

flyswatter · 17-01-2010 11:24pm

I've had it a few times but not too recently. I was in hospital a while back and I was on Lexapro for a spell. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia so thats caused me more harm than the depression itself but the psychosis led to depression I guess. Mental illness isn't anything to be ashamed of, there still is a tiny bit of stigma but it's gotten a lot better. Anyway, thats my 2 cents.

Ginja Ninja · 17-01-2010 11:31pm

flyswatter wrote: »

thats my 2 cents.

one for each of you in your head?

only joking,it takes guts to come out with that even on the internet, It's kind of sad that ireland is so repressive about mental health it's one of the most common afflictions in irish society with suicide being more lethl than road traffic accidents[there may be an overlap,but no way to tell]

D4RK ONION · 17-01-2010 11:32pm

When I was in 1st to 3rd year, let's say I wasn't who I am now. I was quiet, an easy target and had a tough time in school. Looking back I know that those years were a lot more than being down.

I was lucky that I did TY, for the confidence boost it gave me. I try to keep a more positive outlook and like, and any down spells I have these days tend to pass on fairly quickly, and I'm very thankful for that

flyswatter · 18-01-2010 12:41am

Ginja Ninja wrote: »

one for each of you in your head?

only joking,it takes guts to come out with that even on the internet, It's kind of sad that ireland is so repressive about mental health it's one of the most common afflictions in irish society with suicide being more lethl than road traffic accidents[there may be an overlap,but no way to tell]

Haha. It's sometimes hard to distinguish between actual thoughts and voices (it's usually my own voice) but when you start hearing other peoples voices inside your head criticizing you, you know what you're dealing with.:o

Arcade Panda · 18-01-2010 2:05am

D4RK ONION wrote: »

When I was in 1st to 3rd year, let's say I wasn't who I am now. I was quiet, an easy target and had a tough time in school. Looking back I know that those years were a lot more than being down.

I'm the exact same..quiet and shy, couldn't defend myself...I might as well have had Easy Target written on my forehead. 1st and 2nd year were the worst for me, really terrible years.. after that I got into a new group of friends and I havn't looked back since.. thank god!

D4RK ONION · 18-01-2010 2:09am

Good to hear ArPa

I'm nothing like I was then, now though, TY and my new friends from TY really helped me come out of my shell. They're still my best friends. Even though they're all backstards :P

Daysha · 18-01-2010 2:48am

I was the same as you Dark, TY really sorted me out big time! The year itself was pretty shít because we didn't really go anywhere cool and do anything mad, but it's the year I found myself making all my best friends, people I'm still as close as can be to this day, so in that regard the year was a complete success.

As for the original question, I don't think I've ever had felt full-on depressed, but of course like anyone you're going to have your up's and down's. Thankfully as the years go on the up's seem to be more and more frequent, so please god it'll stay that way

Extrasupervery · 18-01-2010 9:30am

Uh huh! SAD to be more specific...but it's a bright and b-e-a utiful morning!

GOOD MORNING everybody

Have a great day.

Seren_ · 18-01-2010 1:18pm

Yep. I had a really crap time when I was in 5th and 6th year, but it got better when I went to college

I can feel myself getting back to the same point as before though, so I need to sort that out...

Davidius · 18-01-2010 2:02pm

No, not really. Like everybody I feel a bit crap at times but I never go as low as to question my self-worth let alone anywhere near suicidal thoughts. I can't imagine what that could be like.

That said, I wouldn't describe myself as an outwardly confident person or in anyway outgoing. I don't talk to people and I keep to myself for the most part, never really wanted to get to know people. Got a bit of a bullying for it as you'd expect but I never dwelled on it or took it for more than somebody being a run-of-the-mill arsehole, especially because it was a bit impersonal. Very much doubt I'd be much different if it hadn't happened.

degausserxo · 18-01-2010 3:40pm

Good thread. Depression is barely acknowledged in Ireland among the older generations, let alone younger ones. I think when it comes to the C&H age bracket, older people generally tend to be dismissive of any problems we have, leaving a lot of genuine cases undiagnosed. There is definitely not enough done in this country to support people suffering from depression and other mental illnesses - it's a big enough problem trying to get the general public to acknowledge it ('Ah, your uncle Tommy, he's a bit, yano, gone in the head, he likes to be by himself'.. what, you mean he's a manic depressive who, on several occasions, has tried to kill himself? 'Likes to be by himself' is putting it a bit lightly), never mind any sort of higher authority. It's simple - we do not have the infrastructure needed. St. Pat's, an absolute dungeon of a place, has 'plans' for a 14-bed inpatient ward for young adults. In the tiny amount of people surveyed on this thread, what is a high number imo have admitted to having been diagnosed with and treated medically for depression or some other form of mental illness, myself inclusive. Taken into a broader context, how many other people our age have been diagnosed with something, or worse yet, haven't been? From that amount, take those who need to be hospitalised - I'm pretty damn sure that number amounts to more than 14.

norwegianwood · 18-01-2010 8:18pm

Nah, I'm happy enough, but I have the world's biggest inferiority complex and it does hold me back a bit at times. It's starting to go away now though, thankfully.

flyswatter · 18-01-2010 9:59pm

degausserxo wrote: »

St. Pat's, an absolute dungeon of a place

Believe me, I spent over 3 months in St. Patricks and it is no dungeon. Far from it. It's one of the best psychiatric hospitals in the country. It has a young adult programme and I don't think many other hospitals do. That programme helped me a great deal with self esteem/confidence issues. As for the young adult ward, yeah it's not a bad idea but there are other wards where young adults can mix with each other.

Fozzydog3 · 20-01-2010 9:47pm

im not sure if i do or not , but one thing that i have to address is how 'trendy' depression is with teenagers i'm sure it has stopped a few genuine cases from being diagnosed because they dont want to appear as attention seekers , ya get me?

hitlersson666 · 22-01-2010 9:16pm

idk why im saying this now but i changed schools in september and all i get is grief over my style and my taste in music

and due to my situtation when im not at home during the week i get depressed and that affects my behaviour also due to the ****e i get off people i have considered ''sucide'' sometimes but i then think of a goal to live for atm its going to manchester in feb to see mastodon!! i find setting goals can help another goal i have is to get a tattoo ect...

weepee · 22-01-2010 9:19pm

Ive suffered from PTSD since the early 70s, which has led to severe bouts of depression.

Medication eases the burden.

Ginja Ninja · 23-01-2010 3:53pm

hitlersson666 wrote: »

idk why im saying this now but i changed schools in september and all i get is grief over my style and my taste in music and due to my situtation when im not at home during the week i get depressed and that affects my behaviour also due to the ****e i get off people i have considered ''sucide'' sometimes but i then think of a goal to live for atm its going to manchester in feb to see mastodon!! i find setting goals can help another goal i have is to get a tattoo ect...

yeah,young'uns can be harsh. A little tip: Don't just take it all in and get depressed for no reason,talk about it and get some of the weight off your shoulders.

Or at the very least tell them to go F*ck themselves and kick them in the nuts if you have to. I don't promote violence,but actions speak more painfully than words

LovexxLife · 23-01-2010 4:12pm

I lost a friend to suicide totally out of the blue during 2nd yr summer hols....at first it didnt hit me but the beginning of 3rd year was really hard...during a class incident where something stupid happen one of the lads were throwin stuff in my hair i got really thick of out nowhere and walk off and cried....then the teacher went to my year head about it then she refer me to the councellor in the school. So went to her for a few months she was alright but not brillant i was gettin fed-up of going to her so i decided i had to just move on and get on with life..then after that i didnt have to go to her.

This year i've started again falling down in the dumps, where to a point I even wrote a suicide letter but my family found it and well they asked what was wrong etc...But i didnt know what was wrong so i just put down to worrying about maths. I have my down in the dump moods where i just kinda block people out but normally i get out of them grand. I think this year it probably have a lot with the leaving cert and worrying about it, but overall I'm grand cos i love life and i know how precious it is....and i wouldnt want to hurt my family and friends

hitlersson666 · 23-01-2010 8:53pm

Ginja Ninja wrote: »

yeah,young'uns can be harsh. A little tip: Don't just take it all in and get depressed for no reason,talk about it and get some of the weight off your shoulders.

Or at the very least tell them to go F*ck themselves and kick them in the nuts if you have to. I don't promote violence,but actions speak more painfully than words

tries that one and a knacker threw a table at me in class:eek::eek:

Luno · 23-01-2010 10:29pm

hitlersson666 wrote: »

tries that one and a knacker threw a table at me in class:eek::eek:

Something like that happened to me too! Standing up for myself :rolleyes:

hitlersson666 · 23-01-2010 10:44pm

M&S* wrote: »

Something like that happened to me too! Standing up for myself :rolleyes:

tut tut

i shall rebel against my year someday..........

weepee · 23-01-2010 11:45pm

They should bolt school tables to the floor.

Limerickgal82 · 23-01-2010 11:56pm

Personally no. BUT i have 2 brothers who both suffer from it. One Mild and one Severe to be honest medication did not work. One had counseling one didnt. Again they dont believe this makes a difference but it is different for everyone and some people respond better to talking to someone . Medication can be a bad thing ( Not always though ) as it can block why you feel the way you do and how you feel it it. You need to be able to cope with how you feel and the danger is that if you block the feelings with Drugs how will you cope with the feelings when you come off them.

hitlersson666 · 23-01-2010 11:56pm

+1
thank god someone agrees. the difference between bolting a table and not is life and death

weepee · 24-01-2010 12:08am

I received a pretty intense one on one 'therapy programme' for a number of years, in conjunction with physiotherapy.

I have to admit that working both together seemed to help greatly, however, I always reached a point where my councillor wished to take me back to the two specific incidents which changed my life, this is were I failed, as I could not bring myself to go back to those times and places.

To this day, I stuck there, all those years ago.

Insect Overlord · 24-01-2010 3:29pm

Off-topic and inappropriate posts deleted.
I've been very impressed with this thread up to this point, let's not see it ruined by silly/fake-threatening posts.

yuloni · 24-01-2010 3:50pm

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Insect Overlord · 24-01-2010 4:33pm

Condi wrote: »

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I've never been clinically diagnosed with depression (and as such have never been medicated for it) but I have been to see counsellors about my moods. The first time I spoke to someone professional (just over two years ago) was of enormous benefit to me. I was dealing with problems in my head for nearly six months, thinking I could cope. When I stopped feeling able to cope, I then had the problem of not feeling confident enough to see someone. After about six weeks thinking about it, I eventually walked into a counsellor's office, talked things out and arranged a second appoinment. She believed I was suffering from mild depression, but as I said I never got it properly diagnosed.

That was in December of that year. I was supposed to see her again the following January, but I felt better and didn't go back.
Then the same problems hit me again a few months ago. I've written essays in my blog about all that, not going to repeat it all here, but long-story-short, I went back to the first counsellor, didn't find her very helpful, and arranged to meet a different one instead. It's been 7 weeks since then, and I've an appointment with her again tomorrow, but life has hit an upward curve again for me in that time so I should be able to give her some positive news.

Talking about depression won't cure it, but I've found it's definitely a massive step in the right direction.

weepee · 24-01-2010 4:44pm

My Limerick friend, if I may, depression can lie in a near dormant form for long periods at a time, giving you a false sense of security.

My advice would be, if possible, talk it thru with the experts, as it has a nasty habit of raising its ugly head when least expected.

Aoibheann · 24-01-2010 4:56pm

I can’t count the amount of times I’ve gone to post in this thread, then stopped myself. It’s awkward to talk about I guess.

I’ve never been diagnosed (except with anxiety as a cause of migraine), so I couldn’t in all honesty answer if I’ve been “depressed” or not. I hate that word at times, because people use it so lightly. I’ve had a lot of ups and downs, sure. The year I did medicine was probably the worst. I didn’t want to get out of bed in the morning (not in an “I’m tired” way, I genuinely had nothing to get up for), I didn’t want to do anything, see anyone, enjoy myself in any way - I didn‘t think I deserved any of it. The one thing that kept me sane that year was training. I only did it out of routine’s sake at the start, but gradually it helped. Deciding to drop out when I knew I wasn’t happy in the course was also the best decision I’ve ever made. Since then, sure, I’ve had a few crap days, weeks, months, but nothing’s been as bad as that and I got through it then, so I’ll get through it now.

As for ever considering suicide? I doubt I ever got that bad - having to talk someone out of doing just that when you’re all of about 10 that makes you know that you could never do that to somebody. I could never put anybody through that, it’s probably the worst thing that’s stuck with me over the years and I’ve had a fairly messy life!

Now let us never speak of this again! :pac:

Fad · 24-01-2010 6:48pm

Aoibheann wrote: »

I can’t count the amount of times I’ve gone to post in this thread, then stopped myself. It’s awkward to talk about I guess.

Ditto.

I was never diagnosed anyway. 2nd and 3rd year were rough for me, I wasnt comfortable in my own skin, hated about 80% of my year, had family member who were vegetables etcetc. I had no feeling of self worth whatsoever, hated everything.

Contemplated suicide? Yes, a lot. But that's another story.

Life is a bit nicer now.

hitlersson666 · 24-01-2010 6:51pm

Fad wrote: »

Ditto.

I was never diagnosed anyway. 2nd and 3rd year were rough for me, I wasnt comfortable in my own skin, hated about 80% of my year, had family member

Contemplated suicide? Yes, a lot. But that's another story.

Life is a bit nicer now.

i agree when im with my family thouugh i savour it and it makes me feel better about myself or at school when i want to breakdown. but i have hope

Fad · 24-01-2010 6:59pm

hitlersson666 wrote: »

i agree when im with my family thouugh i savour it and it makes me feel better about myself or at school when i want to breakdown. but i have hope

I didnt like or trust my family......still dont entirely!

Extrasupervery · 24-01-2010 7:13pm

I

this thread.

Thought I'd get that out there.

LoonyLovegood · 24-01-2010 8:18pm

Yes.

Only mild, but it's been pretty bad. If I'm mild, I would NEVER want it to be severe. I've been prescribed Laxepro since November, and I'm a bit happier.

I've been so bad I contemplated suicide. (Next bit is in a spoiler, it could be a trigger)

I once hung a noose out of my school tie around my curtain rail, and wrote a note.

I'm moving schools come September, and I can't wait. I've been a fake person since I was ten, and now that I'm sixteen, enough's enough. I'm fed up with pretending to be who I'm not, so when I go to a new school, it should get better...I hope.

A Neurotic · 24-01-2010 8:27pm

I feel like I'm butting in here, never having had to deal with this particular problem, but I have to say I really admire all of you for being so frank and open about your personal experiences.

The stigma still exists, but it's people like all of you who are making that change.

Jay P · 24-01-2010 8:53pm

I've been thinking for ages about replying, but this is a lot more personal than anything else that I talk about here so I've been very aprehensive, but a few comments, including A Neurotic's, have made me say fúck it.

I'm not a particularly happy person, but I'm not a sad person either. I go through phases of feeling like absolute crap, most recently being last week, which lasted a few days. But that's generally pretty mild.
A few months ago I was definitely in full blown depression, which was after a bunch of things happening, mainly in my family, and also starting college. College got me down for ages because I'm awkward at the best of times in social situations, and as a result I just wasn't able to get talking to the people on my course. Thankfully that phase passed, mainly thanks to my brother.
I haven't felt as down as that since then, but I've definitely been close to going down that path, but I've managed to, for want of a better expression, to cop myself on and get out of that mode.

There have been a lot of issues in my family throughout my life, a whole lot more than any other family I know have had to deal with, and this affected me more than I thought. It's only recently that I've thought about it again. I kept these things to myself, which when you're ten is never good. I went to a psychologist, but I don't know if she helped or not. She was very nice though.

I'm in an in-betweeny mood at the minute, which I'm happy about. Generally my ecstatic moods are either followed or preceded by a total crash, so I'll be contented until that happens.

degausserxo · 24-01-2010 9:27pm

.. group hug?

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