Describe yourself as you are right now.

ksceniaonegina · 23-10-2019 7:17am

Optimistic
Happy
Contented

stop animal cruelty · 27-10-2019 10:55am

Relived.. .. . No drunk texts sent last night

SaltSweatSugar · 31-10-2019 1:07pm

Devastated, nervous, sick.

My best friends dad is dying. She told me yesterday and her family is absolutely heartbroken. Her family is like my adopted second family. I’ve offered to let the rest of our group of friends know as she’s too upset to do it herself. I’m trying to do what I can to help them. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, fu*k cancer.

Deja Boo · 11-11-2019 7:35pm

am so sorry SaltSweatSugar

I've... lost all confidence.

Sunny Dayz · 14-11-2019 10:48am

So tired and overwhelmed.

I can't seem to catch a break. There's always something. If I lift my foot off the pedal even for a day or two it all backs up and no one else will pick up the slack.

I've cancelled the spa booking I had optimistically made for this afternoon, I know I won't be able to relax, I've too much to do and can't take an afternoon out of life.

Tammy! · 14-11-2019 11:26am

I have loads to do aswell Sunny. Started a deep clean and clearout of the house this morning and I'm only a quarter of the way through. Now I don't want to finish it!!

SaltSweatSugar · 20-11-2019 1:00am

A very mixed bag today.

My best friends dad died today. I’m devastated for them, he was such a wonderful man and I was honoured to know him. I’ve known him for fourteen years, ever since I started a band with his son and he let us practice in their shed. He was one of the kindest, warmest men I’ve ever met and was always very good to me, inviting me to spend Christmas or New Years with them if he knew my own dad wasn’t around. I rang in 2019 with them, and I’m so heartbroken that his family has lost him.

I had my last therapy session today, and I found it so odd that my main reason for going and the first thing I spoke to my therapist about was needing help dealing with losing a parent, and one of the last things we spoke about today was how I felt about my best friend losing one of her parents.

I’m happy to be finished therapy, as I feel I’ve gotten everything I needed from it. My therapist is absolutely wonderful and I know I can always go back if I need to, but I feel like my life has changed so much from therapy. It was definitely the best decision I ever made and I’m looking forward to moving onwards and upwards in life!

Saysay19 · 20-11-2019 1:19am

I’m 8 months pregnant and anxiety ridden.
Horomones are making it worse than it is.
Husband is the best, but the one I need him to do he won’t do.

Naid23 · 26-12-2019 1:48am

Today
Was
Hard

rainbow kirby · 26-12-2019 2:20pm

Tired
Lurgy'ified
Missing my kids

Kitty6277 · 27-12-2019 3:00am

Down, lonely, don’t know why

SaltSweatSugar · 27-12-2019 9:11pm

Pissed off, frustrated and hurt. Come to the realisation my sister is an alcoholic. She’s been drunk nearly every day for the past two weeks since she came home on holiday and she leaves tomorrow. I hate to say it but I can’t wait for her to leave. I’ve tried to be understanding and supportive but I’m finding it so hard.

stop animal cruelty · 27-12-2019 9:12pm

Doing so much over thinking I think I might have just sabotaged a relationship or my gut is right.

I want a fresh start. Can't wait for this new year is over n done with.

molly09 · 27-12-2019 9:30pm

Glad Christmas Day is over, looking forward to going back to a routine.

Feeling lonely.

Kitty6277 · 29-12-2019 2:34pm

Feeling like being a crazy dog lady is becoming a very real option

stop animal cruelty · 05-01-2020 1:41pm

I can't stop thinking about the ongoing horror in Australia. It's so unimaginable, devastating, unnatural.. .. . Hell on earth for the people and the poor creatures.

And nothing can really be done.

So so sad.

Miss Elizabeth · 05-01-2020 3:05pm

stop animal cruelty wrote: »

I can't stop thinking about the ongoing horror in Australia. It's so unimaginable, devastating, unnatural.. .. . Hell on earth for the people and the poor creatures.

And nothing can really be done.

So so sad.

I know , I was just listening to the radio there and they said half a billion animals!! Its heartbreaking.

2 fast · 05-01-2020 10:21pm

Full of chcolate
Lazy
Uncomfortable

Miss Elizabeth · 05-01-2020 11:10pm

Sleepy, full tummy, cosy. No Sunday night blues. Looking forward to the week.

SaltSweatSugar · 06-01-2020 10:47pm

Proud. Helped organise and took part in a challenging charity event at the weekend and helped raised a good amount of money. I’ve been getting sent loads of photos from the event and I’m so chuffed I was a part of it.

SaltSweatSugar · 08-01-2020 11:27pm

So incredibly stressed out worrying about my sister. Feel like crying and just want to cocoon myself away from everything for a while. I was so happy about finally getting my own sh1t together last year and being the happiest I’ve been in years and now I feel like I’ve taken a massive step backwards.

supermouse · 10-01-2020 10:48pm

Sad. Bad day at work where I thought I'd be fired - instead was quizzed to within an inch of my life and left feeling like a failure. Then saw something online about a recent ex who I have still mad feelings for and it made my heart sore and me question everything about my decision to end it.
Pretty ouchy day.

Graces7 · 15-01-2020 7:34pm

More than somewhat dilapidated after a week of nocturnal gales and almost no sleep. Listening thankfully to the silence and hoping it lasts... Pleasantly replete...happy with a cat curled up with me, snoring!

Life is good in spite of many things. .It really is good

And another gale raging but I had some good sleep which has helped greatly. Maybe we forget how basics lke sleep and good food can heal emotions.

SaltSweatSugar · 05-02-2020 1:28am

Stressed out to the point of making myself sick, upset and distracted.

Over the past two months I’ve realised my sister is a very serious alcoholic. She lives pretty far away. She was home for a few weeks at Christmas and it became obvious just how much of a problem it is. We had a pretty big row where she said some hurtful things to me. But I’ve become fairly strong and could brush those off.

Since she went back, I’ve had nearly daily messages from her best friend about how worried he is about her, how she’s more than likely going to lose her job because she’s turning up to work drunk or not turning up at all. He told me she’s going the same way as my mother. My mother took her own life over 10 years ago.

I fee so drained. I broke down in front of my boss last week and had no choice but to tell him what’s going on. My work is suffering. I hate people at work knowing my personal business.

I need to apply for time off work to travel to where she lives with my father to try and help her. My dad isn’t able to go by himself. I’m seriously stressed about whether I’ll get the time off, and how I’m going to manage my bills, rent, and other financial responsibilities if I’m not getting paid. I’m just lucky I don’t have a husband, kids or a mortgage to worry about. This trip is going to cost a small fortune and I just don’t have the money. But it’s family, and I need to find a way to make it work.

I was going to therapy for most of last year, and I finished up with my amazing therapist around October/November as she felt I was ready but now I feel like I need to go back.

I hate that I’m thinking about myself so much in this situation but I can’t help it. I want to help her as much as I can, and I would never try and guilt trip her. I just wish she could see how her actions are affecting other people.

stop animal cruelty · 10-02-2020 2:48pm

Need to rant....

Just seen on FB a person I am in the same team as, tag others on our team... And some of their own friends .... Suggesting they "attend a concert ". I'm not BFFs with any of them.... But it just makes me want to quit the team and say fcuk it.... I haven't felt part of the group, I find connecting difficult with some people, esp a group that have known each other years.

It's just made me feel **** seeing that.... I see these, people a few times a week, be in their company and feel not part of it.

Fcukin fb.

NobleBlack · 16-02-2020 8:48pm

Kitty6277 wrote: »

Down, lonely, don’t know why

Do you care for a chat then....I can keep you busy as I have free periods after my work.

what's making you down?re you over thinking?

Graces7 · 25-02-2020 12:55pm

Chilled to the bones.. tired.. longing for bedtime.

Lavinia · 29-02-2020 10:12am

totally broken..

Deja Boo · 04-03-2020 8:04am

ah no, hope you're ok Lavinia

as for me, sleep is my nemisis - exhausted all the time... I fight it during the day and evening, yet can't sleep when it's time for bed.

Lavinia · 25-03-2020 5:10pm

i am devastated with these news on corona all situation and number of people dying hour on hour bases..
even some tears this morning i just let them go..

thanking god for being able to work from home and concentrate on something to keeps my thoughts occupied, otherwise id prob go nuts

............

SaltSweatSugar · 28-03-2020 5:29pm

Sad, stressed and tired.

Just off the phone to my dad. I can’t go home to see him, and he doesn’t have a smart phone or a computer so I can’t even do a video chat with him. I don’t know when I’ll see him again with this whole situation. I know it’s necessary but that doesn’t make it less crappy. I also miss our dog, the big eejit.

All my friends seem to be at home with their families, and I’m stuck in my rented accommodation. Two of my housemates are here and they’re lovely but we’re trying to avoid each other as much as possible.

I’m working on the frontline and I’m exhausted. I’m scared. I also know I’m lucky to have a job and be able to go to work and I’m grateful. But I’m sick of people not listening to the advice being given and go through phases of wondering why I’m putting myself at risk for them. The only people I can see in person apart from my housemates are my colleagues. I miss my friends.

I know I could be a lot worse off. I’m healthy, no-one I know has gotten sick or died. But still. Fu(k Covid-19.

LilacNails · 28-03-2020 9:51pm

I feel as though I am beginning to struggle....

Before all this convid 19 crack started I was at the beginning of a good routine, keeping myself busy and exercising more. Basically I was using my time more efficiently so that I wouldn't go back down the hole of over thinking.

I've kept the exercising up and eating good.... But this time on my hands has me feeling like I'm going back to square 1.

I'm so down, can't laugh, motivation slowly going out the door....

This is a tough experience. Iv always felt quite lonely as I have no partner and friends I don't hear much from...... But this isolation is scary.

I'm scared. I'm tired of it. I want this virus to fcuk right off.

SaltSweatSugar · 07-04-2020 11:16pm

Relieved. The rumoured new measures being signed into law tonight will hopefully mean that people will actually do what they’re told.

No-one wants to be here but ultimately it’s for the greater good. Maybe now people will take the advice given by the government seriously.

MrsDavis · 13-04-2020 5:08pm

I’m scared of the unknown.

Crippled with anxiety

Exhausted as everyday is Groundhog Day with 2 kids.

Cutie18Ireland · 15-04-2020 10:56pm

Exhausted
Lonely
Heart-Broken - my grandad has been in hospital the past 2 weeks and its killing me not being able to visit. Finally got to speak to him today and he's told me he is dying. I have an awful feeling he just might be right..

twirlagig · 15-04-2020 10:58pm

Cutie18Ireland wrote: »

Exhausted
Lonely
Heart-Broken - my grandad has been in hospital the past 2 weeks and its killing me not being able to visit. Finally got to speak to him today and he's told me he is dying. I have an awful feeling he just might be right..

That’s so awful

florawest · 16-04-2020 12:42am

Cutie18Ireland wrote: »

Exhausted
Lonely
Heart-Broken - my grandad has been in hospital the past 2 weeks and its killing me not being able to visit. Finally got to speak to him today and he's told me he is dying. I have an awful feeling he just might be right..

Hi ya,

I hope your grandad pulls through, sending you both hugs and prayers.

Lavinia · 26-04-2020 12:59pm

some kind of feeling slightly lost in this limbo of existence

thank you covid 19..

lol

SaltSweatSugar · 16-05-2020 12:20am

Feeling butterflies and hopeful.

Desperately lonely · 21-05-2020 11:10pm

Desperately lonely & scared &#55357;&#56877;

SaltSweatSugar · 21-06-2020 3:29pm

Angry and terribly, terribly sad.

RIP Colm. I was honoured to know you.

iuil1999 · 25-06-2020 2:44pm

Hot and sweaty....and not in a good way.
This bloody dead heat!

SaltSweatSugar · 05-07-2020 7:50pm

Stressed, helpless, relieved.

The sister is finally, finally getting help she desperately needs for her mental illness and alcohol dependency. Inpatient treatment in a private clinic for a few weeks.

But it’s halfway across the world so we can’t be there to support her, which sucks. All we can do is be on the other end of the phone.

But I know it’s better than nothing. Here’s hoping.

LilacNails · 07-07-2020 11:56am

Anxiety gone into overload ...overload.

Sardonicat · 10-07-2020 9:13pm

Trapped, full of regrets and angry at being sold a pup my whole life and even angrier at myself for buying it. Sad I missed out on getting to know someone better who's turned into a symbol of all that could have been if I hadn't been part if this toxic crap heap of a 'family' and drank so deeply of the kool aid. Not liking this me very much.

Deja Boo · 15-07-2020 1:15am

and so it seems, a summer of lament (and possibly torment) is only beginning.

SaltSweatSugar · 03-08-2020 8:47pm

Accomplished, relaxed, relieved.

On annual leave for the next two weeks. Got a truckload of work done this week and for the first time since January I feel like I won’t be kept awake at night worrying about things. I was given some beautiful flowers and a card as a thank you from someone I helped this week and it was just what I needed to reaffirm my belief in myself and my abilities.

My sister is out of rehab and seems to be doing well. Another weight off my shoulders.

I’m going to visit friends next week and get to see her baby that I haven’t seen since he was a newborn. Auntie SaltSweatSugar is gonna spoil that child.

I’m so content.

Deja Boo · 01-09-2020 10:12pm

I'm over it...

Graces7 · 10-09-2020 2:01pm

Utterly drained and exhausted. Used to be able to last until later afternoon but about to close down … Upset by someone here. Sighs. May be back in a few weeks, or not

LilacNails · 11-09-2020 10:23pm

2 rejection emails today.

So sick of trying and ending up to start over again.

Not much hope at the mo, for anything.

Describe yourself as you are right now.

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