Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

Hugo Stiglitz

Chiquitita wrote: »

Bad bad bad day

What happened Chiquitita?

Jerry2013

Chiquitita wrote: »

Bad bad bad day

SAME FOR ME

lukesmom

Sorry to hear of the bad days chiquitita n jerry. Tomorrow is another day x

Jerry2013

lukesmom wrote: »

Sorry to hear of the bad days chiquitita n jerry. Tomorrow is another day x

Thanks lukesmom anyone knows any groups in galway to help my anxiety?

LanaFey

I thought this weekend might be the one where I "came clean" to one of my close friends about my issues (I'd just like to have someone in my life I can vent to about the medication and the not being able to drink and everything else) but unfortunately the way things worked out we didn't get any time alone together so I couldn't really do it.

I did lots this weekend but I mostly felt really apathetic about it all. I just can't seem to enjoy anything any more. I went out for the first time in a while, but I was on edge the whole time.

Just got home and had a little cry. Tomorrow is another day. This has been the longest month ever.

Gremlinertia

Not four hours into shift and I'm crawling the walls with tiredness. Ugh. That is all.

handbagmad

I need a hug human contract.

Gremlinertia

handbagmad wrote: »

I need a hug human contract.

Big virtual huggles to you.

handbagmad

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Big virtual huggles to you.

thanks grem. Normally only like my own company longing for someone to call the last few days though. This will pass hopefully

At this moment in time I'm not too bad.

I had a very good spell during the summer where I felt rather content with things. I went back to counselling with the attitude that "when I'm outside it I can look in but if I'm inside it's very hard to look out". And it worked wonders for me, I was the happiest I was in years.

Unfortunately it didn't last. A combination of work problems (which turned into an unfounded fear of my physical health) and taking a rejection badly left me in a terrible state. I've dealt with these issues for the most part so I'm starting to improve again, but I'm still going back to counselling on Thursday in the hope that it'll help me in the same way as it did last summer.

stinkle

Bleh have been doing well and anxiety has been under control until today. I'm not sure what has been helping me so far - feel good about new job looking promising but that comes with other stresses so I doubt it's down to that. Exercise has kept me busy and is helping with sleep. Cutting out alcohol hasn't done a thing for skin or stomach probs but at least I'm aware of that, and am glad to be hangover-free and dont really miss it at all. I wonder if cutting it out has helped with the anxiety, although I'd usually only drink at weekends and wasnt a bit anxious over Xmas despite lots of socialising. Maybe I just dont give a hoot about work anymore now that theres light at the end of the tunnel.

Felt kinda crap today however, cos I needed to talk to a really difficult person that I have a bad history with in work, but got it over with - had been procrastinating over it since last week and building it up in my head and now feel like a weight has been lifted but I actually have a stress headache now. This was all brought on by myself though, overthinking stuff

Call Me Jimmy

Stinkle I squeeze a lemon into a glass in the morning and add water. Very good for stomach. Also, slightly less paletable is to add a tablespoon or two of apple cider vinegar to the mix. That will really sort you out I promise. I have absolutely no 'bloatiness' 'slowness of digestion' 'acid reflux' etc. because of this. I eat the worst diet imaginable.


Once the stomach is sorted the skin may improve, (usually related) but it depends on what is wrong with the skin too.

stinkle

Thanks so much, I'll give that a try. I'm convinced the two are linked myself. I havent been too bad with bloatedness now that I'm back exercising - was a bit after xmas though! I found in the past though that no matter how good I was, if there was any stress triggers I'd be in bits which is why I hate how these feelings affect my whole system and makes me feel like any positive steps are in vain I'm home now and feeling happier thankfully. Should have left once the headache started in hindsight

I'm not sure where to post this so I suppose I'll put it here.

I'm 17 and have been self harming on and off since I was 9. I've been to the doctor a few times when I was 13/14 but she only checked my cuts weren't infected and sent me home again. I'm in 6th year and I'm not really stressing about exams, but I'm in bits over college courses. Going through secondary school I never allowed myself to think about my future because I presumed I'd kill myself before I ever got to it. I know its ridiculous, but I feel like an absolute failure for still being alive (?) and I just don't want to be here anymore. I don't know where to go for help or if I even want any.

Gremlinertia

[Deleted User] wrote: »

I'm not sure where to post this so I suppose I'll put it here.

I'm 17 and have been self harming on and off since I was 9. I've been to the doctor a few times when I was 13/14 but she only checked my cuts weren't infected and sent me home again. I'm in 6th year and I'm not really stressing about exams, but I'm in bits over college courses. Going through secondary school I never allowed myself to think about my future because I presumed I'd kill myself before I ever got to it. I know its ridiculous, but I feel like an absolute failure for still being alive (?) and I just don't want to be here anymore. I don't know where to go for help or if I even want any.

Welcome to the thread and well done for posting too. At a guess I'd say get in touch with a different gp, write down how you feel, indeed your post here would do the job. Also look up pieta house to see if there is one in your area.. There are a lot of resources at hand especially for your age group. Best of luck and keep posting. ;-)

del88

Deleted User wrote: »

I'm not sure where to post this so I suppose I'll put it here.

I'm 17 and have been self harming on and off since I was 9. I've been to the doctor a few times when I was 13/14 but she only checked my cuts weren't infected and sent me home again. I'm in 6th year and I'm not really stressing about exams, but I'm in bits over college courses. Going through secondary school I never allowed myself to think about my future because I presumed I'd kill myself before I ever got to it. I know its ridiculous, but I feel like an absolute failure for still being alive (?) and I just don't want to be here anymore. I don't know where to go for help or if I even want any.

Agreed with the last poster...I can only speak from my own experience at being 17 and feeling similar..depressed ,anxious,panic attacks for years, I felt lonely and not sure even if I opened up I was worth fixing...to cut a long story short I got help medication and therapy ...it's not allways easy and at times I feel sh!t but I would not have imagined how I've became more I won't say happier but more used to my moods and darkness...you can stand in the shadows and still see the effects of the sun..
Sorry don't mean to get all preachy but just saying things can improve..talk to someone if you can and remember that it’s OK not to feel OK; and it’s absolutely OK to ask for help...

Hugo Stiglitz

Deleted User wrote: »

I'm not sure where to post this so I suppose I'll put it here.

I'm 17 and have been self harming on and off since I was 9. I've been to the doctor a few times when I was 13/14 but she only checked my cuts weren't infected and sent me home again. I'm in 6th year and I'm not really stressing about exams, but I'm in bits over college courses. Going through secondary school I never allowed myself to think about my future because I presumed I'd kill myself before I ever got to it. I know its ridiculous, but I feel like an absolute failure for still being alive (?) and I just don't want to be here anymore. I don't know where to go for help or if I even want any.

You're not a failure in any way shape or form. It's so easily to convince yourself of that when you are not doing well but it's not the truth.

Is there anybody in your school like a counsellor or even a teacher that you get along with that you could talk to?

Chiquitita

Feck saaaaake fast asleep, even no nitemares then I was woken by the cat outside = panic time again for a few hours

Gremlinertia

Chiquitita wrote: »

Feck saaaaake fast asleep, even no nitemares then I was woken by the cat outside = panic time again for a few hours

Ouch.. Hate being startled awake though usually I manage to do it to myself with some mad dream or vision.. :$ deep breaths, someone else is awake with you. :-)

Chiquitita

Hiii such a sickener! Although a positive is...now ill be tired that i'll sleep through 9-1 which is panic central!

How are you?

Gremlinertia

Not so bad. I'm at work - finished in a few hours for the week..

SillyMangoX

Just thought I'd pop into this thread. Been on antidepressants for a year and the doc decided that it's time for me to wean off them. The side effects from withdrawal are driving me crazy!! Can't sleep, dizzy, constantly anxious, headaches. Hopefully they won't last much longer or I'm upping my dose again!!

kryptonmight

Spiralling badly here. Been off the antidepressants since the summer, under guidance from the doctor. Since then things have been ok but I've seen my anxiety come back somewhat. On top of that I am feeling very stressed because of some things, some of which may not even happen. Yet i cant stop stressing and worrying.

Worse still, my down days have been extremely dark and while I have somehow managed to function, they are darker than anything I can remember. I was in tears on Sunday and this morning on the bus I was choking up feeling very tearful. I have been thinking there's no point going on and I cant take this.

Can the doctor give me anything to lift my mood quickly? Even if i go back on the antidepressants, i don't think i can wait weeks for them to start working.

DM addict

hi triangles and kryptonmight - sorry to hear you're both struggling.

kryptonmight - I'm not sure there's anything immediate that your GP could give for a quick boost to the mood. I do know that when I was first diagnosed I was given some anti-anxiety meds (pretty sure it was something like Valium tbh) that will work quickly to calm you down, but won't do anything for mood. Are you getting any help other than from your GP? I find it's useful to use a bit of CBT techniques when it comes to negative thoughts - I found the CBT for dummies book pretty useful to have at home. Also try talking things through with someone close to you, if you can. And hold on. It will get better.

Triangles. . . I wish I had a simple solution for you. I agree with Gremletina and others who said try Pieta house - they're good at this. You're not worthless. You do deserve to be alive. You might not want to be, and I get that. You're going through a stressful time and it's understandable. Try talking to someone you trust about this - ideally a sympathetic GP, or the folks at Pieta, Aware or Samaritans are great as well.

Glad to see a few of us seem to be coping a bit better now that January's nearly over. Got some mad news myself the other day - me and the husband are moving to USA in a few months. Exciting to be sure, but I'm terrified about moving away from my support network here, and the thought of having to go make new friends etc is causing more than a little anxiety. Trying to be rational about it though. Easier said than done.

kryptonmight

I feel if i talk to someone, it will just re-inforce my worries or make them worse, I feel like the only option is to keep it to myself. I don't feel like anyone can help.

DM addict

Talk to us. Rant here, explain what's worrying you. We'll see if we can help. I promise we'll do our best not to make it worse.

Whatever it is, it is not as bad as it seems. I know that sounds trite, but when you're stuck in the middle of this you can't see the way out. Maybe one of us, someone who's been into the darkness and has managed to find a way out can help.

kryptonmight

DM addict wrote: »

Talk to us. Rant here, explain what's worrying you. We'll see if we can help. I promise we'll do our best not to make it worse.

Whatever it is, it is not as bad as it seems. I know that sounds trite, but when you're stuck in the middle of this you can't see the way out. Maybe one of us, someone who's been into the darkness and has managed to find a way out can help.

I really wish I could bring myself to post but i just can't.

DM addict

ok. well, you know where we are. PM if you'd rather.

handbagmad

SillyMangoX wrote: »

Just thought I'd pop into this thread. Been on antidepressants for a year and the doc decided that it's time for me to wean off them. The side effects from withdrawal are driving me crazy!! Can't sleep, dizzy, constantly anxious, headaches. Hopefully they won't last much longer or I'm upping my dose again!!

may I ask what anti depressants you are coming down off of please?

Hugo Stiglitz

kryptonmight wrote: »

I feel if i talk to someone, it will just re-inforce my worries or make them worse, I feel like the only option is to keep it to myself. I don't feel like anyone can help.

Talking can be great though. When you talk to someone who is skilled in the type of problems we here face, they can direct the conversation to areas that trouble you most. Once identified they can be be dealt with.

Please don't keep it to yourself. That can just lead to isolation which will only compound the issue.