The one that got away. Sigh.

bitofabind wrote: »

i reckon people can change. if it's something that's really messing up your life, you can do a lot of your own self-work, therapy, etc get to the root cause and find healthier ways of approaching relationships. Learn coping mechanisms when the autopilot of fleeing the scene or acting like an anxious mess kicks in.

i also think that the wrong relationship / person can throw you into behaviours that you wouldn't otherwise engage. i'd say i was the more securely attached one in my prev relationship and my ex was the anxious one. whereas i've met a few avoidant men since then and they've provoked that same style of engagement in me.

Deleted User wrote: »

Ok time to go have a cry now

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Andreas77 wrote: »

Worked as waiter and general dogsbody on cruise liner for six months after leaving high school. Became friendly with six piece function and wedding band who would play soft rock, waltzes, or pleasant little ditties by Ron Sexsmith, Barry Manilow, Rod Stewart, Dire Straits, or the solo work of various members of the Eagles such as Glenn Frey, Don Henley etc., for elderly couples enjoying twilight existence. There was a drummer, left handed saxophone player who also doubled up as trombonist, bass player (female), keyboardist, backing singer and lead singer/guitarist. As I would be preparing martinis or spritz, the retired guests would be serenaded by these tunes and other played by this talented troupe of musicians named “The Entertainers”. My other duties on the boat included changing linen, vacuum cleaning, mopping up spills, and on several occasions I would be asked on how to access dirty channels on cable television. This was not a service we advertised, and in fact was very rare as most travellers were old married couples. Most of the time I would inform these individuals, some of whom exercised poor memory and learning functions, the times that Beverly Hills Bordello would be repeated on TV as it was free to air, and suggested they would not be into the more hardcore channels which could included fisting, male scissoring, swapping, rodeo rides, ass to mouth, ball biting etc. Keep in mind these were very old individuals of retirement age so usually they would watch Beverly Hills Bordello or Euro Trash and if I was not too busy I would watch it with them sitting on berth. One couple was not so old, they were in their forties at the time and were desirous of the most hardcore pornography available. These two were very successful entrepreneurs in their own right, she I believe had started as beautician but had developed own brand of cosmetics for retail, as well as working as interpreter and event organiser for wealthy Chinese businessman buying and selling horses, he had some connection to Ferrari and was working in research and development north of Bologna on maybe five or six hundred thousand euro a year. The man told me that before he met wife he would use internet to meet other guys and they would bring dirty magazines to remote locations and all of the men together would jerk off looking at pictures of naked women, in wooded areas, especially if there was a picnic table (you can imagine). As I say, this was before he met his stunning wife. This girl was German, about 1.8 meters tall, maybe 140 lbs, natural blond but with hair dyed black, very slim figure with perky breasts, and a mischievous impish smile which really turned me on. When I’ve entered room I’ve noticed signature leather Paul Smith bag opened and full of sex toys and lubricant. The wardrobe was full of expensive designer dresses all perfect pressed. I believe we were in vicinity of Skjolden-Sognefjord. There was also casino on board and every evening I would have to check machines for takings or irregularities (never found any). I was a virgin at this time.