Ex broke up with me because of lockdown restrictions but now wants me back

Smiley283 · 03-09-2021 06:37PM #1

My ex boyfriend and I are in our late 20s early 30s. We were together for 2.5 years. I live in dublin and he has always lived in a bordering county for work. We were friends for a year before we got together and have the same social circle.

Lockdown was really hard on our relationship as we went weeks/ months without seeing eachother and started having rows over the phone. He was told by work to work remote indefinitely and he moved back to his family home in the west of ireland.

When restrictions eased in May we spent most weekends together and then at the beginning of June he dumped me because the distance was too hard and said that when the covid restrictions and potential lockdowns end we can see about getting back together. I wanted to meet up face to face to discuss this but they wouldn't. Kept texting me all summer on and off but I wasn't sure if they were just being friendly or wanted me back. Any time I asked they would just say "we will see I the future".

With the government announcement this week they have contacted me again to see about getting back together. I am still helplessly in love with them but I just feel so hurt. The breakup was totally on their terms and I would have always thought that if you truly love someone nothing, not even a 3 hour distance, would get in the way.

I honestly don't even know if it is likely we will get back together but I cant help but want to.

Do you think they don't truly feel for me the way they should after so many years together or do you just think no relationship is perfect and we need to work on things again?

hesaidshesaid · 03-09-2021 06:48PM

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/2058207242/reuninting

If a good friend came to you with this problem, what would you tell them?

I think you already know what to do OP.

Smiley283 · 03-09-2021 09:03PM

Thank you hesaidshesaid I definitely feel like I would regret it if I didn't try my hardest to get back into a relationship with them. They mean too much to me.

I was just worried incase my emotions were clouding my judgement and wanted an outsiders perspective.

Jequ0n · 04-09-2021 09:38AM

You do realisie that he is in full control of this relationship, if you want to call it that way?

He decides something, and you accept it, he doesn’t want to talk and you accept it. Of course he suggests you try again as you are a very easy and submissive partner.

The continued texting was to keep you on standby btw, I have done this many times.

04-09-2021 09:45AM

Your ex doesn't appear to have considered you or your feelings at all.

did ye have a conversation about lockdown restrictions? Why did he decide to go to the West of Ireland to work remotely? Was there ever a chance of ye staying together over lockdown?

sorry OP, if you will be happy forever doing whatever this guy wants, then yeah get back together. Personally I would rather be an equal partner in a relationship.

GalwayGaillimh · 04-09-2021 09:48AM

Better to dump him and move on...

Better to be the dumper than the dumpee!

Taltos · 04-09-2021 10:06AM

Dump his ass

Block his number

No one deserves to be treated as he’s treated you. Shown you no respect or consideration and that will never improve.

04-09-2021 10:15AM

You may as well give it another go.

The lockdowns were weird for everyone.

But be sure to set very clear boundaries with him. He needs to realise that the relationship isn't a one way street.

the_pen_turner · 04-09-2021 10:23AM

Hard to know with out taking to him. .

I get the impression that he visited you in all those long distant weekends. Maybe I'm wrong. If that's true he probably feels that he is putting all the effort .

Maybe he feels that the extra distance is only adding most stress and more rows and that he doesn't want that.

Smiley283 · 04-09-2021 11:18AM

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/117845469#Comment_117845469

Truthfully it was pre-planned couples trips with his friends/ mutual friends to celebrate things like their birthdays because everyone needed something to look forward to after lockdown.

mrslancaster · 04-09-2021 11:25AM

Has something else changed OP - is he moving back to Dublin or where he lived before? If so, then have the conversation, covid was terrible for everyone. If he's staying in the west & you're in dublin then that means travelling. Some people manage it no bother but it doesnt suit everyone.

Smiley283 · 04-09-2021 11:38AM

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/117845641#Comment_117845641

All along his company told him that he would be working remotely for the future. He applied for a few jobs in dublin to move back but had no success as of yet. With the government announcement during the week his employer hasn't made any concrete decisions but there is a possibility that he will be moving back to Leicester again. He said to me that "we have a lot to talk about but moving closer to me will make things easier".

Apart of me is very forgiving towards him because lockdown was extenuating circumstance but then another part of me feels like how did other couples manage it?

I'd have been more understanding if he wanted a breakup/ break in January when he moved home and we got back together when the level 5 lockdown lifted and there was nothing stopping us from enjoying the summer together

04-09-2021 11:42AM

So he wasn't willing to make any effort at all to see you, personally.

but now he's moving back near you, ye may as well get back together?

Sorry, but you should think more of yourself then he clearly does.

mrslancaster · 04-09-2021 12:33PM

He obviously didnt like all the travelling if he's applying for jobs & wants to get back near dublin & back together with you. I know lots of people whose behaviour changed during lockdown especially anyone living with older family, some were like hermits. Also, all couples are different & nobody really knows whats going on in another relationship so i wouldnt be comparing how others handled the lockdown. Long distance relationships are hard even in normal times. If you feel that you want to give this relationship a second chance then have a talk & take it from there.

lulublue22 · 04-09-2021 02:15PM

Lockdown was hard on everyone in one way or another however what really stands out in your post is your lack of autonomy. All decisions seem to be on his terms - the break up , not wanting to talk it out , not committing to giving it another go and now wanting to give it another go. He seems by his actions to have very little thought or respect for you , your feelings and your wants and needs. I would find it very difficult to be in a relationship in which I had no say - The next time a stressful situation comes up and there will be one - a death , loss of a job , illness etc will he again make a unilateral decision that things aren’t going to work out. If a friend told me this I’d be strongly encouraging her to work on her self worth - many relationships went through a rocky patch during lockdowns for me that’s not the issue but rather how he chose to deal with it.

qwerty13 · 04-09-2021 02:27PM

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/117843937#Comment_117843937

I doubt the poster you quoted meant that in the way you’ve chosen to interpret it.

I don’t understand why you are hanging on and on, looking for whatever crumbs he has chosen to throw your way, at a time that suits him. And why do you ‘helplessly’ love him? You do have some say in this you know!

He has exhibited such lack of consideration or respect for you that I think it would be a very bad move for you to even think about returning to him. If you do, he has already learnt that he can pick you up and drop you whenever suits him. So if he wants a booty call, you’re in. If he wants to have a bit of action with someone else, you’re out. If he needs something, you’re in. But if you need something or support, you’re out. Time to move on OP. And to see why you’re willing to put up with being badly treated.

qwerty13 · 04-09-2021 02:36PM

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/117845681#Comment_117845681

I don’t understand this. Surely if his company has said that he can work remotely indefinitely, he can work remotely from Dublin/whatever commuter town he was previously in. Why would he need to look for a new job to move back to Dublin?

Smiley283 · 04-09-2021 03:16PM

Because he said things have really taken a turn for the worst in the sector that he works in so he wanted to get out of it before running the risk of becoming unemployed.

SunnySundays · 04-09-2021 03:43PM

It's all about him-

He moved West

He decided to break up

He decided he wanted to get back together

He wants you to move closer

He might be moving to the UK

As a couple, those decisions should be discussed and made together. Instead he has told control. Are you happy to spend your life with someone who doesn't consider your opinion,never asks for your view and just controls everything.

I wouldn't get back with him but suspect you will but at a minimum you need to at least have a conversation about being equals rather than him calling all the sorts and about how it needs to change.

04-09-2021 03:45PM

Don't go backwards.

If he really wanted to be with you, he wouldn't have dumped you because of covid restrictions. He would have found a way, waited it out, like many other couples have done. Like you said, other couples managed it.

What will be his excuse for dumping you, the next time the going gets tough or the his conditions for your relationship are not ideal?

Leave the past in the past.

Big Bag of Chips · 04-09-2021 04:32PM

It's not a good sign if he's pushing you away when times get difficult for him. When times get difficult we generally turn to our partner to be the one to support us through it. If he turned to others and very deliberately pushed you away by breaking up with you then that tells you what you need to know about how he views you. And what happens in the future of something crops up in his life. Are you going to be put on standby again?

He was being very unfair by breaking it off with you, yet telling you you might get back together in the future. That's really keeping you on a leash. Keeping you as an option if things don't work out for him elsewhere.

Why did he have to break up with you? Was being in a relationship with you holding him back from being with others closer to home? Now that he's moving away from home, and maybe the local girls he's happy enough to pick back up with you because you're convenient, and obediently sitting waiting because he told you to.

Don't be someone's option. Don't prioritise someone for who you are only an option.

Smiley283 · 04-09-2021 04:46PM

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/117846506#Comment_117846506

I will try and reply to everyone individually because i am honestly blown away by everyone's responses. The internet can be so kind at times. I really appreciate everyone's input.

I was framing the breakup all along in a way that the reason he broke up with me due to distance was because of the times we found ourselves in and didn't want us to continue picking at each other and fighting until we ended up ruining everything between each other. To be it felt like it wasn't us as people that caused the breakup.. it was just the circumstances that we found ourselves in. But now I am starting to see it at a different angle.. maybe it wasn't the situation we were in at all that caused the breakup. Maybe it really was our personalities clashing all along but the distance/ long down exacerbated the inevitable?

Generally we get along very well in the relationship. However, if i was to nitpick at his personality. What is the male version of a diva called? He can get very frustrated and like things to be done his way or no way. I do find I have to try and calm him down a lot, he can get overwhelmed and anxious about situations like for instance, catching covid-19 although he is healthy and has no underlying health complaints. It did irritate me that he is so anti-vaccine because he is terrified of any possible side effects. I am a lot more easy going and can laugh off stressful situations whereas he finds it a bit more difficult. However, he has a brilliant sense of humour and when things are good between us it feels amazing and i honestly pictured us to spend out lives together.

jakiah · 04-09-2021 04:54PM

You were with him 2.5 years and he went home to live with his Mammy during the pandemic? Really? This might be acceptable if you were young teens but for grown adults?

Smiley283 · 04-09-2021 05:05PM

His parents are both in their mid to late 70's and need help on the farm as his father does not have the mobility to manage it on his own. His sibling was an essential worker so couldn't be putting the parents at risk.

I never took an issue with him going back to his parents house. He couldn't move in with me because I am in a sharedflat and there wouldn't have been space for him an I to work from my bedroom in my apartment and financially we couldn't afford to rent an apartment together.

Not going to get into the reasons why but for me to move in with him in his usual house wouldn't have been an option at all

Tork · 04-09-2021 05:20PM

OP, I get the impression you want to get back with him and will do so. That's fine - you're the one who was in this relationship and knows your ex better than we do. There's no way you and he can ever go back to the way you were before this happened and you will always have these nagging feelings in the back of your mind. Maybe that's not a bad thing because I get the feeling you might have been wearing rose-tinted glasses. I'm afraid I'm with the more cynical folk here and would strongly question his motivations through all of this. All of this smacks of him suiting himself and using you as an option. Be careful is all I can advise you to do.

Soilse · 04-09-2021 05:23PM

Straight up ask him does he see a long term future with the 2 of you together. Can he see himself with you in 10yrs if he can't give you an answer after over 2 yrs together plus time apart to miss you he's just keeping you as the easy option until he finds someone else.

mct1 · 04-09-2021 05:57PM

Things you said in your original post that rang alarm bells when I first read them: "he dumped me because the distance was too hard....I wanted to meet up face to face to discuss this but they wouldn't....I am still helplessly in love with them....The breakup was totally on their terms....I thought that if you truly love someone nothing, not even a 3 hour distance, would get in the way."

Think about this and ask yourself if this sounds like someone you can trust or rely on. What qualities of character does he actually have that you love and admire? If you decide to try again with him at least go back into it with your eyes open and be prepared to walk away.

wildwillow · 04-09-2021 06:19PM

You are the submissive partner in this relationship. Put more value on yourself and dump him. He is a selfish needy person with no real thoughts for your feelings. Even his parents and their farm is more important than you.

Get out now and take some time to find your self esteem and self worth.

04-09-2021 06:40PM

He mistreats you. He calls all the shots. Your relationship is unequal.

It will be very painful but you really must end it.

jill_valentine · 04-09-2021 06:51PM

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/117845615#Comment_117845615

So during the pandemic he was meeting you during pre planned trips with his friends, when it was convenient to him.

He then broke up with you when it was convenient to him.

He wants to get back with you now its convenient to him.

It does not sound like he wants an actual relationship with you as a real person. He wants a Deliveroo driver who brings him company when and if it suits. I don't think you've mentioned a single thing he's done for or offered you yet in the course of your relationship even incidentally.

I think you know what to do, as somebody said above.

Smiley283 · 04-09-2021 08:05PM

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/117847168#Comment_117847168

The comment about a deliveroo driver for company really hurt me there but I think that it hurt me because I know it sounds true.

I'm a private person. I have briefly spoke about this to friends and family a number of times throughout the summer in a matter of fact manner but haven't actually shown anyone that I am feeling hurt and vulnerable. Hence why I turned to the Internet I suppose.

Its difficult for me to have pity for myself and I've tried to just keep busy and keep the "hand it over to a higher power and what will be will be" but after all these comments today it's just made me tap into my feelings more and validated them.

Thank you so much. Obviously I am still processing everyone's words and I won't lie, I have little fantasies built up in my head that everything will return to way it was pre-covid but I guess a number of major red flags are staring me in the face.

It honestly just feels difficult for me because all along I have had little conversations in my head at times when I'm not busy where I am pining for the past and imagining he is standing in front of me where I'm just pleading with him like "I am here, I love you. I would never hurt you and I so badly want this relationship to work. Why won't you let me try to give you the love I have for you". God, now that I have written it out it makes me realise how pathetic my inner thoughts sound.

I just wish I could have the mentality of someone who is like "I deserve to be swept off my feet and blown away, if you don't want me then I'll find someone who will move mountains for me". Currently as it stands that mindset doesn't feel authentic for me to have right now.

Ex broke up with me because of lockdown restrictions but now wants me back

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