Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

cloud493 · 04-10-2012 9:49pm

But I dunno what it is. Genuinely, mind blank, spend most of my classes looking at the time, first one to leave at the end, haven't made any connection with anyone on my course, and they're all mates by now.

Da Shins Kelly · 04-10-2012 10:00pm

cloud493 wrote: »

But I dunno what it is. Genuinely, mind blank, spend most of my classes looking at the time, first one to leave at the end, haven't made any connection with anyone on my course, and they're all mates by now.

I don't know what to say. I guess all anyone can do is hope that it'll get better.

cloud493 · 04-10-2012 10:02pm

Yeah, I guess so. Do you enjoy your chosen course?

Da Shins Kelly · 04-10-2012 10:07pm

cloud493 wrote: »

Yeah, I guess so. Do you enjoy your chosen course?

I used to love it, and I still hold out hope that I will start to love it again and I know I'm good at it when I actually apply myself. I'm studying abroad at the moment, and I just feel very lost and quite lonely which has hindered my progress and brought back old feelings that I've felt before in my teenage years to the surface. I have friends here, but it's that feeling of being surrounded by people but still not feeling close to anyone in particular. How about you?

cloud493 · 04-10-2012 10:09pm

Da Shins Kelly wrote: »

I used to love it, and I still hold out hope that I will start to love it again and I know I'm good at it when I actually apply myself. I'm studying abroad at the moment, and I just feel very lost and quite lonely which has hindered my progress and brought back old feelings that I've felt before in my teenage years to the surface. I have friends here, but it's that feeling of being surrounded by people but still not feeling close to anyone in particular. How about you?

How long have you been at it? I thought I'd like it, but I don't really. But I'm not sure if its because I'm rubbish at it, or if I just don't like it.

Da Shins Kelly · 04-10-2012 10:18pm

cloud493 wrote: »

How long have you been at it? I thought I'd like it, but I don't really. But I'm not sure if its because I'm rubbish at it, or if I just don't like it.

Three years. Starting it felt like turning a corner, and now I feel like I've gone back a good few steps.

LegacyUser · 04-10-2012 11:50pm

Feeling crap as of late. No job. No money. Friends around me all seem to be progressing whereas I'm going nowhere. My mood is changing a lot too which I know has an affect on my boyfriend. Everything is crappy at the moment and I don't see it changing any time soon.

Realise that there's much more serious posts in here but felt like sharing.

neemish · 05-10-2012 8:08am

Haven't been so relieved to see Friday for a long time. Just need to get through the day. Need to sort things out over the weekend, but without putting pressure on myself to be superwoman. I can't have another week like this one.
Plan of action needed....any ideas?

Hersheys · 05-10-2012 8:23am

I'm angry with everyone in my life.

So from today, until I feel ready to, I'm not going to talk to anyone about this funk I'm in. I've tried but nobody seems to want to listen or understand.

So that's that. If they can't handle me at my worst & all that jazz :rolleyes:

neemish · 05-10-2012 9:00am

I hear ya Hersheys . Don't claim to understand but i hear ya.

I'd love to be a kid and go out and whack a ball against a wall for an hour...get the aggression out

Hersheys · 05-10-2012 2:54pm

neemish wrote: »

I hear ya Hersheys . Don't claim to understand but i hear ya.

I'd love to be a kid and go out and whack a ball against a wall for an hour...get the aggression out

Fancy a game of tennis some time?

neemish · 05-10-2012 3:39pm

Hersheys wrote: »

Fancy a game of tennis some time?

Lol. My hand-eye co-ordination is awful. CAn't hit a ball to save me life!

Hersheys · 05-10-2012 4:20pm

neemish wrote: »

Lol. My hand-eye co-ordination is awful. CAn't hit a ball to save me life!

Ah it would be a good stress relief all the same.

How did work go today for you?

I'm still in self preservation mode.

neemish · 05-10-2012 4:32pm

Everyone's alive, including myself. But that's about all that can be said :-)

Just trying to survive til I can get out of here for the wend. Would love to do something nice for myself, but struggling to get motivated. At the moment, a good long sleep would be nice.

Princess Peach · 06-10-2012 3:59am

I don't know why, but I feel like my mood has gone back in time to 2 years ago! This is the longest bad spell I've had since then

Not sure how to fix it

soon30 · 06-10-2012 5:31pm

ive been suffering from depression for 6 years now. i am on effexor and was on zispin for a small while too.i think ive had underlying deppression all my life,if that makes any sense.im just wondering is there anything new coming on the scene for treating depression.i know there probably wont be anything new. but anyway im always hoping something like transcranial magnetic therapy or vagus nerve stimulation will make some breakthroughs,become more simplified,more available and less invasive .
I think myself that my depression comes from some physical abnormality in my brain.not that i know much about the science of it,but i do feel i cant come out of it on my own and that talk therapys wont bring me out either.
so either i find better medication or some new therapys turn up for me to have the results i really want.
i am doing ok on effexor even very good at times, but i feel life is just passing me by so i think i should make some changes in the way i treat my depression if i want to see any changes in my life
thanks in advance for all replies good or bad

neemish · 06-10-2012 6:13pm

soon30 wrote: »

ive been suffering from depression for 6 years now. i am on effexor and was on zispin for a small while too.i think ive had underlying deppression all my life,if that makes any sense.im just wondering is there anything new coming on the scene for treating depression.i know there probably wont be anything new. but anyway im always hoping something like transcranial magnetic therapy or vagus nerve stimulation will make some breakthroughs,become more simplified,more available and less invasive .
I think myself that my depression comes from some physical abnormality in my brain.not that i know much about the science of it,but i do feel i cant come out of it on my own and that talk therapys wont bring me out either.
so either i find better medication or some new therapys turn up for me to have the results i really want.
i am doing ok on effexor even very good at times, but i feel life is just passing me by so i think i should make some changes in the way i treat my depression if i want to see any changes in my life
thanks in advance for all replies good or bad

Hi there!
Welcome to the thread. Fair play for trying to improve things for yourself
I'm not sure if you've read much about depression but afaik the trend at the moment is that a combination of approaches will help best.
For me, its meds together with talk therapy together with looking after myself physically. I think i need a bit of all of them.

Mindfulness is used by a lot of people at the moment. I cant get into it myself but know a few people who love it. Tony Bates has a good book out about depression and mindfulness- easons usually have it.

MOR66 · 06-10-2012 6:19pm

zimovain wrote: »

Severe anxiety and depression here also, very hard to get through the day but it's good to see there's a thread for people to talk in!! How does everyone get through the day? Struggling atm.

I have on and off days,it doesn't take anything drastic for the depression to set in.It's hard when people don't understand how alone a depressed person can feel in a room full of people.Try surround yourself with people that understand your issues and don't judge if your having a bad day

soon30 · 06-10-2012 6:29pm

Mindfulness is used by a lot of people at the moment. I cant get into it myself but know a few people who love it. Tony Bates has a good book out about depression and mindfulness- easons usually have it.[/QUOTE]

i hadnt heard of this.thanks ill look it up

girlonfire · 06-10-2012 9:21pm

Princess Peach wrote: »

I don't know why, but I feel like my mood has gone back in time to 2 years ago! This is the longest bad spell I've had since then

Not sure how to fix it

How are you feeling today PP? Be really gentle with yourself while you're going through this rough patch. x

cloud493 · 06-10-2012 9:29pm

Another Saturday night with just myself for my company

put my sister to bed an hour ago, most exciting thing of the night.

Princess Peach · 06-10-2012 11:44pm

girlonfire wrote: »

How are you feeling today PP? Be really gentle with yourself while you're going through this rough patch. x

Thanks! Wasn't great today, woke up after just 5 hours sleep and couldn't sleep any more. Also have lost my appetite completely. Forced myself to have some lunch anyway. Had a fight with my stupid sister which did not help my mood :P

But just woke up from my nap there and feeling a little better. Think I might start a diary or something, but try to focus it on the positive things in my life instead of moaning about the negatives. I know its good to talk about the bad stuff, but just gonna try this method for a while and see how it works

darkhorse · 07-10-2012 12:11am

cloud493 wrote: »

Another Saturday night with just myself for my company put my sister to bed an hour ago, most exciting thing of the night.

Hi, cloud. Even though I dont mind company, this is my time. When I am on my own, I like to listen to my favourite songs on utube. The worst thing is the night just flies and I dont have time to listen to even quarter of my favourites songs(I have well over a hundred and I have to go to bed sometime). Try it, just have the sound up too loud.:)

cloud493 · 07-10-2012 12:20am

I don't think I've been out socialisng in months. People only ever talk to me if their bored, or can't talk to anyone better. Disprited so.

da_shivsta · 07-10-2012 12:43am

been going to the local mental health centre here. They're all great to be honest, the psychiatrist was quite polite, friendly etc.
apart from one thing - he asked me to rate my mood (the usual 1-10 scale that I get asked so often). It was a bad day weather wise, I was low on petrol, tired from a bad sleep & nightmares so I put it at 3 or 4. he said "3 or 4 ? ah now, you don't seem that bad to me." that upset me - why bother ask if you're gonna dismiss it. Granted, I was putting on a happy front as many of us do in public & I was meeting him for the first time I was being polite & friendly. I don't show emotional well to people I'm not familiar with, naturally. As a psychiatrist he should have recognised/appreciated this instead if telling me I was underselling myself (his words).
Other than that, I've been seeing a nurse in there. She's close to my age, very approachable (I've told her some very embarrassing/personal things already) so I'm happy with the help I've been given - all free! Something the government seems to be doing right in Co. Galway anyway.

Feeling a lot better with everything at the moment. Wishing peace & calm & happy to everyone x

darkhorse · 07-10-2012 12:46am

cloud493 wrote: »

I don't think I've been out socialisng in months. People only ever talk to me if their bored, or can't talk to anyone better. Disprited so.

We'er not bored. We like to talk to you. Dont put yourself down, cloud, and dont ever think that anyone is better than you. There may be people out there thats equal to you, there may even be people out there thats beneath you, but there is no one out there that is better than you, remember that. I'm serious when I tell ya that if there is anyone out there who you perceive to be better than you, they are not worth bothering about.

cloud493 · 07-10-2012 1:01am

I wish I could believe that. But I know..... can't quite think of a way to say what I'm thinking without sounding like I'm just feeling sorry for myself, when I know what I'm saying is right. There isn't enough room for everyone to be happy.

People think I'm so bitter, at my dad, at what happened to me, at everyone else cos they have other friends, but I'm really not. I'm sad, but not about that, not really, I'm just quite sad, in the way you can feel it in your chest. And I accept the fact that I'l be alone, at the end, and probably for most of this. And thats ok. I'm not bitter, I don't care what anyone thinks. All i want is for the people who were kind enough to even give me the time of day to be happy. I don't mind being alone. Well I do, but well, someone has to do it. Might as well be someone be like me, you can't break someone thats already broken.

da_shivsta · 07-10-2012 1:06am

I think that life can get better for anyone - whatever situation, there is a way out. Loss of hope is soo tough - I understand that and have went through it myself. But hopefully you'll find a glimpse of sun behing those clouds and when you see it don't lose sight - I'm not just saying this, ) i truly believe things can get better if you fight this.

darkhorse · 07-10-2012 1:11am

cloud493 wrote: »

I wish I could believe that. But I know..... can't quite think of a way to say what I'm thinking without sounding like I'm just feeling sorry for myself, when I know what I'm saying is right. There isn't enough room for everyone to be happy.

People think I'm so bitter, at my dad, at what happened to me, at everyone else cos they have other friends, but I'm really not. I'm sad, but not about that, not really, I'm just quite sad, in the way you can feel it in your chest. And I accept the fact that I'l be alone, at the end, and probably for most of this. And thats ok. I'm not bitter, I don't care what anyone thinks. All i want is for the people who were kind enough to even give me the time of day to be happy. I don't mind being alone. Well I do, but well, someone has to do it. Might as well be someone be like me, you can't break someone thats already broken.

There is no harm in feeling sorry for yourself, cloud. You're never alone, you always have us to talk to, for whats its worth.

purplegeko · 07-10-2012 1:13am

In recent weeks I have started to feel kind of lost and just drifting. I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel and i am really struggling.

I feel like i am 29 and my life is going nowhere. I have gone through rough patches mentally a couple times and usually find my own way out of it but it feels like this time is really different. I cant remember feeling this low. I find myself crying for no reason.

I have 1 real friend but still i find it really hard to talk to her. I wish i could talk too her and just tell her everything thats going on in my head but instead i find myself quiet around her and distancing myself from her and pushing he away.

My only hope is that i find the courage to talk to her before she loses hope in me and gives up on her friendship. If i were her i would have given up on it a long time ago.

Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

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