Anxiety and depression thread (Please read OP)

BorneTobyWilde · 05-07-2016 12:20AM

Some problems are easily solved yet impossible to get there.

Gremlinertia · 05-07-2016 06:47AM

BorneTobyWilde wrote: »

Some problems are easily solved yet impossible to get there.

It's the catch 22 thing i think many, many of us are familiar with.. Like one of the things that comes up time and again for me, i often end up washing a load of clothes twice because i just couldn't get my sh*t together to get them out of the machine in time first time..
In a longer view sense it took me well over ten years to seek help because i wasn't aware how bad i was and even when i was i went for the ignore it option, felt easier at the time..

Tell me how · 05-07-2016 07:20AM

Gremlinertia wrote:

It's the catch 22 thing i think many, many of us are familiar with.. Like one of the things that comes up time and again for me, i often end up washing a load of clothes twice because i just couldn't get my sh*t together to get them out of the machine in time first time..

I spent years paying for my laundry to be done for this reason. That or just buying new clothes because I couldn't be ar*ed ironing.

It's very difficult to understand for those who haven't the experience.

Gremlinertia · 05-07-2016 07:25AM

Oh ironing hasn't happened here since school half my life ago. The rare time i have to go to something vaguely formal i think i usually buy a shirt. My flat is an utter disgrace yet i can tune out when i'm there.

pew · 05-07-2016 07:35AM

I handed in my notice in work yesterday. The job causes stress and anxiety big time for me.

I don't want to leave but I'll only get woorse if I don't.

bridgettedon · 05-07-2016 11:43AM

pew wrote: »

I handed in my notice in work yesterday. The job causes stress and anxiety big time for me.

I don't want to leave but I'll only get woorse if I don't.

Well done for putting your health first. They do say your health is your wealth and I have to agree with that

pew · 05-07-2016 12:04PM

bridgettedon wrote: »

Well done for putting your health first. They do say your health is your wealth and I have to agree with that

I am sick and tired of having to go hospital, not sleeping, being anxious all the time. It's time to go, it's not worth it.

Notsomindful · 05-07-2016 09:01PM

Hey all, dealt with yesterday by sleeping. Don't have a lot of support really. Family too busy with other stuff, an ex who doesnt care. Am going to solicitor to see my entitlement s regarding house. I was willing to waive any share i had in it but not now. He has pushed me too far.

Was out most of day- he wont reply to my texts regarding kids , pure awkward.

Notsomindful · 05-07-2016 09:03PM

Hey all, dealt with yesterday by sleeping. Don't have a lot of support really. Family too busy with other stuff, an ex who doesnt care. Am going to solicitor to see my entitlement s regarding house. I was willing to waive any share i had in it but not now. He has pushed me too far.

Was out most of day- he wont reply to my texts regarding kids , pure awkward.

Not what I need right now.
I also brouggt cigarettes today after not smoking for a few months

Lady is a tramp · 05-07-2016 09:19PM

maca123 wrote: »

I don't think there is an alternative. There is a taper but I'm not sure a GP would necessarily agree with that?

I think with benzos most GPs will advise a taper, to be honest they don't know what they're at if they don't! Benzo withdrawals can be very nasty.

If possible, try to arrange some time off work while you're tapering ... I know this mightn't be practical though.

Try attending a Lifering meeting too, if there are any in your area - you might meet some people who have been through similar.

Shint0 · 05-07-2016 09:29PM

Notsomindful wrote: »

I was willing to waive any share i had in it but not now.

No don't consider anything like that or similar, Notsomindful. While it might ease some of the pressure temporarily while you are trying to deal with other things, it might not be in your best interests long-term.

I have seen people make significant life decisions like this when they weren't in the best frame of mind just to ease the stress but they lost a lot in the end. Hope your appointment with the solicitor goes well.

mickstupp · 05-07-2016 10:41PM

Dear depression, please f*** off. I had enough years ago. I've still had enough. Please f*** off.

Pablodreamsofnew · 06-07-2016 01:52AM

Dear anxiety its not you its me but i think we need a break.

Anyone else just suffer from panic attacks but not depressed? I am not depressed just anxious.

Pinkycharm · 06-07-2016 01:58AM

MrsYelnekoff wrote: »

Dear anxiety its not you its me but i think we need a break.

Anyone else just suffer from panic attacks but not depressed? I am not depressed just anxious.

I'm the same, no depression but anxious as hell. My mother told me today she's booked flights to London the end of the month, now all I can think of is the worst and can't sleep.

Hugo Stiglitz · 06-07-2016 08:56AM

Extremely fed up today.

mickstupp · 06-07-2016 09:20AM

MrsYelnekoff wrote: »

Dear anxiety its not you its me but i think we need a break.

I hope you don't mind, but this gave me the first laugh of my day. Thank you for that

Gremlinertia · 06-07-2016 01:00PM

Went off the rails yesterday somewhat.. Bad mood led to drinking, so inevitable anger at myself and shame today. Working later so i'll be tired on top of that, will need to try prevent a repeat performance Fcuk this.. :mad:

trixychic · 06-07-2016 07:22PM

MrsYelnekoff wrote: »

Dear anxiety its not you its me but i think we need a break.

Anyone else just suffer from panic attacks but not depressed? I am not depressed just anxious.

Yep. Used to have depression. But now I just have the GAD. It's a bitch. Shows its ugly face in every corner of my life!!!

My problem is with trying to explain to ppl that no I'm not "allowing" myself to be this way. I can't just stop feeling this way and cast the thoughts from my head. But apparently I just "haven't tried hard enough". :rolleyes:

I'm trying to ignore the naysayers. Best of luck to you.

La.de.da · 06-07-2016 07:46PM

trixychic wrote: »

Yep. Used to have depression. But now I just have the GAD. It's a bitch. Shows its ugly face in every corner of my life!!!

My problem is with trying to explain to ppl that no I'm not "allowing" myself to be this way. I can't just stop feeling this way and cast the thoughts from my head. But apparently I just "haven't tried hard enough". :rolleyes:

I'm trying to ignore the naysayers. Best of luck to you.

I get this an awful lot.
Especially when it comes to not being employed. (I've worked since I turned 16 18 months ago was advised to stop)

People really don't realise how hard it can be. Got so bad in my last place of employment, I'd have to be on site at least an hour before shift, to calm myself down. Couldn't eat for fear of having to use the loo (fast production lines you were fooked if you had to relieve yourself).

Nowadays I do miss the money, but I am clever (enough) with what I get and can get by. And that's okay.

Edit : sorry I had a point there somewhere but the rambles started

La.de.da · 06-07-2016 07:50PM

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Went off the rails yesterday somewhat.. Bad mood led to drinking, so inevitable anger at myself and shame today. Working later so i'll be tired on top of that, will need to try prevent a repeat performance Fcuk this.. :mad:

That was yesterday grem. We all let the rails loose sometimes. The hangovers and the fear are awful but it will pass.

Have plenty of water and things to snack on for the sugar levels.
Hope the night passes quickly and a good sleep helps.

Hugo Stiglitz · 06-07-2016 07:54PM

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Went off the rails yesterday somewhat.. Bad mood led to drinking, so inevitable anger at myself and shame today. Working later so i'll be tired on top of that, will need to try prevent a repeat performance Fcuk this.. :mad:

Hope you are ok there, G. x

Gremlinertia · 06-07-2016 08:27PM

I'm coping now so that's good.. Lovely chat before work was really helpful too. How are you all doing now?

Hugo Stiglitz · 06-07-2016 08:49PM

Still fairly fed up. Hopefully it'll pass by morning.

Gremlinertia · 06-07-2016 08:51PM

It's glum sorta time of week hugs Hugo..

Notsomindful · 06-07-2016 08:52PM

Ya my head feels funny . in a weird way. Cannot really verbalise it- Hoping sleep helps.

Glad you feel ok Grem

trixychic · 06-07-2016 08:53PM

Gremlinertia wrote: »

I'm coping now so that's good.. Lovely chat before work was really helpful too. How are you all doing now?

Glad to hear it Grem. Xxx

mickstupp · 06-07-2016 08:56PM

Yesterday was not safe. Today is better. Tomorrow I'll be too busy to think. Friday doctor. Saturday other doctor. My work is all that's keeping me distracted at the moment. The second I'm not working, falling through the centre of the earth.

Gremlinertia · 06-07-2016 08:57PM

Notso, it's very hard to describe the multiple things sometimes, remember you don't have to always define it at the time, rest is best (ooh poet)

Thanks Trixy, how are you getting on now?

Hugo Stiglitz · 06-07-2016 09:03PM

Gremlinertia wrote: »

It's glum sorta time of week hugs Hugo..

Thanks, Grem.

trixychic · 06-07-2016 09:12PM

I'm dying with hayfever. I don't usually get it but this year I am smoothering. I went to the pharmacy to get flu meds and was told it was defo hayfever. Hate this feeling.

On another note we are getting through our sons assessment for... something. I think he may have anxiety problem too and he's only 7!!!

My other half will be starting full time work in the next couple of wks and for the first time, for a long time I'll be stay at home mum.

With all of this I have been struggling a bit. I have put on all the weight I worked so hard to get rid of. But food (junk food) seems to be the only way to help ease the panic. I know its a habit. A bad one I have to break. And i know I have to find another coping mechanism... but i just don't feel like I have the time or energy.... even though I'm a major couch potato.

It all makes no sense.

And to make matters even worse there is uproar in my family. My grandparents, aunts and uncles actually. Mental health issues are riddled all around my family. So it's volatile at the best times.

Long story short my aunt (youngest) has went through some very serious medical problems and ended up having a hysterectomy... late 30's, no kids, no relationship, still lives at home, nothing to fall back on. Has a masters though. All the others are married with kids and are settled in their own homes. So my grandmother had a stroke a few months back and both grandparents decided to leave everything (property worth about €450k?) To my aunt.

Well there has been uproar and splits in the family. Now I couldnt care less. Once my grandparents are healthy and happy. I can see why they did it but I can also see why the others are upset. But I have no opinion.

Well now I'm getting it from all sides. My aunt (we were always close... I kinda do agony aunt for her... she needs it ALOT) is calling and texting complaining about the rest and I have my mum and the others on my back telling me I shouldn't be talking to her and how awful she is.

Everyone has their faults... serious serious faults in the family and none can claim otherwise. I'm just sick of all the bitching about it. I couldn't care less. It is their money and I would NEVER have expected to see any of it. My cousins are being roped in aswell and its all just stress on my 2 elderly grandparents. Both of whom have had long tough lives, both of whom have fought off at least 2 different cancers each and still have serious health issues.

And all these gob****es are adding to it and trying to drag me into it. So sick of all this crap.

Ok. Rant over. Sorry. Dudnt realise I needed to vent so much.

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