Illness causing Tidal Wave of Depression

HenryChinaski

After a two year ordeal of one misdiagnosis after another, I was finally diagnosed with a chronic inflammatory disease earlier this year. After further referrals, I've finally been seeing a specialist over the last few weeks however the news hasn't been very good. In fact it seems to get worse and worse and it looks like I'm facing a lifetime battle with pain, permanently medicated, unlikely that I'll be able to have kids, and I'll still probably lose years off my life.

Up to now I've been doing okay but over the last couple of days I've been washed over with depression. I don't feel like anyone I've spoken to understands the pain I'm in or the severity of what is happening to me. Even my incredibly supportive, kind, beautiful, girlfriend doesn't really understand and I'm so afraid to really tell her because she is just about the only thing in my life that I feel is worth something right now.

I'm really struggling to deal with this. I'm a long way from home with nothing to go home to. I've no support network. Physically, I'm in a constant state of pain. And I just don't know what there is to live for, apart from this one beautiful person but I'm afraid that if she knew exactly how much I need her, she'd get scared, and then I'd have nothing. It's becoming too much to deal with and I feel like this is as good as it gets.

face1990

You need to speak to a mental health professional, asap. If you can't find one, your GP can refer you.

Also take a look at this post: http://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=2055744231

Odysseus

Sorry we cannot respond to individual cases here. As suggested I would advise you seek professional help, your GP would be a good place to start. You could also try personal issues, the PI forum you may get some advised there; however, the best option is seeking professional help. Best of luck with it.