Cutting myself

neiler987

I was thinking of cutting myself deeply from my wrist to my elbow on both arms coz i feel like ****e basically.. should i just try it and see how it goes?? i heard that some people get a pleasure from the pain.. if i bled to death i wouldnt care to be honest.. dont feel that im worth anything anymore

and ive been down these couple of weeks over certain things.. i cant really talk to anyone about it my friends or family coz id just worry them and people would jus think im weird and stuff

i might as well not live anymore i feel so lonely... and angry/annoyed/aggressive at people and my friends that are nice to me that have pretty much have done nothing wrong to me .. it gets worse when i drink and head on nights out and stuff

ah well i just felt like i had say/type something of what im feeling right now

i dont want people telling me on this to ring a number to get counselling or help lines or what ever.. thanks

BBDBB

do you feel better for writing out how you feel?

Chris P. Bacon

If you are serious,talk to someone,it will get better.

dr.bollocko

Hello OP.
http://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=2056241245
A link of options available to you.
After hours is not really the place for this thread so please use the link above.


Moved to personal issues forum.

neiler987

BBDBB wrote: »

do you feel better for writing out how you feel?

a tiny bit .. but it still doesnt solve my problems.. i cant tell anyone thats close to me even though i would like to .. and i dont want counselling

BBDBB

neiler987 wrote: »

a tiny bit .. but it still doesnt solve my problems.. i cant tell anyone thats close to me even though i would like to .. and i dont want counselling

seems to me you cant solve your problems until you are in a better frame of mind, so if writing how you feel eases that, and you dont want counselling, that would seem a good first step wouldnt it?

write out how you feel, just let lt flow, get all that stuff thats on your mind and making you feel that way out on a page, it might take you more than one attempt

Temptamperu

You need to quit the boozing and talk to your GP he might put you on meds or send you somewhere that will help. I know you dont want to talk about it buts it helps more than you think.
Best of luck chap.

madmammy

cutting doesn't help anything may take your mind of things but makes you feel worse after it
go talk to someone and get help
if you start it will give you a whole new set of problems trust me

i hope you have friends around you that you can talk to and who are there for you

IHeartChemistry

Dude...I have a history of cutting myself and hurting myself. Trust me, it doesnt get you anywhere. It leaves you with scars and it hurts like a bitxh. I wont mollycoddle you or tell you things you dont wanna hear but PM me. I'll help you all I can. Just to even talk. Talking has always worked for me!

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Seachmall

neiler987 wrote: »

a tiny bit .. but it still doesnt solve my problems.. i cant tell anyone thats close to me even though i would like to .. and i dont want counselling

If you don't feel like you can tell anyone close to you you don't have to, but you should tell someone how you're feeling. Be it over the phone or in person. I know it sounds like a cliche but talking about it does seem to take the pressure away. I felt like I was going to break down at any moment and after a horrible few weeks in my head I eventually did. I ended up talking to someone and while he never said anything more than 5 or 6 sentences over a few hours I felt like a new person at the end of it. I don't know why or what it is but it worked.

Counseling isn't what most people think it is, it's not someone telling you they know what you're going through (because they don't) or telling you how to feel better it's just someone who listens to you. And it does work. I know that's probably hard to believe but it does.

If you can't talk to family or friends find someone who you can talk to. Be it a teacher or lecturer or anyone who you'd feel more comfortable unloading on.

Good luck, and it does get better.

LegacyUser

Well done on admitting that you have a problem. I went through an extremely stressfull time once and found myself cutting myself. I only did it twice but that was too many times, it could easily have gotten out of hand.
It will not solve your problems or completely release all that stress that has built up inside you. I wish I could say something which would make it all better but the only advice I can give is please go to see your GP or a councillor. I know what it's like to say no I don't want to do that but sometimes you need to eventually open up and begin the process of getting better. Don't be afraid or feel ashamed about seeking professional advice.
You mention not wanting to hurt/upset friends & family by talking to them, this is a huge mistake which I made. It will hurt them more if you keep pushing them away as they notice you getting more depressed or if you start self harming.

Taltos

OP

we cannot leave a thread open where the OP is threatening suicide or self-harm.

All we can do is point you to our links page and specifically to

http://www.nosp.ie/
(national suicide prevention)

1Life Suicide Prevention Helpline - 1800 247 100

Pick up the phone and talk to someone who is trained to help you.

Taltos