Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

steviebg

taking lexapro 15mg with bout 4 years now for anxiety and low mood..am now feeling really stable.did try and reduce last year but felt symptoms returning!now i m at a stage where i want to start a family.my gp has advised moving to try prozac as theres more research but i m just so scared to rock the boat.i ve just started re searching the possibilities and i m getting more confused!!any advise anyone whos in or been in a similiar situation????

ashblag

Any one on-line on this thread? Feeling pretty darn ****ty at the moment! Insomnia two hours sleep a night for the last week. Im only a few months out of an 'episode' and i'm back here again. I'm so tired and fed up of it all....why does life have to be so hard. Dont know if it's worth the hassle. If there is a god or some-one up there they have a really sick sense of humour!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ashblag

Pffffff...no one here. Never is when you really need to talk:(

C_Dawg

ashblag wrote: »

Any one on-line on this thread?

I think ya did the best thing and posted anyway. I find tis good to get this shít off your chest in on here. Hope you're doing ok again

8 months waiting and recieved back today that my application for disability allowance was rejected on medical grounds... I didn't even see a doctor... just what my doctor had written down... I don't know whether to appeal or what, 6 months average time for appeals... this was a kick I didn't need when already down and now I'm just confused and can't think through my next options... it's just too much to figure out, been so sleepy since I opened the letter, too much mental pressure, I just can't stay awake.

C_Dawg

Deleted User wrote: »

my application for disability allowance was rejected

I've had a panic attack after reading that. I'm waiting to hear back on my own application and the fear of getting rejected is crippling me all of a sudden.

C_Dawg

C_Dawg wrote: »

I've had a panic attack after reading that. I'm waiting to hear back on my own application and the fear of getting rejected is crippling me all of a sudden.

I'm sorry C_Dawy! I've been preparing myself for this day for the last 8 months because I'm always the pessimist and never expected it to be accepted. Going through moments of fear over what to do next, which is making my ache and making me tired, but mostly trying to keep a cap on the panic and remember that we've survived the last 8 months without social welfare, we can manage another 6. Trying to tell myself that anyway. I hope to God your application is more successful than mine.

C_Dawg

Just me being a bit of a drama queen lol

I'd say appeal the decision - you have nothing to lose by doing it.

I'm going to have to appeal, I have no other options! I thought about trying to find work, applying for job seekers.... but I honestly cannot see myself being capable of finding a job nor even keeping one. It does mean another undetermined number of months where I can't afford to leave my house.... surviving on my partner's wage, we're managing but there's nothing left over for extras.... such as train fare for me to get into town or out to see my friends.... been months since I had anywhere to go or anything to do, and still we can't afford it. Thank God I do live with my partner though. He's the only person I know this side of Dublin. It's a viscious circle though, because shut off from the rest of the world like this I can't see myself bettering myself, taking any steps forwards, being able to overcome any of my current issues. Still, have to take everything a day at a time. Maybe things will look better tomorrow, when I've had some time to let this sink in and consider my next step.

C_Dawg

I just think that it's disgusting that they refuse to give a little financial help to the people who need it. You never asked to be sick like this but every druggie and tramp out there is claiming every benefit left right and centre without a word being said.

I tried to apply for Job seeker's a few years ago, I'd just lost a job because I was suffering from such crippling fatigue every day that I had to call in sick too often, they just didn't want to keep me... and my Jobseeker's was refused cause of this, I was told to apply for disability. Right then I didn't. I was in a slump and didn't have the mental energy to get myself together to do it. I haven't changed (it's 4 years later) so I never tried to apply for jobseeker's again... and now my disability allowance is refused? Is this "too sick to look for work but not sick enough to be unfit for work"? I mean, I'm one or the other!! They can't say I'm both. I'm sure I can appeal, and certainly will bring up the issue that I was refused on the grounds of the vague and undetailed report filled out by my doctor, and nothing else. You cannot rate a person's mental illness from a checklist on the back of a form. I'm just feeling burried under the knowledge that it's going to be another 6 months of one meal a day, and a trip to somewhere further than the local supermarket only when I really really save up for it. It's been about two months since I saw anyone other than my partner. Can't even get out to see my family cause a return trip on the train is 8 quid and I just plainly don't have 8 quid to spare. I'm not starving, and for that I'm lucky. we pay the rent, and usually can manage to pay the bills too. But the less I have to do, the less I actually feel like doing, and another six long months of doing nothing is frightening me.

bob50

Deleted User wrote: »

8 months waiting and recieved back today that my application for disability allowance was rejected on medical grounds... I didn't even see a doctor... just what my doctor had written down... I don't know whether to appeal or what, 6 months average time for appeals... this was a kick I didn't need when already down and now I'm just confused and can't think through my next options... it's just too much to figure out, been so sleepy since I opened the letter, too much mental pressure, I just can't stay awake.

Hi There i cant belive your claim for disabilty was rejected Depression is an illness thats on the social welfares list of medical conditions where you wouldnt be able to work let alone function normally i should know was in the same boat getting the disabilty about 5 years ago was on oot for about a year just sent them the monthly certs from doc he used to write depression as reason for not been able to work

Another disabity would be bronchitis (breathing problems ) thats also on their list

I would suggest you go back to your doc tell him/her the way you are feeling and what your suffering are you on a Anti D ? there is imo no reason why your claim was rejected

Best of luck in getting it

Had a positive experience at the doctor... that's a new one, I usually find doctors awfully intimidating. Been referred to a specialist. He said a specialist should have filled out my application in the first place! It's still going to be a long drawn out process but I'm feeling better about it today.

C_Dawg

A step in the right direction for ya budgese

bob50

Deleted User wrote: »

Had a positive experience at the doctor... that's a new one, I usually find doctors awfully intimidating. Been referred to a specialist. He said a specialist should have filled out my application in the first place! It's still going to be a long drawn out process but I'm feeling better about it today.

Glad to hear hope it works out for ya.................Bob

i-digress

bob50 wrote: »

Glad to hear hope it works out for ya.................Bob

+1

It's unreal how the government and people in general treat depression. It really annoys me. I really hope you get what you are entitled to.

mickman

this is a good thread

i have ocd and anxiety related to this as well.

i am on meds for a different condition (related to anxiety ) and of course im obsessed with the side effects even though i experience almost none.

i cnat get the worries out of my head, even though i know deep down that the chances of anything happening from them are very very slight and life without them would be a lot worse.

this current period has lasted 9 months for me now, up and down

SL10

Hey all, I've been reading this thread for a while now and have found it really helpful.

I've been suffering from anxiety/panic attacks for about four years now (mainly due to being worried about my health). Been having particularly bad period since about feb as I have been having a lot of pains in my chest. The doc thinks I might have asthma but am getting a bronchcoscopy tomorrow just to double check that everything is ok in my lungs.

I'm particularly panicked about it as I have never been under anaesthetic before and am really afraid that I will have a bad reaction to it- or will have a major panic attack when under the anaesthetic. Just wondering if anyone here has ever been under anaesthetic and experienced a panic attack due to it? Is it even possible to experience a panic attack when under anaesthetic?

Shazanne

SL10 wrote: »

Hey all, I've been reading this thread for a while now and have found it really helpful.

I've been suffering from anxiety/panic attacks for about four years now (mainly due to being worried about my health). Been having particularly bad period since about feb as I have been having a lot of pains in my chest. The doc thinks I might have asthma but am getting a bronchcoscopy tomorrow just to double check that everything is ok in my lungs.

I'm particularly panicked about it as I have never been under anaesthetic before and am really afraid that I will have a bad reaction to it- or will have a major panic attack when under the anaesthetic. Just wondering if anyone here has ever been under anaesthetic and experienced a panic attack due to it? Is it even possible to experience a panic attack when under anaesthetic?

Please dont worry about that. It is not really possible to experience a panic attack under anaesthetic as your body will be completely relaxed. I have a major phobia about vomiting and I was terrified of going under anaesthetic in case it happened. So I told the doctor/nurses in advance and they gave me something to relax me. It worked and I did not vomit. I promise you that everything will be fine. Just tell them how you feel - you wont be the first person to do so. And best of luck and a big cyber hug for tomorrow:)

SL10

Thanks Shazanne- thats put my mind at ease a bit! Just looking forward to having it over!

mickman

there is no way you can have a panic attack while under general anisthetic. look the other way when they are giving you the injection and you will be awake with everything over before you know it

RubyXI

Feeling pretty bad tonight. A lot of things i pushed myself and tried to do have just all gone wrong. I can't see a solution to it. I even burned the bloody toast.

ashblag

phi3 wrote: »

Feeling pretty bad tonight. A lot of things i pushed myself and tried to do have just all gone wrong. I can't see a solution to it. I even burned the bloody toast.

Hi phi3 sorry to hear your having a bad time of it....Is it just tonight or has it been building up for a while?

RubyXI

ashblag wrote: »

Hi phi3 sorry to hear your having a bad time of it....Is it just tonight or has it been building up for a while?

Well I've had a few things happen recently that gave me some hope but now nothing has come of them so it makes me feel like good things will never happen. They just went wrong when the should have went right

ashblag

phi3 wrote: »

Well I've had a few things happen recently that gave me some hope but now nothing has come of them so it makes me feel like good things will never happen. They just went wrong when the should have went right

Have had a lot of times like that. It usually happens when I take on things that are too big to handle. Sometimes feels like cant do right for wrong!!

Try not to beat yourself up too much.

RubyXI

ashblag wrote: »

Have had a lot of times like that. It usually happens when I take on things that are too big to handle. Sometimes feels like cant do right for wrong!!

Try not to beat yourself up too much.

Yeah for once it's not even my fault. It just didn't work out, it could happen to anyone but when something bad happpens it's like i'm reminded of all the other bad things in my life and how they'll never be sorted. Just want to remove my brain and forget it all

ashblag

phi3 wrote: »

Yeah for once it's not even my fault. It just didn't work out, it could happen to anyone but when something bad happpens it's like i'm reminded of all the other bad things in my life and how they'll never be sorted. Just want to remove my brain and forget it all

Well there is one positive thing it wasn't your fault. I'm the same Op. Everything could the going hunky dory it takes just one bad thing to set my mind ticking then.

This boards is great even just for venting things out. Hope you feel ok soon phi3,

mickman

phi3 wrote: »

Yeah for once it's not even my fault. It just didn't work out, it could happen to anyone but when something bad happpens it's like i'm reminded of all the other bad things in my life and how they'll never be sorted. Just want to remove my brain and forget it all

go for a work out, a good physical exertion in the gym. i find when i get home in the evenings i can be wound up and stressed and ready to explode. i run my 8 k and im like a guy doped out im so relaxed. exercise is really the best way

SL10

Hey guys, just to let ye know that the bronchoscopy went grand- was extremly panicky but as soon as they gave me the stuff to relax me I was out like a light and only woke up 3 hours later! Was actually amazing- when i woke up I think that was the best I have felt in months!

Phi hope you are feeling better

Love_Game

Hey guys,

Been keeping an eye on this topic for awhile now, but never posted until now.

I feel like I've had the worst 3 months of my life. Constantly getting sick, not sleeping prop. I just feel like I'm never going to get out of this cycle of negative thinking.

Before May, I never really got sick, the odd cold etc but always got over it and never thought much about it.

But since May, I've just feel like Im never going to be 100% again, which means its having a very negative impact on my thinking. I try and stay positive and think about everything good in my life, but I cant get rid of them negative thoughts.

I've gone to my GP numerous times over the last few months, and keep mentioning my sleeping problem, but he seems just to ignore it. I read on my posters post about the CBT, and think I could benefit from it. I'm hoping to say this to my GP at my next appointment.

Sorry for the long post, just needed to get it out of my system.