I am doing it for real.goodbye world

funloving

I ve posted here some times talking about my severe depression,trying to have some advices from people I don't know..
I know this is not the proper help I needed but at least I tried and I have been ignored..I don't blame anybody but also in real life I am not taken seriously and although I looked for some help they have always denied it..

I can't take it anymore and I am on my own in my house right now with some razor blades in my hands

It seems that nobody cares...noboby

I have a long distance relation and I don't know when he will be informed of what happened,maybe through this forum I dont know

If only somebody listened to me....

Lux23

Why would do that? Whatever is going on in your life right now just remember that it only takes a day for it all to go away. I attempted suicide a few years and I thank my lucky star everyday that i didn't die. My life isn't perfect but I know one day it will all work out for me.

Fwaggle

Don't do it. Go to A&E, call a friend, something. There are people who care about you - you can get help.

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

There is help out there, please don't give up.

idunnoutellme

Why would you end your life over some boyfriend who doesnt care? life goes on. you have to tell yourself I feel good and everything will be alright!

Everyone goes thru depression - EVERYONE. Please dont do anything stupid:eek:

Goat Mouth

now why would someone named fun loving want to do a stupid thing like that?

have you not talked to your distant relationship person?
seems like they'd listen if they could... why not go visit him? see his part of the world?

seriously i cant provent you to do what you say your going to do, (even though i dont really think announcing it on the net if a classy way of getting a proverbial "message" out there...)

Marksie

Funloving: i see you are off line. If you decide to come back online PM me and we can talk.

This is not a way out.

Folks: Keep it down in here until we know more OK?

funloving

Believe me,I am so tired and it's so frustrating that nobody takes you seriously and they consider you a weight.
Last week I went out and there was the body of a woman in her 40s on the street..she jumped from the 6th floor and died.
When I saw all this I thought of the courage she had and I admired her because I have always had this ****ing hope to believe things were going to go better but at the end of the day they are still the same or maybe worse.
I tried everything in my power but it didnt work out for me.
When I seek for help from my bf I feel ignored by him and it hurts coz I needed his support

homah_7ft

Try here http://www.samaritans.org/ . Good times do come around. Don't miss out on all the chances that are in front of you.

funloving

I am not announcing anything,I am just trying to do something to keep my mind occupied by other thoughts.
Yes,funloving and so what?I used to be a different person but things changed me and it's not only the BF thing.
I really dont know what to think

Marksie

Funloving: you have come back on line, we are listening here

tell us what is going on

Folks: for the now no advice, juts let funloving talk through things

Einstein

Funloving, can i ask how old you are?
What hobbies and interests do you have?

D

jam_mac_jam

funloving wrote: »

I am not announcing anything,I am just trying to do something to keep my mind occupied by other thoughts.
Yes,funloving and so what?I used to be a different person but things changed me and it's not only the BF thing.
I really dont know what to think

Please just contact the samaritans.

funloving

Divers wrote: »

Funloving, can i ask how old you are?
What hobbies and interests do you have?

D

I'm 25 and I used to have a lot of hobbies etc but lately I am too lazy,let's put it this way,to do many things.
As I said before I am posting here trying to have my mind concentrated on other things
I dont even know how I am writing coz English isn't my language but for some unknown reason I feel better when I try to think in this language coz having a smaller vocabulary I have to render my thoughts more simple so they are easier to deal with

Marksie

thats fine funloving keep posting away. Where are you living?

Einstein

what hobbies did you have?

idunnoutellme

Are you over here to work or study? Where you from?

funloving

idunnoutellme wrote: »

Are you over here to work or study? Where you from?

I used to live in Dublin but now I am back in Italy for a masters.
My life changed completely in Ireland but I liked it and I met very nice people.
I dont know,maybe I moved to Dublin for the wrong reason and I did it only because of my bf...what an idiot

Jessica Sanders

Hi funloving, your English is very good for a non-native speaker! Are you Italian? What part are you from?

funloving

Jessica Sanders wrote: »

Hi funloving, your English is very good for a non-native speaker! Are you Italian? What part are you from?

I live in a wonderful region called Apulia which is in front of Greece..the heel of the boot...it's not very popular though




I feel sorry for saddening you too

Einstein

I'm just jealous that you speak english so well, I'd love to be able to speak fluent italian .
what did you study over here?

Jessica Sanders

Don't worry about saddening me! I have never been to Italy and would love to go sometime. So what are you studying at the moment?

Marksie

funloving wrote: »

I live in a wonderful region called Apulia which is in front of Greece..the heel of the boot...it's not very popular though




I feel sorry for saddening you too

Oh is it a mountaineous region? and do you live in the coutryside or a town?

What masters are you doing?

funloving

Divers wrote: »

I'm just jealous that you speak english so well, I'd love to be able to speak fluent italian .
what did you study over here?

When I was in Ireland I used to work in accountancy (did I spell it rite??) but now I am studying Diplomatic Sc.

Jessica Sanders

Thats funny, I am working in accountancy at the moment and starting a course next month! Did you get sick of it? Hehe.. It can be boring at times when the numbers don't work out!!

Sully

funloving:

Firstly; Suicide or self harm is NEVER the answer. Whatever thoughts or consideration you have of doing so - please set aside. Ending your life is pointless. We all go through rough patches, some worse then others. Fact is, its not the end. We can get over it - maybe not alone, but with the help of others. Nobody here is professional, but saying that - we have no problem helping you out. Its a community, and your part of it. We care about you.

Secondly; Italy is a lovely place. Never heard much of Apulia, is it a small place? Tell us about it. Do you live alone, or are you living with a boyfriend? Forgive me, I know little about you or your past.

Thirdly; What is upsetting you? Why do you feel nobody cares, or why do you feel the need to end it? Do you have a family? What about those who care about you back home?

Talk about it, trust me - things will work out just fine.

funloving

Marksie wrote: »

Oh is it a mountaineous region? and do you live in the coutryside or a town?

What masters are you doing?

Apulia has montains but just a few.
It's more famous for its beaches...in the north of the region they're rocky and beautiful whereas in the south we've white sandy beaches like the Caribbean ones

I live in the city centre of the main city...

Faith

funloving wrote: »

Believe me,I am so tired and it's so frustrating that nobody takes you seriously and they consider you a weight.
Last week I went out and there was the body of a woman in her 40s on the street..she jumped from the 6th floor and died.
When I saw all this I thought of the courage she had and I admired her because I have always had this ****ing hope to believe things were going to go better but at the end of the day they are still the same or maybe worse.
I tried everything in my power but it didnt work out for me.
When I seek for help from my bf I feel ignored by him and it hurts coz I needed his support

Funloving, you're not the only person to feel like this. There was a time when I felt like everyone saw me as a "weight". I just wanted to get away from it all. As time passed though, I realised I was projecting my own feelings of inadequacy onto others. I was wrong when I thought they didn't like me, but I only realised that through talking to them about how I felt. I still have moments of gut wrenching insecurity, but I've learned to get through it.

Have you spoken to your family and friends about how you feel? Have you looked into getting counselling?

Long distance relationships are the hardest of all, and it's really easy to feel ignored. Why don't you give your boyfriend a call, just have a chat with him? Tell him that you've been feeling a little down. At a time like this, you NEED To speak to people.

Einstein

funloving wrote: »

Apulia has montains but just a few.
It's more famous for its beaches...in the north of the region they're rocky and beautiful whereas in the south we've white sandy beaches like the Caribbean ones

I live in the city centre of the main city...

Ooh sounds like I could go scuba diving over there...

Marksie

funloving wrote: »

Apulia has montains but just a few.
It's more famous for its beaches...in the north of the region they're rocky and beautiful whereas in the south we've white sandy beaches like the Caribbean ones

I live in the city centre of the main city...

Wow that sounds fantastic funloving, do you have teh weather to go with the beaches

It is windy and rainy here at the moment.
It must be a little paradise there !!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you do much swimming yourself ?

I dont know what the capital of teh region is called funloving. My geography is awful!!!

funloving

Sully wrote: »

funloving:

Firstly; Suicide or self harm is NEVER the answer. Whatever thoughts or consideration you have of doing so - please set aside. Ending your life is pointless. We all go through rough patches, some worse then others. Fact is, its not the end. We can get over it - maybe not alone, but with the help of others. Nobody here is professional, but saying that - we have no problem helping you out. Its a community, and your part of it. We care about you.

Secondly; Italy is a lovely place. Never heard much of Apulia, is it a small place? Tell us about it. Do you live alone, or are you living with a boyfriend? Forgive me, I know little about you or your past.

Thirdly; What is upsetting you? Why do you feel nobody cares, or why do you feel the need to end it? Do you have a family? What about those who care about you back home?

Talk about it, trust me - things will work out just fine.

I live with my family and I am an only child.
I know my parents love me but I dont feel anybody understands what I am going thru.
I dont like showing my emotions to my friends or the people I know unless they're very close friends of mine or total strangers in a community.
I tried to have the supoort of my BF several times but I dont think he understands that I am serious and maybe he thinks I am only trying to get his attention.
It's true he's cold and distand and I did everything to sort things out but I am tired to do all this on my own.
Everytime he says he loves me with all his heart,that he doesnt mean to be or seem cold but he's stressed with college and work

I dont knwo how Irish and Italian boys are different and if I am so used to the Italian type of guy who si warm,affctionate and makes you feel loved 24/7.

Reading the threads here I came to the conclusion that it doesnt make any difference where you are from..love is love...everywhere

Jessica Sanders

Ohh.. white sandy beaches sound good to me.. weather is so bad here today.

Jessica Sanders

funloving wrote: »

I know my parents love me but I dont feel anybody understands what I am going thru.

You know there are people you can talk to. Counsellors and people who will take you seriously and help you. Give it a try, life is too precious to throw away, we only get one shot at it.

Marksie

are your parents there at the moment funloving?
if not juts keep talking to us here online we aint going anywhere

Sofaspud

funloving wrote: »

I dont knwo how Irish and Italian boys are different and if I am so used to the Italian type of guy who si warm,affctionate and makes you feel loved 24/7.

Sounds to me like you need to get yourself a nice italian boy :P

You can woo him by speaking English to him!
(do non-native english speakers think of english as a romantic language, they way we'd see italian etc? i've always been curious about that)

Carroller16

From www.wikipedia.org

Apulia is a region in southeastern Italy bordering the Adriatic Sea in the east, the Ionian Sea to the southeast, and the Strait of Òtranto and Gulf of Taranto in the south. Its southern portion known as Salento, a peninsula, forms the high heel of the Italian "boot". The region comprises 19,345 km² (7,469 square miles), and its population is about 4 million. It is bordered by the other Italian regions of Molise to the north, Campania to the west, and Basilicata to the southwest. It neighbors Greece and Albania, across the Ionian and Adriatic Seas, respectively. The region extends as far north as Monte Gargano, and was the scene of the last stages in the Second Punic War.

sound like a little paradise alright...
compared to the weather were having here in Dublin

the_syco

funloving, f**k the boyfriend. If he doesn't want to listen, get a new one, as their are plenty of fish in the sea.

=-=

Or talk to someone. In Italy, there's befrienders who are there to listen. You can contact them on 800 86 00 22 (it's an Italian based crowd) or goto http://www.befrienders.org/helplines/helplines.asp?c2=Italy

Faith

Italian men are lovely, I've dated a couple in my time. Funloving, Italians in generally are much more emotional than us Irish, or the English. Italian men are much more open with their feelings, and more affectionate. It can be like trying to get blood from a stone when you try to get an irish guy to open up (no offence to any irish men reading this!). It's not just you, trust me!

Where did you meet your boyfriend? How long have you been going out?

funloving

<snip>idiot - dudara</snip>

and you're certainly a C U N T


SORRY but he deserved it

idunnoutellme

Now there;s a lesson for all you guys out there who dont listen to your girlfriends.

If you love your boyfriend you need t talk to him, definitely tell him how ya feel and i'm sure he'll have some words to make you feel happy again.

So Italian men eh? where do i get me one of them :P

Jimbo

Dont mind that piece of sh*t.

Carroller16

he sure was a c**t

Huggles

funloving wrote: »

and you're certainly a C U N T


SORRY but he deserved it

yes you are right there!

Funloving. I went through this myself in my early twenties. The biggest mistake I made was not telling anyone what I was going through. I didn't tell my friends and they all just drifted away from me, I didn't tell my family and they thought I was being difficult.

My point is, it may seem like they don't care, but they cannot help you if they don't know what is going on and what help to give.

funloving

Faith wrote: »

Italian men are lovely, I've dated a couple in my time. Funloving, Italians in generally are much more emotional than us Irish, or the English. Italian men are much more open with their feelings, and more affectionate. It can be like trying to get blood from a stone when you try to get an irish guy to open up (no offence to any irish men reading this!). It's not just you, trust me!

Where did you meet your boyfriend? How long have you been going out?

It's more than 2 years now and we used to live together in Dublin...
It's true I could get a new BF and for sure I wouldnt have any prob because there is more than on guy who wants to go on a date etc but I love him and I would do something against my will going out with somebody I dont want,not mentioning the fact the the other guy doesnt deserve it too

Jessica Sanders

Is your boyfriend still living in Dublin then? Sorry, I'm missing that part!

Faith

I don't think you need a new boyfriend just yet! Is your current one in university? Has he got exams coming up? I've got exams starting on Monday and I know I'm awful to be around at the moment!

Marksie

I am so sorry about that Funloving sometimes I cannot delete a post and this was one of them .

speaktofrank

Jessica Sanders wrote: »

You know there are people you can talk to. Counsellors and people who will take you seriously and help you. Give it a try, life is too precious to throw away, we only get one shot at it.

Exactly and think how sad your parents would be to think of you alone thinking about this and with razor blades..... nothing is worth doing that and especially not for some guy. Try and talk to someone about how you are feeling. if you want to talk to someone now and you don't feel like talking to the samaritans i will call you or you can call me.
I am a good listener so I will send you my number by PM, sometimes it helps to talk about this problems with someone and I won't judge you. The offer is there anyway.

funloving

Marksie wrote: »

I am so sorry about that Funloving sometimes I cannot delete a post and this was one of them .

NO WORRIES...sometimes feeling anger is good..it means you're still alive and ready to fight

Marksie

funloving wrote: »

NO WORRIES...sometimes feeling anger is good..it means you're still alive and ready to fight

That it is funloving .

You are so muhc better than that poster anyways

Sully

That muppet needs to be sitebanned. Bloody tosser. Whats the issue with deleting the post Mark?

speaktofrank

I think that post has now been deleted. I have sent my phone number by PM if you want to talk to someone. I know what it feels like to have your heart broken and maybe I felt like that after we broke up but now I think to myself how silly I was to think this way because of someone else.