Anxiety and depression thread (Please read OP)

The Black Oil · 28-09-2020 6:09pm

Dose - 15mg.

One More Toy · 28-09-2020 6:58pm

The Black Oil wrote: »

Dose - 15mg.

Same as myself then, hope it gives you as much help has it has with me

One More Toy · 29-09-2020 6:20pm

Feeling depressed today after a long days work. I always get sad when tired. Jealous of other people living a happier more successful life

I'm going for a snooze see if I feel better. Not sleeping well at night

hayoc · 30-09-2020 9:13am

One More Toy wrote: »

I'm going for a snooze see if I feel better. Not sleeping well at night

What works for me is getting up early. I seem to manage being awake from an early hour much better than not being able to sleep at a late hour - if you know what I mean?

I get up at 5.30am for the gym 3 times a week so on non gym days I just force myself out of the bed by 6am regardless of how badly I have slept the night before. It means when it comes round to bed time I am usually tired and not lying awake. So at least I fall asleep. I dont sleep well anymore but I cant do the lying awake with my mind racing til 3am or 4am so at least I avoid that.

One More Toy · 30-09-2020 9:42am

hayoc wrote: »

What works for me is getting up early. I seem to manage being awake from an early hour much better than not being able to sleep at a late hour - if you know what I mean?

I get up at 5.30am for the gym 3 times a week so on non gym days I just force myself out of the bed by 6am regardless of how badly I have slept the night before. It means when it comes round to bed time I am usually tired and not lying awake. So at least I fall asleep. I dont sleep well anymore but I cant do the lying awake with my mind racing til 3am or 4am so at least I avoid that.

I'm up at 7 every morning myself

Tried to snooze but the missus came home. I admit I was cranky for the evening. Gotta tell my psych that I'm not sleeping properly

Wanderer78 · 30-09-2020 11:12am

One More Toy wrote:

Tried to snooze but the missus came home. I admit I was cranky for the evening. Gotta tell my psych that I'm not sleeping properly

There's nothing worse that consistent sh1t night sleeps, how could anyone be upbeat after a few of those, I'd second the getting up early, going on a couple of hours here, up since 7, alarm at 5.30

RabbleRouser2k · 01-10-2020 12:18pm

Does anyone ever get these 'spikes' of impostor syndrome? Like, the feeling of this 'toxic' level of being an impostor? Stuff that literally makes you go into a funk?

I know it's really weird to describe, but there's times where I get this almost 'frozen panic' that come on me. And Weird things can set it off. Feelings of inadequacy in terms of intelligence, feeling like I haven't earned things... the list goes on and on.

Wanderer78 · 01-10-2020 12:52pm

RabbleRouser2k wrote: »

Does anyone ever get these 'spikes' of impostor syndrome? Like, the feeling of this 'toxic' level of being an impostor? Stuff that literally makes you go into a funk?

I know it's really weird to describe, but there's times where I get this almost 'frozen panic' that come on me. And Weird things can set it off. Feelings of inadequacy in terms of intelligence, feeling like I haven't earned things... the list goes on and on.

this is apparently common enough in the world of mental health issues, i do suspect ive experienced it before, but im a lot more comfortable in my own skin nowadays

RabbleRouser2k · 02-10-2020 6:27pm

Wanderer78 wrote: »

this is apparently common enough in the world of mental health issues, i do suspect ive experienced it before, but im a lot more comfortable in my own skin nowadays

Yeah, I got a real spike of it yesterday-things unearned, results unearned, this feeling of almost being frozen like I'm 'about to be found out'...

It's hard to explain. I suppose the 'panic' that overcame me would be the equivalent of committing a crime, and realizing the police had discovered this and were about to arrest me.

I had to go to bed around 3pm and sleep it out until this morning. Never got a spike this strong. I do usually get this feeling, and feel like crap for a couple of days. But I can motor thru it... Sometimes writing stuff down helps.

Wanderer78 · 02-10-2020 9:12pm

Strong feelings of loneliness tonight

RabbleRouser2k · 02-10-2020 10:11pm

Wanderer78 wrote: »

Strong feelings of loneliness tonight

They're the worst, them and the feelings of your own mortality.

carzony · 02-10-2020 11:08pm

Wanderer78 wrote: »

Strong feelings of loneliness tonight

Always seems to come on a Friday night

4Ad · 03-10-2020 12:21am

carzony wrote: »

Always seems to come on a Friday night

I get it most nights, drink doesn't help..

RabbleRouser2k · 03-10-2020 12:26am

4Ad wrote: »

I get it most nights, drink doesn't help..

Drink makes it worse-it's a depressant for a reason.

Graces7 · 03-10-2020 6:26am

RabbleRouser2k wrote: »

They're the worst, them and the feelings of your own mortality.

Eases with advanced age. All gone here as I near 80. Much more at peace.

This week I have had to compile details of my banks etc and where and how I want to be buried so y overseas family will know my wishes and what they have to do re pensions etc

It was hard at first but it has brought acceptance; also I have seen several times folk on line finding it hard to do all this after family have died so that has eased it. Maybe we should all do this reality? It is after all the one thing we are sure of

One More Toy · 12-10-2020 5:06am

Wide awake, too many nightmares and stress

Wanderer78 · 12-10-2020 8:07am

One More Toy wrote:

Wide awake, too many nightmares and stress

Sleep issues are just a pain in the hole

RabbleRouser2k · 12-10-2020 11:39am

Wanderer78 wrote: »

Sleep issues are just a pain in the hole

Sleep irregularities are a pain to me. A lot of folks I work with are in different timezones. Somedays, I hit burnout, hit the bed at about 5pm on a Sunday, and then wake about 9 or 10 on Monday morning.

Managed to get the virus (The one that caused lockdown) back in March... no doubt that's been messing with me quite a lot since.

Graces7 · 13-10-2020 9:23am

Graces7 wrote: »

Eases with advanced age. All gone here as I near 80. Much more at peace.

This week I have had to compile details of my banks etc and where and how I want to be buried so y overseas family will know my wishes and what they have to do re pensions etc

It was hard at first but it has brought acceptance; also I have seen several times folk on line finding it hard to do all this after family have died so that has eased it. Maybe we should all do this reality? It is after all the one thing we are sure of

I wrote to my bank asking what they would need for my folk to access and close my account . Delighted and impressed when they sent an excellent printed booklet, " What to do when someone dies. " and a helpful letter. AIB ; thank you.

Almost all sorted and I feel happier for it. So deeply unwell just now .. Usual winter stuff ad the M.E is at ….. day by day now as we all have to do

Stay well! Stay safe" Stay strong! .

Wanderer78 · 13-10-2020 9:25am

Graces7 wrote: »

I wrote to my bank asking what they would need for my folk to access and close my account . Delighted and impressed when they sent an excellent printed booklet, " What to do when someone dies. " and a helpful letter. AIB ; thank you.

Almost all sorted and I feel happier for it. So deeply unwell just now .. Usual winter stuff ad the M.E is at ….. day by day now as we all have to do

Stay well! Stay safe" Stay strong! .

look after yourself grace

Graces7 · 14-10-2020 9:26am

Wanderer78 wrote: »

look after yourself grace

AH thanks; and the same to all of you. I know this enemy and as along as I am left alone to myself I will cope. Having dr issues just now. They have no idea what many of us go through!

Wanderer78 · 14-10-2020 9:46am

Graces7 wrote: »

AH thanks; and the same to all of you. I know this enemy and as along as I am left alone to myself I will cope. Having dr issues just now. They have no idea what many of us go through!

we need you around for as long as possible

RabbleRouser2k · 14-10-2020 10:59am

Last few days been rough. Some of my issues sprang up. Hit a bout of hypersomnia too, on Sunday. It threw me off entirely.

Graces7 · 14-10-2020 12:10pm

Wanderer78 wrote: »

we need you around for as long as possible

Ooooh! That is the nicest thing anyone has said to me since ?? I will endeavour to oblige!

Wanderer78 · 14-10-2020 12:14pm

Graces7 wrote: »

Ooooh! That is the nicest thing anyone has said to me since ?? I will endeavour to oblige!

nothing is needed in return grace, all humans are needed in my eyes, in particular seniors, us younger ones need you around for as long as possible, now more than ever

Graces7 · 14-10-2020 4:28pm

Wanderer78 wrote: »

nothing is needed in return grace, all humans are needed in my eyes, in particular seniors, us younger ones need you around for as long as possible, now more than ever

I wish I could more in these appalling times. I am so blessed out here. Well used to isolation as I chose it to prevent my own illness endangering my life. My job now is to stay safe. Simply that; so is yours . As simple as that.

Abed with a cat posing as a hot water bottle!

Amzie · 15-10-2020 10:28am

So I'm after coming of my medication gradually but think it's still giving me side effects..I wake up with awful back aches and kinda dizzy sometimes during the day. Anyone else have this coming off Lexapro? I didn't stop cold turkey I followed GPs advice but still feel rotten..and I feel like a burden ringing her again I swear she thinks I'm a hypocondirac..

Wanderer78 · 15-10-2020 10:37am

Amzie wrote: »

So I'm after coming of my medication gradually but think it's still giving me side effects..I wake up with awful back aches and kinda dizzy sometimes during the day. Anyone else have this coming off Lexapro? I didn't stop cold turkey I followed GPs advice but still feel rotten..and I feel like a burden ringing her again I swear she thinks I'm a hypocondirac..

im on sertraline, ive had to reduce dosage, due to side effects, blurred vision. my mood has become a little unstable, increased lower mood moments, but it does seem to be settling down now. im a couple of weeks on the lower dosage, but my vision issues have persisted on and off, but seems to be also settling down, hopefully so. i have been experiencing an increase in back ache, since starting the medication, but its hard to know if that is due to the medication or a reduction in relevant exercises, yoga and pilates etc, very annoying though

lilydonoghue · 15-10-2020 12:33pm

Amzie wrote: »

So I'm after coming of my medication gradually but think it's still giving me side effects..I wake up with awful back aches and kinda dizzy sometimes during the day. Anyone else have this coming off Lexapro? I didn't stop cold turkey I followed GPs advice but still feel rotten..and I feel like a burden ringing her again I swear she thinks I'm a hypocondirac..

I’ve been weaning my dose for a month and just wondered is that anything to do with the amount of body pain I’m having. Now I’m sure it is. My mood has dropped a bit but I’ll see how low I can go. I’ve been on the too long

Graces7 · 15-10-2020 4:23pm

Wanderer78 wrote: »

we need you around for as long as possible

I am so sorry but I cannot stay on boards unless something s done. re a poster. just cannot take it and am too ill to cope any more. this is why I was away all those months …. just too ill. nearly 80 and having this as well as illness and losing a loved on to covid.

Love you all but unless this is stopped

Wanderer78 · 15-10-2020 4:37pm

Graces7 wrote: »

I am so sorry but I cannot stay on boards unless something s done. re a poster. just cannot take it and am too ill to cope any more. this is why I was away all those months …. just too ill. nearly 80 and having this as well as illness and losing a loved on to covid.

Love you all but unless this is stopped

take care of yourself grace, apologies, i didnt mean just us here on boards, i mean humanity in general needs you around for as long as possible

Amzie · 16-10-2020 8:25pm

lilydonoghue wrote: »

I’ve been weaning my dose for a month and just wondered is that anything to do with the amount of body pain I’m having. Now I’m sure it is. My mood has dropped a bit but I’ll see how low I can go. I’ve been on the too long

Oh really I suppose we are all different in now long side effects last how long are u on them do u mind me asking? I feel like ****.lol! Exact same low mood, snappy cant sleep but I'm exhausted. And the aches and pains I swear I feel ancient ðŸ˜

lilydonoghue · 17-10-2020 3:17pm

Amzie wrote: »

Oh really I suppose we are all different in now long side effects last how long are u on them do u mind me asking? I feel like ****.lol! Exact same low mood, snappy cant sleep but I'm exhausted. And the aches and pains I swear I feel ancient &#55357;&#56877;

I’ve been on them 14 years on and off, I find the deadly slow wean best for staying off longest. Since this week I’m weaning another tiny bit for a month

4Ad · 17-10-2020 7:00pm

Hi,hope everyone is doing ok..

I saw this lad last night on Youtube, ye probably know him already..I thought he spoke alot of sense, that struck a chord with me.
Hope it helps someone a tiny bit even..
Keep safe.

Johann Hari, The reasons why Im depressed.. i cant link the video

Multipass · 19-10-2020 5:46pm

Have been hanging on by my fingertips waiting for face to face appointments to restart. Online doesn’t work for me, I feel even more isolated afterwards. Starting to feel really desperate at this stage, and with the news tonight I just don’t know what to do.

Sardonicat · 19-10-2020 5:52pm

Multipass wrote: »

Have been hanging on by my fingertips waiting for face to face appointments to restart. Online doesn’t work for me, I feel even more isolated afterwards. Starting to feel really desperate at this stage, and with the news tonight I just don’t know what to do.

It's very, very tough. *hugs*

Wanderer78 · 19-10-2020 7:06pm

Multipass wrote: »

Have been hanging on by my fingertips waiting for face to face appointments to restart. Online doesn’t work for me, I feel even more isolated afterwards. Starting to feel really desperate at this stage, and with the news tonight I just don’t know what to do.

i was offered online service at the beginning of this, knew it wouldnt work for me, new medication is working thankfully, dont feel the need for online, look after yourself

Gremlinertia · 19-10-2020 7:56pm

Couldn't do online either nor phone. So for the most part relying on an occassional meet which i guess it'll be next year for the next now. Taking it hard right now but i'm going to working no matter what so hopefully that structure will see me through

Graces7 · 21-10-2020 4:01am

Just dropped in to wish all here well. I am having a very difficult autumn/winter healthwise so have been offline etc.Just plodding on with essentials now. Stay safe out there. Blessings and peace

One More Toy · 21-10-2020 7:34am

Graces7 wrote: »

Just dropped in to wish all here well. I am having a very difficult autumn/winter healthwise so have been offline etc.Just plodding on with essentials now. Stay safe out there. Blessings and peace

Same greetings to you Grace

Graces7 · 23-10-2020 6:02am

Trundling along in bottom gear and there are worse places to be; once you get used to it. Same as with the covid situation. Adapt or suffer... head meet brick wall ..best to turn round and lean against the wall

And I am in the safest and quietest place out here. Which means a lot. Whiling the days away here, watching drama series, knitting for sale...I send a kilo parcel to Canada every month .. well -channelled nervous twitch

And outwitting my cats…

Stay safe; stay well. stay strong.. deeply thankful for you all

THANK YOU!

Wanderer78 · 23-10-2020 6:04am

Graces7 wrote:

Stay safe; stay well. stay strong.. deeply thankful for you all

Thank you, keep going grace, and thank you for your posts

Hoboo · 23-10-2020 6:19am

Ah the old 4 hour sleeps are back.

I started following Russel Brands podcasts a while ago and a regular on his show, Gabor Mate, I found very interesting, and helps me greatly with mind management and perspective.

This one's on Covid and isolation.

https://youtu.be/uli_xqVwo9Y

Wanderer78 · 23-10-2020 6:21am

Hoboo wrote:

I started following Russel Brands podcasts a while ago and a regular on his show, Gabor Mate, I found very interesting, and helps me greatly with mind management and perspective.

I've checked in with brand a couple of times, interesting guy, very intelligent, the documentaries he done on drugs were fantastic

sunnyday1234 · 23-10-2020 12:59pm

One More Toy · 23-10-2020 1:26pm

sunnyday1234 wrote: »

Hi All

I have i suppose what would be called severe anxiety but having been doing really well for a good while now. But of course this never lasts and i have been diagnosed with a treatable cancer and i need an operation in a few weeks time.

I am terrified of the operation (more than the cancer) and afraid that i will be aware mid way through and not be able to tell anyone as ill be paralysed.

Has anyone been through an operation ?

No but I've been through chemotherapy, feel free to dm me

Hoboo · 24-10-2020 6:34pm

Wanderer78 wrote: »

I've checked in with brand a couple of times, interesting guy, very intelligent, the documentaries he done on drugs were fantastic

Being an ex addict as you know, he knows exactly how an addict thinks and acts. And he's very very well read, open to ideas and opinions, even if he disagrees he accepts someone's view...... backgrounds and experience drive personal view so everyone's different. He is so open to everyone and respectful, because no one knows everything and there's no one fits all solution to every problem. And he loves to learn. Which is one way he manages his own battles.

He's a very interesting guy alright.

Wanderer78 · 25-10-2020 5:42am

Hoboo wrote:

Being an ex addict as you know, he knows exactly how an addict thinks and acts. And he's very very well read, open to ideas and opinions, even if he disagrees he accepts someone's view...... backgrounds and experience drive personal view so everyone's different. He is so open to everyone and respectful, because no one knows everything and there's no one fits all solution to every problem. And he loves to learn. Which is one way he manages his own battles.

It was shocking to see the ignorance of some of the professionals he interviewed for those documentaries, incredible arrogance from some of them, only an addict would truly understand that world, but they weren't having any of it. people like you, and your opinions matter in these type of situations, a text book may only be able to explain some elements of those situations, whereby you can fill in a lot of the blanks. I wish you well in your recovery

lilydonoghue · 25-10-2020 1:47pm

I was 29 Years clean and sober and I went back - nothing has really changed I’m miserable now, more than I was before. I also cannot stop as it’s in where I live and on tap

Wanderer78 · 25-10-2020 5:54pm

lilydonoghue wrote: »

I was 29 Years clean and sober and I went back - nothing has really changed I’m miserable now, more than I was before. I also cannot stop as it’s in where I live and on tap

please get whatever help you need

Anxiety and depression thread (Please read OP)

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