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20-10-2020, 22:17   #1
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Times when you were made to feel really self conscious?

Horrible.

No I meant to say,

HORRIBLE!!

You know when you get that prickly heat, face goes super red, the air feels like it's become heavy like glue, or molasses.

AW LAWD SAVE ME!!

lol - gotta hate it.

One time I was dancing at an outdoor festival and basically started losing my shit to this awesome remix that came on.

After a minute or so, I noticed there seemed to be some source of amusement emanating from my general area, based on responses of the other dancers to me - laughing, in some cases pointing and laughing etc.

Then I noticed there was this overweight female dancer stood behind me, flossing - like this,



Basically clowning me in front of everyone.

This had been going on unnoticed for about 60 seconds.

Hell even a security guard looking on was having a good laugh at my expense.

.....

I wanted to fucking crawl out of there.


Feel free to post times when you made some else feel really self conscious also, so we can hear both sides.
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When I first arrived here and my English wasn't that great. I struggled to understand conversations and there was always one person in the group who made fun of me for it .I have come a long way since then, and if I met them today would give them a run for their money.
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To be truthful I don't get embarrassed I leave that to other people
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I work in live broadcasting and once I forgot how to say the work conservation, I literally attempted it several times which made it worse, it was horrendous and everyone was laughing at me. You could actually hear studio laughter over me trying to say it.
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Driving test. So nervous I hit a bush parking up and my instructor that really pissed me off (wasn't talking to him at the time) was watching me and saw it. I just wanted to fall into a bottomless hole.
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Driving test. So nervous I hit a bush parking up and my instructor that really pissed me off (wasn't talking to him at the time) was watching me and saw it. I just wanted to fall into a bottomless hole.
Did the air feel like molasses?
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20-10-2020, 23:35   #7
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I work in live broadcasting and once I forgot how to say the work conservation, I literally attempted it several times which made it worse, it was horrendous and everyone was laughing at me. You could actually hear studio laughter over me trying to say it.
Still struggling in that general area I see.

#thoughtsandprayers.
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Ahaha! I won't even edit it, that's too good.
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I had an interview today over Skype and there were 4 people on the panel throwing questions at me, right from the off it was a nightmare. 45 minutes of Gestapo style interrogation. It's so weird having to deal with the gaze of 4 people for that long, even remotely.
Probably the most self conscious I've felt is years ago when I've gone to parties, been passed a joint, and then being stoned out of my head in a room where I don't actually know anyone and I don't know what to do with myself or where to even look, and then not even knowing where I am or where I should go or where the exit or toilet is and still trying to play it cool. It doesn't get much worse than that.
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When I realised my use ( purchase power ) of animal exploitation was so intrinsic to my daily routine that I was forced to accept my conditioned values didn't actually align with who I wanted to be.
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When I realised my use ( purchase power ) of animal exploitation was so intrinsic to my daily routine that I was forced to accept my conditioned values didn't actually align with who I wanted to be.
Cognitive dissonance?
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Cognitive dissonance?
Inconsistent with the status quo, absolutely.
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When I realised my use ( purchase power ) of animal exploitation was so intrinsic to my daily routine that I was forced to accept my conditioned values didn't actually align with who I wanted to be.
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Did the air feel like molasses?
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Cognitive dissonance?
Cognitive dissonance - is technically a synonym for, lack of self awareness?

So, lack of self awareness = potential for induction of that horrible self consciousness?

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Inconsistent with the status quo, absolutely.
As in, feeling like you stick out from the crowd and the air turns into molasses?

.....

Is that what we're getting at here?
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First job as a web developer. Probably my second or third day. I was taking over a project from someone who had already left the company, and there was a standing appointment for two people from the client company to come in for a meeting. The account manager was unavailable for some reason, so at the last minute they asked me to meet them alone. I hadn’t a clue about the project, the client, my own company, anything.

I was dressed on the scruffy side of casual, and they turned up in business suits, so I immediately felt out of place. I was alone with them in a room and they were asking questions i had no idea what the answers to were, requesting things I had no idea if we should be doing or not.

My mouth went completely dry - felt like it was made of sand. My voice became this broken, squeaky croak - my throat felt tight, closing in. I felt my face getting red and hot. My hands were shaking and I had to force every word out individually. I just wanted it all to end, for the ground to swallow me up, but the meeting seemed to go on forever. I seriously contemplated just getting up and running out without saying a word.

In the end they thanked me and left. Despite my absolute panic and embarrassment, they acted completely normal - never showed a single sign that they knew that I was incredibly uncomfortable. Which actually made it worse, because I kept asking myself “is this really happening? How can’t they see that this person is falling start in front of them?”

But no, the air didn’t feel like molasses. The air was fine, like a normal gaseous mixture of nitrogen, oxygen and carbon dioxide.
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