Anxiety and depression thread (Please read OP)

BohsCeltic · 20-02-2019 6:05am

SMC92Ian wrote: »

I feel it's too late for me. I'm not able for it anymore. I can't afford professional help even if I was able to. I should feel happy and lucky, I have a savage life for anyone on the outside looking in but they don't know. Nobody knows for years I've been depressed, suicidal and even if they did I have the sort of family where men should be men and can't have mental health issues. Theyre not real it's just mean whinging.

It's never too late. Talk to people. You will be surprised how many other people who have a smile on their face are hiding something inside.
There are plenty of support groups you can call to give you advice.

My stress levels went down after i was open about everything and got talking to people who i would never have suspected of having depression.

All my friends and family know, even i think my 2 dogs know. I printed out a sheet of things before to show my family things that you shouldn't say to a depressed person.

I don't have any kids either and my GF is a long way away. I'm sleeping way too much too and have been out of work since end of March.

On friday i have to go to a friends stag do in Germany. He's Scottish and even he knows about my depression.
I don't really want to go but feel like i don't want to let him down.

They all know that if i go out with them and want to go back to the hotel early there will be no slagging because they know about my condition.

That's why it's good to talk. And him and his friends are all hard men but they understand.
Explain clearly to your family how you feel.
A friend of mine who i would describe as hard as nails took his own life recently. Because he wouldn't talk to anyone.

Have some faith and don't do anything stupid please.

RabbleRouser2k · 20-02-2019 6:22am

Apologies, accidentally posted a post in the wrong thread-have it deleted now. Very sorry, too many tabs open.

:o:o

What BohsCeltic said, don't do anything foolish-we've all been there.

I found that once I started opening up, opening up on stuff, telling people 'Yeah, I have bad days-I'm very sorry' that things sort of open up.

In the last ten years or so, I just decided to let people in, let more and more folks know-if I'm having a crap day, tell folks.

Like, my medication got reduced from 60mg to 40mg, and that's frustrating, but It might be for the better.

There are going to be those crappy days-but let people know, don't bottle it up.

SMC92Ian · 20-02-2019 6:57am

BohsCeltic wrote: »

It's never too late. Talk to people. You will be surprised how many other people who have a smile on their face are hiding something inside.
There are plenty of support groups you can call to give you advice.

My stress levels went down after i was open about everything and got talking to people who i would never have suspected of having depression.

All my friends and family know, even i think my 2 dogs know. I printed out a sheet of things before to show my family things that you shouldn't say to a depressed person.

I don't have any kids either and my GF is a long way away. I'm sleeping way too much too and have been out of work since end of March.

On friday i have to go to a friends stag do in Germany. He's Scottish and even he knows about my depression.
I don't really want to go but feel like i don't want to let him down.

They all know that if i go out with them and want to go back to the hotel early there will be no slagging because they know about my condition.

That's why it's good to talk. And him and his friends are all hard men but they understand.
Explain clearly to your family how you feel.
A friend of mine who i would describe as hard as nails took his own life recently. Because he wouldn't talk to anyone.

Have some faith and don't do anything stupid please.

It's not going to happen, I don't have people like you, family and friends are all in the past. They've all ****ed off and sure can I blame them, I've done this to myself, nobody wants to be around a downer or depressing bastard so I can't blame them at all. That last bit about your friend is probably going to be me, there is more chance of Ireland winning the Eurovision again than there is me confiding in a person again, tried it once to someone who said I was important to them and they didn't give any ****s, lesson learned. People say they care but don't.

Like imagine if I opened up to my parents who brought me into this world and told them I think "I wish I died" all the time or hate waking up cause I don't like my life... it'd kill them and I'd probably get the reply of "here's a violin"

6am and still awake...

BohsCeltic · 20-02-2019 7:23am

SMC92Ian wrote: »

It's not going to happen, I don't have people like you, family and friends are all in the past. They've all ****ed off and sure can I blame them, I've done this to myself, nobody wants to be around a downer or depressing bastard so I can't blame them at all. That last bit about your friend is probably going to be me, there is more chance of Ireland winning the Eurovision again than there is me confiding in a person again, tried it once to someone who said I was important to them and they didn't give any ****s, lesson learned. People say they care but don't.

Like imagine if I opened up to my parents who brought me into this world and told them I think "I wish I died" all the time or hate waking up cause I don't like my life... it'd kill them and I'd probably get the reply of "here's a violin"

6am and still awake...

People are humans and humans can help. Trust me i've been through hell and back.
It wouldn't kill your parents about opening up, it would kill them if you done something stupid.
Please call a doctor or go to a&e. That won't cost nothing untill later.

https://www.samaritans.org/your-community/samaritans-ireland-scotland-and-wales/samaritans-ireland?gclid=CjwKCAiA767jBRBqEiwAGdAOr_Emdfs7JO9kUuPUVqBZ7pJLVDudpKpdCASFminZesocT5LsB7UonxoCX5YQAvD_BwE

Talk to someone please.

Drumpot · 20-02-2019 9:49am

SMC92Ian wrote: »

I feel it's too late for me. I'm not able for it anymore. I can't afford professional help even if I was able to. I should feel happy and lucky, I have a savage life for anyone on the outside looking in but they don't know. Nobody knows for years I've been depressed, suicidal and even if they did I have the sort of family where men should be men and can't have mental health issues. Theyre not real it's just mean whinging.

It’s interesting you mention money because Over the years I didn’t think I could afford it either. I looked at a letter yesterday I sent to my mortgage provider in 2014. Why would I look at it now? Because I got a 5 year moratorium that’s actually up later this year and I am worried about how I am going to cope financially with my mortgage doubling in a few months. I am
Working on a budget to address that!

In the letter I plead with the bank to stop hounding me and putting me under pressure. I also talk about having to ask my parents for money because my bank account was at zero. That’s been my financial status for nearly a decade. The medical card has been a godsend, perhaps you might be able to get one if you are financially struggling? I used 8 free counseling sessions through that. I also changed doctors when it wasn’t working out with one doctor and found a brilliant younger doctor who helped transform the way I coped with my anxiety. At one stage I was going to my doctors every month, not ideal but it got me through a very bad patch.

I find a lot of people who don’t suffer depression or anxiety just don’t get it. Not in a mean way but they don’t know how to react or what to say and quite often they unintentionally say something that can make me feel worse.

My family never asks me how I’m getting on at AA. They acted with a sort of “oh right, on” when I told them. AA is just a support group but most people act like it’s a cult. I suffer depression and anxiety, only difference I am to some people is I turned to drink and medication to ease the pain. My pain and general, symptoms and general outlook is similar to everybody else’s. If you feel your family wont support you then you should consider sharing your feelings anyway, They might surprise you or if you think Its not worth it then focus on who might be able to offer support. I don’t rely on my family for emotional support or my friends for that matter. When I told my family that a very respected therapist thought I might of been absused as a small boy, my family never asked me about it. They dismissed it and never ask. The support I ultimately found wasn’t necessarily the support I wanted but it was the support I needed.

The average Joe (friends or family) don’t have answers or the tools to help me. I wouldn’t ask them to be able to fix a broken arm so thinking of my mental health just like that helped me seek out the help I needed. Ian it sounds like you need support, believe me there is support there, you just have to seek it out. Keep looking and keep trying to find somebody who can help you.

Edit: just to add, I also went to , free, award meetings. At the time I was directed to a free CBT course they were doing , a 6 week course and that was really helpful.

lucalux · 20-02-2019 7:59pm

SMC92Ian I just want to say that I can really understand a lot of you are posting.

Can I just say tho, something that did help me was going to Pieta House. Money was a big issue for me too, but I managed to get myself there and back, the rest was free.

Pieta House do 15 sessions absolutely free. You go twice a week for three weeks, then 9 weekly sessions after. Free.

People fundraise for them so it's not a burden on the people who need to use their service.

They might have a centre near you? The counsellors and psychologists they have are usually top notch and eager to help no matter what.

They have a phone number which is freephone and 24/7. They usually fill in details, where they are near you etc if you want to know more. They'll also just chat with you a bit.

1800 247 247

Might be worth a try, might not. Either way, all the best.

Want to thank everyone else for their great posts too. It's easy to forget I'm not on my own, so reading the thread is a help. Not too confident of posting here myself, but I hope I might improve that. All the best for now

SMC92Ian · 20-02-2019 8:15pm

I don't want to waste anyone's time, I feel I would just sit there in silence and not say anything. I don't feel right sharing my "problems" as it feels silly telling someone the real truth when the world we live in has people with worse. Also I dunno how talking can help, I'm stuck in some sort of I dunno, can't accept what's happened last year, the loss, how do people just move on?... I can't and it's horrible, I kind of don't want to. Do people just fake it all the time? I was raised with the idea that life happens and we all get on with it and if you can't your moaning or been a drama queen etc.

Abba987 · 20-02-2019 8:19pm

I attended a&e with a family member for mental health issues and I contacted patient accounts department about paying and was told mental health was not charged for

Maybe not the case everywhere and certainly not advertised but worth checking.

Abba987 · 20-02-2019 8:22pm

https://www.independent.ie/irish-news/a-letter-to-my-younger-self-its-hard-to-believe-you-were-going-to-end-my-life-over-something-so-irrelevant-37809085.html

Tell me how · 20-02-2019 8:25pm

SMC92Ian wrote: »

I don't want to waste anyone's time, I feel I would just sit there in silence and not say anything. I don't feel right sharing my "problems" as it feels silly telling someone the real truth when the world we live in has people with worse. Also I dunno how talking can help, I'm stuck in some sort of I dunno, can't accept what's happened last year, the loss, how do people just move on?... I can't and it's horrible, I kind of don't want to. Do people just fake it all the time? I was raised with the idea that life happens and we all get on with it and if you can't your moaning or been a drama queen etc.

Talking alone is no guarantee, medication is no guarantee, but all the evidence is that care under the right supervision stands a high chance of being successful.

In the past people thought that smoking was good for you. Dr's advertised it. Knowledge and opinions evolved. You may have been raised a particular way but again, the evidence is that that was not necessarily the right way.

If you do go to a Dr, you could print out some of your posts here and just read them out loud.

TG1 · 25-02-2019 10:24pm

At a point in life where I have to choose between career prospects, ambitions, opportunities, career related hopes and dreams etc. and mental health.

I know which I have to pick but it's a hard decision when 7 months ago I thought I had found the dream job that I would stay in and progress and learn. But I am more than my career. Bitter pill to swallow tonight but I know the set of circumstances that resurrected the anxiety monster in my brain are not the circumstances to stay in.

Tonight its all a lot to wrap the head round though.

TG1 · 03-03-2019 12:48pm

The physicality of anxiety has caught me off guard. I had accepted the palpitations, the nausea, the vomiting, the physical exhaustion... Today the tremors and twitches and muscle cramps have caught me off guard. I'm learning about this every day. Anyway, every blip is surmountable, that's what I am trying to remind myself of today.

BohsCeltic · 03-03-2019 4:19pm

TG1 wrote: »

The physicality of anxiety has caught me off guard. I had accepted the palpitations, the nausea, the vomiting, the physical exhaustion... Today the tremors and twitches and muscle cramps have caught me off guard. I'm learning about this every day. Anyway, every blip is surmountable, that's what I am trying to remind myself of today.

I got all of that too, especially the twitches. I stopped drinking coffee and they went away. Might not work for everyone but worked for me.

Hermes Trismegistus · 08-03-2019 10:32pm

Evening folks.

Just curious - have any of you tried iMindCoach.ie? They were recommended to me by a former patient of theirs who found great success with them for their anxiety. The method they use is Hypnotherapy.

I thought I'd give it a shot as I've tried everything else over the years; talk therapy, medications both prescribed and not prescribed and I have to sort this out as its been going on since I'm 13, and now I'm 31 and I cant even work due to the severity of it at this stage. I can just about attend college courses, which is an achievement but I need to rid my life of this.

I've been in touch with them myself for my own issues with anxiety (and subsequent depression) and am awaiting a call back. Just wondering if anyone has had any experience with them. A quick google search will bring up their website - their guarantee seems almost too good to be true so I'm skeptical, but I'll try anything at this stage.

SMC92Ian · 09-03-2019 1:50am

I want to go to Comic Con tomorrow but anxiety and my stupid brain are stopping me... been trying to force myself to get up and go but just feel down.

BohsCeltic · 09-03-2019 5:34am

SMC92Ian wrote: »

I want to go to Comic Con tomorrow but anxiety and my stupid brain are stopping me... been trying to force myself to get up and go but just feel down.

You can do it. Yesterday i had to go to my godson's confirmation, didn't even feel like getting out of bed. I was worrying about the meal after it because my anxiety doesn't help my appetite.
I went and was so happy i did go, much of my extended family were there too so had a good chat with them all.

I mentioned on here before that i had to walk my Sister down the aisle for her wedding and also do a speech at the reception.
I done it because i would have regretted it.

Sometimes the thought of missing out on things motivates you.

SMC92Ian · 09-03-2019 11:21am

BohsCeltic wrote: »

You can do it. Yesterday i had to go to my godson's confirmation, didn't even feel like getting out of bed. I was worrying about the meal after it because my anxiety doesn't help my appetite.
I went and was so happy i did go, much of my extended family were there too so had a good chat with them all.

I mentioned on here before that i had to walk my Sister down the aisle for her wedding and also do a speech at the reception.
I done it because i would have regretted it.

Sometimes the thought of missing out on things motivates you.

I've nobody to go with an will be on my own, it's okay I'll stay at home. Be okay.

Tell me how · 09-03-2019 1:25pm

SMC92Ian wrote: »

I want to go to Comic Con tomorrow but anxiety and my stupid brain are stopping me... been trying to force myself to get up and go but just feel down.

Please plan to go. Even if you just tell yourself that you are only going to go to the venue. You are going to get on a bus/train etc. Go to the venue. Spend a few minutes outside. And then go home.

If you do this, I really think you will change your mind and go in for ten minutes. If you go to the door, then turnaround and come home, at least you'll have made some effort.
Deciding today to simply not go is easy (but painful maybe in other ways, I understand that) but it is in your better interest to try to get there.

SMC92Ian wrote: »

I've nobody to go with an will be on my own, it's okay I'll stay at home. Be okay.

just tell yourself that YOU want to go. I've gone to several countries, concerts, plays, movies, other events on my own and while companionship would be wonderful, I still come home with the positive memories of the experience rather than dwelling on anything else.

Also, and this cannot be overstated, if you go, you are infinitely more likely to enjoy yourself and maybe meet someone who you can plan the next trip with than if you were to stay at home.

I know it is easy say all the above. Be easy on yourself and know that if you plan to go but ultimately do not, at least you tried to make a plan.

BohsCeltic · 09-03-2019 3:01pm

SMC92Ian wrote: »

I've nobody to go with an will be on my own, it's okay I'll stay at home. Be okay.

Try and go. 2 weeks ago i had to fly to Germany alone for my friends stags(He's Scottish). I didn't want to go but also didn't want to let him down.
When i was at my lowest point i had a holiday to Thailand booked but didn't want to go but i went and i was on my own. If i can travel to the other side of the wold alone you can go to comic con.

Getting out of your room does really help. Take care.

One More Toy · 09-03-2019 11:00pm

Does anyone have any experience of lithium for treatment resistant depression? Curious to hear from anyone about it, my psychiatrist is leaning towards prescribing it

SMC92Ian · 10-03-2019 2:06am

Sorry to let you down guys, I didn't go.

Tell me how · 10-03-2019 3:22am

SMC92Ian wrote: »

Sorry to let you down guys, I didn't go.

You didn't let anyone down.

This whole process is about fighting hard to take tiny steps. First step is to want to do something. You're there.

Look forward. Think of the next opportunity.

TG1 · 10-03-2019 6:43pm

Down few weeks had. Struggling to come out of it. Work isnt helping but I cant blame it completely. Just have zero motivation to do all the things I am supposed to do to help myself. Even cancelled my psychologist appointment last week cos I was just too busy in work. I know thats not ok but just cant figure a balance out at the moment.

TG1 · 11-03-2019 8:48pm

Was really on the way up until things took a turn two weeks ago. as of today, we stepped up my medication,signed off work, not really sure whats going on. Need to do a lot of soul searching this week. Not sure how I ended up here from where I was a couple of weeks ago. I was actually seeing a light after 30 odd years of anxiety.

Gremlinertia · 12-03-2019 11:40am

Tg1 it's terrible really, there doesn't seem to be any straight lines with mental health.. Try not to let this dip dictate things too much it could be that the tide has gone out on you so to speak, that's temporary though so change will occur again soon..
I've been clinging hard to that the last few days, internally things haven't been great and external events recently have really given me a bettering too. Hope you ride this out ok..

Squatter · 12-03-2019 11:46am

One of my offspring ha started to live a long way from home and far from the family GP who has been very helpful with his depressive condition. He's about to embark on CBT and his GP has recommended that he find a new GP in his locality as he only comes home every month or six weeks.

If it isn't against the forum rules, would anyone be able to recommend a competent and sympathetic GP in the D7 (Drumcondra/Phibsborough) area please? - PM preferred.

12-03-2019 12:06pm

Squatter wrote: »

One of my offspring ha started to live a long way from home and far from the family GP who has been very helpful with his depressive condition. He's about to embark on CBT and his GP has recommended that he find a new GP in his locality as he only comes home every month or six weeks.

If it isn't against the forum rules, would anyone be able to recommend a competent and sympathetic GP in the D7 (Drumcondra/Phibsborough) area please? - PM preferred.

There is a great couple of doctors in Ballygall (Cremore Clinic) which is a short bus journey / 20 min walk away.

They were very helpful to me

TG1 · 12-03-2019 12:23pm

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Tg1 it's terrible really, there doesn't seem to be any straight lines with mental health.. Try not to let this dip dictate things too much it could be that the tide has gone out on you so to speak, that's temporary though so change will occur again soon..
I've been clinging hard to that the last few days, internally things haven't been great and external events recently have really given me a bettering too. Hope you ride this out ok..

Thanks Grem, yeh I've taken a bit of a battering work wise, and am just tired I think. It all just sort of got on top of me. My gp is great, just took no sh*t from me yesterday, packed me off to the folks house by the beach to reset and adjust to the meds tweak. Hopefully all will be heading in the right direction again shortly.

Look after yourself too grem, you're so supportive on all these threads, it's easy to forget you have a real life going on too!

TG1 · 13-03-2019 4:43pm

Has anyone any advice around being signed off work? After much arguments my gp convinced me to take a cert. I'm three days in now and I find I'm more stressed being out of work, even though I was having at least weekly panic attacks while working.

Now I just find I'm in a constant heightened state, checking emails and the phone constantly just in case. If I call up the gp office are they likely to give me a fit to return before the end date of the cert? I really think I'd be happier just ploughing on with it.

13-03-2019 5:28pm

TG1 wrote: »

Has anyone any advice around being signed off work? After much arguments my gp convinced me to take a cert. I'm three days in now and I find I'm more stressed being out of work, even though I was having at least weekly panic attacks while working.

Now I just find I'm in a constant heightened state, checking emails and the phone constantly just in case. If I call up the gp office are they likely to give me a fit to return before the end date of the cert? I really think I'd be happier just ploughing on with it.

The doctor obviously thinks that you should take it handy. First thing I would do is get rid of the phone. If you need to check it at all, do it at 1pm every day and give yourself an hour to sort out any pressing issues.

You need more time to adjust. I was off work for 3 months but only felt any benefit after 2 or 3 weeks.

Take some time to do things that make you happy. A walk, cinema, or just a day on the couch.

Easier said than done, I know. But give yourself a chance to unwind before you plough ahead back into the old routine.

Tell me how · 13-03-2019 7:34pm

Exactly what the dunne said.

This is probably something which you need to be out of work so long that you have forgotten about work and just focused on your health. Do you they have a sick pay policy where you work? It should be in the employee handbook (if it exists) or available from HR which you are entitled to have without declaring that you may end up being out long term.

I was out for 6 months in one block years ago. I needed it.

TG1 · 13-03-2019 7:41pm

Tell me how wrote: »

Exactly what the dunne said.

This is probably something which you need to be out of work so long that you have forgotten about work and just focused on your health. Do you they have a sick pay policy where you work? It should be in the employee handbook (if it exists) or available from HR which you are entitled to have without declaring that you may end up being out long term.

I was out for 6 months in one block years ago. I needed it.

Thanks for the responses. I know, I'm being ridiculous, and my gp was fairly stern with me about taking the cert. Duty of care and not going into an environment that is causing the increased symptoms were mentioned a lot.

No, I'm not entitled to any pay, gp has given me all the forms for SW. I just feel I went out because of the working relationship (or lack thereof) between me and my manager and all I'm giving them is ammo to use against me now.

I am HR (ironically enough) so I know that's not how it works, but when is anxiety ever rational??

13-03-2019 10:39pm

This isn't ammo. You aren't well. **** them. Look after yourself. You owe them nothing. You need to do whatever it takes to make you better.

BohsCeltic · 14-03-2019 1:08am

TG1 wrote: »

Thanks for the responses. I know, I'm being ridiculous, and my gp was fairly stern with me about taking the cert. Duty of care and not going into an environment that is causing the increased symptoms were mentioned a lot.

No, I'm not entitled to any pay, gp has given me all the forms for SW. I just feel I went out because of the working relationship (or lack thereof) between me and my manager and all I'm giving them is ammo to use against me now.

I am HR (ironically enough) so I know that's not how it works, but when is anxiety ever rational??

Listen to your GP . My manager kept saying for me to push myself to go back to work. I was out for one month and went back. Wrong decision. Now i am out nearly one year. Look after yourself. You are number one !

TG1 · 16-03-2019 1:44pm

BohsCeltic wrote: »

Listen to your GP . My manager kept saying for me to push myself to go back to work. I was out for one month and went back. Wrong decision. Now i am out nearly one year. Look after yourself. You are number one !

I actually feel like im losing my mind today. I have fully convinced myself that I will go back in at the end of this cert to have my contract terminated, and all I can do is dwell on that thought. All the walks and trips out and activities are doing nothing at all to stop the panic cycle. This is the lowest I have ever ever been.

Ariadne · 19-03-2019 9:20pm

TG1 wrote: »

I actually feel like im losing my mind today. I have fully convinced myself that I will go back in at the end of this cert to have my contract terminated, and all I can do is dwell on that thought. All the walks and trips out and activities are doing nothing at all to stop the panic cycle. This is the lowest I have ever ever been.

I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling TG1. I find myself in the same position when I'm worried about something, all the activities in the world won't distract me from the fear or worrying thoughts. I hope you're in a better place today.

I am so fcuking pissed off with BPD today. I just feel like other people can't understand me at all, and I can't understand them. A total disconnect there, like my brain is wired differently. Which I guess it is. I'd go and tell everyone to fcuk off if I didn't need them so much. Ugh. I just wish I had the ability to make myself feel better but I always have to look for comfort somewhere else.

TG1 · 19-03-2019 9:30pm

Thanks succubus_ sorry to hear you are also struggling. I'm the same, the minute I hit a low all I want is to hide away till I can fix it all myself, but it never works.

Inevitably I end up relying on others, and always feel like a burden. Sometimes people can be really well meaning but just say or do the wrong thing out of ignorance.

I dont know much about BPD, but I know all about anxiety. Today I voiced how worried about my job I was and my dad said "sure there's no point worrying until your meeting on Monday".

He is right but I actually wanted to box him, even though I'm living in his house, eating his food etc. Because my doctor wouldn't let me stay in my own house while off work as I live alone and he didnt think it would be good for me...

SMC92Ian · 20-03-2019 6:13pm

Does anyone here deal with that thing where you think your sick. Talking about symptoms of things on TV and now I'm having a panic attack with a slight headache worrying if I'm having a stroke or to watch for signs of it now... ****ing hell what am I like.

20-03-2019 8:39pm

SMC92Ian wrote:

Does anyone here deal with that thing where you think your sick. Talking about symptoms of things on TV and now I'm having a panic attack with a slight headache worrying if I'm having a stroke or to watch for signs of it now... ****ing hell what am I like.

Every. Single. Day.

You aren't alone with that one mate. It's a bastard.

Graces7 · 21-03-2019 8:18am

SMC92Ian wrote: »

Does anyone here deal with that thing where you think your sick. Talking about symptoms of things on TV and now I'm having a panic attack with a slight headache worrying if I'm having a stroke or to watch for signs of it now... ****ing hell what am I like.

ditch the TV? I did that 30 years ago and never regretted it. Now i choose what I see and hear and with youtube that works fine.

I have more than enough real illnesses without adding to them .. go for a walk etc.

Graces7 · 21-03-2019 8:20am

TG1 wrote: »

Thanks succubus_ sorry to hear you are also struggling. I'm the same, the minute I hit a low all I want is to hide away till I can fix it all myself, but it never works.

Inevitably I end up relying on others, and always feel like a burden. Sometimes people can be really well meaning but just say or do the wrong thing out of ignorance.

I dont know much about BPD, but I know all about anxiety. Today I voiced how worried about my job I was and my dad said "sure there's no point worrying until your meeting on Monday".

He is right but I actually wanted to box him, even though I'm living in his house, eating his food etc. Because my doctor wouldn't let me stay in my own house while off work as I live alone and he didnt think it would be good for me...

can you not go away altogether? new scene..

Graces7 · 21-03-2019 8:24am

having just recently developed th eterrifying vestibular disease..... y#day thought I was literally dying with it.. I have a new tack and new determination... No illness is going to stop me LIVING, GIVING. getting pleasure from small things .

Being as chosenly isolated and on my own works for me too.. No need to fit in with others' ideas or opinions. just face the reality, and work on however I can.

TG1 · 23-03-2019 12:31pm

Back to work on monday, the big A kicking in already. I think at this point even getting in the office door will be a win. Not sure if I'll even be able to hold it together for one day.

Skybirdjb · 23-03-2019 8:35pm

Hi everyone
First time poster here . Not even sure what I want to say ! Been suffering with PTSD and anxiety for the last 7 months and it seems like a never ending roller coaster of emotions . Been getting cbt therapy for 4 months and it is helping but just can't wait to feel like me again . Does that even make sense ???

23-03-2019 11:25pm

Skybirdjb wrote:

Hi everyone First time poster here . Not even sure what I want to say ! Been suffering with PTSD and anxiety for the last 7 months and it seems like a never ending roller coaster of emotions . Been getting cbt therapy for 4 months and it is helping but just can't wait to feel like me again . Does that even make sense ???

Sure does buddy. Im sure it rings true to 99.9% of us here.

We are all here to help though.

Skybirdjb · 24-03-2019 10:27am

Thanks for the reply !
It seems hard to actually put into words how I actually feel mabey feel alone and a bit isolated . I'm a great person at "putting on the face " . Hope ye are all doing ok today

TG1 · 24-03-2019 11:54am

Skybirdjb wrote: »

Thanks for the reply !
It seems hard to actually put into words how I actually feel mabey feel alone and a bit isolated . I'm a great person at "putting on the face " . Hope ye are all doing ok today

Yeh, I know that feeling well, you dont want to be a burden so you put on the everything is fine face, but when people take that at face value you are left to deal with something that is really hard to deal with by yourself.

I've found regular sessions with a psychologist really helpful, she is making me explore why I do things rather than just saying do it this way instead... I think its all trial and error until you hit on a combination of things that work for you and your life.

Skybirdjb · 24-03-2019 12:45pm

Yeah that's exactly it ! I'm getting weekly cbt therapy in the hospital and they are great . Doc has given me tablets for the anxiety but I can't get myself to start taking them for some reason like I'm a failure if I take them ???

Nice to talk to some people who understand ðŸ˜€

TG1 · 24-03-2019 1:07pm

Skybirdjb wrote: »

Yeah that's exactly it ! I'm getting weekly cbt therapy in the hospital and they are great . Doc has given me tablets for the anxiety but I can't get myself to start taking them for some reason like I'm a failure if I take them ???

Nice to talk to some people who understand ðŸ˜€

I was really resistant to taking anything initially, I had a bad experience with one medication when I was about 12 and was hysterical when my gp suggested I try it again.

But, I have to say, after he eventually talked me round I'm now delighted he did. The medication is just giving me another tool in the box to fight the anxiety. I'm all over the shop myself at the moment and it is just taking the edge off enough to give me the clarity to see anxiety for what it is, an illness that can be treated and beaten.

I'm not saying its the solution for everyone, but it really helped me just get back a little bit of control.

Skybirdjb · 24-03-2019 5:35pm

TG1 wrote: »

I was really resistant to taking anything initially, I had a bad experience with one medication when I was about 12 and was hysterical when my gp suggested I try it again.

But, I have to say, after he eventually talked me round I'm now delighted he did. The medication is just giving me another tool in the box to fight the anxiety. I'm all over the shop myself at the moment and it is just taking the edge off enough to give me the clarity to see anxiety for what it is, an illness that can be treated and beaten.

I'm not saying its the solution for everyone, but it really helped me just get back a little bit of control.

Your right really it is a tool to use . Might give them a go this week . Read your back to work tomorrow hope it goes ok for you .

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