Ok, so I'm definitely an alcoholic and I just have to live with that. My mother and father were also, and I hear I'm more inclined to be like this.
A long story short, I've tried weekend only drinking, which doesn't last and after a heavy weekend, I usually feel sorry for myself during the week and end up drinking about 4 cans a night. The weekends involve spirits, wine or beer in excess.
When I give up the drink, I don't find a physical addiction is there but I just feel so bored without it, like I can't relax my mind and just be happy with doing nothing anymore. Anything that I try and do to occupy myself just feels forced. I end up thinking about a drink then and the mood swings.
Does anyone have any recommendations, I'm at my wit's end and hate feeling like this.
I haven't gone more than 5 days without a drink in years, maybe I'm just not giving it the time for my mind to adjust?