Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

kryptonmight · 07-02-2014 03:16PM

Looks like I will need to postpone beginning CBT. A few unexpected financial issues have come up which means penny pinching until the end of March!

Hugo Stiglitz · 07-02-2014 04:26PM

I'm a bit moody today and I feel I'm taking it out on my family a bit. I do wonder if this isn't caused by the depression and that I'm just a prick naturally.

Call Me Jimmy · 07-02-2014 04:32PM

No offense meant but it shouldn't be too important, whatever it is, it has the same effect on them and it's coming from you. I mean that in an observational sense, not in a mean way if ye get me?

I'm sure you could probably trace a tangible reason why you felt bad enough to spread it to people you love, be it a general physical feeling or a recent thing popping around your brain!

I highly doubt you are a 'prick' naturally. I find subtle physical weariness makes people very easily pissed off for example.

IamtheWalrus · 07-02-2014 04:34PM

Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »

I'm a bit moody today and I feel I'm taking it out on my family a bit. I do wonder if this isn't caused by the depression and that I'm just a prick naturally.

I can be a bit of a prick but I don't think people are naturally pricks. Something is causing the prickishness - in my case unhappiness at my life. Try to work on why you're being a prick.

LanaFey · 07-02-2014 04:37PM

So much for feeling okay. Today went from grand to bad to absolute sh1t.

Counting down the minutes until I can go home and cry.

IamtheWalrus · 07-02-2014 04:52PM

I've been suffering from anxiety for a good few years now. Nothing terrible but bad enough. I used to dread getting on a train in case I couldn't get off, hated driving, used to sit in my work and think the floor was falling beneath me. I think it came about from the bullying I got in school. I am in my third year of therapy and I have to say it's worked wonders. I still get the odd bout now and again but it's less of the norm now. I meet my therapist once per week. We've discussed every corner of my life, right back to being a child, up to the present day. We've discuss my relationship with my family, partners, you name it, all covered. I've found it better than CBT (I've read some CBT books) because it helps you get to the route of your issues, opens them up. You'd be surprised what you find hidden. I've learned so much about myself the last 2 years. I've learned to stop being so hard on myself and start loving myself. Clichéd but true.

The only downside is that it's expensive. I'm lucky enough to be able to afford it. If you cannot afford therapy, there are many books out there. Failing that, talk to someone, anyone. Talking is key.

My point is, things can change. It doesn't have to be that way. Everyone deserves a better life. It takes effort and there will be progress and setbacks but what's the alternative?

If anyone wants any advice or more insight into my situation, drop me a PM. I'll be happy to help.

LanaFey · 07-02-2014 04:55PM

IAmTheWalrus, thanks for the post, that is heartening to read. It's good to hear from someone who has come out the other side

Hugo Stiglitz · 07-02-2014 05:13PM

Offence taken Jimmy! Put 'em up!

Joking of course!

Thanks for the replies. I think the weariness point is very true actually. Can feel at times that have been at this so long and am getting nowhere with this.

Sorry to hear how you are currently feeling LanaFey. Hopefully it'll pass for you soon.

kryptonmight · 07-02-2014 05:13PM

I was just thinking back to this time last week and the black void I felt like I was in. Felt like my world was ending and there was no point going on.

Even though my anxiety had some basis in reality, the thing I was so worried about was highly unlikely. Yet that didn't stop my mind spiraling completely out of control and shutting out all logic and reason.

I know I still need CBT but I'm just so glad that horrible time is over and I am thankful for that.

Things never seemed so bleak as they did last week. But it is possible to come out the other side and feel better. And i don't mean possible like its possible to win the lotto! Not only is it possible, its is realistic and not beyond reach.

I don't know if this will help anyone, i don't even know if it would have helped me last week but you never know who you might be able to influence for the better.

stinkle · 07-02-2014 05:14PM

Thanks IAmTheWalrus! Is it psychotherapy you're doing? I started doing it when things were very bad but dont have the same need to go when things are ok, which they are at the mo. I was only thinking yesterday that I am curious about goin regularly though.

Lana sorry to hear today is so bad, how are you feeling now?

Jimmy, I agree wth ya about the physical weariness. I was in crap mood during the week, turns out I'm a bit run down and half my family are sick with the same thing (saw them at weekend, wasnt talking to anyone till last night so didnt know). Felt a lot of relief that it wasnt just my anxiety manifesting as stomach issues, tiredness and headaches.

IamtheWalrus · 07-02-2014 05:37PM

stinkle wrote: »

Thanks IAmTheWalrus! Is it psychotherapy you're doing?

A quick Wiki of psychotherapy confirms that is what I've been getting. It's basically talking. When I speak about past events, my therapist listen to what I'm saying. He'll question my beliefs and how I saw a particular event. It's amazing what a different perspective can do for you.

One of the biggest things I have gotten out of it is blame. I used to blame myself for the way I am, a kind of weakness on my character. I now realise that I personally had nothing to do with the way I am. It was external influences. I was great to hear that. The fact that I am able to function (relatively) well regardless is testament to me, and my ability to overcome the past. That gives me confidence. Everyone has it in them to change their situation.

kryptonmight · 07-02-2014 08:31PM

Officially back on the cipramil.

handbagmad · 07-02-2014 10:55PM

I need people to say a prayer or hope tonight can't say why just yet but please if you can spare a min x

Gremlinertia · 07-02-2014 10:59PM

handbagmad wrote: »

I need people to say a prayer or hope tonight can't say why just yet but please if you can spare a min x

Hold tight handbagmad, looking at a long night here too so you'll be in my thoughts..

Hugo Stiglitz · 07-02-2014 11:03PM

You're in my thoughts

Killer_banana · 07-02-2014 11:08PM

You're in my thoughts. Hope things aren't too bad.

murria · 07-02-2014 11:37PM

handbagmad wrote: »

I need people to say a prayer or hope tonight can't say why just yet but please if you can spare a min x

Thinking of you tonight, hang in there. X

handbagmad · 07-02-2014 11:50PM

Thanks folks its not about me. Sorry to worry you. Its someone close to me. Im trying to be positive about it.

Ye R good people.

Hugo Stiglitz · 07-02-2014 11:51PM

handbagmad wrote: »

Thanks folks its not about me. Sorry to worry you. Its someone close to me. Im trying to be positive about it.

Ye R good people.

You're a good friend H

Chiquitita · 08-02-2014 12:58AM

I'll say a wee prayer here also x

Mam of 4 · 08-02-2014 01:22AM

Will also say one here. x

Gremlinertia · 08-02-2014 02:34PM

Handbagmad, hope things are going ok for you now.

No word from hospital, so that's a phone call (abhor making/receiving calls) on Monday.. And still no wiser as to why i was booted.. Considering pieta house if hospital doesn't go well..

Hope the rest of ye are doing ok, am finding the stormy weather at night kind of comforting, think i've said it before but think the turbulence matches my thoughts, nice to have nature keeping me company in same kind of state.

Killer_banana · 08-02-2014 02:45PM

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Handbagmad, hope things are going ok for you now.

No word from hospital, so that's a phone call (abhor making/receiving calls) on Monday.. And still no wiser as to why i was booted.. Considering pieta house if hospital doesn't go well..

Hope the rest of ye are doing ok, am finding the stormy weather at night kind of comforting, think i've said it before but think the turbulence matches my thoughts, nice to have nature keeping me company in same kind of state.

That's absolutely ridiculous. I've talked before about how I hate doctors but I've always felt hospitals were a fair bit better. Obviously not always the case. I've heard good things about Pieta House so it might be worth a look.

I love storms if I'm inside, especially at night. The sound of rain on the window is lovely.

Gremlinertia · 08-02-2014 02:53PM

I find it's more the administration i have a problem with usually, though i have no idea what the issue is at the moment so my outlook might change.. Mostly the medical staff that have treated me for various things over the years have been great, but working within close to impossible constraints.

However i'm reluctant to go to pieta house because i always feel there is someone worse off that needs that appointment more than me..

Chiquitita · 08-02-2014 03:23PM

Gremlin you deserve to feel good just as much as anyone else and if you think calling Pieta would be good for you then you should.
They're open on Saturdays so give them a call and see how the conversation goes x

Gremlinertia · 08-02-2014 03:47PM

Chiquitita wrote: »

Gremlin you deserve to feel good just as much as anyone else and if you think calling Pieta would be good for you then you should.
They're open on Saturdays so give them a call and see how the conversation goes x

The logical side of me knows that, but since i've been the person that looks after others and fixes things, there is still this residual feeling that i'm wasting other's time, and of course the basic feeling of weakness when revealing a vulnerability.

robertstack · 08-02-2014 04:35PM

Has anyone taken lexapro?
I started a few days ago and my anxiety has been worse than ever.
My neck and head keep twitching too :mad:

Gremlinertia · 08-02-2014 04:58PM

robertstack wrote: »

Has anyone taken lexapro?
I started a few days ago and my anxiety has been worse than ever.
My neck and head keep twitching too :mad:

Hi Robert, i haven't taken it, but same rules kind of apply across the board, it'll take a week or weeks to adjust, everyone has their own reactions to medications of all sorts. Stay with it, if you get worried about yourself, call your doctor, or go to casualty..

robertstack · 08-02-2014 06:06PM

Yeah, i put it into google and it appears it takes about 4 weeks to start working.
Looks like i'll have to grin and bear it till then as it is very common to get these side effects.

Chiquitita · 08-02-2014 06:10PM

Gremlin did you make the call? Hope it went well for you x

Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

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