Its been a long road, is this it?

LegacyUser · 15-05-2009 10:33PM #1

just finshed going to a shrink on and off since i was 15 now 34 ,i fineally met the consultant shrink and he told me he can do no more ,been to pycoligest mental heath nurse , councillors , i have yet to feel normal as a person , never had girlfriend, never had job ,slept rough for 4 years never felt love for my family like i see other people having ,never had any interest in life in gengeral, have taken ssris ,anti sicotic,all kinds of meds , i have yet to feel peace for any amount of time ,live in farly big town ,surrounded by lots of people who look at me in a strange way , the worst thing is that i can freak a shrink out by sitting in a room with him in under 5 min till he writes a percription and gets me to leave , i was born but dont get it what its all about ,what normal people get out of the day to day life. what to do now .the nurse said to you get out of life what you put into it i have never had any interest in life .tryed hobbies but cant concentrate for long . my next door nebour said i was born soft with no heart, feels like the end is coming , but i dont feel afraid . i know i cant spell . what to do

Kevster · 16-05-2009 12:56AM

Hey,

I have known people in your circumstances before, but only through a different website that i'm a moderator on. It's a very sad situation to be in when you have the feeling that nobody can help you. However, when this happens, you must simply stop going to thees people and try something else. What that something 'else' is is up to you to decide.

You never mentioned if you have a job. One thing that stood out in what yo said is this: "surrounded by lots of people who look at me in a strange way". I think that they could make the case that it is you who is looking at them strangely. Think about it... ...if you are looking at them to see if they are looking at you, then who's doing the looking first? - it's you.

Kevin

LegacyUser · 16-05-2009 01:41AM

a change of scenery is needed imo. move somewhere sunny. who knows learning a new language could kickstart your life

bug · 17-05-2009 01:12AM

What was your diagnosis?

Did he tell you what he thought may be wrong?

Was it the same shrink you were seeing all this time or different ones?

StopNotWorking · 17-05-2009 01:17AM

Whats normal? I never liked the word normal, we are brought up being told everyone is different then this term is forced upon you as a way to keep you in line.. do things a certain way. I wouldn't go worrying about what normal people think..

LegacyUser · 17-05-2009 09:56PM

going to try something new im going to try and go to grow this week.the doctors never gave me a diganoisis, one of them said personality disorder,but being in and out of these places for so long , they dont have enough people or money to run the place the way they would like .one pylogiost gave me a book the size of aphone book to read,and i learned a lot from it ,but when this kicks off its the last thing i can remember. icould read a short book today and remember very little of it the next day....forgive my spelling

BaubleFreak · 18-05-2009 09:09PM

I suggest getting yourself copies of Psychology For Dummies, Cognitive Behaviour Therapy For Dummies, and possibly AD/HD For Dummies. And no, I don't work for the For Dummies Company.

I've found myself recently falling back into a habit of negative thinking, constantly trying to find some reason for my life and worried that I'm starting to get depressed again. I've bought the above books and so far I'm finding them pretty interesting and I'm not suggesting you use them to self diagnose, just that you might find you're not so abnormal after all. They're also pretty easy to read.

Its been a long road, is this it?

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