I'm not happy and I want to change that.

TheBiz · 09-07-2017 04:56PM #1

Not going with an anonymous account for this, because I'm not ashamed of it.

I turned 20 last month,
I got into the college I wanted.
I got into the course I originally wanted. General business and all while doing very little in the way of work.

I have 3 exams to repeat in August. 90% of that is down to me not doing the continuous assessment part of each module.
The rest (and probably some of that 90%) is down to me not being interested enough to do anything about it, suspecting that I would drop out eventually, only to realise I have no other prospects. All while going out and flirting and drinking my way to forgetting my problems.

I'm usually a very pessimistic person, I get given out to by my parents for being so pessimistic, but today my mother was talking about my up coming exams and how I do not want to have to re-entering next year as a first year again, and that that not going to college was a bad idea.
I mentioned how I have no intention of working for someone else for any extended period of time anyway (after she was saying how I won't get a job without a degree). She said 'well not going to college is bad idea', which is a fair point.
I was just thinking to myself 'maybe failing out of college would be the best think that's ever happened to me'.

Everyone has and still does hold high expectations for me, I breezed through school not paying any attention because it bored the hell out of me.
I tried to find a vocation, being a doctor was the most natural idea but that was not feasible. Because I dislike math, or at least I dislike the way it's taught.

So I was lost and bored in school but when i went home in the evening I didn't play the xbox all day, I couldn't I got bored after an hour.
I spend most of my time learning be it about mens style, how to start a clothing line, trading stocks, learning to program, design jewellery, learning about human behaviour, writing songs, playing guitar, singing, watching and reading about songwriters and looking for tips for songwriting, learning about SEO along with watching countless documentaries on well known and successful entrepreneurs, that was me every day, albeit not dedicating myself to a rigid schedule of learning, I just looked at what interested me.
My friends find it weird that I watched The Big Short as my time off to relax just because I find it interesting, I have looked up about taxes in particular surrounding businesses and entrepreneurs.
My favourite TV program which is also the only one I watch is Last Week Tonight with John Oliver.

There has only been one module I've found anyway interesting in college. Business Information Systems, basically why some businesses fail, and how some men and women build structures that make them billions, like how Michael Dell essentially just built a system and sourced the parts but at the beginning her didn't develop or build any computers, he just put them together. (Basically).

I want to be self employed, I want to be rich, I want to have a sense of freedom, I want to build a system that makes money, I don't want to work a 9-5, I want to build my empire not somebody else's. But I don't know if I should be in college, I considered not going at first and teachers told me it was a waste. I got into numerous rows with teachers over things like that.. I know I'll get the 'sure we all want to be rich' replies but I'm not looking at that as an ideal, more so an aim, I don't just want to be rich and successful while working a 9-5, I want to be my own boss, run my own businesses.

I feel like everything is ready to go and this next year will be the year I succeed or I crumble, mentally I have felt the pressure, be it from dropping out and having nothing more than a manual labour job in a creamery, and either teaching myself something or taking up a trade.

The internet feels like my best bet. People have made a living talking about how to retire early while their blog about retiring early is the main reason they retired early.
People make money just talking, just saying what they think.
A guy I watch called FrugalAesthetic went from 0 subscribers to 150k in one year, making mens fashion videos.
I think I have something to offer, so many things interest me, mostly associated with mens fashion, design, style, being self employed, building a brand, starting a clothing line.
I realise you can make money being yourself, there are channels of fully grown men doing children toy unboxings and they are very popular.

Frugal Aesthetic's point of view was the 10,000 hour rule, that it takes 10,000 hours to master anything. He saw Youtube as a thing he would like to dedicate 10,000 hours to, something he would like to get good at and ultimately make a substantial living from at the age of 19.

Or starting a brand. That's something that has interested me for quite awhile, and I'm currently saving up money to try something new. There has been a lot of times where I was going to just buy something I wanted but I'm saving up be it for going back to college, to buy a camera and equipment or to start a brand.

It's taking it's toll on me.
When I realised that college was very different to how I thought it would be I was freaking out, and I drank and avoided my assignments just waiting for the year to pass, but this is or could be a big turning point in my life. I've been looking for something to do. Something that I can actually go through the gears of, I just don't know what but I know that I'll be struggling no matter what I do, if I stay in college and try to brave it out or I try and start something new.
None of my friends have any interest in this. I don't even feel all that friendly with my friends, it just feels fake.

I have not been happy in a long time, I'm trying to change that and this is one approach I've looked at. I just can't stay with what I'm at.
My first year of college was the worst year of my life, and while I was in school I was waiting for that big change where everything will change for the better, but it went the other way.

I don't know what to do, how to approach any of this, I'm writing this and trying to revise it as I'm going because I'm just following a train of thought. I know I probably sound like a spoiled and pretentious muppet but I can't work my way though everything while also trying to cover every basis.. this is just a rough lay out of everything.

What do I do. How do I go about changing my current circumstances?
I'm trying to be more positive, I'm starting to believe in the law of attraction.

I know there is no real plan, I know that I'm probably stupid to fail out of college, I know that I am weird, my train of thought is weird, I just want advice on the whole situation while I try to sort it out myself.

TL;DR - I'm not happy where I am, I want to change that, I've got some ideas but I don't know how to go about improving my situation, and whether the changes I am looking at making will be positive or negative in the long run.

09-07-2017 05:51PM

TheBiz wrote: »

Not going with an anonymous account for this, because I'm not ashamed of it.

I turned 20 last month,
I got into the college I wanted.
I got into the course I originally wanted. General business and all while doing very little in the way of work.

I have 3 exams to repeat in August. 90% of that is down to me not doing the continuous assessment part of each module.
The rest (and probably some of that 90%) is down to me not being interested enough to do anything about it, suspecting that I would drop out eventually, only to realise I have no other prospects. All while going out and flirting and drinking my way to forgetting my problems.

I'm usually a very pessimistic person, I get given out to by my parents for being so pessimistic, but today my mother was talking about my up coming exams and how I do not want to have to re-entering next year as a first year again, and that that not going to college was a bad idea.
I mentioned how I have no intention of working for someone else for any extended period of time anyway (after she was saying how I won't get a job without a degree). She said 'well not going to college is bad idea', which is a fair point.
I was just thinking to myself 'maybe failing out of college would be the best think that's ever happened to me'.

Everyone has and still does hold high expectations for me, I breezed through school not paying any attention because it bored the hell out of me.
I tried to find a vocation, being a doctor was the most natural idea but that was not feasible. Because I dislike math, or at least I dislike the way it's taught.

So I was lost and bored in school but when i went home in the evening I didn't play the xbox all day, I couldn't I got bored after an hour.
I spend most of my time learning be it about mens style, how to start a clothing line, trading stocks, learning to program, design jewellery, learning about human behaviour, writing songs, playing guitar, singing, watching and reading about songwriters and looking for tips for songwriting, learning about SEO along with watching countless documentaries on well known and successful entrepreneurs, that was me every day, albeit not dedicating myself to a rigid schedule of learning, I just looked at what interested me.
My friends find it weird that I watched The Big Short as my time off to relax just because I find it interesting, I have looked up about taxes in particular surrounding businesses and entrepreneurs.
My favourite TV program which is also the only one I watch is Last Week Tonight with John Oliver.

There has only been one module I've found anyway interesting in college. Business Information Systems, basically why some businesses fail, and how some men and women build structures that make them billions, like how Michael Dell essentially just built a system and sourced the parts but at the beginning her didn't develop or build any computers, he just put them together. (Basically).

I want to be self employed, I want to be rich, I want to have a sense of freedom, I want to build a system that makes money, I don't want to work a 9-5, I want to build my empire not somebody else's. But I don't know if I should be in college, I considered not going at first and teachers told me it was a waste. I got into numerous rows with teachers over things like that.. I know I'll get the 'sure we all want to be rich' replies but I'm not looking at that as an ideal, more so an aim, I don't just want to be rich and successful while working a 9-5, I want to be my own boss, run my own businesses.

I feel like everything is ready to go and this next year will be the year I succeed or I crumble, mentally I have felt the pressure, be it from dropping out and having nothing more than a manual labour job in a creamery, and either teaching myself something or taking up a trade.

The internet feels like my best bet. People have made a living talking about how to retire early while their blog about retiring early is the main reason they retired early.
People make money just talking, just saying what they think.
A guy I watch called FrugalAesthetic went from 0 subscribers to 150k in one year, making mens fashion videos.
I think I have something to offer, so many things interest me, mostly associated with mens fashion, design, style, being self employed, building a brand, starting a clothing line.
I realise you can make money being yourself, there are channels of fully grown men doing children toy unboxings and they are very popular.

Frugal Aesthetic's point of view was the 10,000 hour rule, that it takes 10,000 hours to master anything. He saw Youtube as a thing he would like to dedicate 10,000 hours to, something he would like to get good at and ultimately make a substantial living from at the age of 19.

Or starting a brand. That's something that has interested me for quite awhile, and I'm currently saving up money to try something new. There has been a lot of times where I was going to just buy something I wanted but I'm saving up be it for going back to college, to buy a camera and equipment or to start a brand.

It's taking it's toll on me.
When I realised that college was very different to how I thought it would be I was freaking out, and I drank and avoided my assignments just waiting for the year to pass, but this is or could be a big turning point in my life. I've been looking for something to do. Something that I can actually go through the gears of, I just don't know what but I know that I'll be struggling no matter what I do, if I stay in college and try to brave it out or I try and start something new.
None of my friends have any interest in this. I don't even feel all that friendly with my friends, it just feels fake.

I have not been happy in a long time, I'm trying to change that and this is one approach I've looked at. I just can't stay with what I'm at.
My first year of college was the worst year of my life, and while I was in school I was waiting for that big change where everything will change for the better, but it went the other way.

I don't know what to do, how to approach any of this, I'm writing this and trying to revise it as I'm going because I'm just following a train of thought. I know I probably sound like a spoiled and pretentious muppet but I can't work my way though everything while also trying to cover every basis.. this is just a rough lay out of everything.

What do I do. How do I go about changing my current circumstances?
I'm trying to be more positive, I'm starting to believe in the law of attraction.

I know there is no real plan, I know that I'm probably stupid to fail out of college, I know that I am weird, my train of thought is weird, I just want advice on the whole situation while I try to sort it out myself.

TL;DR - I'm not happy where I am, I want to change that, I've got some ideas but I don't know how to go about improving my situation, and whether the changes I am looking at making will be positive or negative in the long run.

Hiya, I'm sorry you feel down and you're not the only one in the world to wanting a job of your own. Have you tried contacting your local enterprise centre for some advice to build up your own business? What is it you want to sell or provide? Also don't say you're a Muppet, some people just aren't good academically in college and like that's who they are. However I would advice to get in touch with someone in the college you're at to help you with transferring,what do you think?

Ps it's good to be weird cause that's who you are dude!

sozbox · 09-07-2017 08:51PM

You seem to have the energy to make something of yourself but don't know where to direct it. Fair play on admitting college may not be for you. Education has long been seen as the only route to a 'good job' and for many years this was true.

Though going to college is no longer a guarantee of a good job, just look around the country at the graduates working in retail and call centre jobs. Nothing wrong with those jobs but the system tells us if we go to college we get good jobs.

There are many reasons this is no longer true which I won't go into. Your main issue is thinking you need to live up to others expectations. The only expectation you need to live up to is your own. You don't need to go to college to succeed. The internet has changed that.

I went to college and now work in a 'good job'. I'm extremely unhappy, unfulfilled and planning my escape every day. You can use the next few years to do many other things to succeed in life. You're young, you have time on your side.

Two things which changed my views: 1. on college 2. on where to begin the online thing

Best of luck whatever you decide to do.

TheBiz · 09-07-2017 10:16PM

sozbox wrote: »

You seem to have the energy to make something of yourself but don't know where to direct it. Fair play on admitting college may not be for you. Education has long been seen as the only route to a 'good job' and for many years this was true.

Though going to college is no longer a guarantee of a good job, just look around the country at the graduates working in retail and call centre jobs. Nothing wrong with those jobs but the system tells us if we go to college we get good jobs.

There are many reasons this is no longer true which I won't go into. Your main issue is thinking you need to live up to others expectations. The only expectation you need to live up to is your own. You don't need to go to college to succeed. The internet has changed that.

I went to college and now work in a 'good job'. I'm extremely unhappy, unfulfilled and planning my escape every day. You can use the next few years to do many other things to succeed in life. You're young, you have time on your side.

Two things which changed my views: 1. on college 2. on where to begin the online thing

Best of luck whatever you decide to do.

I've always been looking for an outlet, mentally I never turn off and I'm just looking for a way to monetise that.
I have very high expectations of myself, I'm also hyper critical but it's because I want to change. It's not a 'stupid stupid boy' kind of way more of a 'I am really bad in group situations, I need to fix that, why am I not good in groups, what's wrong'.

I think college is a sure fire way to a good job, but two factors must be present.
You must be in a highly employable field.
You must be a top of your class or damn near it.

I won't be. I probably can get a degree but I'll sit top third at best, and I know that's not a true reflection of how intelligent I am.

I've got so many interests, and I'm finding more things that I might enjoy. They all revolve around a couple of main points. Fashion, style and design, along with building a system, making money, being successful, having freedom and a big one, problem solving and creativity. What I want to pursue or how to go about it? I have no clue.
I don't know if I should get a degree, I don't know if I should get a job, design jewellery, become a stylist, post youtube videos, start a blog, start a clothing brand, start a unrelated business entirely, or do all of the above, or do something while still being in college (if I pass these repeats).. I'm clue to be honest.

Senna · 09-07-2017 11:34PM

The smart person wont move from plan A until they have a plan B.
Your plan A is college, you have no idea what plan B is and only have a vague area of interest. You read and research, which is great, but focus that, don't expect to find someone else has wrote an article or made a video that is going to give you answers.

Even successful person has a background in their field, it might be IT billionaire who was writing code at 5yr old or the fashion mogul who was swepting the floor in a design house after school. What is your niche?

It's good that you have some desire, but I have never met a person who completed college, became successful and said "I should have dropped out".

milli milli · 10-07-2017 11:31PM

OP talk to your local Enterprise Office - they run Start your own Business courses and lots of other courses for entrepreneurs. I find them very helpful.

I am an entrepreneur myself and all I can say is find something you are truly passionate about, something that makes you want to jump out of bed in the morning.
Being an entrepreneur is very rewarding - you are essentially creating something out of nothing. You are your own boss, you don't have this 'hate Mondays, love Fridays' mentality that the majority of people seem to have (or at least you shouldn't have this mentality, if you're doing something you love).

But - be prepared to work the hardest you've ever worked in your life, be prepared to juggle several roles to get your business off the ground (creator, sales, marketing, social media, accounts, office administrator, general dogsbody!), be prepared to have your abilities tested constantly. You will want to give up many times, but success comes to those who keep getting up after every knock.

You will put in very long hours and it could take years to make a profit - hence why you should be crazy passionate about what you do and it is this passion that will be the fuel to keep you going.

I don't want to paint a bad picture of entrepreneurship - it is immensely rewarding - but it is not an easy road.
It isn't someone making YouTube videos and getting lots of followers and sponsorship and having a cushy life. It probably does happen for some people, but some of those probably have worked really hard behind the scenes - we do show our highlight reel and not the outtakes.

So come up with a plan. If you want to design jewellery - have you actually designed and made anything or is it just an idea in your head? Take some classes and play with materials.
Have you made any videos about men's fashion and style?
Do you have a blog and you write articles about men's style?

Starting your own business is all about business plans, setting goals, breaking goals down into steps and following them. It's all about ideas and making them happen. It's very grounded and real.
You need to show your Entreprise office that you are working towards something.
If it's just vague ideas in your head, then you might need a bit more time to work things out.
Best of luck OP

I'm not happy and I want to change that.

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