Rorsarch Blot

shiv

I see an unsure future taking shape:
Half-formed twinkles in your eyes,
A house, alive with mess and trust
struggling to exist, to breathe;
A sonogram of hurt blinking back at me
Accusingly in dreams.

An empty bassinet.

And you say things to defy your love,
Things like:
I can live without you--
I don't miss you--
As though by hurting me you make it absolutely true.

Your affection is a boomerang, often ending up in Australia.
You criss-cross my veins, never staying still.

Your doubt tick tick ticks with a timer
Nestled under your temper.
It goes off with cruel candour.

Reverbeating in my heart
Like surreal emergency instructions,
Carried over loud speakers
In a carefully calm and neutral tone
When I'm skidding down the stairs
Unable to get out of this buidling.

Dreaded but expected,
This bi-monthy disaster.

I feel I no longer need to diarize
My decay the old-fashioned way;
Just find a mutually convenient day
and look at headstones or engagement rings.

IRISHLILY24

Shiv, I love this piece but I would definitley remove this line:
Often ending up in Australia...it ruins that line completely. I love the rest though...good to see your posting again

ExOffender

Totally with you on the Australia line. It feels like Ogden Nash or someone just snuck that in. Nothing wrong with Nash, of course, but... time and place, y'know?

shiv

Thanks Irishlily and ExOffender for your feedback, I agree about the Australia line, don't know what I was thinking now..must've just been a personal association that I tried to make fit.
Thanks again!

BEAT

I always love to see your pieces,
hope you will post more.
agreed on that Australia line btw

randomhuman

That's really good. Plus, I can relate (I think), so that makes it even better.