Can't handle down-time

LegacyUser

So depsite everything that's going one I am lucky enough to still find myself very busy. I'm a teacher so work is as normal, I study part-time, I have some volunteer responsibilities, I try to keep fit and I see my friends often. I'm really grateful for this but I find I then struggle when left to my own devices.

Today is a perfect example of that. I had such a busy week - something one, either in real life or virtually - every evening. I was really looking forward to a slow day. I wanted to do some college reading, sewing and get my bike fixed. Also hoped to watch some TV. Anyway it's 4.25pm now and I've sat in bed all day scrolling on instagram and reddit and swiping on Hinge. I haven't even gotten dressed or showered. I feel like such a slob and I'm busy again tomorrow so I've missed my oppurtunity to do any of those things.

This happens to me all the time. I can do thing that are commitments or obligations but if you give me time to myself I revert into what feel almost like a depressive state. I feel so glum and the thought of leaving the house or even chatting to my housemate is so unpleasant. To be clear, I'm do not have depression but I have in the past so I feel qualified to make that comparsin.

I have something on tomorrow afternoon and I know I'll wake up tomorrow feeling fine. I'll be able to get up at a reasonable time and get myself going, and enjoy the day but today I just don't seem to be able to.

This happens anytime I get a break in a busy spell. I don't know how to handle it or what to do. I was really looking forward to today and now I just feel awful.

Yellow pack crisps

Perhaps you just feel guilty about doing nothing. It’s good to just chill out by yourself. Enjoy, don’t see it as a negative

Airyfairy12

I think youre making a mountain from a mole hill, you procrastinate and spend your time off on social media.. So what? Who doesn't!
Sounds like you have an awful lot in your life to be grateful for, maybe focus on those things?

Zebrag

Oh OP I know the feeling!

I spend all week in work. I work Mon-Fri and by the time evening time rolls around, it's the dinners and the cleaning and washing catching up. All that fun stuff really. By the time I get to the weekend, I still have more catching up to do, running around etc, that by Sunday evening I'm thinking of ways to make up a new day to add into the weekend because I've spent most of my weekend playing catch up and finding the time to meet up with friends and family (which I do admit I purposely meet them for hours to avoid the house work!)

The one Saturday (which is rare at times) I have nothing to do and I genuinely feel guilty for sitting on my bum in my dressing gown at 5pm having not moved all day and watching utter $hite on the telly.

But in all fairness, you should cherish those moments and enjoy the fact that those couple of hours you feel were wasted, are probably the down time you desperately needed.

HelgaWard

There was a post somewhat similar to this not too long ago. The op was advised to set their alarm and get up at the same time on Saturday & Sunday as they do the other days. Having a lie in was negatively effecting their mo jo. They came back say it worked for them & they were much happier. Maybe sign up for a Saturday morning yoga class or go for a walk/run. Come home have shower & nice breakfast and you might be more inclined to get your jobs done & then chill out later on guilt free!

ILoveYourVibes

I think you just sound tired.

vikings2012

I’m the same. I used to sleep in and scroll on days off. It just made me feel terrible for the rest of the day.

My days off are usually Saturday and Sunday. To avoid this I’ve made plans with a buddy to go swimming at 7 am every Saturday. On Sunday’s, I bring my Gran to 9:30 mass. By getting up early and doing something it sets me up for the day.

vikings2012

I’m the same. I used to sleep in and scroll on days off. It just made me feel terrible for the rest of the day.

My days off are usually Saturday and Sunday. To avoid this I’ve made plans with a buddy to go swimming at 7 am every Saturday. On Sunday’s, I bring my Gran to 9:30 mass. By getting up early and doing something it sets me up for the day.

Graces7

Days off are not (just) for rest etc but for YOU to enjoy what YOU enjoy. To be filled with ? For me it was always eg going for a drive to somewhere I loved with a picnic. Preferably in the wild places.

A change refreshes more than a "rest" .