It's getting to the point that I only see one way out..

LegacyUser

Hey guys. I wanted to go anon on this. So I'm 33 and I feel like an absolute complete failure. I'm overweight, have rock bottom self confidence and no self esteem. I have 3 brother and their all in jobs, fit and have girlfriends with kids on the way. There's about 10 years between all of us. I see myself as a complete failure compared to them. I suffer from depression and anxiety big time. I've tried medication and therapy but it's only lasted short term. I'm back to square one. I live in a horrible dirty house with can't really leave as the rent is so low and I have no job. I was working up until recently but had to pack it in as I was getting panic attacks and I've started throwing up in my sleep and choking. Can't really sleep much. I don't drink or do any drugs so that's a plus I guess. I have qualifications as a plumber and I spent years fixing electronics like phones and laptops. I have no confidence to go back doing any of that as in the back of my head I'm telling myself I'll fail or mess up. I've tried everything and feel like I'm getting to a point where I can't go on. I'm physically and mentally drained and can't keep doing this much longer. I absolutely hate myself and despise what I am.

Hannibal_Smith

Hi ImAtRockBottom

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