Feel really down lately and no one to speak to about stuff

Pineapple1

I've been feeling so down the last couple of weeks. I lost my job back in May due to a conflict with my boss and I wasnt able to get a job all summer despite me applying to loads of places. A lot of places that were hiring were interested until I told them I was a college student. They wanted me to be available all year round. Im still having no luck trying to get a job for weekends now. The places that I would really like to work, Im so afraid of being told sorry no. I feel like I have no confidence since being let go from my job. I really liked my job but my manager turned on me overnight and started making my life hell and thats what led to a massive argument with her. She would always tell me everyday how great a worker I was, and then all of a sudden I was being accused of not doing things right, which was not true. Im due to go back to college in a couple weeks and Im looking forward to getting back to classes and studying, but the thoughts of school placement in January is already making by blood turn cold. I absolutely despise school placement and I know I shouldnt as I made the decision myself to return to college to be a teacher but the reality is its so bloody difficult. Im already thinking teaching may not be for me. I just feel so down about this. Lastly my boyfriend of 3 years has been very off with me for the last month. He has every weekend off with his job, I obviously had every weekend off too. Lately though he hasnt been asking me when we could see each other. A few weekends have gone by when I know he is just at home relaxing. Before he would have been keen to see me often. I feel like I shouldnt be the one to always initiate meeting up at the weekend. Last night I asked him what his plans for the weekend were, he said not much. I said well will I come down to you for the weekend. He said you can if your free. It just came across as being a bit "you can visit if you want I dont care". Im so angry and I dont want to have to co front him by text but at the same time why should I travel all that way for someone who wouldnt care either way.

So sorry for the length of the post. Thanks for hearing me out.

So three different things are worrying you and they are all legitimate. Take one at a time. Focus on job first and get that financial burden out of the way. Just hand cv into any places you can think of whilst dressed smartly. Keep plugging and keep an eye on places advertising. Next college - how far into course are you? Placement is terrifying I get this. Have you tried subbing? Even just a few days would give you an idea if you like teaching in reality and a little extra cash. As for boyfriend discuss with him when you travel down face to face and if it’s over at least you know. Sorry for the blunt answers but just trying to give a little practical advice without writing an essay!

petr1

Pineapple1 wrote: »

Lastly my boyfriend of 3 years has been very off with me for the last month. He has every weekend off with his job, I obviously had every weekend off too. Lately though he hasnt been asking me when we could see each other. A few weekends have gone by when I know he is just at home relaxing. Before he would have been keen to see me often. I feel like I shouldnt be the one to always initiate meeting up at the weekend. Last night I asked him what his plans for the weekend were, he said not much. I said well will I come down to you for the weekend. He said you can if your free. It just came across as being a bit "you can visit if you want I dont care". Im so angry and I dont want to have to co front him by text but at the same time why should I travel all that way for someone who wouldnt care either way.

You never know whats going on with someone.

Write down on a page all you want to say, the main stuff, don't bring up sh1t from a year ago, go down say we need to talk and tick your list off one by one.

LoughNeagh2017

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zapper55

Loughneagh it's insensitive responses like yours that make people reluctant to reach out. Only you can change your life. Mayne you should start your own thread.

OP you've been given good advice here, I hope it works out with your boyfriend but if it doesnt at least you'll know. Nothing worse than having that hanging over you.