My situation

Shazzler77998

I'm not sure this belongs here, so you can move where applicable.
I'm not sure if it's a personal issue either as it's very diverse.

I'll start off by saying I'm male in my late 20s and I'm Irish, my situation is a very complex where my attackers use psychological tactics to instill fear in me.
From a young age I always had an interest in investigative journalism, corruption, collusion, wrong doing by state officials etc .
All stemming from my what IV seen- my own treatment and my father's treatment from the Irish defence forces,the government and law enforcement and he was falsely inprisoned during "the troubles"years without a judge or going near a court

I'll tell you my story.

I was friends with a few people that were let's say "in the trade" criminal activities etc.
Over the years I seen and overheard stuff I wish I didn't hear or see, I knew about stuff I wish I didn't know.
Ive seen our youth being entrapped by colluding cops and criminals, for statistical reasons and corruption.
Politicians getting payouts to keep there mouth shut.
I cannot get into too much on this particular website .
In 2011 I started a blog explaining what I knew because it made me sick.
They were quickly on to me, my criminal mates and the cops.
Wasn't long before we were no longer "friends "
In 2012 I suffered a "drug entrapment" was knocked down and nearly killed etc. The drugs were never mine- they were planted there.
None of my DNA were on them but I still suffered.
I now know to much, which puts my life at risk.
Not long after, my landlord who is a major player, increased my rent to an unreasonable rate.
At work I was been" mobbed and bullied ". There was stuff starting to happen that seemed very psychological and manipulated.
People whispering about me,dirty looks, sabotaging my items(if I left my coat on a hanger there would be a small hole burnt in it etc , stealing my stuff money etc.
there would be co-workers having the same conversation I would of having the night before with my partner.
This kept going on and got worse until I left, at the time I did not know what was happening but knew i was been singled out for special treatment.
It got to the stage where I could no longer afford my rent. My landlord would not accept HAP and anywhere I tryed to rent someone else always got it.
I had no option but to become homeless. There was no other options . It was that or give up and die.
I got on with it, registered with the council as homeless and tryed to fix things.
Then the weird started to happen.
It started with randomers passing me on the street, just before they would pass me they would look directly into my eye and make a the noise of a gunshot with there mouth, others would make "hand signals" of guns at me.
I started to notice, now this might seem far fetched but ive evidence in the form of videos, but anyway. Everywhere I went there was a Garda presence, litteraly everywhere. Both armed and unarmed.
I was continuously been stopped and searched by armed officers I had no idea why, they would make the same sounds and signals gunshots.
Criminals would follow me in vehicles and would do the same hand signs of guns and make the gunshot sounds.
Then the more I fought back the more people got involved.
The council, the homeless persons unit, focus Ireland , all had an agenda against me. They were all using the same tactics - gunshot sounds and signals. I was being followed be people all covered up in black with there face hid, running up behibd me with there hand in the jacket appearing to take out a weapon. Trying to initiate a shooting. It was all scare tactics.
I'm not an addicted and I'm always sent to the most addict using hostels in the city.
So for my own safety i stopped using hostels and slept rough. I was literally leaving myself as an open target.
But psychologically I was been hit hard.
In 3 months I lost 4 stone.
Every single living day I'm followed harrassed intimidated by our state police criminals and civilians and singled out for special treatment.
I cannot for the life of me find employment, shops I frequent start using the same tactics as gaurds and others. I've been blacklisted everywhere.
The tactics they used are designed to make you look like you have a mental illness when you haven't .
After alot of research I found that alot of the homeless in Dublin are the refugees eastern Europeans and some Irish/addicts.
The Somalians the Syrians etc the eastern europeans all get treated like golden citizens by the council and welfare, where the Irish are treated like refugees in there own country. Addicts are manipulated and psychologically abused/controlled.
A council worker in Dublin city council agreed with me and himself said : Ireland has not got a homeless crisis he said, Ireland has an immigration crisis. And there all Muslim! Make of it what you wish, but there already having an influence.
When I questioned this, my social welfare was cut and my housing council application canceled after been accepted.
I was told it was because I wouldn't use the hostels.
Where I rough sleep, the homeless charitys never offer me food or hot drinks - they ignore me and use the same tactics as the rest - the gunshots and signals.
Not them all there are some good people. Alot of the good people know what I'm going through and wont get involved because of fear.
It's like I'm the "enemy of the state".
Every footstep I'm followed intimidated and harrassed. How they can afford to do this to me is boggling.
But if you have a phone number it's easy to track someone also the the city is full of CCTV which makes it easier to track and watch.

About a week ago I was staying in a local park . It was about 2.30am when a Muslim man cycled into this park in Dublin City. He cycled over to me. There was other rough sleepers there.
He came over and had a golf club possibly a putter duck taped to his cross bar. Initial alarm bells went off. He was trying to make conversation I politely asked him to go away. He placed the bike between him and myself blocking my way out using it as like a safety barrier for himself. I start getting my stuff to leave and he grabbed me by the crotch and start trying to touch me. It messed me up. I jumped up pushed him off and ran out. Dialled 999 who connected me to the gardai - who asked me to go back to the park and see if he was there. I did, and he was trying to leave as fast as he could on his bike. They said they would be there in 2mins. Bridewell Garda station is litteraly 1 minute away by car.
5 mins later no gardai and the sexual assualter was gone. 10 mins later again I got a call from the gardai saying to wait outside the park on the luas line and they would be there in 2 mins .
40 mins later still no sign of them. I observed where I was standing and noticed there was about 4 CCTV cameras around me, so they just probably wanted to watch me suffer the sickos.
At 3:40am after waiting for the gardai for well over an hour and being passed by the and there were only a minute down the road I felt for my safety and proceeded to walk to the station.
When I got to the station they couldnt of been anymore unhelpful.
They Said oh we had to deal with a "mental health patient" sorry, we couldn't get to you.
I was in Dublin city and was sexually assaulted and I'm a man. There's hundreds of gardai but no-one could come?
Luckily for me there was witnesses and CCTV.

This is the treatment I suffer as an Irish citizen.
I'm only a young male, and I'm deprived of every opportunity for speaking the truth.
Our government, law enforcement, judiciary and criminals are all in on the act.
Ive been set up ,imprisoned, slandered , smeared, followed, intimidated, harrassed , every day.
If it was anyone vulnerable they would of having enough along time ago . I prepared to fight for my rights.
It's like a no touch torture to get rid of people they would not get away with getting rid of.
But mentally I'm too strong.
It's fasicm really.
This our country now, and the tactics resembles the tactics used by Nazis during the Zersetzung area.
We re not Ireland anymore people, we re a state in Europe.
We no longer have free speech.

I've seen others label this 'gangstalking'' - I don't know what it is, but what I do know is it exsists, and Ireland is not the place you think it is or are perceived to think it is.

All's I'm looking for is advice from others because any solicitor I've tryed would touch me.

leggo

OP I'm sorry you're in the situation you're in. Have you tried talking to a doctor about this? It can't be good for your mental health to carry that around.

Shazzler77998

leggo wrote: »

OP I'm sorry you're in the situation you're in. Have you tried talking to a doctor about this? It can't be good for your mental health to carry that around.

No. I wouldn't go near a GP.
I never go near my gp for anything I never have.
Yet they find it in there need to ring me constantly requesting blood counts... I've no idea why.

leggo

Well that’d be my advice. If you want to change the situation you’re in, you need to change what’s not working for you now and speaking to a doctor about your situation could provide a world of good for you.

Shazzler77998

leggo wrote: »

Well that’d be my advice. If you want to change the situation you’re in, you need to change what’s not working for you now and speaking to a doctor about your situation could provide a world of good for you.

I don't think speaking with a doctor will change the actions or ways of individuals or groups that entice the hate towards me.
Mentally it's challenging but I deal with it. Physically I could do with a check up, the weight I've lost isn't natural. But because of the way things are and the way I'm treated I've absolutely no trust in anyone anymore. But that's how I've been conditioned.

Alot of the Irish addicts on the streets suffer the same things as myself, they are just too uneducated too understand what's happening around them and fall deeper and deeper into addiction to fog the abuse and possibly block it out. Drug dealers wait for them outside the post office to take there dole off them.

Why do you think some much homeless charity money is unaccounted for? Because there pocketing it.
The mugs of who do the soup run, do the heroin run an hour after.
People have no idea what's really going on to the homeless on our streets and not just them activists whistleblowers etc receive the same fate. They use addicts like guinea pigs.
Only with me they have someone fighting back and they hate it and wish I never turned up.
They state of Ireland will no longer help me in anyway.
Underneath the surface Ireland is a sick shallow place full of corruption

Afroshack

OP, I'm not a doctor and this is in no way a diagnosis, but have you considered going for a mental health assessment? None of this sounds logical or rational. In fact, its possible these beliefs are a symptom of a serious mental health issue. Please see your GP, or any doctor. Please.

Shazzler77998

Afroshack wrote: »

OP, I'm not a doctor and this is in no way a diagnosis, but have you considered going for a mental health assessment? None of this sounds logical or rational. In fact, its possible these beliefs are a symptom of a serious mental health issue. Please see your GP, or any doctor. Please.

Will you stop with the mental health card. I've recorded video evidence. I know what's real and whats not. I know what I experience is very much real.
I have no mental health symptoms, I've never had. I don't see things and I don't hear voices if that's your next line of pinpointing.

I've documented everything and I have recorded alot of video evidence, so spear the mental health crap.

Outside my former address gardai would sit outside 3/4 hours a day twice a month for about 6 months. IV video evidence. Is that mental health?
They'd knock on my door on other occasions "looking for a neighbor" when each house has a placard with a house number.
I've videos of "charity workers and Gardai" social welfare etc all using the methods I mentioned.

Is a sexual assault and Gardai not showing up mental health? when there's witnesses and CCTV showing the said incident.?
IV videos of vulnerable Irish homeless been mentally abused too so tell me that's my mental health too, Gowan..
So spear me the mental health crap pls.
I may be vulnerable because of my situation but I'm not suffering any mental health deficiency.
I know what is happening is pretty much real, because as I said : I document everything and record video evidence of alot.
I always knew my word would never be enough, that's why I invested in some technology.

Loveinapril

What sort of advice are you looking for? Have you thought about writing your issues to the relevant authorities (garda ombudsman, etc.) It certainly seems like you are carrying a lot of stress so as Leggo suggested, a visit to your GP might help you.

Shazzler77998

Loveinapril wrote: »

What sort of advice are you looking for? Have you thought about writing your issues to the relevant authorities (garda ombudsman, etc.) It certainly seems like you are carrying a lot of stress so as Leggo suggested, a visit to your GP might help you.

Hi, yes I contacted GSOC and I'm currently dealing with them.
But if anything it has amplified things with the gardai and former aquintences.
your right, I am stressed - but who wouldn't be when you life is threatened hourly.

I'm just looking for advice- I'm not sure what type, but any would be good when your left with nowhere to turn.
This whole mental health stuff just pisses me off when I'm grand and I've so much evidence.
It's designed to look like psychosis it's that well done, hence my reason behind obtaining video evidence.

lunamoon

I echo what others have said: you need to see a doctor. This all sounds completely irrational and a bit far-fetched.

FizzleSticks

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ahnow

OP, I read all of your posts and am sorry for your situation and would strongly consider visiting a doctor. All of these events that are happening to you match with symptoms of psychosis. Even if you watch some videos of people’s experiences of psychosis on youtube, it seems like absolute reality.
I would strongly urge you to get yourself to a GP, what have you to lose?

leggo

OP I noticed you were very careful to say you're not an addict, but you didn't mention whether you use or not, would you use from time to time?

Shazzler77998

lunamoon wrote: »

I echo what others have said: you need to see a doctor. This all sounds completely irrational and a bit far-fetched.

It does sound far fetched , but it isn't. Trust me.
Fake news would of seem far fetched about 2 years ago.. yano
I'll grab my tinfoil hat too.

I've obtained video evidence as I keep stating which other friends are astonished by.
So I've more than my word, I've actual evidence.

Has the McCabe stuff really not opened up anyone's eyes to how this country actually
operates?

Shazzler77998

leggo wrote: »

OP I noticed you were very careful to say you're not an addict, but you didn't mention whether you use or not, would you use from time to time?

I do not use drugs or drink alcohol.
I have never used drugs.
I was never really a drinker but completely stopped in 2012.

I can't believe people keep pulling the mental health card.

Shazzler77998

ahnow wrote: »

OP, I read all of your posts and am sorry for your situation and would strongly consider visiting a doctor. All of these events that are happening to you match with symptoms of psychosis. Even if you watch some videos of people’s experiences of psychosis on youtube, it seems like absolute reality.
I would strongly urge you to get yourself to a GP, what have you to lose?

IV evidence pal. Video evidence. Not just one video, 2 SD cards full of evidence.

Afroshack

You state that the government, the housing charities, the homeless charities, the housing bodies, the police and randomers on the street are all conspiring against you. You think you are being watched, followed and threatened by nearly everyone. You think you were set up by the police/gangs of criminals who conspired against you. You think there are dozens of homeless people being psychologically bullied into submission and there's a conspiracy to help the perpetrators get away with it.

None of this sounds rational OP. All of these organisations can barely co-ordinate enough to look after kids in state care who go missing, or keep track of homeless and vulnerable addicts who die on the streets. Your assertion that they are all plotting against you just doesn't sound like a logical chain of events. Your insistence that you have no mental health issues either isn't very credible, since you have never seen a doctor about this and cannot attest to any medical conclusions.


Would you consider visiting a hospital and telling someone this? They may know how to help with the stress of all this. It must be exhausting.

Shazzler77998

Afroshack wrote: »

You state that the government, the housing charities, the homeless charities, the housing bodies, the police and randomers on the street are all conspiring against you. You think you are being watched, followed and threatened by nearly everyone. You think you were set up by the police/gangs of criminals who conspired against you. You think there are dozens of homeless people being psychologically bullied into submission and there's a conspiracy to help the perpetrators get away with it.

None of this sounds rational OP. All of these organisations can barely co-ordinate enough to look after kids in state care who go missing, or keep track of homeless and vulnerable addicts who die on the streets. Your assertion that they are all plotting against you just doesn't sound like a logical chain of events. Your insistence that you have no mental health issues either isn't very credible, since you have never seen a doctor about this and cannot attest to any medical conclusions.


Would you consider visiting a hospital and telling someone this? They may know how to help with the stress of all this. It must be exhausting.

It does sound irrational and psychotic I get that.
I understand that completely.
It's made to look like that. But I'm not I'm truly not, I cannot stress that enough.
That's why I started to record when instances would happen.
Now, I don't think I'm being followed by "everyone" that's a misinterpretation but by alot of people. I suppose you can't really understand without seeing my videos.

I'm sorry people find it to understand that this actually exsists, but I just hope it never happens to anyone you know.

I've been dealing with criminals from a young age, proper criminals involved in all sorts you possibly can't even imagine, collusion on a big scale. I was never directly involved but I know alot of what goes on, that alot of you don't know.

I have information that could hurt alot of people in positions of authority, if I was believed. It's probably best than to target someone like me, have me labled rather than believed.

I never visited a gp or hospital because I know i suffer nothing only what I've described. Hassle intimidation harrasement assualts death threats etc.

I'm sorry you find it hard to believe. But I cannot stress that what I'm telling you is 100pc real and happening and not some form of out of control psychosis that you might perceive it to be.
I'm just sorry for you, that you cannot understand that if become you enemies with people with power in this country you can be abused like this.

dudara

OP - Boards is not the place for this discussion. I recommend you speak to your GP or a professional, and I urge you to consider your online privacy.

If you want this thread deleted, let me know.

dudara