No help for depressed patients

noah45

Suffering from depression for 20 +years. Been on many different medications, all of which cease to be effective eventually.
Feeling very down since before Christmas. I attend a psychiatric out patients clinic every 6 weeks or so. Due again in 3 weeks time.
Feeling so down lately that I attended my gp yesterday in the hope of changing medication but he said that only the psychiatrist can do this.
I phoned the clinics number as they say after every visit to phone if I have any problems. Nurse who answered said they booked out but phone again to see if there is a cancellation.
What does one do?
I am not suicidal but I am fighting with everyone, crying all the time and would love to sleep for a few weeks and wake up feeling normal.
I had to get signed off work yesterday for a few days.
There is no help out there 😥

Kimbot

Hi Noah, I sympathise with you but let me put this to you. There is hope and depression can be defeated.

Have a look at these threads: http://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=2057564333
http://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=2056481009

My original GP put me on Anti-D's that appeared to make me worse. It got so bad even after asking him numerous times to change the meds that I ended up in hospital and thanks to some lovely Drs and Nurses I am better than I ever have been. I sat down and told them everything and told them I didnt thinks the meds suited me so they changed my meds and tinkered with dosages over the next couple of months until I felt right. Keep the chin up and one day you will be cloud free

noah45

Thank you so much for that. Great reading there. Makes me feel less alone.

dar100

Have you tried therapy? It's unlikely the psych will send you at this stage if not done so already!

Counselling with a good quality counsellor may help with some of your thoughts and feelings!!

Have you been given a "diagnosis?

noah45

I have had cbt with a wonderful counsellor twice and I found it fantastic. I'm am lost without her, it only lasted 8 weeks. My diagnosis is severe depression.

Hi Noah. Have you considered long term therapy? I've a feeling you might need on going support and not just 8 weeks.

dar100

noah45 wrote: »

I have had cbt with a wonderful counsellor twice and I found it fantastic. I'm am lost without her, it only lasted 8 weeks. My diagnosis is severe depression.

8 weeks is not really long enough for enduring difficulties,!!

Maybe look for another counsellor,

noah45

The cbt was offered free through the primary care centre. I can't afford to pay for private cbt. The woman that I went to was absolutely amazing.

dar100

There is free counselling out there, have a look

Also many therapists offer a sliding scale of fees for clients. It may be as low as €20 in some cases. The work is quite the commitment so it might mean giving something up in order to pay the fee. Best of luck to you

noah45

Thank you all, searched, found and booked appointment for affordable counselling for Friday.

moneymad

Good man. Good job everyone. I'm fairly certain you make a huge difference in peoples lives.

noah45

Unfortunately I make a difference for the worse. I fly off the handle and feel that nobody likes me, I certainly don't . I feel I have ruined my children's lives by being like this and fear they will hate me forever.

moneymad

You're going to that cbt tomorrow?

noah45

Most definitely. Wish it was today. I am so greatful for this board. I lurk at lot. It makes me feel like I am not alone.

moneymad

Mind if i send you a pm?

noah45

moneymad wrote: »

Mind if i send you a pm?

No problem

Kurtosis

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moneymad

I wasn't aware of this. I'm certain my pm isn't anything to do with the above.

Graces7

noah45 wrote: »

Unfortunately I make a difference for the worse. I fly off the handle and feel that nobody likes me, I certainly don't . I feel I have ruined my children's lives by being like this and fear they will hate me forever.

Please! You are not doing this wilfully or through choice so no guilt. I have been through so much wrong guilt in my life and it is not fruitful!

Look after YOU; do things that you enjoy and find relaxing or fun, and remember this is winter and many with depression are affected by the loss of light. SAD they call it. Have a think if that fits? I go down in August until spring.

So glad you are getting help...