Drifting through life

LegacyUser

I graduated from college in summer of 2015. I travelled a bit and made a bit of money via various projects. I dread the idea of a 9-5. However I really feel like I am just drifting through life.

I have loads of things I want to achieve.

- Get a better body
- Get fitter/run a marathon
- Get two steady income streams
- Travel More
- Be more social
- Read/watch more documentaries to broaden my mind
- Meditate more
- Become more flexible/laid back
- Move out

but I just can't get off my arse and do it. I do take medication for depression but I'm not sure if thats whats causing it or whether I'm just a lazy bumb.

I wake up at night panicked that my life is going no-where. I see my friends progressing in careers but I amn't really making any progress.

I just feel lost in life completely and not really sure where to begin.

dar100

Beginning at the start is always an option?

Sounds like you are lacking some purpose and meaning with your life?

Maybe start with what's most important to you, the rest will follow if you can nail down some type of plan and structure to it!!

9-5 is not for everybody, if you can generate an income an alternative way then go for it, may offer you the flexibility to work on other areas of your life

tomatofruit

U will do all those things on your list and more.There is no rush. I didn't have my **** together till my mid thirties

Lavinia

Perhaps start with something completely small. And then take one step at the time, caring only about a day at hand.
You are mentioning depression. Do you have a counselor to talk to?
There is a reason why your life is effected by this so finding and understanding the cause may help you to free yourself from it and move on and it is worth giving it a bit of time to figure it out.
If you have a huge list of plans under these conditions it may create an anxiety in itself that will block you from doing anything.
Start with little things to create some kind of routine if you can. Simple as going for a walk for example.
Don't or try not to compare yourself with others, try to focus on yourself and your own healing process and perhaps making slow but steady progress instead.
You are young and still plenty of time to sort your life out.
Wishing you all the best.

LegacyUser

Thanks for the responses. Yesterday I actually got quite a bit done but today I've really lethargic and can feel myself creeping back into depression, being pessimistic and feeling very lonely when really nothing has changed between yesterday and today.

I'm doing my best to get stuff done including some side projects I am working on that will bring in a bit of cash on the side. The main issue I have is loneliness really. Without a regular 9-5 job I have little interaction with people most days and almost no daily 'bonding' with people. There's no gf on the scene and really no chance of that happening for a while.