I don't know what to do about anything

RubyGlee

As the title have a lot of things going on in my life I don't know how to fix. I can't even think about what to do because I get so stressed and worried I feel physically sick so end up blocking it out singing songs in my head so I don't have to think. Doctors think I have anxiety and o c d and bi polar has been mentioned which I know I don't have any of that.
I don't want to take the pills or speak to anyone about my "feelings" I just want someone to tell me what to do to sort out the various different things that are wrong in my life that's all. And sleep I really really would love to sleep becausr I'm so tired all the time.

nkav86

I know you don't want to hear it but going to therapy and just letting out all the things that are stuck in your head can really help and your doctor can help organise that for you. Failing that, exercise and meditation may help relax your mind and body to where you can get a more restful sleep. Are there any friends you may be able to chat to, a problem shared and all that.

RubyGlee

I had a bit of a moment a few months ago and broke down to a friend that's how I ended up seeing doctors. It's easier to just keep the game face on with them because honestly I don't need therapy I just need someone to fix my life, that or just take my kid and go far away from everything

PirateShampoo

RubyGlee wrote: »

I had a bit of a moment a few months ago and broke down to a friend that's how I ended up seeing doctors. It's easier to just keep the game face on with them because honestly I don't need therapy I just need someone to fix my life, that or just take my kid and go far away from everything

Only you can fix your life, there isn't any magic wand that somebody can wave and things will change over night.

You should really consider talking to a therapist. What harm would it do? They aren't there to judge you, they are there to listen to you and guide you through your emotions and to help you understand what's going on inside your head..

nkav86

RubyGlee wrote:

It's easier to just keep the game face on with them

I'm not trying to make assumptions or put words in your mouth, but this sounds like something I've said and done before. The reason I did was because I was terrified of being seen as weak or the person with all the problems and I was afraid of what would happen if I just gave in to what I was feeling. As I said, I held back for years and people were none the wiser, it was the worst thing I ever did, no matter what I tried the upset seeped through and slowly cut away at different aspects of my life. It blew up majorly in my face, I wish I would have fully dealt with it sooner and gotten help to work through it. Just my experience on things.

triona1

Get a pen and paper start at the easy bits and start ticking things off 1 hour at a time or one day at a time.But i would suggest visiting your gp.

hairyslug

This was me 2/3 years ago (and mildly on going) I refused to talk to anyone about it, eventually, after making a lot of people's lives difficult I decided to go, providing you get a therapist/councillor you can get one with it may work wonders, it improved my situation more than I ever thought and they taught me skills with how to deal with things.

Merkin

Why are you so opposed to getting the help you clearly need? What is your objection to medication and seeing a therapist?

RubyGlee

Ok I have an appointment tomorrow im goin to keep its not with a therapist but the out patient clinic.
Why I don't really want to go 1. He's goin to want me to take the pills. I can't take them i tried I missed a whole week of work because I was just out of it. 2. the first time I saw them I hadn't slept in a while and I think I said some things I didn't mean. 3. I have a kid she's means everything to me what if they contact social services? 4. Embarrassment, my problems are down to my own actions and mistakes and sometimes I do things to feel better about myself and no can't tell anyone about that.
i don't have a good feeling about this but I never have a good feelin about anything. I'm a mess

nkav86

I'm glad you're going. If you don't want to take pills, for whatever reason, tell them that, they should be able to recommend a different option. Unless your kid is in immediate danger, I don't see why social services would be involved, I wouldn't worry. Yes, your issues may be your own doing, but sometimes things can overwhelm us to a point that we can't see a way out, that's why I feel it's good to talk to someone else about them. I wish you the best of luck op.

endacl

RubyGlee wrote: »

I had a bit of a moment a few months ago and broke down to a friend that's how I ended up seeing doctors. It's easier to just keep the game face on with them because honestly I don't need therapy I just need someone to fix my life, that or just take my kid and go far away from everything

They only one who can fix your life is you.

RubyGlee

Just wanted to updated well I went to the appointment anyway I had a bit of a panic but just went. The waiting area was scary just the other people there and I wanted to run but didn't kept this thread open and read the replies and you know it wasn't so bad. I have a prescription I don't have to fill it if I don't want to.
I can go to some group sessions again if I don't want to say anything I don't have to. I think that would be easier. No men in white coats dragging me away to a padded cell so we shall see how it goes

nkav86

That's great news, delighted you want and had a positive experience. You've taken a huge step, you should be proud!