I hate new years eve!

Large fun bags

Every New years eve I find myself really depressed. Same as any other time of the year when your supposed to be happy ie. Christmas and birthdays. More so than the usual depression i suffer from that is. I write this post sitting on my bed. Glass of wine in hand, hating the world and everyone in it. Damn you simple minded people with your happiness and enjoyment of life. I'm 29. Male. (Negatives) Dropped out of school at 16. Problems with alcohol and getting into trouble with the law and have several drink related convictions. Grew up in a disfunctional family. Lost a brother. The other is an alcoholic who I haven't spoken to in years. Addictive personality. Suffer from cystic fibrosis. Depression. (Positives) Own business. No debts. Hot girlfriend. 2 kids. (Not mine) Freedom to come and go as I please. So ya, thats me in a nutshell. Yet still. Here I am. Glass of wine in hand. Writing this. Not happy with my accomplishments and what I have overcome up to now. Will I ever be happy no matter what I accomplish? Is it a dark tunnel with no light at the end? I attended councilling and currently have the alcohol under control. To an extent.
So my reason for writing this? Not sure. Boredom? Depressed? The wine? Or all of the above. I suppose I'm wondering is there anyone reading this with a similar story who might like to share.
Oh and before I forget. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

via4

I think some people just pretend to be full of happiness on cue on certain nights of the year. Going out on New Years can be a bit of an anti climax I think. I am feeling like crap while trying my hardest not to get back to that depressed hopeless feeling I always try and bury seeing people my age getting engaged all ova fb tonight including an ex friend who cheated on her fella countless times showing off a diamond and getting the happy ever after. Also my embarrassment over Xmas at realising all my 18/19 year old cousins are in relationships and I am at nearly 30 sitting in alone again. Honestly just feel like no matter what I do it's never good enough.

fin12

Ya I feel the same.... I'm a loser in comparison to other people my age....

Large fun bags

fin12 wrote:

Ya I feel the same.... I'm a loser in comparison to other people my age.

I didn't say I was a loser. Just not happy. And I'm sure that your not a loser either

fin12

Large fun bags wrote: »

fin12 wrote:

Ya I feel the same.... I'm a loser in comparison to other people my age.

I didn't say I was a loser. Just not happy. And I'm sure that your not a loser either

Ya I know ur not a loser, I was saying I feel the same that I hate new years and depressed?............ anyway sorry prob should have worded it better

mickmackmcgoo

via4 wrote:

I think some people just pretend to be full of happiness on cue on certain nights of the year. Going out on New Years can be a bit of an anti climax I think. I am feeling like crap while trying my hardest not to get back to that depressed hopeless feeling I always try and bury seeing people my age getting engaged all ova fb tonight including an ex friend who cheated on her fella countless times showing off a diamond and getting the happy ever after. Also my embarrassment over Xmas at realising all my 18/19 year old cousins are in relationships and I am at nearly 30 sitting in alone again. Honestly just feel like no matter what I do it's never good enough.

It's not embarrassing to be single -Embrace it until someone comes along and floats your boat and don't be so hard on yourself ,don't spend your life trying to please others just be nice to people and more importantly to yourself

CollyFlower

mickmackmcgoo wrote: »

It's not embarrassing to be single -Embrace it until someone comes along and floats your boat and don't be so hard on yourself ,don't spend your life trying to please others just be nice to people and more importantly to yourself

I don't think the answer is.. "wait until someone comes along'... No matter how many people you have in your life some people will still feel alone and down...

CollyFlower

fin12 wrote: »

Ya I feel the same.... I'm a loser in comparison to other people my age....

You're not a loser, Fin, get a grip! don't be putting yourself down.

Alf Veedersane

I don't hate New Year's Eve. I don't love it. It's Friday night to me and back to work on Monday.

I don't use it as a time to reassess where I am. I do that reasonably regularly anyway. It's not a milestone or a marking point.

I haven't been where you are OP but I can appreciate some of it. But Ive managed to learn to appreciate the accomplishments for what they are than just see them being drowned by the negatives.

I can't tell you, based on your OP, that your accomplishments/positives outweigh the negatives - not least because they're largely overcoming the negatives - because you need to believe it yourself and I can't make you do that.

But just don't use tonight as some sort of marker. It's a Friday. Shouldn't mean any more or less than last Friday or next Friday.

CollyFlower

According to a sentience study, people who plan to have a great time on N Y Eve are likely to be the most miserable of all... that cheered me up

Timmaay

Had a few offers to socialise and celebrate new yrs and all that crap tonight, instead ended up in alone, but watched one of the best films I've seen all year , probably the best new years eves I've had in several years as a result! All about perspective.

bp

I happily went to bed way before midnight....couldn't care less!

Good on you for doing well in later life, go chat to your GP about the other stuff. You are clearly doing better than other family members

jacknife

New Years Eve is a strange day, we all feel a bit emotional at this time.

Try to think positive, 2015 is over, look at 2016 as a new year and a new start, get a life plan, write it down, tackle your issues.

Get achievable goals and work towards them, even if you do not make them, you tried and will get there some day

Get out start exercising join a club make new friends

Remember you can live dying or die living

We all have our ups and downs, stay positive and good luck