Normal to feel like this?

LegacyUser

I've had a difficult few years - a sick parent died, debt, pay cut, marital issues, more debt, legal issues , so is it normal to feel like this considering all that?

I feel like I'm going to cry every minute of the day. I've had periods of feeling down before but I actually feel like I'm having some sort of nervous breakdown. Thinking about how I could end all this stress. I've no plan to act on it, but I would love the relief it would bring as I wouldn't have to worry about anything anymore. I am thinking about getting a tattoo, and I hate them -totally irrational thoughts like that, or that people are looking at me coz they fancy me. Really way out stuff.

I keep forgetting words, and I feel naseous a lot of the time. I feel full quickly, and then starving half hour later. My muscles ache, and I feel stiff like an older person.

I'm irritable, I can't seem to do anything quickly, I'm incoherent and sometimes I feel like I can't even articulate myself. Even this message is completely disjointed.

I feel sad, angry, happy in the space of 5 minutes. I either can't sleep or can't get up.

I know I've had some setbacks but all in all I'm still young (ish,), healthy, great family, good job. Wth can't I just pull my socks up on this one?

I'm normally the strong one. I can't go on feeling like this.

B.A._Baracus

Sounds like you've had a few rough years and things are taking its toll. Best to talk to someone close and trust. It's good to get things out and not bottle them in.

My two cents. Sorry I couldn't help further.

intheclouds

Sounds like you need what I call a "mental health" break.

Time off work, a holiday if funds allow, a staycation if not. And basically just mind yourself for a week, 2 weeks, whatever.

You sound overwhelmed. Talk to your GP, maybe he can cover you for some time off to destress.

Most of all, talk, tell someone how you're feeling. Get some support.

cleopatra11

You poor thing. I went through something similar 2 years ago.
My doctor said I was having 'an acute stress reaction'. I wanted it all to end, but was not suicidal. Like you I wanted the percieved relief.

I was off work for about 3 months. I used meds and therapy. After 9 months I was off meds and back to my old self.

My only advice to you is to go to your doctor, assuming they are a decent one. You need to talk to them.
Lack of sleep is making the whole thing a lot worse. Try to get that sorted out. A good doctor will help manage all of this either through therapy or medication.
See if your employer is part of EAP and use that service. Some health insurers provide it too.

Do not be afraid or ashamed to ask for help. You will be amazed how kind people are when you ask for it.
It is clear you want help by posting here. Wanting to get better is the first step. You just need the tools now. Thats what your doctor, friends and therapy are for.
Best of luck.

LegacyUser

No it's not normal.And just because you're young, healthy etc doesn't mean you have to be strong and just get on with it.I'm young, strong and healthy, and yet I've had two episodes with panic attacks and anxiety, both of which came on the heels of highly stressful times in my life.It's worse then because you think you're fineand over everything, then bam....it hits you like a ton of bricks and you can't figure out why.
GO talk to your GP and see if you can get a recommendation for a counsellor (not a psychologist..).Just to have someone to listen to you and help you.
And don't be ashamed or embarassed.It's totally normal and today's world is hard going sometimes.Never be afraid to ask for help.

LegacyUser

So I went to the GP, and I also went about another physical medical issue. I told him at the start that there were two issues I wanted to discuss but for some reason I wasn't able to properly get across how I was feeling mentally. As I said earlier, I am usually articulate and able to talk about my emotions in a very coherent manner and I have spoken to this GP previously about low mood/depression or whatever you want to label it.

Today though, I wasn't able to explain that this is way worse than anything I have ever experienced and I am actually worried about myself in a way that I have never been before.
He focused on getting some investigations done in relation to the physical symptoms I have already mentioned, but said he wanted to wait for medication for my mood, as it might exacerbate my physical symptoms.

He is normally on the ball, so I am surprised he didn't investigate further into how I was feeling. It's likely my fault for putting on the brave face I have been putting on for months and months.

I don't know what to do now. I feel like a bit of an idiot, and have wasted €60. I can't afford to go back in this pay roster, and I feel worse than ever.