low mood

LegacyUser

Hi all. Just looking for a bit of advice or perspective. I have a lovely family, beautiful son and great friends. They are very supportive. I had depression in 2012 and I have overcome it with the help of cbt and antidepressants. Recently I've been exercising and eating healthy and it's done wonders for my mood.

However, I have fallen off the wagon and it's having an effect on me. The last week I have been quite emotional that I'm wanting to cry every day. This is somewhat scary for me as it reminds me of how I was in 2012. My friend is going through the same thing n I think it's bringing back some memories. A few things have happened over the last month that seem to have triggered things but mainly it's the effect my ex husband has on me. He will text me calling me names, telling me I'm a bad mother and I am getting missed calls and abusive texts from private numbers. I have reported it to guards but nothing has been done. He does it now and again, it's not every day, but it is affecting my mental health. I am feeling guilty that my child is suffering because of the bad moods I am in. I don't want to go back on my tablets, they make me feel numb and I believe I can survive without them. I feel I can't talk to my parents about what is going on because we all just brush him (my ex) under the table if the topic comes up. I feel so alone.

I have a cbt session next week but I just feel quite low and vulnerable this week. I don't want my child to be unhappy because I am unhappy. I just don't know what to do

ManOfMystery

feelinglowagain wrote: »

I feel I can't talk to my parents about what is going on because we all just brush him (my ex) under the table if the topic comes up. I feel so alone.

I feel this is a very key and critical point. You can't expect the issue of your ex to fix itself, and you can't be expected to deal with that (along with depression issues) on your own without a proper support network. And for that support network to work, you have to discuss things with them.

Talk to your parents about your ex.

baby and crumble

OP, my heart goes out to you. I often have bouts of depression and sometimes it's obvious what's triggering it, sometimes I have no idea.

Regarding your ex-husband, would it be possible to change your number, and keep a note of who you give it to? That way if you keep getting these calls and texts you know who has your number. I would go back in a report it to the Gardai each week, that's harassment.

I know you don't want to go back on your tablets, but have you tried other medications? I had to try about 3 before myself and my doc found ones that worked and that didn't numb me or mess with my head even more than the depression.

How old is your son? Maybe talk to him if it's appropriate, and explain what's happening with you. I wish my father had done that when I was younger, I wouldn't have been able to help but at least I would have understood.

via4

Sorry to hear what you are going through OP. One thing I have come to accept is if I have a bad day/ bad week etc. my feelings and emotions will pass eventually and if I need to sit in the house all weekend by myself then so be it. Dont put too much pressure on yourself and do not feel guilty about your child as your feelings will pass you are just going through a rough patch and your body is reacting to the stress. Go and get a facial done and take an afternoon to yourself where you can take your mind off things though I know that is easier said than done.