Feeling very down

LegacyUser

Lately, actually just that lately, I feel like nothing is going right in my life. I feel like I'm intellegent, responsible, kind, maybe not quite hard working but I do my best, but nothing goes my way.
I'm not ungrateful either, I could be much worse off but I'm still not happy.
I live in the UK. I moved here as a compromise with my ex and so I could do a course that would allow me to easily get a job in my field and repay my parents. My ex quickly decided I wasn't worth the compromise and now, as my course is finishing, I'm one of two who can't seem to get a job.

I don't particularly like the city I'm living in, but having moved the last 3 years in a row I really can't deal with that again. I've made a handful of friends but they're all very flakey and most won't be here next year anyway. I chose the house I'm living in because I thought it would help me make friends and it close to a train station for work and uni for my course. But the house wasn't built properly, my housemates are rude and unfriendly, and it's such a noisey area, it's made this year almost unbearable. I'm moving out at the end of the month but as I've no job I don't know where to go.

I still miss my ex a lot, and have a lot of anger towards him, but it''s almost been a year since we broke up (almost as long as we were together). I've gone on dates, but all the guys seem to be so arrogant that they expect me to wait patiently for over a month for a second date! I work a least 50 hours a week and can still make time if I want to see someone but apparently I'm just not worth the effort to anyone. And the last guy I went out with had a girlfriend.

I have job interview later today, but I'm not particularly interested and they changed the assessment task at the last minute so I'm ridiculously under prepared (and for some reason completely not bothered, though I barely slept last night).

I feel really alone and like a big failure. It's like I make all these sensible decisions that just back fire completely. I'm 25 in a few weeks and I feel like I've wasted half my twenties. I spend most of my free time on self improvement (learning a language, reading non-fiction etc.) but what's the point if I'm just going to be an un-employed, lonely loser anyway?

Rubberchikken

i realise you're miserable at the moment and can only see all the negative things in life, but if you could try to find just one small positive thing each day it could make a bit of a difference.

i don't want to sound like a crank, but if a person only focuses on the negative it just drags them down.

you sound like a good person who's been dealt a few blows but you've managed so far so i'll bet you could climb out of this with a little effort.

let the ex go. stop cleaning a flat just to have people like you. if you want to get a job and need to study for tests, then put in the work.

there is no law that says you can't move if you don't like the place you're in. change where you meet people so that you might be able to pick better friends.

you're not a loser. don't think of yourself in a negative way. you're capable and smart, now you just need to start believing that.

Skinonskin

Remember you are only 25. There is still a lot of life ahead of you. Stay positive.