Weird feeling I am going to die soon!!!!!!!

Laoislion8383

Just after Christmas gone I started to get this weird feeling that my time left on earth is limited, it's like I know I am going to die soon no idea how or when exactly but just this strange feeling that it will be soon. It does not scare me or make me panic or anything like that, infact it's quite the opposite Its like I am at peace with it and what will be will be. Me and my long term girlfriend are due to be married in August 2016 but I just can't get excited about the wedding it's not because I don't love her or want to marry her because I most definitely do its just that I cannot picture the day in my head it's like I won't be there. Before you think it i can tell you I have no notions of killing or hurting myself have always being of sound mind. Recently I have found myself admiring the beauty in everything and find myself wanting to spend every waking minute with my two daughters and getting the urge to record in some way my feelings and thoughts for them and my partner. I don't think about it every minute of everyday but it's there in the back of my mind and like I said it does not scare me it's quite comforting in a weird way. I haven't told anybody about these feelings and I wouldn't be one to turn to the net for any ideas or advice but I find it's the only place I can go.....

Saralee4

Perhaps for some reason, this is just your way of realising that you are not immortal. When we are younger we feel like nothing can effect us. Things like health are often taken for granted. Perhaps you feel at a place in your life where you don't have a goal. You got the woman you love, have the lovely children and you are wondering what's next in life?

I have heard a lot of people can go through this when they loose a parent. Like if your parents are alive, part of you is still a child in some way, if that makes sense so when parents die, we can come to question our own mortality.

I would say it to a doctor and get a check up too, to keep your mind at ease.

mrmorgan

this is weird, i have the exact same feeling the last few years after a friend of mine was killed.

but instad of being at peace, I get panic attacks over it

SATSUMA

sounds like some form of anxiety to me, go talk to a therapist if you are curious and get to the bottom of it.

Laoislion8383

Saralee4 wrote: »

Perhaps for some reason, this is just your way of realising that you are not immortal. When we are younger we feel like nothing can effect us. Things like health are often taken for granted. Perhaps you feel at a place in your life where you don't have a goal. You got the woman you love, have the lovely children and you are wondering what's next in life?



I have heard a lot of people can go through this when they loose a parent. Like if your parents are alive, part of you is still a child in some way, if that makes sense so when parents die, we can come to question our own mortality.

I would say it to a doctor and get a check up too, to keep your mind at ease.

Both parents are still alive, but I agree I think it is me coming to realise that my youth is gone, I should get a physical check up from the doc maybe it's my body's way of telling me something is wrong....... Thanks anyhow

Laoislion8383

SATSUMA wrote: »

sounds like some form of anxiety to me, go talk to a therapist if you are curious and get to the bottom of it.

I think I will I am very curious about it

Gongoozler

It's weird to see this written down. I've had a similar feeling since my early twenties at least. It's a feeling that I won't live past around mid thirties. I can't see what it looks like.

It's nothing to do with depression or anything of the sort. It's just as simple as it's not there. Hard to explain.

No harm in going for a check up OP but otherwise I wouldn't worry about it. There's not much you can do if something is to happen.

Laoislion8383

Gongoozler wrote: »

It's weird to see this written down. I've had a similar feeling since my early twenties at least. It's a feeling that I won't live past around mid thirties. I can't see what it looks like.

It's nothing to do with depression or anything of the sort. It's just as simple as it's not there. Hard to explain.

No harm in going for a check up OP but otherwise I wouldn't worry about it. There's not much you can do if something is to happen.

It's the strangest feeling isn't it, but I am not worried at all, maybe I should go to the doc for a check up maybe it's my body's way of telling me something is wrong.... I don't know it's a mad one

CarpeDiem85

I had this feeling for quite a number of months recently. I was very aware of my mortality. I think this came from my mother passing away and feeling like I was getting older and as you say my youth was behind me. I think you should definitely try to speak to a therapist about it. I have thankfully shaken the feeling off now but it is a horrible feeling! Take it as a sign to appreciate your close ones more and appreciate each and every day. We won't be here forever so more the reason to enjoy your time when you are

Raised Eyebrow

I don't think that is anxiety. It seems the opposite of it to me. You sound serene and enjoying little things. Maybe you are content and completely happy about your upcoming marriage. It doesn't sound like it is having a negative effect on your life whereas anxiety is debilitating. Maybe chat to a counsellor if you would like to get to the bottom of it or a clinical hypnotist.

beks101

Have you had any traumatic or life changing events recently OP? A bereavement or a close family member or friend who had a brush with death?

A friend of mine passed away a few months ago and it certainly changed my perspective on things. I can identify with the sort of serenity you feel, combined with an acute awareness of my own mortality and lack of control on when or how my life comes to an end.

I would suggest you get that GP check up and then channel all of your energy into the wedding prep, in addition to your own hobbies and quality of life. Perhaps that's ultimately what it's about - tuning out the white noise of every day life and spending your time where it really matters, with family and friends and your wife-to-be and doing the things you love.

grumpynerd

The human brain is notorious for confusing death instincts with change instincts.

Your mind is preparing you for a new stage in life for which the older version of you must change or fade out.

Neyite

All my childhood I always had this feeling that I'd die at 25. I'm 40 now. When I hit 26 it went away.

the evasion_kid

Probably just hit that age were you realize your own mortality op

dvdman1

Most peole I know and myself included have had these feelings or similar....most likely its a confused very human reaction to change
Keep busy, glad to hear ur not worried or anxious all people are different

skallywag

I think quite a few people have such thoughts, particularly as more time passes. I've put quite a lot of thought into the same myself. I've come to the conclusion myself that the being dead part is actually the easy bit, quite a few before me seem to be handling this aspect pretty well :-) It's the actual dying part which can be the most disturbing, and much harder to get one's mind around.

Semele

If you're a reader OP then check out some of Irvin Yalom's books- the non-fiction ones. He's a psychotherapist who writes beautifully about coming to terms with mortality and choosing to find meaning in life. Because it is a choice, ultimately! "Love's Executioner" is his best known book and is a fabulous read, but he has more recently written reflections on ageing prompted by his own advncing age.

Laoislion8383

Gongoozler wrote: »

It's weird to see this written down. I've had a similar feeling since my early twenties at least. It's a feeling that I won't live past around mid thirties. I can't see what it looks like.

It's nothing to do with depression or anything of the sort. It's just as simple as it's not there. Hard to explain.

No harm in going for a check up OP but otherwise I wouldn't worry about it. There's not much you can do if something is to happen.

Not a thing I can do, and I am not a bit worried in the least, which is the weirdest part of the whole lot

Laoislion8383

skallywag wrote: »

I think quite a few people have such thoughts, particularly as more time passes. I've put quite a lot of thought into the same myself. I've come to the conclusion myself that the being dead part is actually the easy bit, quite a few before me seem to be handling this aspect pretty well :-) It's the actual dying part which can be the most disturbing, and much harder to get one's mind around.

Yes I agree totally, it's the fear of the unknown the passing over that scares most people

Laoislion8383

Raised Eyebrow wrote: »

I don't think that is anxiety. It seems the opposite of it to me. You sound serene and enjoying little things. Maybe you are content and completely happy about your upcoming marriage. It doesn't sound like it is having a negative effect on your life whereas anxiety is debilitating. Maybe chat to a counsellor if you would like to get to the bottom of it or a clinical hypnotist.

I was thinking of hypnoses or something like it, I don't know it's not really working me at all, it's just a feeling I get and only started getting since after xmas which is weird.....after reading some of the posts on here it seems quite common enough

Catari Jaguar

My brother always had a feeling he'd die young. He'd say he'd be in the 27 Club, then he said he wouldn't make it passed 30. Sure enough he just passed away from no determinable reason at age 30. I knew too, like I just *knew* from when I was young that his time with us was limited. He reminded me of Kurt Cobain or something. He didn't go to college, instead took off travelling the world for about 3 years in his mid twenties and lived & experienced more than all of us.

sporina

Catari Jaguar wrote: »

My brother always had a feeling he'd die young. He'd say he'd be in the 27 Club, then he said he wouldn't make it passed 30. Sure enough he just passed away from no determinable reason at age 30. I knew too, like I just *knew* from when I was young that his time with us was limited. He reminded me of Kurt Cobain or something. He didn't go to college, instead took off travelling the world for about 3 years in his mid twenties and lived & experienced more than all of us.

do you mind me asking how he died?

i am going traveling soon - getting some mixed reactions from people = and mixed feelings - i love the idea - and am i crazy? but i know i have to do it? but sometimes i think "am i suicidal?" but it has to be done.

is this me not giving a dam? ie - realising my immortality? i never thought of it like that before? what will be will be etc.. i just know that i have to do this

Saralee4

I remember a childhood friend of mine saying that he wouldn't live past 40 and he didn't but his lifestyle would explain that.

I suppose this thread shows though that people do have this thought and it doesn't happen. Many people have given examples here. In some cases it does. It's probably nothing to do with the premonition though and it seems the premonition is fairly common.

I do remember reading something somewhere however about certain diseases where this is a symptom prior to diagnosis.

Catari Jaguar

sporina wrote: »

do you mind me asking how he died?

i am going traveling soon - getting some mixed reactions from people = and mixed feelings - i love the idea - and am i crazy? but i know i have to do it? but sometimes i think "am i suicidal?" but it has to be done.

is this me not giving a dam? ie - realising my immortality? i never thought of it like that before? what will be will be etc.. i just know that i have to do this

I dunno. Tox screens were clear. Possibly just sudden adult death or a heart defect?

Going traveling, in my eyes, says you want to live and and want to cram all you can into your life. That you *want* to experience, if you were suicidal surely you wouldn't be bothered at all? I have gotten urge to travel lately and am taking career break for a year. I think there's more to life than some rat race, small town, 2.4 kids, cookie cutter existence.

sporina

Catari Jaguar wrote: »

I dunno. Tox screens were clear. Possibly just sudden adult death or a heart defect?

Going traveling, in my eyes, says you want to live and and want to cram all you can into your life. That you *want* to experience, if you were suicidal surely you wouldn't be bothered at all? I have gotten urge to travel lately and am taking career break for a year. I think there's more to life than some rat race, small town, 2.4 kids, cookie cutter existence.

ok you got me thinking

i am not suicidal

i just wanna travel - end of..

i sure as hell do not like the rat race or the rich race so off i go

The Diabolical Monocle

grumpynerd wrote: »

The human brain is notorious for confusing death instincts with change instincts.

Your mind is preparing you for a new stage in life for which the older version of you must change or fade out.

This.

Did your feelings of dying start around the time you set the wedding.
Past/present you see's his fading out.

ShowMeTheCash

Mental health issues are something we all can get bought's of though out our lives.

It is probably a good idea to perhaps talk to your GP about this.
It almost sounds like Anxiety the sense of impending doom is one of the main symptoms. The fact you seem OK with does not matter Anxiety has many forms and effects people differently.

Anxiety is something that a therapist could help you through but as I say, go talk to a GP sometimes there are physical reasons, low in B12, Iron or some other thing they might run some blood work just to be sure.

LegacyUser

God I'm totally freaked reading this.
Had two horrible experiences last summer and now I'm convinced I won't see this year out and it's horrific.
my husband thinks it's post traumatic and anxiety but I'm terrified it's instinct and even more so now!!!

ShowMeTheCash

alternatename wrote: »

God I'm totally freaked reading this.
Had two horrible experiences last summer and now I'm convinced I won't see this year out and it's horrific.
my husband thinks it's post traumatic and anxiety but I'm terrified it's instinct and even more so now!!!

Instinct? You think your body can tell the future?
I suffered a PTSD, was pretty intense for about 6 months but it faded.

The way my GP explained it was, the body and mind has a back of tricks when dealing with something essentially a panic stations mode in order to get ready for something.... Usually the idea is it keeps the blood pumping and the adrenaline going.

A PTSD and Anxiety is your body going into panic/battle mode in my case for no apparent reason, it can be unnerving and cause a lot of emotional and metal stress.

Some of the symptoms might be depersonalization, I think most people will get small bought's of this, where you feel removed from yourself or you are watching yourself, I think you can make this happen if you deprive yourself from sleep.

But another that seems to go hand in hand with this is a feeling something bad is going to happen specifically a feeling you are going to die.
This symptom is very common...

Perhaps talk to a GP sometimes the reassurance from your doctor is enough for you to rest easy and know this will pass.

Laoislion8383

Hi everyone just following on, after discussions with my partner and family I went to talk to somebody and they confirmed its that dreaded taboo condition called depression, they put it down to me being out of work for over a year which got me down I must say, he did not want to put me on medication and suggested I get more active so I have taking up volunteering and started walking, going out doing more with the kids. I have to say I feel much better, still have that feeling though but I am not letting it get me down, thanks for the advice folks, ohh and I have instructed my partner to update this should I go to meet my maker ðŸ˜ðŸ˜..... Cheers

dd972

I had a savage bout of this around the end of 1997, no idea where it came from or what the underlying causes could be, never had any serious depressions or required medication prior to that (and still don't).

What I do recall was how terrifying it felt and that if it didn't sort itself out then I had to get to a GP sharpish. It did pass around the spring of 98. Changes in the brain around the mid 20's age is the only thing I can think of it being.