BacanBan wrote: »
I thought I'd reach out for some support to try and get me back on track.
All my life, I've been a non drinker. I just didn't like the taste of alcohol and wasn't that bothered. However I've never let it stop me going out and having a nice time. The odd time people can be a bit forceful trying to get me to drink, or something bad can happen at the end of a night out that spoils the enjoyment a little but I usually just shrug it off.
However in the last few months, I'm finding it a little harder. I've been out in social situations where people have poured their drinks into mine, bought me drinks even though I said no, got messy drunk and started to harass other people and have even turned a bit violent towards myself and others. And I noticed I'm finding it a little harder to shrug these things off. It's making me want to go out less, and I can honestly can I've only been out twice since before Christmas.
My boyfriend is a drinker and he's started to question why I'm not joining them out as much as usual. And I've tried to explain to him that I'm finding it difficult lately but I'm not sure I even understand it well enough to explain it to others. It's just this panic and fear that something bad will happen or an uncomfortable feeling I get after a few hours out. I'm now in my mid twenties (25) and I just can't be bothered any more after the last few months. Have the rest of you ever experienced this? How do you manage to get over it and go back to enjoying nights out as before? Or is this just part of the territory with getting older that can affect both drinkers and non drinkers alike?