I have no one to talk to

RubyGlee

Feeling a bit on the crappy side today and I just realised I actually have no one I can actually talk about it to.
I mean I have friends who I meet up with loads and spend hours on the phone gossiping and going over there latest dramas but I could never actually bring myself to actually say out to them when they ask how I am, well actually Im ****, my life is falling apart, I think I might be going insane and sometimes my thoughts really scare me.
And that is making me feel really sad.
I spend most days waiting for the time when my daughter is asleep and I can a few glasses of wine.
I dont even know why Im posting this. just felt like getting it out there see if it makes me feel better

punisher5112

RubyGlee wrote: »

Feeling a bit on the crappy side today and I just realised I actually have no one I can actually talk about it to.
I mean I have friends who I meet up with loads and spend hours on the phone gossiping and going over there latest dramas but I could never actually bring myself to actually say out to them when they ask how I am, well actually Im ****, my life is falling apart, I think I might be going insane and sometimes my thoughts really scare me.
And that is making me feel really sad.
I spend most days waiting for the time when my daughter is asleep and I can a few glasses of wine.
I dont even know why Im posting this. just felt like getting it out there see if it makes me feel better

Wouldn't be human if you didn't feel down at some point.

Have you ever thought your friends may think the same way as in not tell how really feel.

I would recommend calling someone like Samaritans or even ask your gp.

Why not say it to one of your friends that you would be close to.

You never know it might be just you wanting to vent or get something off your chest you may actually be good after that.

Have you family or partner you could chat with and honestly don't feel stupid that is something that stops many talking and it should be better educated.

Hope you feel better and do chat with someone.

Sinead Mc1

RubyGlee wrote: »

Feeling a bit on the crappy side today and I just realised I actually have no one I can actually talk about it to.
I mean I have friends who I meet up with loads and spend hours on the phone gossiping and going over there latest dramas but I could never actually bring myself to actually say out to them when they ask how I am, well actually Im ****, my life is falling apart, I think I might be going insane and sometimes my thoughts really scare me.

Please talk to your friends. That's what they're there for. Friendship is a 2 way street which means listening and confiding. I had one particular friend who I knew was going through stuff but would never go into it. When we met I'd go on and on as usual. I'd press her about her stuff but never got anything. To the point where it got frustrating. I felt she was taking all my stuff in but never gave anything. I almost didn't trust her, in a weird way, over it. Friendship needs that from both sides to work. One day she broke down and I got to see what's really going on. Our friendship is so much stronger now.

RubyGlee

I dont even think Id know where to start, and then if I did start worry I wouldnt be able to stop and everything Ive been holding in would flood out and everyone would stop seeing me as they do now and realise what a mess I am. I did have one really good friend who I used to tell everything too but then she started seeing someone who didnt like me so we just drifted apart maybe I over burdened her too. urg I wish things could just be easier

punisher5112

Try let a bit out obviously totally understand you don't want to scare people off or seem mad. Which I am sure you are not just be truthful you never know they may be able to help even if that is just to listen they may have things they may like to say also.

Don't bottle it up.

Why not add some info without giving too much away if you know what I mean.

Someone here may be able to help.

Stavro Mueller

How about picking up the phone and giving The Samaritans a call? 116 123 http://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help-you/contact-us They're not just for people who are suicidal. You sound like you could do with talking to someone and maybe a stranger on the other end of the phone might help you a lot. You're bottling a lot of things up and that's not good for anyone.

myrns

Sorry you're feeling so sad Pick a friend and ask them if they have time to meet up for a chat and a coffee and let it out, it's so good to talk to someone! Or if it's a long-term thing, go to your doctor or another doctor if you're not comfortable with your regular one, besides that, try and have something small to look forward to for yourself and getting out and about like buying a treat, reading, talking a walk, something to take your mind off things for a bit. Hope tomorrow morning is brighter!

RubyGlee

Thanks for your replies and advice...just one of those nights you know, seem to be a lot of them lately. maybe I should see a doctor but I know il be fine tommoro
punisher ha I dont think anyone could help me really you know how it is, money, life, zero confidence just need to deal

bp

We all have down days and your friends may not be as clueless as you think. I am guessing you are a single parent (sorry for assuming incorrectly). I am pregnant with number two and honestly thought last night "why am I doing this again" and I have a great husband, family and friends to unburden too. I felt better once I said the words out loud and can now be excited for the new baby again.

Give the Samaritans a shout or bounce stuff off us here - you will feel better. People need to talk xxx

Stavro Mueller

RubyGlee wrote: »

Thanks for your replies and advice...just one of those nights you know, seem to be a lot of them lately. maybe I should see a doctor but I know I'll be fine tomorrow

Well see that's the thing. We all have bad nights from time to time but if they're happening a lot, it's time to do something about it. Please don't sweep it under the carpet.

What you wrote last night was strong stuff. Saying you think you're going insane, that your life's falling apart, that your thoughts are scaring you... Even if you don't go to talk to your GP or ring the Samaritans for now, try to cut back on the wine. Do you drink every night? There's nothing wrong with looking forward to a glass of wine as a treat but I'm getting the impression that you're using it as a crutch/a way to dull the pain.

Regarding your friends - why is it that you don't feel you can confide in them? Is it your fear of getting upset and crying in front of them? Or is it that you sense that they'd not be interested? If you ask most people how many good friends they have, they'll only have a handful of them. Some people don't even have that. There's no shame in that.

I hope you feel better today. But please, go get help.