miserable and fear there's no way out

LegacyUser

Hi
I posted here a few weeks ago, saying I was pretty low.
Now for some reason, no idea why, that horrible feeling I was afraid would, has taken hold of me.
I feel miserable all the time, though I'm still going around doing daly things or trying to anyway.
All I feel at the moment is anger and frustration.
I'm angry that I was born, angry that I have things I know tie me to this world. I wish they didn't as I really don't want to be here anymore, but know that this is not an option.
I'm sad two. Sad I feel this way, and sad because of the fact I feel how I do.
I don't really want to end things, I just want this feeling to stop.
I feel like I'm a waste of space, and though I know there are people who care about and love me, somehow it doesn't matter enough to make me feel ok.
I desperately want to feel ok, but don't see how I ever can. I have so many things I wanted at one point or another, and yet I still feel miserable. I really don't know how to resign myself to the fact that this is my life, that I'm destined never to make a difference, i just don't know how to be ok with it.

LegacyUser

Hi Venus

Sorry to hear you're going through a rough time, been there and it's hard. The fact you are reaching out is a positive thing. I would urge you to talk to a doctor or a professional who deals with mental health issues. You won't feel so alone or despondent if you do, plus it helps to shift the negative thoughts. If you feel desperate at any stage try ring the Samaritans or Aware, they're terrific and there's a lot to be said for talking to a non-judgemental third party, plus you don't feel defensive like you can with family or friends. Do something about these feelings, you deserve to feel better. I hope you do. There is light out there. Take care of yourself Venus. I wish you well.

Rubberchikken

hi
would you speak to your gp? you know you're feeling this way and you sound like you want to do something about it, which is great.
talking to the doctor is a great first step.

hopefully you'll feel a lot better very soon.

LegacyUser

Just hang on.



Try and be easy on yourself. Try not to think of any negative things from the past. Anything triggering can be felt much more when you are in a vulnerable state.

This tide will past.

The world has only one you.

Be yourself. You were meant to be different.

I try to tell myself this.

Please seek counseling call the Samaritans or Pieta house. GO see your GP xx

December2012

Go and talk to your GP. They can help you.