I'm constantly scared

LegacyUser

I keep feeing really scared, particularly at night time. At night time, every little sound, whether in my room or outside my house terrifies me. I'm afraid of dying and of my loved ones dying. I'm afraid to even write some of the things that scare me.

I keep thinking I have different illnesses or my room is haunted. I now have to sleep with the light on and with a teddy bear, and I'm 25 years of age. Last night I felt as though I was on the verge of a panic attack. I have a boyfriend and he's great, but he can't be here every night.

I don't know what to do. I got some valium off my mam but I don't think thats the best idea as I can see myself forming a dependence. I've always been a bit of a nervous person and have struggled with depression, but other than that I've been a normal, outgoing girl.

This is getting worse though, and I'm even afraid to Google it for fear of the results. I wish I knew what was wrong with me or what I should do.

dudara

OP - Firstly, please do not take prescription medicine that has not been prescribed for you.

Secondly, I really feel that you to talk to some professionals, so I'd suggest starting with your GP.

jopax

Agree with dudara, just go and see your gp.
You dont need to be going through this, your gp will be able to help you.
Don't leave this go untreated or it might get worse. The sooner you get help the better and try not too worry you are certainly not alone.

Rubberchikken

I know what it's like to feel uncomfortable when in your own at night. Every sound takes on new meaning.

Talk to your gp.
Take care

LegacyUser

You aren't the only one who feels insecure at night. When I am on my own in the house overnight the only way I can sleep is if I had the phone by my bed and I had completed the very arduous task of pushing a chest of drawers against my bedroom door.

Is there anything you can do to make yourself feel better? Like fitting smoke alarms around the house, getting better locks for the doors, securing the property a bit better?

Is there any incident that has happened that has made you feel like the house is insecure or that you are under threat?

LegacyUser

Thank you all for your replies, I considered going to the GP but to be honest I'm even afraid to do that.

amazi wrote: »

You aren't the only one who feels insecure at night. When I am on my own in the house overnight the only way I can sleep is if I had the phone by my bed and I had completed the very arduous task of pushing a chest of drawers against my bedroom door.

Is there anything you can do to make yourself feel better? Like fitting smoke alarms around the house, getting better locks for the doors, securing the property a bit better?

Is there any incident that has happened that has made you feel like the house is insecure or that you are under threat?

There have been robberies around the area recently which have made me more anxious but its not just feeling the house is under threat, I convinced myself I had cancer with no real evidence a while back and made myself physically sick with worry. I went to the doctor who said I was fine but I still didn't believe them. Every pain I get I think I must be dying, I have my boyfriend worm out. I sound crazy I know, but it's awful to have to live like this. I should probably go to the GP but I'm nervous of the diagnosis.

Thank you for all your replies, I really appreciate it.

Tokyo

OP, it really does sound like you need to see your GP or other professional about this before it spirals even further down this path. Have you considered asking a friend or family member to accompany you for moral support?

LegacyUser

Night222 wrote: »

Thank you all for your replies, I considered going to the GP but to be honest I'm even afraid to do that.



There have been robberies around the area recently which have made me more anxious but its not just feeling the house is under threat, I convinced myself I had cancer with no real evidence a while back and made myself physically sick with worry. I went to the doctor who said I was fine but I still didn't believe them. Every pain I get I think I must be dying, I have my boyfriend worm out. I sound crazy I know, but it's awful to have to live like this. I should probably go to the GP but I'm nervous of the diagnosis.

Thank you for all your replies, I really appreciate it.

No we don't think you're 'mad' we just think you need a bit of help which most of us need at one time or other in this life.

The good thing is you know you need help, you have that awareness and you can do something positive by going to your g.p and getting the ball rolling on this issue. A diagnosis isn't supposed to be damning it's hopefully going to be the start of healing.

There is probably something deep underlying these fears and it's worth exploring what that is. Please visit your g.p.