Always Assuming the Worst Healthwise

LegacyUser

Whenever anything is wrong with me, I always assume it's the worst (and then say about 50 prayers to God that I'm wrong). I had a headache and after about five minutes I was thinking about all the things I've never accomplished in life and getting genuinely teary-eyed, because I thought that I might have a tumor (touch wood a billion times that I don't).

I've always been like this. When I get a paper cut, I don't assume that I'm going to die then, because it's just a regular paper cut that I accidentally gave myself. But if I get a pain in my chest for instance (usually because I'm wearing the wrong bra and sitting uncomfortably or indigestion or whatever), although I know it's unlikely, I get afraid that it's an angina (I know of the symptoms for a heart attack). I completely freak out and wonder whether to go to the GP - which I can't afford - or to A&E - which I definitely can't afford - before realising that I'm too poor to get checked over and I get afraid that I'm dying but will not be diagnosed until it's too late.

I don't usually go to Google to search what my symptoms could be. It leads to being in floods of tears as I think about all of my projects I want to finish never being completed, reminding myself that I've never been in love and that I'll never have a happy family like I dreamed of if I'm right. I can't deal with that. Plus my head hurts when I cry too much, which makes me feel worse when I'm sick.

This always just leads to me crying about the fragility of life and while it motivates me to work harder and faster, I still know that I can't accomplish everything I've dreamed in the next five or even ten years, which freaks me out when I get afraid that I'm going to die.

I thought that maybe I'm a hypochondriac, but I'm not sure. I know you guys can't give medical advice, and I don't want any. Is there something I should/can do to stop assuming the worst?

Merkin

This is a psychological issue so you would be best to go to your GP and ask for a referral to a certified therapist who would be able to address this issue with you.

Rubberchikken

You're wise to avoid googling things, never helps.
Instead, try to see your gp. A chat with them would be a great start.

Set yourself a couple of small goals and see what you can accomplish. Little steps to start with.

Best of luck

vixdname

ScaredImDyingAllTheTime wrote: »

Whenever anything is wrong with me, I always assume it's the worst (and then say about 50 prayers to God that I'm wrong). I had a headache and after about five minutes I was thinking about all the things I've never accomplished in life and getting genuinely teary-eyed, because I thought that I might have a tumor (touch wood a billion times that I don't).

I've always been like this. When I get a paper cut, I don't assume that I'm going to die then, because it's just a regular paper cut that I accidentally gave myself. But if I get a pain in my chest for instance (usually because I'm wearing the wrong bra and sitting uncomfortably or indigestion or whatever), although I know it's unlikely, I get afraid that it's an angina (I know of the symptoms for a heart attack). I completely freak out and wonder whether to go to the GP - which I can't afford - or to A&E - which I definitely can't afford - before realising that I'm too poor to get checked over and I get afraid that I'm dying but will not be diagnosed until it's too late.

I don't usually go to Google to search what my symptoms could be. It leads to being in floods of tears as I think about all of my projects I want to finish never being completed, reminding myself that I've never been in love and that I'll never have a happy family like I dreamed of if I'm right. I can't deal with that. Plus my head hurts when I cry too much, which makes me feel worse when I'm sick.

This always just leads to me crying about the fragility of life and while it motivates me to work harder and faster, I still know that I can't accomplish everything I've dreamed in the next five or even ten years, which freaks me out when I get afraid that I'm going to die.

I thought that maybe I'm a hypochondriac, but I'm not sure. I know you guys can't give medical advice, and I don't want any. Is there something I should/can do to stop assuming the worst?

You could join this forum and see how much your healthy anxiety matchs that of so many other people:

http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/articles/healthanxiety/

Lux23

I would go to your GP and tell them about these issues, worrying about your health is normal but extremes like this are probably unusual.