I killed a fish today in anger.

LegacyUser

I picked it out of the tank. Threw it onto the ground and kicked it across the room.
It died straight away.
Nobody saw me
I feel terrible, I was so angry about something else and just completely lost control. I wake up angry these days and spend most of the morning in work having tantrums in private where no one can see me.
I cut my hand the other day stabbing a piece of timber with a knife and I'm worried I broke my hand punching a steel wall.
Where I'm living and working is making me angry but I feel trapped and can't leave. I'm looking for a way out but I don't think it will come quick enough.

I really don't know what else to say, I just wanted to put it out into the world to help make me feel less guilty. I normally wouldn't hurt a fly.

Taltos

OP please go talk to your GP immediately.
Uncontrollable anger and the way you are controlling it are something you definitely need help with, this is something only a professional can help you with and your GP will give you the appropriate recommendation.

As to not normally hurting a fly, you now this is incorrect, so act on it before its too late and you either kill something else or you hurt yourself worse than you already have or worst case you hurt someone else.

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