I'm depressed.

LegacyUser

Well I think I need some advise.

You wouldn't guess any of this from me, I tend to hide this well.

I'm a quiet individual living in a rural area. I was working until August on a temporary contract. I finished my BSc and graduated there in august. I got accepted to a MSc which runs two days a week and I commute up and down. Otherwise, I'm at home. I'm feeling the pinch paying fees/petrol for commuting to college and I'm running out of money. I go to the lectures and as soon as they finish, I'm away home again as I don't exactly live any place near. Commute takes more than 2 hours each way. I'm struggling to pick up work.

So where is the problem? I'm actually lonely. I may be quiet, but I get great pleasure from being around friends and even being contacted by them. But there is the problem, I've a limited social circle and well when that doesn't happen, it's actually depressing. My birthday went by there recently, and only my aunt bothered to text me. Not exactly a nice feeling.

When I do manage to get out it's great, I'm happy briefly but as soon as I'm alone it's back, that entire feeling of anticlimax; I'm bloody well alone again. Comes to the point where I avoid going out just not get down again if that makes any sense (it actually doesn't when you think about it rationally but still).

The summer was okay, kept telling myself I'd meet people in september, but that came and went and now it's novemeber and it's just the same old, same old. An entire feeling of sheer and utter apathy.

I was in a relationship for about two years until last year when it crumbled and decided to call it quits, probably a good idea.

I met a girl recently and it was going fantastically well until it just stopped. The texts/fb messages stopped and then no reply. I rang twice and left voicemails; still no reply. I guess that's that. Bit of a kick in the teeth and not really helping the situation.

I could do with some advice, I can rationally think about this, and see it's not helping myself but I just can't help it. It's impacting on my college where I'm missing deadlines, causing rows at home and possibly loosing out on friends. I'm a bit lost.

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Have you ever heard the expression 'This too shall pass' ? Every phase of our lives, both good and bad, is transitory. What I'm trying to say is that the phase you're in right now - with a long commute, no part time job, living at home with your parents - is a temporary phase. It won't last forever.

The fact that you were in a longterm relationship and that you've gone out with someone else since then goes to show you're attractive to the opposite sex and capable of long term relationships, just neither of those 2 was the right one. But if you pulled them, you can pull more :-) Take advantage of any social situation that you do get invited to through college, family etc. Even if you have to drag yourself to it! And believe me when i say that this phase of your life is just a temporary blip.....it will get better! I know you feel down, but this is perfectly understandable, it's as a result of your current circumstances, which will change - just get that masters and it will set you up for the rest of your life. Would you consider Australia when the masters is over? The sunshine does wonders for the mood :-) and its really easy to meet other like minded people and make friends over there. Chin up!