ashamed of past online behaviour

glass_onion

i am sorry if this seems trivial to other issues. i used to be an active poster on this site.i came across an posts by me on some old closed accounts (i may add i left them by myself back then),and some of them filled me with shame and disgust.

In fairness,the mods here have been brilliant and had removed some posts by request. I have a history of depression and have been recently getting treatment for it. My mindset back then was not to care what anyone else or thought.i just ranted and raved about everything.

I know there are probably members out there not have a care in the world in what the post.i know social media is popular now and there are perhaps millions of posts and posters.

I am a different person now than i as back then.I have grown up.I think now before i post. Sometimes i still beat myself up over this at times. Has anyone any advice?.

thegreatgonzo

Everyone has done something when they were younger that they wished they hadn't. You should give yourself credit for growing and maturing as a person and let your past mistakes go. It's not like you killed anyone is it?

December2012

Forgive yourself and let go.

You're not like that any more so don't be hampered by your guilt.

everybody has done stuff, online or in real life that they regret.

TwoGallants

Excessive guilt and rumination is one of the hallmark signs of depression (something which you say you have). This might be a silly thing to say to a depressive personality, but let it go! Otherwise it will just drive you crazy. Peace.

Frank Black

Why would you care?
Does anyone know who you are in real life based on your past username?

The online you is not the same as the real you - surely that's the whole point of being on an anonymous messaging forum, the ability to say the kind of things you can't really say offline?

I honestly wouldn't worry about it.

Nobody (bar maybe the admins, who can probably check up on these things if needed) knows what your other usernames are. Nobody knows who you are. Just focus on getting yourself to a better place. Have a fresh start. Don't sink back into your old ways.

CdeC

Stop hanging on to things OP.

Let these things go and do not dwell on them.

Focus on yourself in the here and now.

"We become what we want to be by consistently being what we want to become each day"

glass_onion

ok.time to let go and move on.people and opinions change over time.mine have. thanks all for advice. thread can be locked .

wellboytoo

I agree with most of the above. You are the only one has an issue with your past behaviour as you call it, which may be a piece of nothing in itself.
I live my life by box's in my head I take the contents out if I can solve it I do if not back in the box lock the lid and move on.
Learn some little trick like this and move on 2ith your life stop over analysing.
Best of luck.