My depression/moods.

CharleyCos

Today is a bad day for me. I don't know what brought it on, apart from maybe thinking about an ex lover, but when you have accepted that they don't want you in their life anymore, why worry about them? Unless you loved/love them, which I do, but nothing can be done about it.
She has a personality disorder, but you can't help who you fall in love with. The last time we met, I told her I loved her but she never believes me, she's never interested in hearing it. It would be nice to move on, but my experience with her has put me off having relationships anymore.
I just don't have great trust issues, I don't want to commit to somebody and for them to treat me like some object again, some fool to just use to help them with their own issues, to fill a void.
Staying single makes me a happier person, besides as a sufferer of depression, I don't think I'd make a girlfriend happy and would bring her mood down with me. I'd hate to think of having kids, and be that depressed dad who won't give his kids a true family setting, with love and trust, I just don't feel able to offer that, and that depresses me so much too.
Knowing that I'll never have a family is not nice, I can't take the risk of having one.
All I miss is someone beside me at night to share an emotional connection with, to love and adore. Anyway I'm sure my mood will improve later, it usually does.

JuliusCaesar

Not suited to this forum. JC

Big Bag of Chips

Hi CharleyCos, your post might be better suited here in PI. But can you clarify, are you looking for advice from people on how to deal with how you are feeling now, or are you just looking to let off some steam?

Personal Issues is an advice forum, so if you feel you would like to hear the advice posters will offer, I will keep your thread open here.

Otherwise I'll lock it.

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