Lost my motivation already, advice please?

afterglow

Hi everyone

I am posting this because for the past week or so, I have not been able to stop thinking it and it is driving me crazy. I don't know whether it's advice or a kick up the vertual bum that I need so here I go with my story.

I have been volunteering with an organisation for years, doing bits of training. Mostly around mobile phones, and mostly iphones. I was not qualified at this stage, but would get the odd request and help out because it was what I wanted to make my career out of as I love training people.
Now, this year then, I decided to get proactive, and go off and get a training qualification. This I got, and with very good grades in the final assignment two so I was chuffed with that.
After a bit of tooing and froing then, I eventually got a place on a CE scheme, and have been working on this, at the organisation for just over a month now. The requests are coming in slowly but surely etc.
There are 2 problems as I see them though, and this is where I need advice.
1. The organisation has never taken on someone from a CE scheme and the wider organisation doesn't really see us as imployees as such. This really makes me angry. I know I only work on a part time basis but believe me, if I had my choice this would not be the case.
2. There are no jobs in what I'm doing in the organisation coming up at all any time in the near future. I wasn't really told that prospects looked so bleak for me before I entered into the scheme, and to be honest, had they been I'm not sure I would have been so crazy to get started.
Now every morning I lie in bed thinking what's the point of going in, working hard etc for nothing at the end of it all?
I just feel like it's kind of pointless and that I'm wasting my time.
I'm so sad and fed up of having no money and living week to week etc.
Believe me before anyone says anything, I know that I am not the only one, it is just that it's that little bit harder when you have a disability to get employers to give you a chance...
I am out of school nearly 10 years now, and although I do have some FETAC qualifications, I have no degree or anything.
I just don't know how for the next year I am supposed to motivate myself to get up, go in and work hard, when at the back of my mind I am thinking it's a waste of time and will lead to nothing.
I am already considering going back to study at university next year, and all I have gotten when I mentioned this was that I won't stick it. I have dropped out of college before, but I truly believe that I just had not found what I was interested in before, and the good grade in the course I just completed has given me a bit of self belief.

Any advice on my current situation appreciated, and sorry for the length of the post and thanks for reading.